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Some of my colleagues 321Please respect copyright.PENANADzSXwCZep8
believe that humans cannot repress memories. That memories which are 321Please respect copyright.PENANAlBznePEtF1
remembered with the help of someone are just implanted through 321Please respect copyright.PENANA4qOJBDVcoO
suggestion or hypnosis.321Please respect copyright.PENANAyVdRBDIyyg
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Utter none sense I say! In a world where321Please respect copyright.PENANA2DJjvdxmnd
ether exists, some find it hardest to believe that we humans can 321Please respect copyright.PENANAr7HjiGy9Qr
repress our memories. Those scientists and professors are too arrogant 321Please respect copyright.PENANAQpO3kHig3p
to admit that we know nothing of the brain and what it can do. They want321Please respect copyright.PENANAM3Tx54ZGrs
me to prove without certainty of a doubt that humans can repress 321Please respect copyright.PENANAqkA29R9TGY
memories. Well to that I say, I want them to prove that it cannot. For I321Please respect copyright.PENANAo9g8MXh7QW
am not arrogant enough to state I know everything about our brains 321Please respect copyright.PENANATdfam7OJ11
capabilities.321Please respect copyright.PENANAqsyyHDmcxc
'Notes from a lecture by Sig Frind on memories at the Royal Commonwealth College."321Please respect copyright.PENANArervzSgwlJ
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David awakened. Not 321Please respect copyright.PENANASJYB6fKJxK
wanting to get up out of fear of the wounds and disfigurations he 321Please respect copyright.PENANAEp2v3l4p37
suffered. He closed his eyes. Ignoring reality, ignoring the inevitable,321Please respect copyright.PENANAScxnNKP4yi
ignoring the pain....wait. David risked moving his hands in front of 321Please respect copyright.PENANAHtvI2crQiu
his face and all the fingers were there. Not only that his hands were 321Please respect copyright.PENANAt0xb7SH79C
undamaged.321Please respect copyright.PENANAF4ThUvzUct
"Only your physical body321Please respect copyright.PENANA8XUyzJz45s
was damaged, your ether form is safe." A voice broke David's 321Please respect copyright.PENANAMD3LEeqKVt
concentration. "The only reason your eye is gone is because the blast of321Please respect copyright.PENANAaD3u5NANgC
steam that burned your eye was full of ether."321Please respect copyright.PENANAfEgaF38e3H
A shadowy form appeared.321Please respect copyright.PENANAgmHQebU34U
Jester. Instead of his form constantly shifting and his voice taking 321Please respect copyright.PENANAwZG2c6YhxU
different intonations, Jester was only wearing a cloak over his body 321Please respect copyright.PENANAS5QPMh77XK
hiding any features. And his voice sounded...almost human.321Please respect copyright.PENANAwc6Z3UtEEg
"Long time no see, David. Well for you, I've been watching you for a while." Jester laughed as if he said something funny.321Please respect copyright.PENANAiz5Y7aXSQL
"Am I in the...ether 321Please respect copyright.PENANA8PueTbaonk
world again?" David asked looking around, seeing rocks flying around, 321Please respect copyright.PENANAGFskvsPjPn
storms raging in the skies and shadows flickering in and out of life.321Please respect copyright.PENANA7nAKZVn1UF
Jester clapped." Indeed! You are learning, maybe you won't be completely useless." 321Please respect copyright.PENANAWaXjX9kByq
David was tired, too 321Please respect copyright.PENANATL6cWgTDaz
tired for Jester. Even so he still stood up. "Jester can we...can we 321Please respect copyright.PENANAqXjF1U60st
just all this?" David waved his hands in the space between the two.321Please respect copyright.PENANAgIoM5Of4FB
The shadowy hood cocked 321Please respect copyright.PENANA0098iwUC6J
to a side. "Oh, that's just boring." David began a reply but Jester 321Please respect copyright.PENANAOjdNBWMB6a
interrupted him. "Very well, if it'll save me from your nagging. 321Please respect copyright.PENANA9u12xoJETP
Knowing what's waiting for you in the real world, you'd think you'd be 321Please respect copyright.PENANAQJ0zk5uQ70
more grateful."321Please respect copyright.PENANAsGJTYQ2MZ1
"I..."321Please respect copyright.PENANAGrOcdvUzvH
"I went through all the trouble of getting you here. Hiding my presence from my brother and other mages. Honestly some people."321Please respect copyright.PENANAFPlD5QJjJS
David groaned in 321Please respect copyright.PENANAelbbZAj4e6
annoyance. "I've just been tortured for the better part of my day. Even 321Please respect copyright.PENANABkhEVXZA1c
if my body isn't feeling it, my mind is. So if you can get to your 321Please respect copyright.PENANAEJYSXz1cZ2
falling point, that'd be fly."321Please respect copyright.PENANARHRc91rXLO
Jester muttered something David couldn't hear. "Very well. What do you remember of your childhood?"321Please respect copyright.PENANAXB9fSwN68A
David was startled by the question "What does that have to do with anything?"321Please respect copyright.PENANAofNmkIGe0R
"Well it's the main point of my visit, and you did say you wanted to stop playing games. What about your mother.?"321Please respect copyright.PENANAQlrX9NW9lj
A headache, feeling of resentment. "She's dead, or alive. I don't flying care."321Please respect copyright.PENANA0dCOcwHPj3
"Have you ever wondered why you don't remember your childhood?"321Please respect copyright.PENANAwB5xaGpOLj
"How do you even..." Then David had a realization. "It was you? Were you the one who took my memory?"321Please respect copyright.PENANA6O8JDMczCy
Jester giggled and put his hands up. "Guilty."321Please respect copyright.PENANANpeXOSRA3h
David shouted and 321Please respect copyright.PENANA9pAov8L6P9
tackled the cloaked figure. His mind couldn't take it. After all that 321Please respect copyright.PENANArxbcg4JUkw
torture and Jester's games, after all the pain and loneliness, after all321Please respect copyright.PENANAW3iCzm9fLv
the deaths, David just wanted to blame someone. "Give back my life!" He321Please respect copyright.PENANA9gbA8EmpCu
punched inside Jesters hood, meeting only air. "Give back my freedom!" 321Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0ahemkiIl
Another punch. "Give back my happiness!" Tears joined the third punch, 321Please respect copyright.PENANAiqi3APWMIC
which was David's last as Jester started cackling and dissolved into 321Please respect copyright.PENANAxL3rKScqDj
mist.321Please respect copyright.PENANAXpsaezGUxS
Jester's voice came from321Please respect copyright.PENANAeHCIZKLCro
behind. "Do you truly think, your misfortune sterns from me?" David 321Please respect copyright.PENANAHDFnqMW35K
could see surround shadows gathering around him. "What of everyone 321Please respect copyright.PENANAGvqXvc1PzG
you've betrayed? People who would've called you their friend or lover. 321Please respect copyright.PENANAeAKYFNPwoz
Killed or abandoned for coin or survival. The shadows seemed to be 321Please respect copyright.PENANAH7CXCKQiGc
creating a circle around Jester and David.321Please respect copyright.PENANAWvzDM0p8qO
"You're lying to yourself. You..." 321Please respect copyright.PENANAXBxBoHggeD
"Shut up!" David 321Please respect copyright.PENANAwDQT9fYCp6
struggled to get up. "Shut your falling mouth. You don't know me, I 321Please respect copyright.PENANAlqzTN7zWes
don't care if you're one of the five, or a demon, or a falling figment 321Please respect copyright.PENANAxNy3jrsLkj
of my imagination only I know what or who I am!"321Please respect copyright.PENANA6dEPQRPsBU
Jester gave another 321Please respect copyright.PENANAOpM9qOoAjO
laugh, a laugh that chilled David to the bone. Don't I? What makes you 321Please respect copyright.PENANAPWgYY6hbGr
so sure? Or are you just trying to convince yourself because you're 321Please respect copyright.PENANAN75cY5MBxg
afraid of the truth?" 321Please respect copyright.PENANAuLXn42erWg
"I'm not afraid,I'm..." 321Please respect copyright.PENANAMeZxrqdYOm
"You're what? A 321Please respect copyright.PENANAYdFERi3drA
despicable human being? True. A murderer, liar and cheat? Also correct. 321Please respect copyright.PENANAVkoF9qvwaP
But allow me to show you something, something that will make everything 321Please respect copyright.PENANAb0Ro10ymLA
you've done not matter." 321Please respect copyright.PENANA6oofi6Y5Ob
The shadows completely 321Please respect copyright.PENANAObBzXgyWeG
surrounded the two of them now. "Allow me to show you the why you're 321Please respect copyright.PENANADwfGK0PPn0
afraid. Allow me to show you why you forgot your childhood. Allow me 321Please respect copyright.PENANAtaGrl7CH9p
show you why this world needs to die." Jester put his hand over David's 321Please respect copyright.PENANAUmbi6l7f91
eye and shadows swallowed him.321Please respect copyright.PENANAtRvgVqMRQW
Shadows parting, David 321Please respect copyright.PENANACWXaEBedRI
found himself in a room. Bottles and rubbish littering the floor. A 321Please respect copyright.PENANAViQTn2p8OI
woman in the middle of the floor, flailing and screaming from pain. 321Please respect copyright.PENANACCiXxXB1e7
David could see her so clearly as if he wasn't in the fade anymore. No 321Please respect copyright.PENANA8D6HIeqf6L
more shadowy figures or echoes. Just an improvished room and David's 321Please respect copyright.PENANAIiqVpi1n6t
mother321Please respect copyright.PENANALO282yDaQ5
"This is my memory." 321Please respect copyright.PENANA5lqCzZVzoQ
Jester said as he appeared besides David. "You claimed I don't know 321Please respect copyright.PENANAX8vO54R3eP
you, yet I might just be the person who knows you the most.321Please respect copyright.PENANAAxk18ipaGg
David didn't reply to 321Please respect copyright.PENANAxK9hQOkmBx
that. He just looked at the woman as various feelings rose within him. 321Please respect copyright.PENANAKeBwgOKaaX
Love, longing, loneliness, but most of all hate.321Please respect copyright.PENANAgpSvxBZYqf
Unaware of what was 321Please respect copyright.PENANApcaR0McdUi
inside David's mind, Jester continued. "From the time that you were 321Please respect copyright.PENANAJZz1Eh9m0c
conceived, when your father raped your mother neither the first nor last321Please respect copyright.PENANAPFhjeFnag0
time. Your poor mother, she loved your father with all her heart, 321Please respect copyright.PENANAJLKnQZUBgC
despite his many, many faults. It is rather amusing how such a man can 321Please respect copyright.PENANALkLmaobMl7
find true love and yet you cannot." David didn't rise to the bait. "She 321Please respect copyright.PENANAopO6CasJDS
tried getting rid of you, taking herbs and the like, it didn't work. She321Please respect copyright.PENANAC56VUhz3vu
was even tempted to stab herself in the stomach but she was too scared 321Please respect copyright.PENANArRGTtW6jsQ
she would die. A running theme with you Oxthornes, fear of death."321Please respect copyright.PENANAG6mk93kOpp
Finally the screams of 321Please respect copyright.PENANAT94IfDUH30
pain were replaced by the screams of a baby. Whispers from the babies 321Please respect copyright.PENANA4SJqZIiSQX
mother reached David as if she was speaking to him. "Quiet, just stay 321Please respect copyright.PENANA1WCzGXby7v
quiet. You ruined my life, he stopped loving me because of you. You. 321Please respect copyright.PENANA9W0bO4MEwa
You. You." The baby started crying louder, screeching the woman grabbed 321Please respect copyright.PENANAEjgEilAOdf
the baby's throat and squeezed.321Please respect copyright.PENANAvjy7kXpe4i
David could feel his 321Please respect copyright.PENANAbwNTWQAwCo
throat contract, the air trapped in his lungs, extending them beyond 321Please respect copyright.PENANAz8wYeZ0MRi
their capacity. The shock made him go to his knee. "This is when you 321Please respect copyright.PENANArHpkYciISk
died." David could hear Jesters voice in the back of his head. Just as 321Please respect copyright.PENANAS2Om3KeNb8
the room began spinning his breath and vision returned and the crying 321Please respect copyright.PENANAWQHGWJcbc0
stopped.321Please respect copyright.PENANAMcxkUEOitz
"Oh, nonononono." The 321Please respect copyright.PENANAUya8LLd0H7
woman wailed. She put the baby gently on the floor and started pushing 321Please respect copyright.PENANAZFvkQ7ABNu
on its chest. Gently at first, and then with more distress. 321Please respect copyright.PENANAvbZqw2E7oH
"You who were supposed 321Please respect copyright.PENANAhM4F9BunGJ
to die, defied death." Thus the baby started crying again, weakly at 321Please respect copyright.PENANATlwi4IAlHp
first but then gained more vigor. "Yet by dying you became closer to 321Please respect copyright.PENANAgir6VRBQnS
the etherworld, susceptible to its inhabitants." 321Please respect copyright.PENANAh7eprjiZhs
Coughing David stood up 321Please respect copyright.PENANAnR3hX25yKj
and looked at the mother and son figure...No he looked at him and his 321Please respect copyright.PENANAtBRDEZmLzW
mother. David didn't want to believe this image, yet deep down he knew 321Please respect copyright.PENANAiMyDh8hggb
it was the truth. "Did...were you the one who brought me back?"321Please respect copyright.PENANAWVtVHjXnvf
"No, it was a small 321Please respect copyright.PENANAVZITBsJP0D
miracle, for all of us." David was unsure if he should believe Jester 321Please respect copyright.PENANAld8miobcnr
but before he could question it anymore his vision changed again.321Please respect copyright.PENANAyDeQwL80W4
He was staring at the 321Please respect copyright.PENANA8vUvISIKX1
wom...his mummy. His mummy who loved him and took care of him, David was321Please respect copyright.PENANAY0ONTbURSy
only good at one thing, getting in the way of his mummy's work. He 321Please respect copyright.PENANAwk4EQfidP1
learned to be quiet after the first few times she slapped him, he 321Please respect copyright.PENANA1MPxnTkhvQ
deserved it because mummy did her best to provide for him and David was 321Please respect copyright.PENANATrDyaxBMJP
just a useless existence, just like his mummy said.321Please respect copyright.PENANAtIo6qK51Rw
But today David got to be usefull. He had the opportunity to make his mummy proud and happy.321Please respect copyright.PENANAmnRY8Unbu2
"There you go, David." She said brushing his hair with her hand. "You will make mummy proud, won't you?"321Please respect copyright.PENANAb4SK36aUwt
"I will!" Came a squeaky321Please respect copyright.PENANAGAhLAdlZCn
voice. "I will make you proud..est!" David said as he put a book down.321Please respect copyright.PENANAwhwlATmFya
David was unsure what the name or what the words inside said but it had321Please respect copyright.PENANAL4gl2NpWVK
pictures of flying ships and heroes, something he wanted to be when he 321Please respect copyright.PENANANmCvidbBOH
was an adult.321Please respect copyright.PENANAXKwXiRChoz
A knock came from a door321Please respect copyright.PENANAZopqoX8nry
and David's mummy went to answer it. She spoke to someone in hushed 321Please respect copyright.PENANAITcMIETJLn
tones and then left the room without giving David a glance back. In her 321Please respect copyright.PENANAFqTkCP5WBU
stead a stranger came. David had never seen the man before and he was 321Please respect copyright.PENANAs5YAXZVRmG
scared of strangers. Whenever a stranger came in with his mummy he was 321Please respect copyright.PENANAhvOdzsT5T5
supposed to be quiet otherwise he wouldn't get food and get slapped for 321Please respect copyright.PENANAM0jJNr5kWL
being a bad boy.321Please respect copyright.PENANAPvOvdX5Mem
That's why he didn't 321Please respect copyright.PENANAd6o6RWpm9W
speak, didn't move, didn't look at the stranger. "Speak up boy, what's 321Please respect copyright.PENANAwILZA0TwCZ
your name?" The man said in a haughty voice.321Please respect copyright.PENANA6BO6xmIqTA
"D..david" the answer 321Please respect copyright.PENANALFxm1OICje
came in a whisper. The stranger grunted and came closer to David, moving321Please respect copyright.PENANADGLh8Z9cln
empty bottles with his boots. "I said speak up."321Please respect copyright.PENANARQLv8U0rth
"David!" Came out the reply, which sounded too loud in David's ears.321Please respect copyright.PENANA6MQURrlizK
The man put his hands on321Please respect copyright.PENANAgRX9EMeBFf
Davids shoulders and smiled. "David? I'm David aswell, David Hozzelpoff321Please respect copyright.PENANA6tZXXylVkW
to be exact. Do you recognize my name?"321Please respect copyright.PENANAUkwVefxyZ3
David meekly shook his 321Please respect copyright.PENANAKzzp3Lpar8
head and was shoved to the floor. David hit the floor hard, losing his 321Please respect copyright.PENANA41i2u00OiK
breath. "I am the greatest mind of this century!" He crouched down 321Please respect copyright.PENANAALgMEQD2AS
putting his face next to Davids. "Soon everyone will know my name, no 321Please respect copyright.PENANAdw8hIZRirY
matter what my colleagues say or what rumors they spread." He said but 321Please respect copyright.PENANABX6P16vcF1
the anger was slowly leaving his voice. "You must understand, I'm not 321Please respect copyright.PENANAzTkWbx7Kg1
usually like this, but...but sometime you just reach that point. I'm a 321Please respect copyright.PENANAZgaQteKKJm
good man I have a bright future and sometimes you just need obstacles, 321Please respect copyright.PENANAKu8YJgpvW4
you are just that an obstacle that I must conquer." The man was 321Please respect copyright.PENANA4JdRORDmhA
bubbling. Caressing Davids face with his hand, the other one moving down321Please respect copyright.PENANAFDqlayvCXP
Davids body.321Please respect copyright.PENANAqadHoZ8KH4
Please don't. Came adult David's voice321Please respect copyright.PENANAZz260wLHN8
Young David was scared; 321Please respect copyright.PENANAS5oAB0CSpn
he was used to beatings but not being touched in that way. He tried 321Please respect copyright.PENANAMMg3QwgFMm
wiggling away from the man pinned David down with his greater weight. 321Please respect copyright.PENANAo9Fq0nn3S6
"Stop resisting." Derek hissed. "If everyone just didn't resist I 321Please respect copyright.PENANA2DTzkfn9ma
wouldn't be here I wouldn't need to do anything."321Please respect copyright.PENANAoVTfhbLf45
Help me. Save me. Came the child and adult voice intermixed.321Please respect copyright.PENANAddiiAtDAU9
"Mummy, mummy!" David 321Please respect copyright.PENANAF5yUSEYbhq
screamed, tears flowing, a feeling of wetness around his legs. Finally 321Please respect copyright.PENANAHCaeYYLCnU
the man slammed his palm into Davids face. That stopped all resistance, 321Please respect copyright.PENANAoRJucs6Gk8
after that day David liked to pretend that he lost consciousness, that 321Please respect copyright.PENANAmMMeVo4c9n
everything that happened was a nightmare, but deep down he knew better, 321Please respect copyright.PENANAd6ZarJZkQa
he knew that what he saw and felt was what had happened.321Please respect copyright.PENANA4KfryFEK6l
David didn't even know 321Please respect copyright.PENANAMwdaCQHhDV
when the man finished, his mind was blank and when he came to he could 321Please respect copyright.PENANAOKy0vTsmA9
see his mummy looking at him. She scoffed. "Clean yourself up, you're a 321Please respect copyright.PENANALMKlCPRrzq
mess. David tried crying but no tears came.321Please respect copyright.PENANAEc1pMiTdw1
Suddenly the room shifted again and David himself as an adult again. "That was the first time it happened. One of many." 321Please respect copyright.PENANA8XZnW6vE3H
David could barely hear 321Please respect copyright.PENANA3Lu7rO1pZ0
jester, as all the memories came flowing back. It overwhelmed him and 321Please respect copyright.PENANAFdI3T0Hdro
the tears he couldn't find as a child freely flew out of him and he 321Please respect copyright.PENANAHBXwL3AY3W
screamed into the void. Out of desperation, out of misery, out of pure 321Please respect copyright.PENANAY4oxCO1i44
anger. 321Please respect copyright.PENANAM5kqy9SPyy
"There are more 321Please respect copyright.PENANAYvaN5THDcV
memories. Let me know when you're ready." David looked at jester, whose 321Please respect copyright.PENANAcLCQ6KSSWa
form changed again. His hood was down but half of his face was covered 321Please respect copyright.PENANAGnzJ6mGGny
in a dark like substance. The other looked...looked like a normal adult 321Please respect copyright.PENANAh94kED0yk8
male. David almost recognized it but couldn't quite place it.321Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8j821cMY4
"What else is there to 321Please respect copyright.PENANACNye5IbJ02
remember?" David asked as he got up. Jester just smiled. "Just indulge 321Please respect copyright.PENANAU7UuqzS72h
me." Jester waved his hand again and David was standing in front of a 321Please respect copyright.PENANAy9rDKWrNV9
mirror. He could see himself, a young teen. With dead eyes and bruises 321Please respect copyright.PENANAMB9MabaZAQ
all around his body. He looked at the glass shard in his hand. The blood321Please respect copyright.PENANAUXb4ZGPLN2
that was spilling down his arm and hand was slowly dripping on the 321Please respect copyright.PENANAhWmlCzyE4X
floor. 321Please respect copyright.PENANADRILXKz54s
Even the pain didn't 321Please respect copyright.PENANA3Hqz81FTvG
offer him solace, it used to be that the pain he inflicted on himself 321Please respect copyright.PENANAC0MplWLPuA
offered an escape, but no more. One flick of the shard though...and 321Please respect copyright.PENANAHxMcEZurlu
everything would be gone.321Please respect copyright.PENANAKoKinlPiqD
~Just like that, give up321Please respect copyright.PENANAQwcCl6kLH7
end it all. No one will care. ~ That's right, no one cares. Mother is 321Please respect copyright.PENANALu81Mo8u7c
probably with some man, or trying to get someone who was willing to buy 321Please respect copyright.PENANALgGIim04mU
Davids body. Would she really mind if he died. He moved the shard closer321Please respect copyright.PENANAFONzbIFiWp
to his neck, his pulse slowly beating. ~But...what if it gets better? 321Please respect copyright.PENANAIUDWJdkIgh
What if death only brings more pain?~ David paused. "Can't be much worse321Please respect copyright.PENANAzDfSotxDNZ
than this."321Please respect copyright.PENANA0R9WrINAQB
~STOP! ~ David dropped 321Please respect copyright.PENANAiAH5N73tRm
the shard as if burned. ~It will get better. Just survive. Have to 321Please respect copyright.PENANA4Pdh2iPkbm
survive.~ David dropped on his knees. That's right all he had to is 321Please respect copyright.PENANA0WQgY9zjZ6
survive. Survive and live.321Please respect copyright.PENANA9sftvyIrrA
Everything changed again and David could see his reflection. Scarred, rugged and haunted. 321Please respect copyright.PENANAlHsja8chW2
" that voice, it was yours." More of a statement rather than a question. 321Please respect copyright.PENANAdDtm2DBxFc
"Indeed." Jester 321Please respect copyright.PENANALztL5KT5r6
replied. David could actually hear his voice properly, without an echo 321Please respect copyright.PENANAjRkHCSmByu
or any other effects. He never noticed it before but it did sound a lot 321Please respect copyright.PENANAwTWivT5CqG
like his own did.321Please respect copyright.PENANANf6Qt7ZHaf
"Why did you try 321Please respect copyright.PENANA7tKtJbUTxw
convincing me to kill myself and then stop me? Why not just let me do 321Please respect copyright.PENANArvhAweQ4a0
it?" He said the last part in a whisper; his brain still trying to 321Please respect copyright.PENANA7lUMhRuW2B
process the influx of memories.321Please respect copyright.PENANAuP9IbCXaQ6
"I've been there since you were a child I..I wanted to offer you an escape, but then I got scared I'd get lonely, if you died,"321Please respect copyright.PENANAS8jcEobAbk
"You expect me to believe that?"321Please respect copyright.PENANAewZwpWWLPW
"Believe what you want."321Please respect copyright.PENANABnBoTFSLSN
"How many times? How many of my thoughts were mine?"321Please respect copyright.PENANAfgCbC37tCW
Jester chuckled. "All of321Please respect copyright.PENANA07gljUnH8W
them really. To make sure you didn't notice anything was out of the 321Please respect copyright.PENANARByVIaQ57S
ordinary I had to make it look like they were your thoughts."321Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1MaFbgINX
"That just 321Please respect copyright.PENANAOzt45fH4En
means..."David held his head and groaned in pain. "I'm so confused, in 321Please respect copyright.PENANAu2CqpS2JU9
my memories it doesn't like you're trying to be subtle. What changed?321Please respect copyright.PENANA2psFIbxAG8
"It's related to the last memory, I'll show you if you're ready."321Please respect copyright.PENANAeES7XdGExg
David nodded. "Do it."321Please respect copyright.PENANAaoVKHVMdTW
Everything shifted. 321Please respect copyright.PENANAGgpf41xnRw
David was cleaning his 321Please respect copyright.PENANAcBVmdM4jZc
face, in his middle teens and miserable. He wasn't sure when this 321Please respect copyright.PENANAsfN1xvMEXv
grounded life started but it's been a long time now. He learned tricks 321Please respect copyright.PENANANIB9aM5Wxc
on how to make it easier for himself. By pretending the strangers were 321Please respect copyright.PENANATCuoEv4ndY
important he would save himself a lot of abuse, by guessing how they 321Please respect copyright.PENANA9CRP7VJu01
wanted him to act and acting that way they, sometimes, took pity. Of 321Please respect copyright.PENANAvRjmGxb5y3
course not everyone cared; some still had fun abusing a young boy.321Please respect copyright.PENANAlgiHXz8cad
His last one was just 321Please respect copyright.PENANAjN3dPJaZBs
that an abuser. David touched his broken-again nose and the eye that was321Please respect copyright.PENANAfgxKvXpPnx
barely opening. The bitch would be angry again, his face was supposed 321Please respect copyright.PENANANi8chAfcSY
to be without bruises. Her clients liked him more when he looked pure. 321Please respect copyright.PENANAq9osSfOHXu
Undamaged goods she loved to say.321Please respect copyright.PENANA7np9C0nLjo
Right on cue, David 321Please respect copyright.PENANAuQVaKtjkkH
could hear the bathroom door opening and she came in. Sneering she 321Please respect copyright.PENANAzva0U52p0m
slapped David causing him to fall on the floor. "Stupid, idiot boy!" She321Please respect copyright.PENANAZNbVA2V9rR
slurred. What a surprise the bitch was either drunk or drugged. "One 321Please respect copyright.PENANAmknf6XaHan
thing, don't let them hit your face. And look at you! Useless!" She 321Please respect copyright.PENANAsB9x7NdmsK
shrieked and kicked David clumsily.321Please respect copyright.PENANAGQdfUQnJP0
Why was this his life? 321Please respect copyright.PENANAxihUZmyVx2
Should he have taken his life, can he still do it? He looked at her and 321Please respect copyright.PENANA37UkmEBwo6
she seems to have taken offense at that. She scratched at his face and 321Please respect copyright.PENANADx2ecsBINd
came down on him. "How dare you look at me with those eyes! They're his 321Please respect copyright.PENANA9hyiuaXb56
eyes! Someone like you doesn't deserve them!" She continued in a similar321Please respect copyright.PENANA7AfNffpCVd
vein trying to get his eyes. 321Please respect copyright.PENANApGhU6ZeYsB
~Enough David.~ A voice 321Please respect copyright.PENANAcLXxdaoIFN
resounded in his head. David knew that voice, it was his only friend. 321Please respect copyright.PENANA6gmVkGdDwd
~Fight back.~ David faught against the urge and voice, after all it was 321Please respect copyright.PENANA0tS2Wi0tjg
still his mother. ~FIGHT BACK~ Finally David extended his arm with force321Please respect copyright.PENANAPdEB9MW4Wx
and met resistance.321Please respect copyright.PENANAq8FrDVPYk7
The scratching and 321Please respect copyright.PENANAhPS9o1mrdd
shrieking stopped, he could see his mother on the floor, groaning, 321Please respect copyright.PENANABk1d7qAas7
slowly getting up. Thinking quickly David grabbed a glass bottle and hit321Please respect copyright.PENANAs6wehbZ9Ky
the bitch with it. Again and again until all that was left was a glass 321Please respect copyright.PENANAmgPwtVYd8N
shard and then he kept stabbing and screaming until his throat and hand 321Please respect copyright.PENANAwK4OKW1W9d
was raw. Once he couldn't hold the shard he stopped and laughed.321Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5fekrhES7
Oh god what did he do? 321Please respect copyright.PENANABQp6QRnw7m
This was his mummy, the one who always protected him, the one who would 321Please respect copyright.PENANAqbFZfousUG
never abandon him a and he..he murdered her. But...no, no, no. She hated321Please respect copyright.PENANAvzzdmDlxpa
him did she? Yeah she was a bitch..NO..she was his mother. Was there a 321Please respect copyright.PENANAFmUTwW7TNg
difference? David started crying and throwing up. He killed her, he 321Please respect copyright.PENANAbTsN33iv81
killed her, he killed her. His head felt as it was going to burst, cries321Please respect copyright.PENANAeg2cCTe3pt
replaced the laughter as he rolled on the floor covering himself in 321Please respect copyright.PENANAcxLooTxLl3
blood.321Please respect copyright.PENANAtaQMw5vLJ6
~that's enough David. Forget, forget everything.~ 321Please respect copyright.PENANABZp9ZrgHVP
There was a pause and everything quieted down.321Please respect copyright.PENANAly4sRqeZJR
A boy named David just 321Please respect copyright.PENANAhWWUFgwh1L
woke up. Surrounded by empty bottles and rubbish. David shrugged and 321Please respect copyright.PENANA8ihHkwtaMM
winced. He was in pain did he fall? That would explain the blood all 321Please respect copyright.PENANArbPOGLCAwA
over him. Yes he fell and hurt himself. But what about the body...wait 321Please respect copyright.PENANAxUOYyj6jTJ
what body? David looked around and couldn't see anyone else in the room321Please respect copyright.PENANAwL3p36jO8K
besides him. Why did his head hurt? Why couldn't he remember what he 321Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZYnSobMsU
was...oh that's right. He was going to become a hero and fly on a ship. 321Please respect copyright.PENANAj8RFCG0cGv
Yes, that's what he was about to do when he became all confused, how 321Please respect copyright.PENANAGieqvzGsus
silly of him.321Please respect copyright.PENANA7lBOMHXcrg
Remembering his 321Please respect copyright.PENANAmFrtnylJzM
objective, David opened the door and left his old life behind. To enter 321Please respect copyright.PENANAwBd2lhuQsX
his living room and find his dad, mum and brother sitting at a round 321Please respect copyright.PENANA8F5jPaBrJL
table preparing a meal. 321Please respect copyright.PENANARc8UdhEYru
"There you are David!" 321Please respect copyright.PENANAhdkA3JWnBk
His dad said. "We've been waiting forever, come on I can't wait to start321Please respect copyright.PENANA0zdbGdifUc
eating!" He started hitting his utensils on the table. 321Please respect copyright.PENANAHZwa3E0ZpZ
This isn't the truth.321Please respect copyright.PENANAjZ0XQEUr6F
David obligingly sat 321Please respect copyright.PENANA0KmRO7FJUL
down. "Oh stop, honey. You're going to give children bad manners." His 321Please respect copyright.PENANA4q3rh8nkwY
mum chided playfully. As she put the food on the table and ruffled his 321Please respect copyright.PENANAhTGz7DHUOC
brothers hair. Sitting down next to David and giving him a warm smile.321Please respect copyright.PENANAfZgF7YMPNQ
A dream, nothing else.321Please respect copyright.PENANASX4wPdOBsO
They all thanked the 321Please respect copyright.PENANAcYLP0bCRYm
gods for what they had and started eating. Yes thankful for this happy, 321Please respect copyright.PENANAk9ejJw1o9K
oblivious life. Thankful for good and supportive parents. Thankful for 321Please respect copyright.PENANAMcuQkBLKsK
this lie.321Please respect copyright.PENANAURusdwoesp
A lie that has to end.321Please respect copyright.PENANANtduZHOFHG
David was standing at 321Please respect copyright.PENANAPiPkOasNVV
the table.. He was sure this wasn't part of any memories, but he was 321Please respect copyright.PENANA3WWJAbkWzS
sure that the boy was him, a happier more healthy him, and the woman was321Please respect copyright.PENANA7xwNFaDQc0
his real mother or atleast someone who looked like her. While the 321Please respect copyright.PENANAdoquJe6iHw
brother and man? Something that might've happened if he was luckier? 321Please respect copyright.PENANAZY0OBBsznV
Either way David hated 321Please respect copyright.PENANA9fFhVslrqD
this. Why, why, why, why didn't he get this happy blissful life. Why 321Please respect copyright.PENANA3RmpKBg6Wl
didn't he get a father who would teach him to become a proper man, why 321Please respect copyright.PENANAZNblqZ9qmF
didn't he get a mother who consoled him when he hurt? Why was he all 321Please respect copyright.PENANAjxExoBoLqD
alone, without a brother or any other sibling. Why does THIS pale 321Please respect copyright.PENANAIQmIeSVY8a
imitation of his deserves this good life, he'll never appreciate. Why 321Please respect copyright.PENANA6jFsLJGDXE
does anyone. When there's so many suffering why do only few deserve to 321Please respect copyright.PENANAhD0lYNhyVO
life this happy blissful life?321Please respect copyright.PENANANv3CEJjSo1
The answer was so simple321Please respect copyright.PENANAxaanImkaGG
that David almost laughed. It didn't come in a whisper by someone else,321Please respect copyright.PENANAx1Fv0JErx3
it was his own and he fully knew it. They didn't, they didn't deserve 321Please respect copyright.PENANAUePr0vuUHP
this life, no one did. Thus there was only one solution to end it all, 321Please respect copyright.PENANAjVe2aGYeb8
end all misery either present or one that will come in the future. 321Please respect copyright.PENANAeMEEFzLBFP
David decided to start 321Please respect copyright.PENANAsbiwe3IyHN
with this lie, he took the knife and plunged it into his young self. "No321Please respect copyright.PENANAoPbP6opQUu
more lies." He took it out and stabbed his father. "No more regrets." 321Please respect copyright.PENANAsjR2eKxwOA
Next his brother. "No more tears." And finally he stabbed his own 321Please respect copyright.PENANAtA5ltXQM67
mother. "No more mercy."321Please respect copyright.PENANAWIEtG0s1pX
With the last stab 321Please respect copyright.PENANANDIL8CLZWb
everything fell apart piece by piece and David found himself staring at 321Please respect copyright.PENANAIRXvL2m4ju
his own shadowy reflection. The only thing surrounding them was the vast321Please respect copyright.PENANAktWHmU1toj
emptiness.
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