Maybe it was jealousy.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu53MNSdVBo
Or maybe… it was something harder to name.
That quiet ache in your chest when someone you care about starts smiling a little more —140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BH3iupUgD
but not because of you.
I kept asking myself:140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSChZmIF4j
Was I being possessive? Was I trying to cage something that was never mine to begin with?
But no.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRLK2JHKtq
It wasn’t that.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebw9gdHYoN
It never was.
I wasn’t trying to protect you from someone.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5H9YawFPc
I wasn’t trying to compete.
I was just scared.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rpvyiOgjY
Terrified, actually.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdCjA0LL5W
That maybe... Ren would take you away.
But then —140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlsYcWm4fd
one long evening, sitting with my thoughts louder than the world around —140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenUwQLdadT
I understood something.
People don’t get stolen.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBcCalCUMU
They drift.
Toward what makes them feel lighter.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaypTRWc52
Toward the sun they didn’t know they missed.
And sometimes love —140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT64fMRATjl
love makes us believe that there’s nothing brighter than what we have right now.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwUhbGWvN7
That this, this, is the brightest moment the world can ever offer.
But that’s a lie love tells.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFPdvYvs8T
Because love is blind,140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeEWSw5Ghr
and people are not.
And so I questioned it all.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡza4xe86X64
Not love.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTBckbF1wE
But the things we confuse for love.
The need to be someone’s only.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJ0qmt4e5A
The quiet wish that they’ll never find better than you.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5pvajdbat
The fear that if they do — they’ll forget you ever existed.
Is that love?140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEaHViz9pY
Or is that greed in disguise?
Maybe the worst kind of greed —140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOThvf1dUP
the one that wants to own a heart that was only meant to be held gently,140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6W048sYGSv
not gripped tight.
You see,140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vkasFNmlz
I wasn’t jealous.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHH4fzMUDiQ
Not really.
I was just scared of losing us.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozQA19Hf5P
The us we created in tiny moments —140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1tFfE4A2e
walking beside buses, laughing at nonsense,140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENvTiYYMRG
holding on to silences like they were the most honest things we ever said.
I was scared of losing that version of you I named Forevermore.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWDLMaPwF7
And the version of me that only ever existed around you.
But then —140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgHN1i96HE
I also realized something else.
It’s not someone else that breaks two people apart.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVWd1nsBQB
It’s not Ren. Or time. Or coincidence.
It’s us.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Ygh2ky8Uj
Me. And you.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstENoRWr7Z
Choosing, or failing, to hold on.140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslxzeJdGrK
Letting go, not because someone better came along…140Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgQA21jvmW
but because we forgot how to see each other like we used to.
And that’s what broke my heart the most.
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