「咁你呢，又點呀？」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLY4Ti9P0qs
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWrlZYJ44V
阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp179B8bvie
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「托賴，幾好吖。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5iGCmHOi4O
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnMJRddyN5
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSNnywWC3j
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eg2921znU
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKI78VzBYiX
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqUmC6xorH
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMr4dVLC9Oq
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgP1F6rY7kS
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUDjUKmqfZ
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvxEZokocH
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIbBdlhul5
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMQC0vXYOw
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMDjxhpiRP
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxFjksA5To
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5qjTIBHeY
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZWYDdL4Fi
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqggHHctel
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfwdk14gY6
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwDFR5PwBF
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIWs1eaz3N
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnldPf9jml5
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucYzYM6nKR
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gJ8nmcfo1
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJ8aR1KHQt
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObkGzPeJWs
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKZaG06um0
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47CZ5TuhCx
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每天都不想做任何事。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnC2b0GSkLD
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02NZf16X8f
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcit7iMEM2k
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡao64A32vkh
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOoiMNJgFh
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2G9uBRtNuq
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICbRkzKvhC
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mM22JQR0T
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIyLSlFUIP
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYEC3a2D0y
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtRBuS2FH2
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xVqjDhUEW
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHv8gWx4Wr
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MDpeU4KmB
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxQ0W3nlBj
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qgMiUbqjs
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriUeV5xsPk
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vhBqbGhcC
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEgI8msPNh
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQYJLZDQVW
何況，他們如此親厚。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWF8SIGr1la
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08MkG4SeP0
阿樂問：「去邊？」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtcdqohTro
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtNS82Nqfo
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPsxcNaDoh
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwFbEoAneQ
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfL7A4Bgw9C
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutQOPtDk5Y
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpOHS5WAA3
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ib7eSAgFP
Sean回答：800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbqhZfKryD
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OgJNHvz9C
「係。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJD6UBjYZsk
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnn0DsnghVH
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxz6RekjAcx
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5LdCQDFoO
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4YPRnFMW5
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3HOIJOvTt
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfbtzbiuU5
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFWppDuQ1U
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZGT6uMfKD
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijAxvX0qaY
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpuhltBlQ7
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgRGF1JSYm
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡme7yyg8vpO
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRv4wGDtez
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoFxFLMEq6
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0nwNBZ1yy
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFqJ8DhAuD
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdwvVfXZpN
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZdHaB1qgz
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZCv20qLnT
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGDuwYW0lB
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGXpxJ3Kwt
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aUTVEpbfG
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRy8VGjE45
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZRvj8JW3y
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SKrMFejCH
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9DyWL57WT
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOPULRf1Ze
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpOaCTbdn8
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UgG0Wid5c
阿樂質疑：800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHzToTrtUm
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8DLsbAX1h
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDXgKwuKpi
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RUgj6t4S8
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsk7S8pDPbD
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpmc4rMhA5C
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqt8TxpGoqe
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0T8X23IFom
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTdz30mnCv
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuTbnvIftT
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBeiJsregj
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFeiTLRQgE
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEnUp6K0iE
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqIeBtCwyb
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYpwyR38Bl
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPmKsRxFDQ
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPQChJZndG
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQrqBqL3zj
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkbFUA6aty
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdG15ZByM6O
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3DFVGGOei
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVxRG7LEea
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkDIntBODN
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡll6liakC6S
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCxv9nPOPz
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5uFu9ZckH
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBxZc5DmqP
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpn5rVtAbg
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIfz3UzH3o
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ecBxumaqt
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakpfdwlCOF
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUTndrHJpC
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKbl85tXCn
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUAnUjRgT1
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmd8SN3ZYr
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKio09Pzsx6
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAtDdGceSx
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMbI5UrZXz
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9w4Ko754Pv
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRCF7ZA0Lm
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JEB2IaE44
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXCyueSQK5
她發現自己有些恐懼。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIrQxiZie8
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgm2OOQOHP
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8Y7gauS13
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmbqKV1qws
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHTcu0wDcy
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35iRXtPP3c
最後，Matt離開。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYwEZ7JX0s
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她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4W9zsVpvN
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3OAA6TlTJ
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiA6QqXgt7Z
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIPd2BSnr9
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFmqv4Rlac
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd17IWNccBT
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmpHal2bQB
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRVgbBCjV4
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4dMD1iL7A
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3Bk7p7wF8
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYwExYgF53
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WkWgDUl9F
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKlY27W7xR
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHEmArpbzGD
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QCdtgImK4
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUC3b5ck7K
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWoT5fd1St
800Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOPJLBcD4X
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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