阿樂突然跑去廁所，跪在馬桶前一下下地嘔，聲音像要挖出心肝脾肺腎；青青跟過去，掃掃他的背，又出去斟了一杯温水給他。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4CNrjG3QU
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他接過，沒有喝下，只保持跪姿抬頭、定神看她，看了好久好久。他的眼睛因酒醉與嘔吐而通紅和濕潤，像哭泣一樣，他這樣腥辣地盯着她，像是在控訴一切的罪魁禍首是她。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsiUO5HS1W
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她再平靜，也想起了Tim少說的話，內疚而不忍：671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslptDYcUq9
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「快啲飲啖啦，你喉嚨會唔舒服。」671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqT7qdDWaU
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她想轉身出去，但他捉住了她的手腕。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAnbpKxs9i
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兩秒後，他站起來喝下，他們擠在同一個廁所裏。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzg9DTRkPKX
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阿樂嘔完，沒有原先難受，又清醒了一點；但仍然借醉，擁抱了青青，將重量放在她的身上，包括那二十一克的靈魂。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPt4rVxOhiz
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「喂——」671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLWeGk4C2N
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青青皺眉，想要推開他；他作環抱狀擁得更緊，沉沉地說：「我有啲暈。」671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwKaUyTkKQk
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他語帶哭腔，像哀求，又像撒嬌，整個人都變得異常温糯。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIMGYXLo3d
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她沒有再郁動，就這樣埋在他的胸口處，只說：671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMyi9iwABQ
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「沖杯茶俾你？或者你早啲休息？」671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzoZ6K11cR9
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「唔洗，等陣先。」671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2aNJUBc4O
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然後，阿樂就這麼一直抱住青青，突然內心一陣悲慟湧出，因為他知道，連這一個擁抱，都只是偷來的，他沒有名、沒有責、沒有義去擁抱她，要不是他妥協般的聲線沙啞地一陣哀求，根本不能將她擁入懷裏……671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡER1YjbFfoc
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終於，阿樂放開青青；她抬頭：671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxgNHArAHnB
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「好啲啦？」671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24iJjrlHaO
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「嗯，我想食餐蛋麵。」671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0uzx23MMx
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阿樂知道，青青是一個受軟不受硬的人，他若吟吟地向她撒嬌，她必然妥協。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9531ZETqlz
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「好。」671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCM8MVWRcU
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阿樂跟在青青的身後，擔了一張椅子坐下。從側身看去，見到她趷腳開櫃，拿下罐頭和即食麵，再開始煮食。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbyE5fAE57
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他就這樣清晰又迷糊地看她，看她開火、下油，煎、翻、煮、攪。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTXgny3Ekn
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「落唔落麻油？」671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgtyUNXBo5
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她轉身，頭向他坐着的方向，問；他輕輕的點頭。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwtxLs6CWr
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然後，她將麵拿出餐桌：671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4zJjwVAZn
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「以後唔好飲咁多，睇住身體。」671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmZiyXHisvg
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他點頭，再扯開話題：671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXv53cQF3Rn
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「揾日我哋去街好冇？」671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICIPOm8Dhf
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阿樂要約青青出去，不能再困在有間隔的屋內上演平行時空，Tim少說感情是流動的，要有來有往，不要上演自我感動的戲碼。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOWl9syRZN
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「好。」671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQA4kmJ7PyJ
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青青已想通，既然她本身對阿樂有好感，不如一試，嘗試看看二人有沒有可能；機會若然流失，就此錯過。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmjlfEwfUK
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何況，她已經無法喜歡Matt了。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0wgokkZnP
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她不否認自己愛他，只是，不喜歡他了；如此，這一種愛也會慢慢消逝。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGYFzUMicc
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Matt傷害了青青的自尊，嚴重地。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gAok9f4tw
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他既不喜歡她、又喜歡別人；既借辭暗示她是這段感情的過錯方，又欺瞞她變心的真相，如非最後她問，他根本不會提記，只像什麼都沒發生過一樣欺瞞她。原本一直陪伴身旁的人離棄了她，她感到十分受傷。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60C4X02BWa
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直到現在，她還覺得是自己的問題：671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKyuHZmg2t
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係咪我唔夠好？係咪我冇能力令留住你？671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFybbxTAzAG
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係咪我俾你嘅印象太恐怖，就算你變咗心都唔敢同我講？係咪你覺得我好唔掂，所以就算傷害我，你都唔會覺得內疚？或者，呢一份內疚微弱到唔會影響你嘅所有所有？671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7pw0IDEmh
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係唔係？671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOPrTmC8yv
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是？不是？不、不，無論如何。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYEyJkppnU
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總之，青青若對Matt心懷喜歡，她就會覺得自己很低賤。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqm4FbmYzXb
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因為Matt已是別人的男人，熱情都在別人眼中熊熊燃燒，青青不過難堪地、被新鮮而有魄力的火焰波及，可是她已是那一吹即散的、無意義的灰燼。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaxA3DnIvJ
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感覺像，Matt向青青走來，要求交歡，她心歡喜自覺袒胸露乳，他正攤開手伸向她的胸膊，卻忽然將手指並攏，以指甲插穿她的皮肉、急躁地挖出她的心來，用力捏碎它，無視那種鮮活，不管當中對他的無窮情意；然後輕輕轉身，彷彿她的祼露、她的傷感，都與他無關。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3IjcQoAyn
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感情是流動的，要有來有往，不要上演自我感動的戲碼。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkuTdmNRBy
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青青對阿樂有一種不能言說的抱歉，因為，她在想要不要給大家一次發展的機會時，心裏想的人，並不是他；而且，她也不確定自己對阿樂的感情。但她有種念頭，覺得，如果一切都好好地進行下去，說不定她真的會喜歡他。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCDhk1CqFT
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他們很夾。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6t0e9ANyAa
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她喜歡和他相處，她不抗拒他的擁抱，甚至剛才他緊抱她不放的時候，她竟然有些感動。她分不清這是心動，還是因寂寞而無法撒手的一種温暖。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIwH8qcCqn
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即使，他對她是如此如此地好，但她總是猶豫，她又暗暗地質疑他並非很喜歡自己。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRRT8hFgry
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猶豫過後，她想，應該要試一試。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiC9i02Cu4
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追求之事，不應過早談得失，二人都是。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyPyQ5Pm20
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阿樂高興，雖然他得到的資訊只是一句「好」、只是她肯和他出去玩，別人看來可能是小事，但只有他知道這一句「好」，而非「唔好」的意義是什麼。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfE75J7YeKP
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除了代表她不抗拒與他共處外，還代表他開始正式追求她，她也不會再回絕他的好意。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJ1btQorrM
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更重要的是，他清楚知道，這代表她願意放過自己，不再自我束縛，嘗試給他加入她的生命裏。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2w1Z5fExYp
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阿樂又想起Tanya，他想問Tanya：671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6I774FRtT
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「其實你有冇諗過、我哋有機會可以一齊？而唔係永遠都只可以做好朋友？有冇諗過俾呢個機會我？定係由一開始就知道，一定冇可能？」671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTfdAqVMR8
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至今，阿樂也不知道答案——因為他沒敢問，卻仍然非常介意；然後他又望一望青青，沒來由地笑一下。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvwntPsMUo
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至少，這次，阿樂覺得有個人願意肯定自己的用心，而非強行將他安放到一個「最佳位置」，若實現最大可能性，能夠不只做一個大將軍。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvBtehQ6xv
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對，至少，青青有這一份考慮，無論最後結果如何，他都覺得比以前好。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa77OqXuh4j
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他稍為心安。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMC8ndKWeoJ
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如果最後青青真的和他在一起，生命似添亮色，他就會很開心。671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVcg92HzYP
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但其實誰沒有了誰，也能夠好好活下去，671Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxuvnhcH8v
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