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April 2020
"Roses are red, violets are blue, I smile all day, because of you!" The young Kaduk enthusiastically said, But.. what response did he get? clearly, nothing! The young man desperately looked at his phone's screen and let a sigh out.86Please respect copyright.PENANAGdHVUgRZe0
"Lord, for how long does she want to ignore me? For how long should my soul be tortured? Isn't three years of suffering enough? What have I done to deserve this all?"86Please respect copyright.PENANAd1tcNwUUfT
He knew what he had done. In the depth of his heart, he knew that he was not the innocent man everyone thought him to be.86Please respect copyright.PENANAVyDz4dG2VK
Feeling desperate and miserable, Kaduk did reach for his drawer, grabbed a pen, and started to write:86Please respect copyright.PENANA5R77SsfVn1
Alas... the man's tears can't be released from his chest86Please respect copyright.PENANA5ZUGTjKo7P
Alas... his fruits never riped even tho he did his best86Please respect copyright.PENANAhj36i76FAd
Alas.... he never gave up on his thoughts86Please respect copyright.PENANAQmVcAE2Fyw
Alas.... cause he gave it in and fought86Please respect copyright.PENANARSm8fkBHLX
Alas... sorrows of the young man were never heard86Please respect copyright.PENANAMguQo45mvP
Alas.... he messed it all up and no one even cared86Please respect copyright.PENANAh8DPuUtVWC
Alas... he climbed the rock all up to his fate86Please respect copyright.PENANAkiWYxYINbM
Alas... & never knew he has no man but his mate86Please respect copyright.PENANAjaqvGZZT61
Alas... poor man was surrounded by emotion86Please respect copyright.PENANAE9uN848zVB
Alas... he was yet waiting for a motion86Please respect copyright.PENANAt51j44PhxM
Alas... all he had was just his hope86Please respect copyright.PENANAfkRZ516W7r
Alas... & what he got was a nope...86Please respect copyright.PENANA3L6aYxZA1X
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"To send or not to send? That was the question!" He started struggling with himself, sending this poem to his beloved one could make everything even worse but... what did he have to lose anyway?86Please respect copyright.PENANAwwK4sVpMpa
Who would ever imagine Kaduk, this humble but furious captain of FC Arman, a man who never cared about relationships, a pure virgin, falling in love like that?86Please respect copyright.PENANAqUnBW87bLp
Ever since he met Karnastiya, he faced a revolution in his heart and mind. He was not the man he used to be.86Please respect copyright.PENANAkaR400ICYn
For his heart and mind were stolen by one gorgeous, sweet, smart, and also an arrogant girl who was indeed far-fetching to impress.86Please respect copyright.PENANAnEGmen0GG8
Hours, days, and months passed by but there was no sign of success ahead.86Please respect copyright.PENANAXJuu7TB4Sf
His heart eagerly wanted him to keep going and not give up on impressing Karnastiya while his brain advised the opposite. But what was the best decision he could make?86Please respect copyright.PENANAOymKyZ5E6a
Thus, continued the deadly combat between heart and logic...86Please respect copyright.PENANAE7mGRy8Ish
With his tears dripping, Once again, he reached for his phone but on second thought, he put it back on the desk.86Please respect copyright.PENANAfzaaNDbpIZ
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Chapter II: When it all began86Please respect copyright.PENANAxChqaDDQeL
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November 2017
That was a mood-boosting rainy evening. The air was getting cold and winter was becoming easier to behold.86Please respect copyright.PENANAPJ8A9YHcc7
Business as usual, Kaduk was drinking a latte, surfing the net in the meanwhile.86Please respect copyright.PENANAl3dtTzFHeC
"Ah, someone has visited my profile, let's see who it is...86Please respect copyright.PENANAYPqTsBNI0l
Well, Her name is Karnastyia from Ukraine, hm, and she studies Persian literature. That's very interesting indeed!"86Please respect copyright.PENANAvLlIeWAhYo
Possessing similar interests in history, literature, and video games, he decided to send her a message. This warm-hearted man was always eager to help those who wanted to learn the Persian language.86Please respect copyright.PENANAV95EEJJzEq
"Good Evening Karnastiya, Thanks for visiting my profile. My name is Kaduk, just like you, I study literature, and of course, I'm in love with history! I will be truly glad if you grant me the honor to get to know more about you. Besides, don't hesitate to ask me if you might ever need help with your Persian studies :)"86Please respect copyright.PENANA73l4UBZT7l
His high school studies were slowly coming to an end. However, Kaduk never wanted this to happen! He would definitely miss his classmates, teachers, and even Mr. Kazaki, the angry old man who was in charge of managing the school.86Please respect copyright.PENANA0TdHQuHym1
Life was indeed peaceful and, beautiful. But we never know what expects us the next day. One day, when we don't expect it at all, the parrot of love sits in our hearts, building a nest.86Please respect copyright.PENANAlSr33j8BH3
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February 201886Please respect copyright.PENANAGzDsM8EAUX
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Having a wide smile on his face, he quickly reached for his phone and started writing an email to his old friend.86Please respect copyright.PENANAC6BSYQkw9g
"Dear Sandra, can you imagine? I mean, just, I don't know how to describe this godly creature. It's been a few months since I met a young lady whose name is Karnastiya. She is from Ukraine, just like you! I feel like I can never live a single day in her absence. With that much joy, she's brought to my life. We even play games together and guess what? She says that she wants to visit Tehran in the upcoming summer! She's someone I can talk to about anything that pops up in my mind.86Please respect copyright.PENANAuuAQCMBikf
When she speaks, I can't stop smiling or sometimes I even laugh. One might think I'm crazy or something but let it be, isn't it how falling in love is?86Please respect copyright.PENANAL0glLtW6qX
It's truly one of the most joyful feelings that have ever existed in the history of humankind.86Please respect copyright.PENANAa7mJJmeG5n
I'll write to you again soon. Please take good care of yourself!"86Please respect copyright.PENANAcqLKe9Winb
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June 201886Please respect copyright.PENANAH37aaOW8NE
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"She has just revealed that she's interested in someone, ah, it was like an arrow in my chest, a fiery arrow that ruthlessly burns the man's heart. To be honest, I can't breathe... just don't know what to do. I can't give up on her. Even if she has given her heart to somebody else! Yes, I will wait, but I won't tell her anything.86Please respect copyright.PENANAlz7Dz4OVKI
I know it might all be immoral, but how can I stop loving her? you know, dear Sandra, it's the first time ever that I feel like this, the first time that I am truly in love. I know it might sound stupid, but I will wait for as long as I need to. Who knows, perhaps, one day she'll realize that nobody loves her as much as I do!"86Please respect copyright.PENANAMTJvjeMuUb
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December 201886Please respect copyright.PENANAm5WNRxu0BJ
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"Sandra, It's been already two weeks since I had a conversation with her and she has been offline since then. We were discussing a new movie and she suddenly disappeared. I'm nervous and stressed out.86Please respect copyright.PENANA6CIyH0o1Fc
I remember some disputes had erupted in their relationship but I don't think it was that serious and I hope not! I just hope she's alright because I never want to see her sad. Even if it means that I'll have to keep her love in my chest and seal my lips forever!"86Please respect copyright.PENANANzTVuSPwxj
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Chapter III: The Year of Desolation86Please respect copyright.PENANAsffRJWnXxr
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July 201986Please respect copyright.PENANAgANhs3UxT5
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"Doroha Sandra, it's been months since she went into the dark. I'm really nervous. What has happened to her? May the Lord himself protect her.86Please respect copyright.PENANADP1meRafz2
I just can't stop thinking about her. You might not believe but I even see her in my dreams in which, she's often silent. Once, she was sitting among sunflowers, looking at me with a smile on her sweet lips, however, she did not say a single word.86Please respect copyright.PENANAKR9OGttg7s
The other time, we were somewhere near an abandoned workshop. I asked if I can hug her but she wanted me to enter the workshop and kill five cockroaches first. I know it might sound ridiculous but well, it is what is it. I managed to kill four cockroaches and damn, I woke up and failed to hug her. That was such a deep sense of frustration! Why can't we live in our dreams?"86Please respect copyright.PENANAdsHfCbVr50
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October 201986Please respect copyright.PENANAyZMgKN7JKQ
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"She's back! I can't believe this, Sandra, but the wait is finally over! what's more joyful than seeing your beloved one again? after nearly a year? My friend, I can't describe my excitement. It's truly a heavenly joy, given by God himself to enlighten my soul.86Please respect copyright.PENANAlgwpzQsaeu
She said that she broke up with her boyfriend some months ago. Well, that was to be expected as I could see how nervous and upset she was back in late 2018.86Please respect copyright.PENANAkOeqFuZHPW
I even told her about my feelings, yes! I know it was kinda stupid to immediately jump on this topic but I couldn't hide my excitement and love anymore.86Please respect copyright.PENANANMPCfkQaN5
However, I didn't get the answer I was hoping for. Alas, there's someone in her life.86Please respect copyright.PENANApNmfcyCUiB
I do feel like a concrete wall has collapsed on me..."86Please respect copyright.PENANAlmOxucJa23
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November 201986Please respect copyright.PENANA5oKcOZtiqr
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"What happens that one loses interest in one else? How those of the people who would hang out and chat every day and night, suddenly start to communicate less and less. It's been always one of my questions. As a random dude says: There are several continents and billions of humans but you lose your heart to exactly the one who doesn't have the same feelings for you.86Please respect copyright.PENANA8vH0JEcYIG
The philosophy of life is indeed something complicated and uneasy to understand for us ordinary people.86Please respect copyright.PENANAjnPB5KLRxy
Yes, as you might have already guessed, it's been a while since I haven't had a chance to talk to her. In fact, I often find her online but I don't get any responses. However, I do know that I'm guilty of all this. Perhaps, I had a chance to impress her but lost it due to being too careless in expressing my ideas, thoughts, and feelings.86Please respect copyright.PENANAESygvYB8RM
It's surely understandable that I have pushed her away from myself. When I take a deeper look at it, I realize that she might have no reason to feel something for me and as I said, it's logical.86Please respect copyright.PENANAN7xgHUk71Z
You can never impress someone if you fail to present yourself in a proper way.86Please respect copyright.PENANAnZYcjO3UDU
I don't think I would love myself if I were in her shoes, definitely not!"86Please respect copyright.PENANAf47vgxJFIY
That being said, the young man decided to fade away, having no hope of winning Karnastiya's heart, Kaduk went into the dark for a while, trying to make the wrong things right in his life and make a much better version of himself. So that, who knows, perhaps he would have a chance to strike back!86Please respect copyright.PENANASR8hSOUEvZ
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Chapter IV: The Matter of Life and Death86Please respect copyright.PENANARZRr6raCic
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"Dear Sandra, you must forgive me for not contacting you for more than a year. I understand that you might be really angry at me but to tell you the truth, I needed to stay away from social media. I really needed to have some peace of mind!86Please respect copyright.PENANAUoOCZzolLu
Thanks to the Lord, I've made some good progress in my life. Now I'm a teacher and I have my own car! I call him "Busphalas". It's a glorious name, is it not?86Please respect copyright.PENANAIOCXHvsUXn
Aside from that, I have started to play soccer again. Our team continues to smash all the opponents. How joyful it is!86Please respect copyright.PENANA8TfUknYXCz
It was not easy to stop thinking about Karnastiya. She would constantly appear in my night dreams but I did it! I try not to think about her anymore. Though, I must confess that in the depth of my heart, something still loves her...86Please respect copyright.PENANAhsV84J8FYi
I shall contact you soon, please take care!"86Please respect copyright.PENANAKraPNXTEMH
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January 202286Please respect copyright.PENANAeE7WqM3D97
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"I could not bear this anymore. It's been more than a year already. Well, I know it was a stupid move but I called her. Hearing her sweet voice was such a heartwarming blessing. My eyes were wet and butterflies were flying in my heart. But I knew that she will slip away again so I wasn't surprised when she disappeared after a couple of days.86Please respect copyright.PENANAdJqyVVe0yN
Perhaps it was my fault again. Perhaps I was not able to keep her interested in conversing with me..."86Please respect copyright.PENANAUJkt2T0JaH
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March 202286Please respect copyright.PENANAbhz5BpvUBg
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"Who would ever imagine such a full-scale invasion happening in the twenty-first century?86Please respect copyright.PENANAbBa8Y5ozRt
Well, we all know what's happening in Syria, Iraq, Afghanistan, and many other parts of the world but a full-scale invasion? that's a new drama in this century.86Please respect copyright.PENANAPVmkpCJJAD
Please take good care of yourself, Sandra. You know how precious you are to me. Keep me updated on your well-being!86Please respect copyright.PENANAsVLzy1q1yk
I had a phone call with Karnastiya. Thanks to the Lord, she's alright. I had never been as nervous as I currently am in my entire life. What if something bad happens to her?86Please respect copyright.PENANADr4zpxGClA
It's not easy to have phone calls with her but I shall keep trying.86Please respect copyright.PENANAyzVCIPGQ1E
Stay safe, Sandra!"86Please respect copyright.PENANAKwmsM5uIYm
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April 202286Please respect copyright.PENANAvwbggbkuP1
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"My dear friend, the time has come and I have made my decision! I have applied to join the volunteer division so I shall meet you soon in Kyiv Oblast.86Please respect copyright.PENANAOxelzEjqZY
I am having the hardest times of my life. How can I put everything I have, my family, and my loved ones behind and move to the other side of the world, putting my life at risk?86Please respect copyright.PENANAXihUveyxyK
But something in the depth of my heart is telling me that everything will be alright and I will survive! Yes, I have absolute faith in this!86Please respect copyright.PENANAYG55KInDRl
Besides, I do have to protect her, how can I leave her alone? She needs me more than ever. She might not even care about my existence but I do, I do care about her!"86Please respect copyright.PENANALHwiNIRE03
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Chapter V: The End of an Era86Please respect copyright.PENANAX4IF7QTjpv
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May 2022
"I was hoping to be assigned as one of the defenders of Kyiv so that I could protect her but... I was wrong! We were dispatched to reinforce Mariupol instead and things are just horrible here.86Please respect copyright.PENANA1dw2DAGNjO
There are wounded soldiers and civilians everywhere. Meanwhile, we are low on medical and food supplies...86Please respect copyright.PENANArXAU4hQWLI
I hope God will show us mercy because the Russian artillery is bombarding the city nonstop. There's no way out and now the city is fully under siege.86Please respect copyright.PENANAbgydKvvfyj
I shall confess that I'm scared... But Sandra, what's nicer than dying for your beloved girl?86Please respect copyright.PENANAdZusTHA9dl
Last night I started to write some verses but I failed to finish them, I felt desperate...86Please respect copyright.PENANA3CCS1yvcAk
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Nastiya... you, who walk in the ruins of the fallen land, arise!86Please respect copyright.PENANAKs4qBYzOAx
Nastiya... your green eyes are what, day and night, are seen in the skies!86Please respect copyright.PENANAR8bNb0rNjm
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I am afraid without serious action, there will be even darker days ahead of us.86Please respect copyright.PENANAzOVmtmgmET
People have high hopes here, there's still some hope to break the siege and find a way out so we must not give up just yet. Nobody wants to surrender here, absolutely nobody!86Please respect copyright.PENANAWHhLUTwwhC
I tell you, my friend, these people are so brave!86Please respect copyright.PENANAzJFL2jSd1n
In less than an hour, comrades and I will attempt to break the siege and find some supplies.86Please respect copyright.PENANAm8Q6lAxQPa
I promised Commander Radzinsky to not disappoint him. We need medicine or we will lose some of our best comrades.86Please respect copyright.PENANAHR5zaMOsnD
Yes, I am scared but I got no choice, I have to give it my all!86Please respect copyright.PENANAWMbXO29g3z
You may not hear from me again because nobody knows if we will make it or not, but please tell her why I did this.86Please respect copyright.PENANALjMaWUxstE
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God be with you86Please respect copyright.PENANALFTkDkRfC2
Kaduk"86Please respect copyright.PENANAfS1QkDyW6W
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And for months, what happened to this passionate lover, Kaduk, remained a mystery.86Please respect copyright.PENANADkYINEwgKE
Until on a windy afternoon, a one-handed man, carrying his rifle was seen, wandering in an abandoned village near Bila Tserkava...86Please respect copyright.PENANAOvnbJZ7jMQ
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