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That little boy never got it easy.

He was living in fear and stress… day after day, year after year.

Dealing with all the pain, anxiety, and embarrassment – just waiting for it all to happen over and over again.

Standing by the table and begging for table scraps like a starving dog because I didn’t roll over and do what they wanted.

Hoping that the stuff I was on would dull it all out and praying that I wouldn’t throw up later.

Feeling like I was lying to myself when I said that was never my fault.

Waiting for everything to just be over so I could pull my clothes back on and go play in my room by myself.

And living like a toy for them to play with.

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This was my life.

From when I was born to when I grew a pair to do something about it.

And now’s the time for me to face it just how it happened.

Now’s the time to remember it all in full.

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~ JF

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