There are things… and there are people.
Some I know.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj27GH6pNKA
Some I love.
And somehow, the ones I love… they never stay.
I never asked for much.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPjiJpv1u3
Not love. Not promises.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTKQs1eyyH
Just her presence.
But saying goodbye—typing it even—is far easier than living with it.
Because I cared. Deeply.
And now, I don’t know how to remember life before her.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqY8211QvN9
Before the shared evenings, the bus stops, the laughter, the silences.
Still, I knew I had to let go.
Not for me.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcg7nFYb4mN
For her.
Because if me walking away gives her peace, then I’ll walk.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡku3DwAnLYc
Even if it means leaving behind the part of myself I found in her.
But I didn’t want it to end quietly.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoDrIKTHE9
I wanted it to hurt, to leave a mark—because that’s what she meant.
And so, I became the villain in my own story.
I decided: if she needs a reason to forget me, I’ll give her one.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgmHODt9RU
A clean break. A wound that heals with time, not confusion.
So I dug out what I buried long ago—33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhwi1lTUtu
The confession.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuQZVj6jiC
The one I promised I’d never say.
I poured everything into a message—everything I was, everything we were, and everything I wanted her to be.
And one night, between externals, I confessed.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGI3FKPenMu
Over WhatsApp.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gBTg5DeGs
No buildup. Just heart.
I told her the truth she never asked for.
And I knew the answer.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQe9bNS7fT
Of course I did.
It would be a no—33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2L7DF1mKVG
In the present,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LihF5FYrx
In the past,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCzOpkakQH
And in any faraway future I could imagine.
But she replied:
“I need some time.”
And I said I would wait.
Not because I believed the answer would change—33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8beJnFSL7I
But because that’s what confessions are for.
To end things the way they should’ve never begun.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxP5jrEEgx
She asked that if I knew what her answer would be.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aktgieIR6
I replied 49/51.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEGiIL8Yes
Knowing damn well that it was 100% a No.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLhry3KHCX
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but something deep inside replied with a 49% a Yes.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKCjpM4kj6
even it couldn't say Yes a 50%.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dHzo4xgli
cause It and I knew from a long time.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzTh1kh2GE
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The externals started.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKA4R5B0NaX
The rush came back flying.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lTDuxqtKI
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While I was in a war with thoughts.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGilYjYv3g
And as the days went on.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡki2bHHQ894
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One random night, while I waited in silence,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrt81njReW
The universe had one more tragedy to give.
Outside my home, I sat alone under the sky—my mind a war zone of logic and hope.
My mother stepped out for a walk, along with Potti—my dog, my companion—and her one and only pup.
The pup didn’t even have a name yet.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TPgS3DJyo
I was waiting for Seren to name her.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOuW8CFnqC
But life didn’t wait for names.
Suddenly, a pack of street dogs came rushing.
They attacked—vicious, fast, merciless.
Without thinking, I ran to them—bare hands, bare heart.
I tried.
God, I tried.
Screaming, pushing, shielding Potti and the pup.
But it wasn’t enough.
They bit me, tore into my arms and legs,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BkWnnE9iB
while I wrapped myself around the ones I loved.
Six dogs.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdfBF6TKtp
No help.
Until my father and neighbors came rushing.
But by then—
It was too late.
In my arms, Potti lay still—33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsW8xeEbvCO
Her fur stained with blood, her neck torn.
The pup, her tiny body broken, missing a leg,33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqURb9Cmfg
barely breathing.
We rushed them to the nearest hospital.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmfyRZ8WKg
Tears finally came after years of holding them back.
But hope was all I carried.
And hope was not enough.
They couldn’t save them.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmmt2s7Yeg
No one could.
And I was left—33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHuMfoenpSL
Bloody.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJg2D89bNr
Bitten.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYxFZIySpL
Alone.
A boy with too many wounds—33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOiysePbqb
Some you could see.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3mOhjBYSz
Most you couldn’t.
I didn’t know what to do.
So, that night, I messaged her.
“Hey, are you awake?”
There was silence in my house.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnIu4kyOFP
And an even louder one inside me.
I had an exam the next morning.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ986iEHbXoC
An external.
But nothing felt more urgent than that question I couldn’t stop asking:
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The present or the future?
Until that night, I never even thought about it.
But that night… I got my answer.
Both matter.
And yet, when forced to choose, we weigh them.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhLNfSiFYc
We try to balance what we feel and what we know.
The heart says stay.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOd24ltNjZ
The mind says go.
One believes.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3q1ObxHgX9
One doubts.
One clings.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYIwA0ozrH
One lets go.
And so I waited for her reply.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Thlgh2zMS
But it didn’t come.
Morning came instead.
Same bus.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqNid8Mo4n
Same college.
But I wasn't the same.
I wore a mask—like always.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0z782ul8BY
Attended the exam.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qsFKWwszD
Laughed with friends.33Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDzQ2GKJTo
Pretended.
Because that’s what Rudeus is for.
But who could’ve guessed?
That in the evening—
After everything had burned down—
The answer to my confession would finally arrive.
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