
I deserve it. I deserve the pain. I deserve to be hurting just like the people I love.218Please respect copyright.PENANAFrGgvfchTE
Why should they be in pain and I shouldn't?
I should be right there with them, hurting. Right?
I don't know. I'm confused, disoriented, hurting, and guilty.
I don't why I did what I did today.
It was bad, unnecessary, and unhealthy.
But I did it. I don't know why. I kind of like knowing that now we're both in pain.
It makes me feel less guilty.
I feel like I should be getting my ass beat every day. I feel like I should be going through the same thing he did cause that's only fair.
The truth is, I hate myself.218Please respect copyright.PENANAP8TVH1HGtt
I hate myself. From my looks to my personality.
To my motives, to how useless I am.
To how I failed in helping the person who needed it fucking most.
I deserve to be in pain.
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