Here I am again, with my great plans to make my downfall a piece of entertainment. The queen of unfunny jokes strikes again I guess. But before we all get sad about my misserable ideas, let's take a moment to talk about the next step I took to world domination:72Please respect copyright.PENANAZOby6I7Xn1
Another book with my cover on it is out! That bring the total to a three (if I don't count the ones I did for less proffecional published stuff) In this rate I will surely take over the world! Okay, probably not. However I still get to watch my covers on other peoples bookstagram accounts and that's kinda cool.72Please respect copyright.PENANA47yiMYwTiy
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That being said, my health is activly trying to sabotage further progress. I wanted to stop it by killing it, but given the aditional cassualties that would result in, I had to let it go. So for now it's still making my body a significant worse place to live in. Seriously, I've now tiny black spots dancing in front of my eyes and have been crazy dizzy at random moments. It's kinda scary, but I think I'll be okay. It's not like the doctor seemed worried last time we chatted.72Please respect copyright.PENANAviY9Au9bEF
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It's so weird. I don't want to die, but somedays I just want te sabotage to succeed and my body to selfdistruct. At least that way what I am feeling is real. Maybe then people will listen. However I always have to remind myself. It's not that people won't listen. It's more that I don't talk, because I don't feel like they can help me.72Please respect copyright.PENANAu8TLq6ShHm
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I really need therapy I guess... well what's new? Oh yeah, I almost finished my book. If this health thing doesn't spin further out of control I will continue to translate it soon. And honestly I don't think it will.72Please respect copyright.PENANAjbOQeBvG6a
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The thing with falling ill is that in my case it's not like the books described it. Like action packed scenes full with sirens and near death... that's at least a cool story to tell. For me it just goes really, really, really slow. I'm not even dying, I'm just not living anymore either. It's kinda annoying. If I have to go through this, at least make it cool or so.
Just a (not so) little note to end on: I know dying is very serious and not cool. I don't mean to make fun of anyone going through illness themselves or with a loved one. This is just me trying to progress the mess that's my own brain.72Please respect copyright.PENANAQUJlXZTADh
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If you're dealing with suicidal thoughts, there's help out there. There's no shame in seeking therapy (just like I am doing). There's not such a thing as not bad enough. You deserve to be happy.