There are things… and there are people.
Some I know.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIgf877lFr
Some I love.
And somehow, the ones I love… they never stay.
I never asked for much.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ttwZKFvOh
Not love. Not promises.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlWrTqTa7s
Just her presence.
But saying goodbye—typing it even—is far easier than living with it.
Because I cared. Deeply.
And now, I don’t know how to remember life before her.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOL4jZwfVr
Before the shared evenings, the bus stops, the laughter, the silences.
Still, I knew I had to let go.
Not for me.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcnqToLVhv
For her.
Because if me walking away gives her peace, then I’ll walk.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcaO9wwf88
Even if it means leaving behind the part of myself I found in her.
But I didn’t want it to end quietly.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFgJSG5vX9w
I wanted it to hurt, to leave a mark—because that’s what she meant.
And so, I became the villain in my own story.
I decided: if she needs a reason to forget me, I’ll give her one.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKqnz0CI4j
A clean break. A wound that heals with time, not confusion.
So I dug out what I buried long ago—23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3bHCKN6yR
The confession.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL66BpOMdCV
The one I promised I’d never say.
I poured everything into a message—everything I was, everything we were, and everything I wanted her to be.
And one night, between externals, I confessed.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnIGvH81JS
Over WhatsApp.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtUgyHyWv0I
No buildup. Just heart.
I told her the truth she never asked for.
And I knew the answer.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2u1UXg0Ama
Of course I did.
It would be a no—23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJr2GSaM2LE
In the present,23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIGNeAU3in
In the past,23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGb3mje7Lc3
And in any faraway future I could imagine.
But she replied:
“I need some time.”
And I said I would wait.
Not because I believed the answer would change—23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPrVWSG3fV
But because that’s what confessions are for.
To end things the way they should’ve never begun.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcT9Zy2tLJX
She asked that if I knew what her answer would be.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNwZCTekoE
I replied 49/51.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOUfBdEcMM
Knowing damn well that it was 100% a No.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAe0Yywf5lW
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but something deep inside replied with a 49% a Yes.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pI0MakPt6
even it couldn't say Yes a 50%.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDp5VFqSan
cause It and I knew from a long time.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYkETckqLk
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The externals started.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFAR62pnpG
The rush came back flying.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnO0VPzGyA
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While I was in a war with thoughts.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxai86fIp0
And as the days went on.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WgPyTVYY7
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One random night, while I waited in silence,23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxv2BYOPvGo
The universe had one more tragedy to give.
Outside my home, I sat alone under the sky—my mind a war zone of logic and hope.
My mother stepped out for a walk, along with Potti—my dog, my companion—and her one and only pup.
The pup didn’t even have a name yet.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCIXSaXAR3
I was waiting for Seren to name her.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MuKRp4eUl
But life didn’t wait for names.
Suddenly, a pack of street dogs came rushing.
They attacked—vicious, fast, merciless.
Without thinking, I ran to them—bare hands, bare heart.
I tried.
God, I tried.
Screaming, pushing, shielding Potti and the pup.
But it wasn’t enough.
They bit me, tore into my arms and legs,23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxvRiMd9EA
while I wrapped myself around the ones I loved.
Six dogs.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgS2tX8oXs
No help.
Until my father and neighbors came rushing.
But by then—
It was too late.
In my arms, Potti lay still—23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEzNbDIRql
Her fur stained with blood, her neck torn.
The pup, her tiny body broken, missing a leg,23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgmdwNOT3P
barely breathing.
We rushed them to the nearest hospital.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4z2y2GhpC
Tears finally came after years of holding them back.
But hope was all I carried.
And hope was not enough.
They couldn’t save them.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6rBKLRS0M
No one could.
And I was left—23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRaxrAWJ9Om
Bloody.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzelUTNgOtb
Bitten.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ssnAwKj6d
Alone.
A boy with too many wounds—23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1vrrnhvFD
Some you could see.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KcxOCXehe
Most you couldn’t.
I didn’t know what to do.
So, that night, I messaged her.
“Hey, are you awake?”
There was silence in my house.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvz3kzE7mIf
And an even louder one inside me.
I had an exam the next morning.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yTRSSdrYN
An external.
But nothing felt more urgent than that question I couldn’t stop asking:
What matters more—23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6m8jAnpRBB
The present or the future?
Until that night, I never even thought about it.
But that night… I got my answer.
Both matter.
And yet, when forced to choose, we weigh them.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1KsPIxWpU
We try to balance what we feel and what we know.
The heart says stay.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtlKO3bsSa
The mind says go.
One believes.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsP6e1mAu7
One doubts.
One clings.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTP4ikwi69r
One lets go.
And so I waited for her reply.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFU7whHAmd
But it didn’t come.
Morning came instead.
Same bus.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXBI4sdm9q
Same college.
But I wasn't the same.
I wore a mask—like always.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4eHRoHgTf
Attended the exam.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOzgkxazcR
Laughed with friends.23Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFUUwDCPhK
Pretended.
Because that’s what Rudeus is for.
But who could’ve guessed?
That in the evening—
After everything had burned down—
The answer to my confession would finally arrive.
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