I woke the next morning on the living room couch, my head nestled into the crook of Christian’s neck. He smelled of sweat and boy, and as I exhaled, I shook my head. I couldn’t do this now, think about him this way. It wasn’t right.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8xBzChtut
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Slowly, he shifted and drew his arms around my body, pulling me closer so that my nose touched the pulse of his neck. I tried to untangle his arms when he cracked one, groggy, hazel eye open. He smiled lazily and blinked.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UdnQDvWP4
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“You’re leaving?” he asked, frowning.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs3PngxxPhI
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“It’s morning,” I said. “Plus it’s my house and my mom should be getting up soon.”474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSQc94GGPa
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“Kendall.” Christian’s voice was calm. “What’s wrong with your mom?”474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhv8N2WW3J
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I glanced behind my shoulder at him; he was sitting up and looking at me with his hair hanging in his eyes. I shook my head and wrapped my fingers in my hair, determined not to pull it out under the circumstances.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehIbsvxeZH
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“Nothing’s wrong with her,” I said. “Why would you think that?”474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GsusiP7Hs
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He stared at me, his lip twitching slightly. “Please. I’m not stupid. You could have called if you needed a place to stay.”474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DaSLxMpeL
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“This is my home,” I replied, my fingers itching to touch him. “I have to stay here, to help my mom. You’d do the same for yours.”474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyl1RcJtdf
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He nodded. “I would.”474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrNzlk06xK
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What he was going to say was, I would if I had one474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi35zF4S2CM
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Christian’s mom died in a car accident a few years ago, leaving him and his father to fend for themselves. All of this had been revealed the first night I met Christian, at a party over the summer. I had been sitting by myself and he had taken it upon himself to come over and talk to me.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNN6Hb1bD7h
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We had been inseparable since that night, when he asked for my number, and we’d constantly texted after that. I never told him about my dad, or my mom and her drinking problem, and it was supposed to stay that way, at least for awhile.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKej06ek9d9
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“I have to go to a new doctor,” I said into the silence. I wondered if he even cared about that, or if he thought I was crazy for even going. “My mom said she made an appointment today.”474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHh7OMzfhIe
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“I didn’t know you were seeing a therapist,” he said softly. The couch shifted as he moved off of it and crouched in front of me, reaching to take my hands. “I’ll go with you, if you want. I know it’s scary when you’re doing something new.”474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnIRUk0D3O
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I smiled slightly and leaned my head against his shoulder. “Thank you,” I whispered. I lifted my head to look into his face, my voice tightening from what I was about to say. “There are things about me that you don’t know, that no one knows, and if you come with me, you’re going to hear all of it.”474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsH0iIRQqjn
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“I don’t care,” he said, shaking his head. “I want to help.”474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1och2kzhIK
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I sighed, wondering how he would see me after this day, if he would even want to see me again. I tried not to think about that as we walked out onto the porch, his hand on the small of my back.474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTowLV5mXKc
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“It will be okay,” he said. “I promise.”474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSWdBKFDMg
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When I turned to tell him I knew it would, that I’d be okay because I had a good friend with me, he bent his head and kissed me. 474Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbLovQS0c9
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