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It’s taking over again and I don’t really care. Sometimes I miss feeling how I used to feel. But right now I’m craving drugs. Drugs that I don’t have and don’t know where to find. I want to feel pain on my body. Cuts that sting feel good to me. I’m tired in every way and I am so fed up of everyone around me. I’m being called lazy and damn well I can’t say it’s because I feel like the world is crushing me to pieces. My craving for a smoke is killing me. I need it and I need it soon. I just need to shut out the world and trip for a good while. I wish I could be left alone with my thoughts and just sit around with my phone on do not disturb I wish I could go cold and shut everyone out but i can’t let my pain show in any way. yk sometimes I just want to aggressively slash my wrists and thighs and every part of myself. I love watching myself bleed it’s the most satisfying thing in the world. I just want reality to slip away and for time to stop. I can’t handle my scars fading away I need to make them new again. I’m starting to feel anger bubbling up in me rn and I hate it I fucking hate it. IM SO ANGRY AT NOTHING AND IM AT SCHOOL SO I CANT FLIP OUT I CANT DO ANYTHING EXCEPT LET IT TEAR ME APART. WHAT THE FUCK!!!
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