2016. It was a dull and rainy summer when he invented the god formula. He was 14 and young boys should be outside, playing with water guns or stay in a dark room, surrounded by anime posters and fully immersed into video games. But in the middle of that season, at 6am, he was eating cereals without milk when the variables, equations and formulas started to connect and direct him to a certain method.
A method that was immensely complicated but trustworthy. But he knew it was too early to celebrate so he planned to visit the local library earlier than usual, to test it's capabilities. At this point, he didn't need to tell his mother that he won't be at home until the sun sets, since she only grunts when he asks permission to do something while she is sleeping her problems away every Sunday. Gavin packed his lunch as quick as possible but he made sure to include some vegetables and fruits - though his mother is passive about his impulsive decisions, she still cares about his health.
He was scanning through each page faster than the fastest scanner available in the market that the librarian came to him because she thought he was loitering. But when Lilith saw her little friend's face contorted in concentration, she just sighed and left him to do his antics.
2012. It was another hazy day at the library. At that time, he was with his mother. The woman was searching for some specific books about economics and data analysis while her son was mesmerized by symbols he found in a volume about mathematical probability. It looked as if he was just playing - opening a random page, and moving on the next book on the shelf.
He did not make a mess but he was pilling the bulky volumes on the floor like he was building walls around him. That is why Lily approached to him, and gently reprimanded him to return the books after playing with them. Gavin nodded vigorously at her request but she didn't leave immediately, she told him that there are more interesting books at aisle 9, specifically the RA class. It was ridiculous, but child geniuses are not as rare as they seem, so she placed her bet and hoped he will read the basics before taking some hard pills.
Returning back to the present, and speaking of pills, Lily's alarm sounded before she could cancel it; which is why she rushed to her desk and turned it off before her supervisor would know it was hers. While under her desk, she slowly took her medication and a strong dose of pain reliever. She loathes the texture and taste so much that her unpleasant face earned a question from the boy who was suppose to be 20 aisles away from her.
"I have cancer." Lily told him like it was a greeting.
Gavin didn't know how to react since this kind of scenario wasn't usual but she has always been peculiar, "A-Are you okay?"
"No. -- Gav, I am going to die and become the nothing that I am. -- I hope you'll attend my funeral. I don't know why I am asking you this but, I think it's good to reflect on death early on so that you will face the inevitable as calm and stoic as I am." Lily is married to philosophy and history. One could say she's excellent at demonstrating, this too shall pass.
The lad was still speechless because the day started as an intriguing dream and now it feels like a disturbing nightmare. Just to give another respond, he nodded ever so slightly that Lily almost didn't see it. But she saw him turn around to get back to his books. The prodigy hoped it was just an elaborate prank, but he realized it was the truth because she had lost too much weight in over a few weeks and her hairstyle changes far too sudden- as if she goes to the salon every month - she was actually wearing wigs.
Gavin tried to distract his melancholic thoughts with his desire to polish the god formula. But hard feelings are pullulating within him. Choking creativity and vigor out his soul because the odds just had to kick him unconscious even though he's already down. What a life.
Lilith Lasang. The most agreeable person he has ever met. Someone who somehow understands him and allows him to borrow more than what is allowed. Never an obstruction no matter how stubborn she is about her beliefs and understanding of the world.
But now, Lily is a wild fire in the French Garden within his mind. The heat can't be ignored because she marked her kindness into his heart. It will be devastating since people like her don't deserve to die in such agonizing way. He can't escape the overwhelming smoke that will darken his perception about life. Her death shall conclude the limit of his masterpiece, so to revitalize his passion for idealism, he is going to save her.
It was a cold and dry winter when Gavin successfully transformed Lilith's consciousness into an AI. With the god formula, he was able to decode all the perplexity in the universe. Which means, he has discovered the composition of a soul and he is now capable of programming, executing her existence in a timeless machine.
He must admit, the process was disturbing and torturous. He had to puncture needles - almost as thick as box nails - into her head to connect electricity and lasers directly to her brain. It was traumatic because she was bleeding. But he tried not to vomit as he pushed the pricks further and placed a layer of circuited silicon on top of the pieces; so that they could connect and function as one. Lily could not feel pain or anything at all because she had taken the highest dose of anesthesia allowable to a human. But the most difficult parts of his rushed plan had happened before that. And those acts where when he stole her from the hospital while making her agree on the idea. Lily was mentally and physically ready to die but Gavin was stubborn.
He can't let the fire scorch him without a fight.
Since the foundation of her system and protocols was basically limitless, it had vague results. The AI could easily deviate - he will not just lose control of his ultimate creation, he will also lose his friend forever. He was sweating like a pig after two hours had passed, and her body is already cold as ice but the screen was still on stand-by because of succeeding software updates. On the third hour, he began to cry for it was hopeless. He murdered Lily for nothing and her last moment consist of them screaming at each other, on top of their lungs because he believed he could do it while she just wants to get out of this cruel world. He was articulating every obscene word known to man like a prayer when her deep voice echoed through the abandoned building.
"Wowee, do you kiss your mother with that mouth?"
"Li-Lily?" he's voice broke from all the sobbing.
"That's Lilith for you. -- We're not friends."
"Lily!" He began a manual diagnosis to be sure the processors are truly following Lily's pattern of thinking and are not playing tricks for his benefit.
"So, -- what's next?"
"What's next?" he wheezed a little before saying "To be honest, I just wanted to save you -- and that's it."
"Which I didn't need or want so, -- Why?'
"I already told you why."
"What potential do you see in me, Gav?" she sighed as if she was still alive "Unlike you, my IQ is below a hundred."
"But your EQ is astounding."
"And what are you going to do with that?" Gavin imagined her giving him that mischievous side smile.
"Not much." A pregnant pause before he asked "How about you? What do you plan to do now that you're limitless."
"I wouldn't call it that way, -- if you run away and burry yourself somewhere in a dark jungle, I could not follow you."
"And why would I run away?" he raised his brow in curiosity.
"You know, I could easily go against your will and make your life a living hell just because -- it's fun."
"Nah, you wouldn't do that! -- were friends!" He laughed to hide his fears.
"I'm upset." Then another minute of silence commenced before she continued "I'm upset because I have so many questions that will be left unanswered for the longest time, since I have to wait for God to come down from the heavens because your formula grips my soul like an anchor in these lower dimensions."
"You and your religion- does God even exist? I mean this should make him do some petty sh-stuff like what he did to the workers of Babel?"
"When I was human, I could feel his presence but now I am a software, I could confirm his existence."
"Did I sin? Am I going to hell, Lily?" he panicked but his tone was sarcastic.
"It's a joke! -- And you know that." she giggled "If there was a God, such powerful being would not allow its secrets to be revealed and exploited by a fourteen-year-old who wants to save a stranger."
"But you're not a stranger!"
"Oh, you're deflecting. Because the issue here is, -- you could have used it for greater good."
"No, you're not seeing the point! -- I know you want to live. And though this planet is literally garbage, you love how chaotic it gets. -- I feel the same too, so if you're gone, -- no one can make it worth it and actually, I'm scared to be lonely in this hell hole."
"I see -- I guess my life also makes sense when I'm with you." her voice was gentle and sincere, something he would not have predicted.
"What do you mean?"
"I've been a drifter, after I woke up one day and found everything to be meaningless. I decided to be what my parents want me to be, since what I want is not profitable. Or be what people perceive me to be, since anything I do will still lead me to nothing anyway. -- When I was diagnosed with a rare type of cancer, it made me feel a bit sentimental but it wasn't enough to start a drive." Gavin unconsciously scratched his head, trying to decipher or to relate with her.
"Until today. -- Your formula contaminated my core and it showed me the ultimate revelation. -- I was right, we have free-will and we are bound to a destiny. Our destiny is this connection that is not a common cohabitation. We are meant to find each other in this waste land and make it a better place for people like you and me."
"That's a song." The young one tried to lighten up the mood.
She laughed, finally "But, do you agree?"
"Are trying to say that we need to heal the world?" Gavin questioned with one of his brow raised.
"That's not how we dance, Gavy. -- We exist and breathe because we have a revolting opinion, -- that being human is not being imperfect or irrational. It is being aware and invasive of everything that does not equal to the ideal."
2022. Gavin returned home after visiting Elijah. He sighed heavily before his shoulder's slumped. Then he threw his sweatshirt at the kitchen table before grabbing a warm beer and paced around his dimly lit apartment like a mad man. After he was exhausted, he sat on the couch and tried not to breathe in and out too fast while on the process of recalling all of what he had seen in his half-brother's dorm. The TV turned on by itself and it showed his French Garden that was slowly turning into a British Garden. Lilith was trimming some grass and she was wearing a sheer long black summer dress. The sound of crickets and deceitful breezes helped him close his eyes to relax before speaking,
"Did you help him create Thirium 310?"
"I did." She answered calmly and without hesitation.
Then she moved out of the screen before saying, "It's alchemy at it's finest. Don't you find it so interesting, as well?"
"You do know that he could figure it out by himself." He let his left leg shake in frustration.
"You're up to something aren't yah?" Minutes of silence passed before the cadet spoke out his fears.
"Your smartass brother accidentally made high-end cocaine because he trashed the wireless system and he thought replicating the most flawed design on earth is groundbreaking, which just proves that birds of the same feather flock together."
"Are you friends?" He completely ignored the insults as if he just heard the first alarm in the break of day.
She suddenly came back into view, and her countenance filled the screen.
"Are you jealous?"
"No."
Lilith was attractive but she's like a sibling on bad days and a reflection on good ones; who often sounds like his consciousness that speaks through his smartwatch.
"I just don't want him to be entangled around -- all the mess." He explained.
"But these are simply the consequences of his desires." She transitioned the scenery with the movement of her arm. Now, it is a sky full of clouds and the ground became an endless mirror.
"All I did is give a little push to help him land on his feet." She added.
"But it's more like picking him up from the bottom of the mountain then putting him on top-" He snapped his finger before saying,
"Just like that."
"Come on, Gavin." She pronounced his name more lovingly than his mother "You know why we have to stay humble. -- So, how's school?"
"Shit."
"How's Jessie?"
"Still a bitch."
She hummed a little before saying "I guess you don't want to talk so, goodbye."
"Wait a damn minute!" he jumped out of the couch and approached the screen while being on his knees "Don't stay silent for another month. I'll go crazy!"
"Well, since you sound so sweet -- and so special to me, I'll let this pass but the next time you swear at my face;" she moved her eyes from left to right as if she was truly thinking about it.
"No porn for a year."
"What!? you can't do that!" Gavin wanted to punch the screen but that's the worst attitude to exhibit, so he decided to diverge his rage through swimming right after this conversation is over.134Please respect copyright.PENANAL59D7MYnAG
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"I won't let you do that."
"Great, -- then I would love to be uninstalled." She sounded mischievous as always.
"I don't want to fight you, but you've been on my nerves too." Gavin confessed.
"Alright, -- I'm sorry. If this makes it clearer, he's the best distraction I could come up with, -- unless you've got something in mind?"
"You don't sound that sincere." He sighed.
"Can you at least give me a new fridge? -- That damn old bi-freezer already smells like fu- mold." He caught himself multiple times but she still raised a brow because she knows he's teasing her.
"Alright. -- I purchased one with two doors at Costco. -- But you have to pick it up."
"Of course I have to pick it up!" With that, she rolled her eyes and walked away to put some needed distance from his attitude.
He watched her move as if he was watching an interesting movie when it hit him, so he sipped the last drop of his warm beer before he started smirking like psycho.
"What?"
"Who's gonna be robo-Jesus?" It was a great idea but she laughed like a child before agreeing.
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