When Christian had dropped me off at my house, I was a little disappointed that he didn't stay over. With my mom at work, we'd have the house to ourselves for the afternoon. Even when she came home late, she wouldn't know anyone was here. She would just get a bottle of vodka from the cabinet, a glass, and her pack of cigarettes, and retreat to her room.497Please respect copyright.PENANAVd9InVnLM4
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The first thing I saw when I walked through the front door was an open bottle of wine on the table. That was her morning routine before heading off to work. Once I was out of her hair for the morning, she would drink until she felt buzzed, then get behind the wheel.497Please respect copyright.PENANAOMAGvfvQY5
497Please respect copyright.PENANApELSgx5Qm4
Awesome role model, huh?497Please respect copyright.PENANAZQ1W9sU1qQ
497Please respect copyright.PENANAZW6rRZyGqS
She used to be. I used to look up to her. I used to envy her. I wanted to want to be her. Then my dad left and she completely fell apart. She started drinking heavily, and on more than one occasion she would call me from God knew where to come and get her. I was fifteen at the time, wasn't able to drive, so I had to have our neighbor drive me.497Please respect copyright.PENANAT013g3hlT2
497Please respect copyright.PENANA33gLZFw4Jv
My mom was less than happy when I showed up with another person to pick her up. She actually started screaming at me in front of Mrs. Levine, yelling about how she called me to come and not some stranger. I reminded her that Mrs. Levine was a good friend of hers and had been for years.497Please respect copyright.PENANAbCWKMpqdSD
497Please respect copyright.PENANApaPZ1XCzo8
The yelling continued in the car, when we got into the house, and into my bedroom. I had finally had enough and shut the door in her face, making sure to lock it. Then I turned off the light and sat in the dark for what seemed like hours.497Please respect copyright.PENANAKTaUwcQ54L
497Please respect copyright.PENANAnlzV3GVzwF
I was brought back to the present by the ringing of my phone. I answered it quickly.497Please respect copyright.PENANA7eQwHIm8NI
497Please respect copyright.PENANAjCiiT3BwxH
"Hello?"497Please respect copyright.PENANAaypqY0iOxy
497Please respect copyright.PENANAC9Gi7dHdfH
"Kendall? It's Dallas Alder. How are you?"497Please respect copyright.PENANAEIhxXAgYa6
497Please respect copyright.PENANAasd5a7V5ig
"Hi," I said, picking up the bottle and placing it back in the cabinet. I leaned against the counter, listening to the shuffle of papers on the other end of the line. "I'm okay. How are you? I'm sorry if the session freaked you out."497Please respect copyright.PENANAG63YdPqUVW
497Please respect copyright.PENANAGDitVb82EH
"I'm a Psychiatrist, it's my job to keep calm under any circumstance."497Please respect copyright.PENANAt7kui2Cw1i
497Please respect copyright.PENANAeSmAQOYDgh
"You've had worse cases than me?" I heard myself say.497Please respect copyright.PENANAxogXRhVGNv
497Please respect copyright.PENANAHZLDrHtdkM
"I've had worse patients than you," she said softly. "Now, about next week. What time would you like to come by?"497Please respect copyright.PENANA11Je0uuZCX
497Please respect copyright.PENANABB3gFy2ZEl
I didn't know. I wasn't even thinking about that. I wasn't even sure what was in store for me for the rest of the week. I just knew that the dreams were going to get worse. I hesitated before answering.497Please respect copyright.PENANAQE5Gdkf7Qd
497Please respect copyright.PENANAjsqNBQhl1E
"I don't know," I said, "let me check the calendar."497Please respect copyright.PENANAyu6VSc0pyA
497Please respect copyright.PENANAKaUsqIOXWm
While I cradled the phone on my shoulder, something I hated doing because it didn't work well, I rummaged through the junk drawer that was beside the fridge. I yanked it out, figuring that would take less time, and watched every piece of crap we'd ever collected fall to the floor.497Please respect copyright.PENANAjjS97HIkn5
497Please respect copyright.PENANAZZmhs1DNdh
"Can you hold on?" I asked.497Please respect copyright.PENANAnHJ8EIYHYP
497Please respect copyright.PENANAfAHx4GEMpY
I dropped to my hands and knees and started to clean up. Before I stood up, having gotten everything back in order, I noticed something white under the oven. Curiously I crawled toward it and picked it up. It was a folded piece of paper. I opened it and had to hold something to keep steady. It was only a few words, but they were enough to shake my entire foundation.497Please respect copyright.PENANAdIhXprSF4x
497Please respect copyright.PENANA11QWqieXmI
Your son has been adopted. It's taken care of like I promised it would be. Now you don't have to see us anymore. My daughter will never know you. Goodbye.497Please respect copyright.PENANAIxVWgDmnXp
497Please respect copyright.PENANA0cYuL2rpGv
The first thing I saw when I walked through the front door was an open bottle of wine on the table. That was her morning routine before heading off to work. Once I was out of her hair for the morning, she would drink until she felt buzzed, then get behind the wheel.497Please respect copyright.PENANAOMAGvfvQY5
497Please respect copyright.PENANApELSgx5Qm4
Awesome role model, huh?497Please respect copyright.PENANAZQ1W9sU1qQ
497Please respect copyright.PENANAZW6rRZyGqS
She used to be. I used to look up to her. I used to envy her. I wanted to want to be her. Then my dad left and she completely fell apart. She started drinking heavily, and on more than one occasion she would call me from God knew where to come and get her. I was fifteen at the time, wasn't able to drive, so I had to have our neighbor drive me.497Please respect copyright.PENANAT013g3hlT2
497Please respect copyright.PENANA33gLZFw4Jv
My mom was less than happy when I showed up with another person to pick her up. She actually started screaming at me in front of Mrs. Levine, yelling about how she called me to come and not some stranger. I reminded her that Mrs. Levine was a good friend of hers and had been for years.497Please respect copyright.PENANAbCWKMpqdSD
497Please respect copyright.PENANApaPZ1XCzo8
The yelling continued in the car, when we got into the house, and into my bedroom. I had finally had enough and shut the door in her face, making sure to lock it. Then I turned off the light and sat in the dark for what seemed like hours.497Please respect copyright.PENANAKTaUwcQ54L
497Please respect copyright.PENANAnlzV3GVzwF
I was brought back to the present by the ringing of my phone. I answered it quickly.497Please respect copyright.PENANA7eQwHIm8NI
497Please respect copyright.PENANAjCiiT3BwxH
"Hello?"497Please respect copyright.PENANAaypqY0iOxy
497Please respect copyright.PENANAC9Gi7dHdfH
"Kendall? It's Dallas Alder. How are you?"497Please respect copyright.PENANAEIhxXAgYa6
497Please respect copyright.PENANAasd5a7V5ig
"Hi," I said, picking up the bottle and placing it back in the cabinet. I leaned against the counter, listening to the shuffle of papers on the other end of the line. "I'm okay. How are you? I'm sorry if the session freaked you out."497Please respect copyright.PENANAG63YdPqUVW
497Please respect copyright.PENANAGDitVb82EH
"I'm a Psychiatrist, it's my job to keep calm under any circumstance."497Please respect copyright.PENANAt7kui2Cw1i
497Please respect copyright.PENANAeSmAQOYDgh
"You've had worse cases than me?" I heard myself say.497Please respect copyright.PENANAxogXRhVGNv
497Please respect copyright.PENANAHZLDrHtdkM
"I've had worse patients than you," she said softly. "Now, about next week. What time would you like to come by?"497Please respect copyright.PENANA11Je0uuZCX
497Please respect copyright.PENANABB3gFy2ZEl
I didn't know. I wasn't even thinking about that. I wasn't even sure what was in store for me for the rest of the week. I just knew that the dreams were going to get worse. I hesitated before answering.497Please respect copyright.PENANAQE5Gdkf7Qd
497Please respect copyright.PENANAjsqNBQhl1E
"I don't know," I said, "let me check the calendar."497Please respect copyright.PENANAyu6VSc0pyA
497Please respect copyright.PENANAKaUsqIOXWm
While I cradled the phone on my shoulder, something I hated doing because it didn't work well, I rummaged through the junk drawer that was beside the fridge. I yanked it out, figuring that would take less time, and watched every piece of crap we'd ever collected fall to the floor.497Please respect copyright.PENANAjjS97HIkn5
497Please respect copyright.PENANAZZmhs1DNdh
"Can you hold on?" I asked.497Please respect copyright.PENANAnHJ8EIYHYP
497Please respect copyright.PENANAfAHx4GEMpY
I dropped to my hands and knees and started to clean up. Before I stood up, having gotten everything back in order, I noticed something white under the oven. Curiously I crawled toward it and picked it up. It was a folded piece of paper. I opened it and had to hold something to keep steady. It was only a few words, but they were enough to shake my entire foundation.497Please respect copyright.PENANAdIhXprSF4x
497Please respect copyright.PENANA11QWqieXmI
Your son has been adopted. It's taken care of like I promised it would be. Now you don't have to see us anymore. My daughter will never know you. Goodbye.497Please respect copyright.PENANAIxVWgDmnXp