「你係咪有好多女性朋友㗎?」Priscilla對我說。235Please respect copyright.PENANATqcErmkkcT
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我:我冇乜女仔friend㗎。235Please respect copyright.PENANA8A42x3MzVk
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Priscilla:下?你咁都冇?偽娘唔係應該有好多女性朋友咩?235Please respect copyright.PENANA9c2pyahREH
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我:幼稚園至到小學初期嗰時會,但而家冇曬呢種緣份lu。235Please respect copyright.PENANAswvMsozshZ
我:講起上次拍拖,都已經係8年前,嗰個女仔係喺Facebook識。235Please respect copyright.PENANAvw2zuCPCxm
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說著,我又跟Priscilla說起自己的情史。235Please respect copyright.PENANAFVrnMTbltX
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在大年初一的早上,我和Priscilla在一家中式餐廳吃點心。235Please respect copyright.PENANALuCi4G3eBS
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我是Andy,又名水神,是本長篇故事的主角。235Please respect copyright.PENANAn6ym56DHSE
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這個長篇故事,就要先由我和Priscilla說起。235Please respect copyright.PENANApOebpP08wG
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就算沒有看過上一篇故事,看過前言的人,都大概知道我擁有「女裝大佬」我身份。235Please respect copyright.PENANAcEw8O8Yetz
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先報上自己的status和stage,A1,stage最高記錄是 3。235Please respect copyright.PENANAwyC2LW6Koa
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自從8年前和一個在Facebook認識的女生,談過一個月這麼久的戀愛之後,我就再沒有談過戀愛。235Please respect copyright.PENANAzmavVz7Mss
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甚至嚴格來講,從成年人的角度看,那只是霧水情緣,算不上是正式戀愛。235Please respect copyright.PENANAQAjILMruGL
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為甚麼之後的8年都是單身?雖然我也有宅男的性格,但這不是主要原因。235Please respect copyright.PENANArz6ivvC58a
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真正的原因,是我沒有把意欲投放到感情生活之上。用比喻說,就像一台電腦進入了休眠模式。235Please respect copyright.PENANArpJJHbFflO
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第二個主因,是我把「男生對女生存有性幻想」這件事,想成一件不乾淨的事情,然後再建立出「柏拉圖式的男女關係是最純潔」的價值觀;這也同時解釋了,為甚麼我一直只在stage 3 止步不前。235Please respect copyright.PENANAm5DLvUlAcz
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不像主流的宅男,我沒有心儀的網紅、主播、男神或女神。看到女神,我多數都在想:怎樣模仿她的衣著打扮?性方面,我頂多只是戀物。235Please respect copyright.PENANAtIHA7Yjg54
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相信有不少人都會好奇,到底偽娘的感情生活是怎樣?找男生談戀愛?找女生談戀愛?235Please respect copyright.PENANAAHvvRJ4RI3
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在社會的價值觀規範之下,很多人都會直覺地認為:偽娘就只有找男生談戀愛。235Please respect copyright.PENANA3WtSRYqXXR
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大錯特錯!偽娘也可以找女生談戀愛。235Please respect copyright.PENANAomDwjc5ZA3
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我就是這種人。235Please respect copyright.PENANAdhj8buBsvP
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至於我的性取向,到底是甚麼?235Please respect copyright.PENANAoMOEl9d6en
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我曾經回答過異性戀,也回答過無性戀;但無論如何,我就是最傾向找女生談戀愛。235Please respect copyright.PENANAzAlKITdrnY
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「無性戀」這個字其實被人爭議了很久很久,有人說是的確存在,也有人說它只是個偽命題。235Please respect copyright.PENANAnLCrkO5PcY
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有些觀點認為,人不可能完全沒有「性」,要麼就是「性慾低下症」,不然就是受到後天的環境影響,例如文化、成長背景的影響,所以認為「無性戀」是個偽命題。235Please respect copyright.PENANAbBQjo5sLRF
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舉例說,有些人從小時候,所接受的教育,或者是被某些電視劇集所影響(一些低質劇集甚至把「性」和「性侵」劃些等號),讓他覺得:「性」是不乾淨的東西;然後就是令他以後都會抗拒進入性愛關係,形成所謂的「無性戀」。235Please respect copyright.PENANA8oCWQmc9s2
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這頓早茶,以AA制完。235Please respect copyright.PENANAMhdNTrwwCJ
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我送著Priscilla回家,在路上,「肢體接觸」這四個字像一個鋼造的框架,牢牢地鎖在自己的腦海裡,又是為做而做的接觸;我都是在最近才真正有「肢體接觸」這個概念的。235Please respect copyright.PENANAQQ1sZ6LDvr
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在過馬路時,我眼睛又是瞄著她的手臀,想了一想,好不容易才敢伸手撓下去。235Please respect copyright.PENANAzbBs0NMUdN
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我:下次再玩啦!235Please respect copyright.PENANAE7StcnyLMN
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Priscilla:來一個抱抱吧!235Please respect copyright.PENANACpm4LscpdI
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在Priscilla家的大廳裡,我和她來了一個擁抱道別。235Please respect copyright.PENANAIJurDt5XW3
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這個擁抱,只能算是一般社交式的擁抱;因為我很清楚地感受到,她只是來了一秒,然後就抽身離開,彷彿不再讓我擁抱多幾秒。235Please respect copyright.PENANApXoiV5cwvp
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到底,是真的無性戀,或只是未有把「性」這個靈魂解放出來?235Please respect copyright.PENANAKyZX2smUC9