After the visit to the cemetery, I decided I wanted to go home and talk to my mom about the letter I found. I hadn't talked to anyone about it and I wanted to discuss it with her before my session with Dr. Alder tomorrow. I wonder if she would tell me to find him, or stay here and just wonder what could have been.464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXC6hOc7Mgp
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I wasn't even sure what I wanted to do. In all honesty, I hadn't thought about the letter for awhile. It's not that I didn't want to, it's just that to me, there were more pressing matters at hand. Like the nightmares. Something told me they were just going to keep getting worse. And what if I had a dream about killing Jared, and then he's found dead?464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgJt0GODPo
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Even though I'm not actually the one doing these things, it's terrifying to know that someone is. I feel like whoever it is, is trying to get to me, because they're murdering the people around me. First John, then Cassie. Who was next? That was the hardest thing to thing about. About who out of the people around me would be savagely killed, either shot, stabbed, or whatever else the killer chose to do to them.464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffBMyrM0if
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These were the things I thought about as Jude drove me to my house. We didn't talk about Abbie, though I was curious, and we didn't talk about the kiss that never should have happened. We didn't talk about anything he turned down my road. Then he turned to me, his eyes serious.464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDi1HBeClu
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"Kendall." His voice was urgent now. "I have to tell you something."464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSV9mrQInO
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I looked at him. "If it's about the kiss, don't worry about it. I know it was wrong, that I shouldn't have done it. I have a boyfriend."464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjAoKctnd0
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Jude scoffed. "Right. A boyfriend who just pushes you away and leaves you standing alone in an empty school parking lot. Tell me, have you heard from him since then?"464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdJul8DaRE
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"Well no."464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡguyubRATD7
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"Exactly. But that isn't what I wanted to talk about."464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN007Z24Jpr
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"Can it wait?" I asked as we pulled closer to my house. I opened the door and looked back at him.464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZnEnxJndik
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"No," he said, shaking his head. He reached over and cupped my cheek. "It wasn't supposed to be like this," he murmured, more to himself than me. "It was just fucking business, I was not supposed to get attached."464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDqQyJmji2
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I blinked, removed his hand, and said, "What's going on?"464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYYyu9LdLf
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"Do you think it was by luck that I began talking to you? I wish it was. I wish I wasn't in this shitty situation, but I am, and I'm about to make it worse."464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsR2RPwMQOq
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"What are you talking about?"464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6JKV5qwOY
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The fact that he couldn't even look at me hurt. Slowly, I grasped his hand and held it tightly.464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU49PCQwXe3
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"You can tell me anything, you know. I'm not going to judge you."464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6adwTgKmC
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He looked at me and smiled. The smile was all wrong. It wasn't warm or caring, but like he knew whatever he had to tell me I wasn't going to like. That maybe I would hate it. Maybe I would hate him. I didn't think that last part was possible.464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhzckI3mgc
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"I was paid a lot of money to befriend you, Kendall. I was supposed to get information about you for someone. I don't even really know who the guy is, but anyway, I don't want to do it anymore. I care about you and I'm not willing to ruin what I have with you for a few bucks."464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbIHQgVOhc
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I couldn't believe what he was telling me. I was so mad that I started to tremble. Every part of me wanted to hit him. When I spoke, my voice was chipped, bitter.464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbddv9uYfpz
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"How much money?"464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡej5N8F9ad3
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"Excuse me?" Jude said. He stammered a little when he said it. He wasn't expecting that question.464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkKkqV7UB7
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"How much money were you offered to put up a false friendship? How much was my agony worth to you?" I glared at him. "How fucking much?" I slammed my foot into the dashboard of his car, breaking the glove compartment open. Papers fluttered out and I heard him make a noise, then I looked down.464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9QeD1SwE8
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My face, all different angles and views, stared up at me.464Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7s6gDj8DMf