->>>愛情總在不知不覺中到來,但能否留得住,卻是個人造化,他們這段不了了之的愛情,又該有如何的結局?
【凌家動物園 I 花心豹吃兔計畫】小兔不吃回頭草
By 喵芭渴死姬
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18. 不了了之的結局?
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正式辭去歐堤拉的工作後,小兔開始四處奔波為準備出國事宜而忙碌,雖說以前寒暑假跟家人去過紐約不少次,但真正要在那生活就又是不同的狀況了,光是工作簽證等等入關居留文件,就是相當麻煩瑣碎的程序,所幸泰特斯老早就打點好關係,簽證很快就發了下來,接著就等貝兒痊癒出院,讓一家人能聚在一起好好道別。757Please respect copyright.PENANANpIETlO9zO
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「表哥雖然嚴厲,說話狠了點,卻是為你好,你過去後要好好努力,但也別忘了照顧自己。」不捨地放開弟弟,小琥難得展現自己柔性的一面。757Please respect copyright.PENANAbALJbpnO1Q
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「我知道。」姊弟倆從小就從沒分開過,忽然離開生活二十多年的家,小兔心裡有許多不安與不捨,卻也有對新人生的希望。757Please respect copyright.PENANAqEEAYztsxu
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「小兔哥~」貝兒抱住小兔蹭啊蹭的,「我會很想很想你的……」757Please respect copyright.PENANAoFdjKENghZ
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「只是去四年而已,貝兒有空也能來……啊!」話說到一半,才想起貝兒與表哥兩人目前的尷尬關係,小兔立刻收了聲,擔憂地望著他,心中暗罵自己哪壺不開提哪壺。757Please respect copyright.PENANAiwO9sprUud
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「嘻!」貝兒揉了揉臉,露出一個可愛的燦笑說:「迷溫題(沒問題)!窩有空一定去看小兔哥~」757Please respect copyright.PENANAuhrR0W5NiT
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見狀,他們不禁在心裡感慨,這孩子又來了!每當貝兒突然刻意用怪音講話時,就是在掩飾內心的真實情緒。明知道他是在為誰傷神,偏偏泰特斯又不准他們透露自己來過的事,貝兒也倔強地不肯示弱,無奈之下,他們只好配合假裝沒看見他眼底的哀傷,至於小兔的事也只得編說是表哥打電話安排的。757Please respect copyright.PENANAiDkFKWIsfX
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笑著摸了摸貝兒的頭,小兔遲疑了會,還是決定開口,「貝兒……」757Please respect copyright.PENANATI0S0x6Qvh
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這時,門鈴忽然響起,貝兒似能察覺小兔想說什麼,就立刻笑著往門邊跑去,「窩去開~」757Please respect copyright.PENANAxRtVdWSXXL
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急於逃避話題之下,貝兒連先確認是誰都忘了,就直接拉開門,見到來人後,不禁一愣,「欸,雞泥?」757Please respect copyright.PENANADJJrvWCkYS
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聽到這獨一無二的稱呼,小琥頓時臉色一變,立刻衝過來凶神惡煞地大吼:「你過來幹嘛?」757Please respect copyright.PENANAXVd7d9tjvW
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「我、我只是想找小兔說點話……」付墨緊張地站在門口,神情既疲倦又焦慮。他出差一個多星期,一回來就馬不停蹄地衝往歐堤拉,等了好久卻不見小兔的身影,直到人家快打烊了,他終於忍不住去問店長,才得知消息。757Please respect copyright.PENANA7FkxzX7Gad
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「說個屁!老娘沒拿刀招呼你就該偷笑了!」小琥想也不想地粗聲罵道,手一揮就要關上門。757Please respect copyright.PENANA6TMfIyKufj
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「我……」付墨連忙抵著門,探頭看向屋內,也不管自己會不會被門夾死,「小兔,我知道你要走了,求你給我一點時間好嗎?」757Please respect copyright.PENANAd8Zw4SWybC
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「不好!!」小琥立刻就幫小兔拒絕。757Please respect copyright.PENANAk5iT0lC8Ia
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注視著付墨憔悴的神情,貝兒想起兩人先前的談話,便不忍地拉了拉小琥的手,軟聲呼喚:「小琥姊……」757Please respect copyright.PENANA2eY2hQuehC
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「小琥,冷靜點。」在旁觀察好一會的汪一全終於出聲了,他伸手搭在小琥肩上,將她稍微拉開,「這事還是讓小兔自己決定吧。」757Please respect copyright.PENANA28Uu0CGzl5
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「小兔,我求你!」付墨哽咽哀求道。757Please respect copyright.PENANAnkJfxsyi0S
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活了二十五個年頭,他從沒這麼害怕過,害怕自己再也見不到小兔,害怕自己再無法找到小兔,害怕他跟小兔之間連一點微薄的連繫都沒有,害怕小兔真的完全走出他的世界,連一丁點可能都不再有,這時的他,形象也好,尊嚴也罷,全都不在乎了,只願能抓住這唯一的機會。757Please respect copyright.PENANAl6WNm5NVs3
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「……」想起這一個多月來,付墨都會來歐堤拉默默地看著自己,風雨無阻,再見他如此狼狽卻又堅持著,小兔終究仍是心軟地點了頭,「就在門口可以嗎?」757Please respect copyright.PENANAoownRXMTc1
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聞言,付墨開心地連忙點頭,「好!好!好!」757Please respect copyright.PENANAZcR6GACPZC
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看著小兔走出玄關關上門,三人立刻轉戰到窗戶旁偷窺。貝兒踮起腳往外張望,忽覺身後有一龐然大物籠罩,便轉頭一看,「嚇,大叔!這麼晚了,泥怎麼還在這啊?」757Please respect copyright.PENANASLEcG0lJTg
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「呃,這個……」習慣性托了下眼鏡,汪一全臉微紅地飄移視線,不敢直視貝兒那雙雪亮的大眼。757Please respect copyright.PENANAgYAtDxMdvx
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「……」以往都會拍胸脯保證Cover好姊妹的凌小琥,這次竟一反常態地不發一語,死盯著窗外不回頭,彷彿對他們的對話一點都不感興趣,惟有稍紅的耳根出賣了內心的羞怯。757Please respect copyright.PENANAtYqukO6Hme
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「哪個啊?」然而,貝兒此刻的焦點全放在自家大叔身上,因而忽略了小琥那不自然的反應,直追著汪一全不放。757Please respect copyright.PENANAiSn1XYoCP7
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「咳咳!小孩不要問那麼多!」怕捱不住死小魔頭的逼問,汪一全索性使出年齡差的老梗招。757Please respect copyright.PENANARnNF5m9zml
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「哼哼哼,這時候又把我當小孩了!略~~」不滿地對汪一全吐舌做鬼臉,貝兒抱起腳邊的喵克利,嘟著嘴說:「果然地球人都是善變的,還是我們喵星人最好嚕,對不對?喵克利~」757Please respect copyright.PENANASup73ziEIO
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「喵~」757Please respect copyright.PENANAtSWTJFmWDq
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「對呀,窩也最愛喵克利了唷~~」貝兒將手中的小貓放在臉邊蹭啊蹭,儼然真不當自己是地球生物的一份子了。757Please respect copyright.PENANAPb5YjbWfqQ
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於是,汪一全與凌小琥兩人只好抖著嘴角,有默契地朝玻璃窗翻了個白眼,各自在心裡吐槽了。757Please respect copyright.PENANAv7aKzZRZz9
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門外,站在路燈下的兩人,卻是一陣靜默無語。757Please respect copyright.PENANARFDhV7mjY8
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「……」低頭直直看著腳尖,小兔的感覺相當複雜,卻沒有起初的憤怒或難受。757Please respect copyright.PENANAUD9kG9BY9Y
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「……」付墨癡癡地望著小兔,心中千言萬語,此刻卻一句也吐不出來。757Please respect copyright.PENANAKaKmYdQtl5
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最後,小兔嘆了一口氣,緩聲說:「你不用再為那件事道歉了,當時大家都喝醉了,一時衝動什麼的……其實是我自己心裡有氣,借題發揮了而已。」757Please respect copyright.PENANA2crpdbQD2T
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「不,你那天說的話,我反覆想了好久。」付墨頹下肩膀,像個自知做錯事的大孩子,「一直以來都是我太自私,從沒真正顧慮到你的感受,我越回想我們交往時的情景,就越覺得你說的對,我的確是個不可原諒的混蛋,卻還妄想你能回到我身邊……」757Please respect copyright.PENANALkGzcZNQ8k
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望著他既懊惱又愧疚的眼神,小兔突然脫口問出:「……你究竟喜歡我什麼?」757Please respect copyright.PENANATlEzI8F0iC
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「我……」付墨楞了下,眼底的惆悵變得既苦又甜,「我也說不上來,但等我發現時,就已經無法適應你不在我身邊的日子了。」757Please respect copyright.PENANAmngdLLfFyO
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「……也許我喜歡的是一你存在的習慣,但是當這份喜歡過了這麼多年後,卻不退反深時,似乎就成了一個執著,讓我非你不可。」757Please respect copyright.PENANApvYsRazy0P
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「所以……只是習慣嗎?」小兔垂眸低語,心中不禁悵然,曾經費盡心思滿足學長的一切,渴望自己能成為對方的獨一無二,如今換來的卻只是習慣嗎?757Please respect copyright.PENANAXIJV5iWvnt
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「雖是因為習慣……」認真注視著最愛的大圓眼,付墨伸手想輕撫小兔的臉,卻又退卻地停在半空中,「但是喜歡你的感受,想要愛護你的心情,卻是真的,看你哭泣時的心痛,也是真實的。」757Please respect copyright.PENANAzJqmmB2FgT
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「你會心痛?」訝異地睜大雙眼,小兔有些難以相信,然而,記憶中這個從不為他人傷神的男人,如今眼裡那張揚的神彩確實已不在,取而代之的,竟是帶著溫度的深沈。757Please respect copyright.PENANAmmUOyAANPE
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聽他這樣反問,自知前科累累的付墨,也只得苦笑地說:「我知道你不相信我,但是……」757Please respect copyright.PENANAMRXFkvdg3N
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手握拳放在胸前,他輕敲著自己的心臟,輕聲說:「這裡,確實是痛著的。」757Please respect copyright.PENANAVq4w6N685y
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「……」一時間,小兔無語了,付墨是說得情真意切,但他卻沒有信心去相信,自己真有好到會讓這個浪子為他心痛?757Please respect copyright.PENANAmOaxjBMh5X
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見小兔沈默不語,付墨明白對方不相信自己,卻也無可奈何,誰讓他渣了那麼多年,直到現在才醒悟也為時已晚,他無奈地拉扯下嘴角,輕聲問:「那當年,你又喜歡我什麼?讓害羞的小兔子願意鼓起勇氣,跟那樣自私的我告白,還願意付出那麼多?」757Please respect copyright.PENANALkbgk6ZpiJ
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「喜歡……」757Please respect copyright.PENANAa7STBhBzvs
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喜歡什麼?757Please respect copyright.PENANAAF3P36q3zx
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想起當年那個自信傲氣的男人,想起他曾經給予的溫柔擁抱,想起曾他讚不絕口吃著自己煮的飯菜,想起他曾笑著呼喚『我的小兔子』……757Please respect copyright.PENANAAbEfBzYpXY
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「……被需要的感覺吧?」小兔迷惘地偏了頭。757Please respect copyright.PENANAi2QXH1zH1O
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聽到這回答,付墨嘴角弧度的苦意更深了,「現在的我更需要你,可是你已經不喜歡了……」757Please respect copyright.PENANAr6rxfMtiP7
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聞言,小兔頓時也迷糊了,自己想要的到底是什麼?757Please respect copyright.PENANAFAcoZnBFUi
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見小兔征楞地望著自己,那傻傻萌萌的表情真是可愛極了,可愛得讓付墨感到心中一痛,已失去資格擁有小兔子的他,望著站在眼前卻是咫尺天涯的人,便不禁哽咽地說:「其實,我來只是想再看你一眼,然後……」757Please respect copyright.PENANAbZIM7MPxSZ
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「祝你一路順風,早日完成夢想。」他穩住破碎的聲音,努力拉起一道微笑,獻上最完美的祝福,因為這是他現在唯一能給小兔子的疼愛了。757Please respect copyright.PENANAKAiSu9VZS2
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「……謝謝。」757Please respect copyright.PENANAGV5ystcLOE
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「我們……」欲言又止了會,付墨還是鼓起勇氣地問:「還可以是朋友嗎?我能跟你聯絡嗎?」757Please respect copyright.PENANAaLBF0eOrBU
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「……」757Please respect copyright.PENANAVSX5wAco5w
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「我只想知道你過得好不好,在異國生活真的不輕鬆。」付墨軟聲說道,曾獨自留學在外的他,一想到小兔可能即將面臨的不適應,就更加放不下了。757Please respect copyright.PENANAl8mJ7arku6
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猶豫了良久,小兔還是心軟了,「……就用E-mail吧,我的帳號一直沒變。」757Please respect copyright.PENANA9KQdXpgwn6
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「好!」得到應允的瞬間,付墨忍不住紅了眼眶,仔細凝視小兔半晌後,才輕輕地在他額前親了一下,「最後一次,再見了,小兔子。」757Please respect copyright.PENANAY7b8Z0HvAi
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「……再見了,學長」757Please respect copyright.PENANAhavs3uvtlA
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不知為何,小兔忽然有想哭的衝動,便連忙低下頭轉身走回家裡,留下付墨獨立在只剩自己一人的夜風中。757Please respect copyright.PENANA2KpSCLTC0p
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『學長,門前的梧桐花開了耶,好漂亮喔!』757Please respect copyright.PENANAh5CThzLREN
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『學長,聽說晚上會有流星雨,我們去許願好不好?』757Please respect copyright.PENANAd2NoqrdjZ2
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『學長喜歡的話,我以後都煮給你吃。』757Please respect copyright.PENANAlOW424CghP
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『我﹑我喜歡你,學長……』757Please respect copyright.PENANATeCZbdtnqI
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隨著距離的拉開,久遠以前的畫面也忽地浮上腦海,一幕又一幕,全是他以為早已遺忘的回憶。757Please respect copyright.PENANAtSFfkUB2kr
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原來,小兔的笑容曾如此燦爛;原來,小兔的聲音曾如此輕快;原來,小兔的眼神曾如此明亮;原來,這些曾只為自己存在的美好,從未消失在記憶裡,只是被自己的傲慢給掩埋了。757Please respect copyright.PENANA0dO2pOkoQQ
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原來,自己早為那一顰一笑心動;原來,自己曾經擁有這麼多;然而,這一切都離自己越來越遠,只留下名為過往的殘影,碰不到、摸不著,卻深刻地刺痛著心臟,因為那曾願給予這一切的人,已不再為愚蠢不知珍惜的自己停留了。757Please respect copyright.PENANAjaGgduvKHL
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『我的小兔子,不再有我了……』757Please respect copyright.PENANAHRIqiryIed
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四年前的那天,是小兔心碎哭泣地看著他的背影,在大學校門外漸離漸遠;四年後的今天,是他無聲痛哭地望著小兔的背影,消失在一道薄卻堅不可摧的門板後,但隔絕兩人世界的,卻不僅僅是一片大西洋而已。757Please respect copyright.PENANAFyXrfD0UZ7
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早該在四年前就說的道別,他們終於在這一晚說出口了。
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後記:
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這篇算是他們的小結局吧?757Please respect copyright.PENANA4cYmIFchPT
這次字數很少,但我覺得停在這裡剛剛好~757Please respect copyright.PENANA3Oue49dKvz
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文案說的就是付墨,不論起初答應小兔交往的動機為何,在相處的過程中他是愛上了小兔,卻因為不懂愛也不會愛,所以看不到也沒珍惜,遇上對的人卻在錯的時間,於是注定不了了之。757Please respect copyright.PENANAMuJV03GliH
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下一篇就是小兔不吃回頭草的最後一篇囉~~wwww757Please respect copyright.PENANA7h1u28VExg
揪竟他們會不會在一起呢?757Please respect copyright.PENANA7MkoDfXMAW
大家覺得應該再給附蔥雞泥機會嗎?XDDDDDDDD757Please respect copyright.PENANAf4kMI4TWIA
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