After the visit to the cemetery, I decided I wanted to go home and talk to my mom about the letter I found. I hadn't talked to anyone about it and I wanted to discuss it with her before my session with Dr. Alder tomorrow. I wonder if she would tell me to find him, or stay here and just wonder what could have been.328Please respect copyright.PENANAQbOgsfCs4u
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I wasn't even sure what I wanted to do. In all honesty, I hadn't thought about the letter for awhile. It's not that I didn't want to, it's just that to me, there were more pressing matters at hand. Like the nightmares. Something told me they were just going to keep getting worse. And what if I had a dream about killing Jared, and then he's found dead?328Please respect copyright.PENANAvcqK64nB9z
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Even though I'm not actually the one doing these things, it's terrifying to know that someone is. I feel like whoever it is, is trying to get to me, because they're murdering the people around me. First John, then Cassie. Who was next? That was the hardest thing to thing about. About who out of the people around me would be savagely killed, either shot, stabbed, or whatever else the killer chose to do to them.328Please respect copyright.PENANAvwe04g7rBt
328Please respect copyright.PENANAFBfXk8Lh5L
These were the things I thought about as Jude drove me to my house. We didn't talk about Abbie, though I was curious, and we didn't talk about the kiss that never should have happened. We didn't talk about anything he turned down my road. Then he turned to me, his eyes serious.328Please respect copyright.PENANAhRTd7gFrI1
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"Kendall." His voice was urgent now. "I have to tell you something."328Please respect copyright.PENANAPFJ9NZGSAz
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I looked at him. "If it's about the kiss, don't worry about it. I know it was wrong, that I shouldn't have done it. I have a boyfriend."328Please respect copyright.PENANAPkBgkwE4lD
328Please respect copyright.PENANAQX5wSDi1YW
Jude scoffed. "Right. A boyfriend who just pushes you away and leaves you standing alone in an empty school parking lot. Tell me, have you heard from him since then?"328Please respect copyright.PENANAUbJrLvbHwE
328Please respect copyright.PENANA2p6AWLp0IQ
"Well no."328Please respect copyright.PENANAstTEkTwSgQ
328Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5zK4R5RPr
"Exactly. But that isn't what I wanted to talk about."328Please respect copyright.PENANAItOAdsUj14
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"Can it wait?" I asked as we pulled closer to my house. I opened the door and looked back at him.328Please respect copyright.PENANAth7UXyFs6W
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"No," he said, shaking his head. He reached over and cupped my cheek. "It wasn't supposed to be like this," he murmured, more to himself than me. "It was just fucking business, I was not supposed to get attached."328Please respect copyright.PENANAYeZhjcYA28
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I blinked, removed his hand, and said, "What's going on?"328Please respect copyright.PENANAu8NVbIVXMZ
328Please respect copyright.PENANAs16XOsUbgA
"Do you think it was by luck that I began talking to you? I wish it was. I wish I wasn't in this shitty situation, but I am, and I'm about to make it worse."328Please respect copyright.PENANAsbnRQSQOff
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"What are you talking about?"328Please respect copyright.PENANApyAHD9tugn
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The fact that he couldn't even look at me hurt. Slowly, I grasped his hand and held it tightly.328Please respect copyright.PENANAq2QJQFnxom
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"You can tell me anything, you know. I'm not going to judge you."328Please respect copyright.PENANADuKKNR5XV1
328Please respect copyright.PENANARuh2rxDdFW
He looked at me and smiled. The smile was all wrong. It wasn't warm or caring, but like he knew whatever he had to tell me I wasn't going to like. That maybe I would hate it. Maybe I would hate him. I didn't think that last part was possible.328Please respect copyright.PENANA6OnwhnQIqJ
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"I was paid a lot of money to befriend you, Kendall. I was supposed to get information about you for someone. I don't even really know who the guy is, but anyway, I don't want to do it anymore. I care about you and I'm not willing to ruin what I have with you for a few bucks."328Please respect copyright.PENANAifAABdg57B
328Please respect copyright.PENANAsKu9UQth7M
I couldn't believe what he was telling me. I was so mad that I started to tremble. Every part of me wanted to hit him. When I spoke, my voice was chipped, bitter.328Please respect copyright.PENANAk0ci4PBvFN
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"How much money?"328Please respect copyright.PENANAYTCY9zwNZs
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"Excuse me?" Jude said. He stammered a little when he said it. He wasn't expecting that question.328Please respect copyright.PENANAhUsaSaZINy
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"How much money were you offered to put up a false friendship? How much was my agony worth to you?" I glared at him. "How fucking much?" I slammed my foot into the dashboard of his car, breaking the glove compartment open. Papers fluttered out and I heard him make a noise, then I looked down.328Please respect copyright.PENANAS4gJGLt6TN
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My face, all different angles and views, stared up at me.328Please respect copyright.PENANAYx1K1rG9RT
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I wasn't even sure what I wanted to do. In all honesty, I hadn't thought about the letter for awhile. It's not that I didn't want to, it's just that to me, there were more pressing matters at hand. Like the nightmares. Something told me they were just going to keep getting worse. And what if I had a dream about killing Jared, and then he's found dead?328Please respect copyright.PENANAvcqK64nB9z
328Please respect copyright.PENANARjWWz2eueB
Even though I'm not actually the one doing these things, it's terrifying to know that someone is. I feel like whoever it is, is trying to get to me, because they're murdering the people around me. First John, then Cassie. Who was next? That was the hardest thing to thing about. About who out of the people around me would be savagely killed, either shot, stabbed, or whatever else the killer chose to do to them.328Please respect copyright.PENANAvwe04g7rBt
328Please respect copyright.PENANAFBfXk8Lh5L
These were the things I thought about as Jude drove me to my house. We didn't talk about Abbie, though I was curious, and we didn't talk about the kiss that never should have happened. We didn't talk about anything he turned down my road. Then he turned to me, his eyes serious.328Please respect copyright.PENANAhRTd7gFrI1
328Please respect copyright.PENANAlvebygpGcM
"Kendall." His voice was urgent now. "I have to tell you something."328Please respect copyright.PENANAPFJ9NZGSAz
328Please respect copyright.PENANA40MGYH5i36
I looked at him. "If it's about the kiss, don't worry about it. I know it was wrong, that I shouldn't have done it. I have a boyfriend."328Please respect copyright.PENANAPkBgkwE4lD
328Please respect copyright.PENANAQX5wSDi1YW
Jude scoffed. "Right. A boyfriend who just pushes you away and leaves you standing alone in an empty school parking lot. Tell me, have you heard from him since then?"328Please respect copyright.PENANAUbJrLvbHwE
328Please respect copyright.PENANA2p6AWLp0IQ
"Well no."328Please respect copyright.PENANAstTEkTwSgQ
328Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5zK4R5RPr
"Exactly. But that isn't what I wanted to talk about."328Please respect copyright.PENANAItOAdsUj14
328Please respect copyright.PENANAFEjf1XzuOh
"Can it wait?" I asked as we pulled closer to my house. I opened the door and looked back at him.328Please respect copyright.PENANAth7UXyFs6W
328Please respect copyright.PENANAdrLg4hZjsv
"No," he said, shaking his head. He reached over and cupped my cheek. "It wasn't supposed to be like this," he murmured, more to himself than me. "It was just fucking business, I was not supposed to get attached."328Please respect copyright.PENANAYeZhjcYA28
328Please respect copyright.PENANA4KE6ZbszeC
I blinked, removed his hand, and said, "What's going on?"328Please respect copyright.PENANAu8NVbIVXMZ
328Please respect copyright.PENANAs16XOsUbgA
"Do you think it was by luck that I began talking to you? I wish it was. I wish I wasn't in this shitty situation, but I am, and I'm about to make it worse."328Please respect copyright.PENANAsbnRQSQOff
328Please respect copyright.PENANA1wEaCCT9qG
"What are you talking about?"328Please respect copyright.PENANApyAHD9tugn
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The fact that he couldn't even look at me hurt. Slowly, I grasped his hand and held it tightly.328Please respect copyright.PENANAq2QJQFnxom
328Please respect copyright.PENANAaU0khW9EMp
"You can tell me anything, you know. I'm not going to judge you."328Please respect copyright.PENANADuKKNR5XV1
328Please respect copyright.PENANARuh2rxDdFW
He looked at me and smiled. The smile was all wrong. It wasn't warm or caring, but like he knew whatever he had to tell me I wasn't going to like. That maybe I would hate it. Maybe I would hate him. I didn't think that last part was possible.328Please respect copyright.PENANA6OnwhnQIqJ
328Please respect copyright.PENANAtJ7sAfffCk
"I was paid a lot of money to befriend you, Kendall. I was supposed to get information about you for someone. I don't even really know who the guy is, but anyway, I don't want to do it anymore. I care about you and I'm not willing to ruin what I have with you for a few bucks."328Please respect copyright.PENANAifAABdg57B
328Please respect copyright.PENANAsKu9UQth7M
I couldn't believe what he was telling me. I was so mad that I started to tremble. Every part of me wanted to hit him. When I spoke, my voice was chipped, bitter.328Please respect copyright.PENANAk0ci4PBvFN
328Please respect copyright.PENANAoyYlLWexDr
"How much money?"328Please respect copyright.PENANAYTCY9zwNZs
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"Excuse me?" Jude said. He stammered a little when he said it. He wasn't expecting that question.328Please respect copyright.PENANAhUsaSaZINy
328Please respect copyright.PENANAYuWIOtfZI2
"How much money were you offered to put up a false friendship? How much was my agony worth to you?" I glared at him. "How fucking much?" I slammed my foot into the dashboard of his car, breaking the glove compartment open. Papers fluttered out and I heard him make a noise, then I looked down.328Please respect copyright.PENANAS4gJGLt6TN
328Please respect copyright.PENANAgvMTQLOqI2
My face, all different angles and views, stared up at me.328Please respect copyright.PENANAYx1K1rG9RT