「咁你呢，又點呀？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9XpmTAds5
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阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZ1G7BxlGj
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「托賴，幾好吖。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2jdoJmMwt
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6U3KLdIN9t
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreKEvVBPaW
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAveSGOZxvX
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPfYoLXat2
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBAHLALtJq
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCf3xadb9pJ
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2c8Q37RaDx
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LqoBxClm2
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwvxBbAhCV
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuRgZqqQiN
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAkoWwcHwT
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY29KXM4nKA
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FUkddl8In
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeiylfIISe
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「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyRjuWFfSO
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvA1Z88opo
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwo8MriM2Mu
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuLF6qMxku
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyplRgiHnV
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAk8jgdSEy
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQWtN2yAgo
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXehbEMogVq
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dQyQUEibD
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡak3OOG22kT
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtb6nJzcBbM
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7ARwBH7QP
每天都不想做任何事。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9pxTXKRuj
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEl38zjDlf8
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vVpgfkDmX
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKTOeed08g
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS52Y0y0EP7
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkfdrVHW6W
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMT7HIBFcu5
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6A5GIfJhvm
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhpneRglQk
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tvNIpH91b
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLkvVfsWxv
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGHnAPbQlN
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3IE4OtDzB
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPY1cgYtQod
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBNagbwY0y
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOt24MSwan7
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mj2eQVjA5
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sCzzE0xAa
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJAbLvKLUL
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmCzQ4vZFw
何況，他們如此親厚。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ljyB5UQJ6
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1g2FULyaQ
阿樂問：「去邊？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7v22GwPuV0
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV50Qc0F34Z
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQh02h091aD
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0nsjShTAF
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zUM7s3NEF
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青青直接問：「你想媾我？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSA3Au5H9sQ
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyqcs0bHEn
Sean回答：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiCjNPyOxo
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbPrXUSidv
「係。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0b9LVK3SsY
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzd1VeOeDvy
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlyDCyA8wmz
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjuYNAhCib
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgb13RGlT0Y
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCpnnRBSSU
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGnJt65dw0
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffqHML6CG8
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGgvNJQyXI
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7Re94lqrS
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxL1vAIwU8
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOK8xFp4iS
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuiaT7yRmj
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcX6XHBDHHN
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIzyK5D4xO
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OMUUm511I
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pR7KuIuWT
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlAzWadrDUM
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJKfSOANH6
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeunRAYoxv
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDKnqmx6ln
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rvldt8XAC
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKcKLbbhz3
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZt5Kqe3m9
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqc35YrFQWO
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwk72nYyy0
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJY54iEFjzM
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDGdHRrlll
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWGh29KtrV
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwpaYVdSZ5
阿樂質疑：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQPzXc6KLX
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkv8tHpayLw
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ21O7VYOTAY
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qrKeVl9pa
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1tjCWkYy2
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbErIQkKZBM
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLTzFcvQHX
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVv92VWIXb
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcewSDAoJi
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTj2gT3nS6o
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLdrdqBXzQ
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCT6bHHLzth
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmWzkgeOou
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSW2sEqysF3
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJpRPh3VqO
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vFcBjvrtD
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BYEPGR1tH
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplJ4NiJBaO
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04sgWNm39H
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6f9DYIQta1
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFkbxWAVAp
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavxFiYjvXJ
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡligjscQijC
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcIwcaYP4F
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFA8uGw8UZ
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UmgRSekss
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeubYTHw96c
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSkMg1FZcj
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GNo3dWMj6
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfiqOBF72z
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORcoaqPKDZ
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaLlXSDA1O
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7P6Z3Xs36
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbg1Weut6L
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDChtaVuQIJ
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfghTqz8Vx
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmd5kQYQFk
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh1Igfxo7Ct
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQadfqVAV8
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dDFQqKHao
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzOLMtSMoh
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEJbdwWsrj
她發現自己有些恐懼。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgES9j9xJx
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13deKbfLtb
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt04zMz1Nw0
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbVK2H635T9
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYSIKxaGgaS
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGbkVh0i2l
最後，Matt離開。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96wry7qrxc
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她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfVsE8s6Q6
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonFIn325UG
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kVQvtqUqZ
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Cw7Ej3ZYn
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqfY3sOQXI
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwug80Mgq8d
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMceVy7nIr
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLPFicwmyt
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2S9FmtHESR
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbTZGyaiOq
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqanXa7BU4e
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3iiKElxe8A
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAGqb2TUcJ
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUwBcAp0IW
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykG2HBdZd7
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1yc0mwpa5U
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBpRSmzIOY
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2jVImxVy8
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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