於是，Tim少和阿樂下樓吃飯，再買了一個蛋糕。回家，放進雪櫃，然後開始打機。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALi2SQrexR
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青青外出和好友度過午餐和下午茶時段。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYOyJqupG0
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQci3WxE01
之後，她去旺角，等Matt；他們約六點半，她先到，不停地來回審視自己的臉容，到洗手間看看有沒有面泛油光、甩妝，再仔細地梳一梳頭。六點五十五分，Matt出現。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNfPnqMpr2
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yFxEPdJWu
「好耐冇見。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwL982RBiA
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ES9DPD3JA
「係。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1s04zcS76v
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqSyddzG9i
接下來的不足兩小時，他看她像遇上瘟疫一樣，避之則吉，連正視她的眼也像害怕感染病毒，總和她對看一會兒然後移開。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQoygyNOdFO
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEkcsv8d5W
沿路，她問了很多想知的事，還自己一個死心；他說了一些她應該想知的事，渾身不自在，忽然覺得很祼露。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSouzbL8SFY
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjQckQ9Nt4
他們都覺得對方是陌生人。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYtVVqUzzO
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMNQOJw5P2
但，他們分明知道對方的名字、知道對方穿幾號鞋碼、知道對方的恥毛長度。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JIdlnIne2
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE19G47BTmW
就像恰恰一對普通的白色筷子，明明在湯熱麵熟的時候他們是極其有默契的一對，和對方攜手穿梭不同的質感，偶有碰撞但仍在磨合中互相協作；可是，當過了那短暫的時刻，就只被隨便洗刷再扔回去雜亂無章的櫃裏，沒有再一起，對方也不再重要，因為下次自然會與另一枝筷子成為一對。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpS4cUzAB5E
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScBHAAPUXX
就像，一切都沒發生過一樣。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLW5Ibg99fa
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuOSWBjaZZ
「明明應承咗我唔揾第個㗎嘛——」、「你話遲啲先得閒，叫我等到嗰時先多啲見㗎喎……」、「啫係你出軌？你係因為識咗佢，所以先想走？」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9deeoJaYNs
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvA6jdFXVM
「我同你分手之前，只係同佢傾幾句咋。」、「後尾我同佢互相都鍾意咗大家。」、「有呢個因素，但又唔可以咁樣歸因……」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcdOqeXykR
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijAGCOzhFl
青青變得咄咄逼人，Matt仿佛努力地或以真話、或以假話去抵擋她的攻勢；她誓要剖家析族的知個明白，但他在說的時候卻感到難堪，偶然他回頭看見她小心地仰頭，防止眼淚掉下時，他又會感到心軟，如他所言：748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQwXBrWuHt
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt0mFfP7WpN
「咁真係我辜負咗你嘅。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiN6g9CHaR
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TtWTZXb1N
但Matt並沒有和青青說過一聲「對不起」，只逕行，最後不情不願地和她快快吃一個飯，然後趕急地跳上的士離去。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5Xyc3knNF
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNH2GXMeetl
青青覺得自己今晚的行為很反常，平時，她的眼神從來不兇狠，也不會不停地追問一些已然沒有意義的答案，更不會捨棄自尊要求他人順她的意。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF48rIl8Y09
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對。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7aXflabQl
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZcJloXmMC
她有些不一樣了。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSDYFVKjxF
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTC1lS9gh3
她傻就傻在，有些東西，她想知得很清楚，如果不明不白又覺得很不甘心；但知道以後又更揪心。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9cNHZVqL5
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwMdhQUBro
是她，將心掏出來，還將刀遞上去，留有一點卑微的盼望——748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAXOzjYiCe
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOe6DvEcTZ
希望他殺人就殺人、切莫誅心，留她一點尊嚴，不要講出太過殘忍的內情。但從來，說清說楚都不會有任何的好結果，被拋棄的人沒有資格說尊嚴，真心愛人何有好的結果？真相是真，比真相是假可怕億萬倍。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtppP1869cP
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdqwhhWqWt
是她幼稚，不懂得原來，感情的真相是不可推敲的，只可瞞騙。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8AgJQBeCT
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURBql9o7Dh
最後，青青輕輕地和Matt握手，像剛才所有的不愉快從未發生，迴光返照地笑說：748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFNGSvCTWd
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDilhjirv2Y
「祝你平安。前程萬里。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikHfhki1wo
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvUrLz4gUE
Matt有些錯愕地回握：748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgDgeClCKZ
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkT5o9tNpw
「你都係。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtuMX9fuN3
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmui6yxhFrT
沒走幾步，他大喊，她聽不清，停下；他走到一個她勉強能聽見她說話的距離：748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNEkjLwYLi
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7RF9pJkxw
「返到屋企同我講聲啦，注意安全。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtFfmi7rCR
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCWbHBs3UX
她挑眉，對他不可置否地笑笑，大步挺身向前行，因為她清楚，他不是真心的。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UW8HJiyqd
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYcSx8gvaA
行到轉角處，她突然覺得腳軟，隨之而來的是整個人的脆弱，她忽然覺得好悲傷，何有什麼落落大方的離別？她已死去一萬次。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrUVqbvyPJ
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmjfaAa51O
屌，失戀啫——748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyaYBYG3Wr
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7TFP9MUsR
但是她不能再怎樣了，所以她行去乘車，到某個站下車，再行回家，感受着絕望得弱小的風在吃力地撫慰她。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoXPXQvsUs
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好痛。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3rex5o5XT
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mbHkx9QxV
回阿樂住處之前，她先回原先的家，拿走了她的身體磨砂膏、髮膜，以及一套她從未穿過的內衣。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wMLUMC4gr
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBQwd2Pgc0
今晚，她會和阿樂更輕鬆地聊天。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8aTpOVzfr
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAK4uvozzkV
在放過自己之前，首先要懂得折磨自己。對不起。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56VleGQfzG
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748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOpfFUIXEI
夜晚十一點半，青青到達阿樂的屋，他替她開門，見她熱得臉紅紅。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHTAWQ9uXO
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLGf2Occp4
「返嚟啦？食咗咩呀？」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqZc8KhpN2
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUqcWsGPoA
「Jollibee，但我嗰時冇乜胃口，宜家又有啲餓。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdysoPI5hUa
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hW7QAozGQ
青青只食了一隻雞腿和呷了幾口汽水，感覺什麼都沒有下肚就要走，後來悲傷又填滿了她的胃，一路行回家時還有些消化不良。現在，就如此直直地客廳燈照耀，仿佛是個胃鏡看見裏面空空的，又立刻感到餓。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85Targ9DOb
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8rdLRzW3n
「咁就啱啦！我買咗個蛋糕，今日仲未過，快啲吹咗蠟燭先！」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7kqdnCwM6
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAkMnlSDq5
阿樂遂去雪櫃拿出蛋糕，寫着「青青生日快樂」，黑森林口味。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxW0CxvBPP
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7SIuqimRw
青青呆了好久，她沒有想過阿樂會給她買蛋糕。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmAcNAdKHn
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3DkHZY6MKk
出外一整天，整個人都零散地歸家，無論他送不送蛋糕，只要他講一句：「返嚟啦？」其實對她來說，已是安慰，因為怎樣都比Matt冷漠的眼神温暖。但現在阿樂捧出整整一個蛋糕，像是告訴她不需獨自吞下所有情緒，她就感動，非常感動。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIp27uMZFkr
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAY6XZcKNl
青青有些哽咽，但又開心地笑：748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxoVzzcPeD
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAogZNiNdCr
「哇、哇！竟然有蛋糕食。多謝！」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPLzCkMgdb
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lVKTLLNTr
阿樂見她眼紅紅，大概猜到，無謂多問破壞現在的氣氛：748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1rZV1mz29
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVh8NRhLhl
「快啲許願啦。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hAsZwxYCH
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCcECw4Bli
青青閉眼，吹熄蠟燭。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvq3HZz7nOi
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XgXtZuY1T
「多謝多謝！不過我出埋文、沖完涼先食，出咗成日街好污糟。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPk3OaYtxmK
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJdyUQrM9X
她多在電腦磨一會兒，電話收到訊息，她打開一看，些許憤怒，絲毫不想回覆，然後將目光放在電腦上，打字打得極響。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNEvtMXWPk
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ19NCHIxP8
過後，就去洗澡，擦上身體磨砂，敷上香得要死的髮膜，然後再自己的所有部位洗得乾乾淨淨，一併沖掉。抹乾身體後，再搽上body lotion，換上內衣，外穿睡裙。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8xSUGHIxi
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0pglOYr5K
她看着鏡子。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbubDRmV8U2
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTd8iuo2d2j
一直以來，她都有些猶豫，但她決定交給阿樂決定，如果今夜裏他主動吻她，他就會被動地接受她看似被動的攻略。她沉默地觀望自己：748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinCYqmeXqE
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8h14xL4nxm
我都要證明，我有本事。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtkuxXg8WX
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3TvICQB5B
他在她的房間等她，心想：今日搞咩搞咁耐？平時好快就出嚟。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpuC3M3qjaU
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvWvlkb015
他想知道青青和Matt傾了什麼，他見她興致平平但不至頹喪，眼睛裏只有累的感覺。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9owwpXOT3
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zu3lqeqyB
她出來，整個人都很香。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXolThNnhcb
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5tOa0AmGU
阿樂拿出蛋糕和酒，把刀給青青切：748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4nxllTEZr
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「唔好切到底，如果唔係會嫁唔出。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡybaTfRsZxd
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡke6pFH1jCz
「你咁迷信咩？」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeN5u9ZzrDq
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtu0IXQkOwB
她又真的小心地切，提防切到底；她再見到這個蛋糕，還是覺得很感動，阿樂對她竟然這樣好，尤其是她傷心的時候。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExr486skH5
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPjiknQyOw
「寧可信其有。不過咁囉，如果你真係因為咁而嫁唔出，我都肯抵諗啲要咗你嘅。」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDofYxh3M10
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLfVt0BPSZ
阿樂笑笑，接過她手上的刀替她分蛋糕。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qIUWVlnIo
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EdfSv0H1h
「吓話？」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBZj6BrYbXQ
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkaL9icMCl
「講嚟聽吓啦，你哋今日做咗咩嚟？」748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuL9QnnVmi1
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdayEAuVzEa
他們開始飲酒，開始說廢話，講講下午和朋友吃了什麼、做了什麼；阿樂也大概知道青青和阿Matt分手前的事，大概是：Matt因為Retake DSE而忙，青青和他很少見面，之後他就和青青說沒有了感覺。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡauZJ3Xvji4
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1tBA8W34v
慢慢，青青的臉通紅，頸也微微緋桃，呼吸輕輕加快，說了最近最多的話，情緒開始激動，但完全沒有前文後理，又突然加入一個新的女角：748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSj1BfNyEk
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6mz4FpGaI
「佢——啫係我前男友，話俾我聽，個女仔同完佢原本個男朋友分手之後，就同佢一齊，但冇幾耐又揾返佢個Ex——你知唔知？我當時聽到個心好翳？748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAs4dtJhJ5o
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB41Hvgs0Ow
以前，我連佢少少傷都唔敢俾佢受……男人忌諱呢啲綠唔綠帽嘅嘢，我明。一開始拍拖，我有同過以前追過我嘅人傾偈，佢發現咗之後唔太開心，之後我就冇再咁做。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8R73Ffoz8
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSLkvIgbXr
後來，亦都冇試過同男仔單獨見面，都避哂啲曖昧嘢。就係因為我唔想佢因為咁而唔開心，所以從來冇做任何出格嘅行為，宜家呢？748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhG5Trp0aZ8
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22ox5uAf1a
佢出面嗰個女仔咁樣對佢？我將佢擺喺心尖上面啊！但佢出去就咁樣？好心痛呀！748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVIbnsFFHh
748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoulJvbmK6
但係……當我潤完佢咁都鍾意個女仔，佢答我話：『我都好心痛㗎。』，你知唔知點解？我突然間真係有啲着咗火嘅感覺，覺得個心喺度燒。748Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJJn7aUPwN
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