I found major problems and holes in my original draft of the first eight chapters of my novel and I had a slight anxiety attack for half a year. I'm back to writing and my first order of business was to strip down the original story and put my soul into it. I was half-assing it before just trying to get this thing outta my head so I could sleep at night. Now, I've realised, that I actually like writing, and... I really don't care if I'm considered good or not, I just want to be happy with what I write.
A few things have started to tug at me though that I need help with. One, I'm a man. Yup, 100%. However my lead character is female. Need I say more? Two, I can't decide if I am fully immersed in the rated PG-13 or R worlds with my novel. I need someone to help me figure ou where the line is. Also, I may need someone to slap me when my writing gets too confusing or off track.
I'm currently in the process of reworking all he chapters written so far of my novel, The Crescent. I have the intro and the first two chapters uploaded with more to come as I fix the language. It feels like a completely new story now. I'm excited once again, and the anxiety is dissipating. Since music is a the glue that holds my story together, I've also added embedded songs that are mentioned in each chapter. My hope is the music will give the reader a sense of the mood that I'm trying to portray in each chapter. I would really appreciate some feedback, though if you have time. I know my writing style is a bit different, but I'm just trying to use my own voice.
I need some feedback, just to see where I stand with an audience. Even though this is for me, I want someone to be able to make it through the whole thing. I want them to yell at the book, laugh with it, cuss at it, question it, throw it across the den and run after it and thumb through frantically to find their place again and not put it down again until the final page is read with a smile and half a tear streaming down their face. Is this too much to hope for? Thank you for everyone's support. Please help...