{Tyler}copyright protection133PENANAbiD9u0q6wV
I groaned in pain as I became aware of my body, before rolling over, and throwing up onto the cement,copyright protection133PENANAw44oqvmsGs
“Gross…” Cameron curled himself inward,copyright protection133PENANADBzXzOdhUj
“...What the fuck happened…?” I asked, tugging on my hair,copyright protection133PENANAB5wqaxPqp1
“You and Preston were really drunk, and since you guys, but mainly you, were both horny as fuck-” I vomited again, this time from disgust, “we had to go sleep a couple blocks down,”copyright protection133PENANAMSKNJo2VS4
“Agh, gross. Next time don't tell me.” I readjusted my hood, copyright protection133PENANAMB3IM45OQa
“Well, you asked, and I told. Besides, even though the sex thing was totally gross, you guys were flirting, and it was hella cute. Not to mention that it only further proves you guys are dating, or queerplatonic.”copyright protection133PENANAnWv0AHYT3g
“Whatever, Cameron.” I rolled my eyes, though it made my heart flutter slightly,copyright protection133PENANAeXQnNOkuHL
“Also, you might want to get fully dressed now.”copyright protection133PENANATj6ELfbXXX
“Huh?” I looked downward, to find that I was only in boxers and a hoodie, “Oh.” I felt myself shrink in embarrassment, making him laugh at me, before walking off.copyright protection133PENANALA6w8CyHOp
I quickly began to clothe myself, but by the time Preston woke up, I was still shirtless,copyright protection133PENANAZ8m2raTOIe
“What the hell…?” He muttered, copyright protection133PENANA2GET9SZict
“Uhh…”copyright protection133PENANAhTbjz8FcuG
“Oh god, oh god, d-did we… y'know?”copyright protection133PENANA7UUiFU0tRH
“From what I was told, yeah.” I nodded, making him turn bright red, as he rushed to put his clothes back on,copyright protection133PENANAoRXAc81dCv
“I'm sorry,”copyright protection133PENANADzqa7U8XVE
“For what?” I raised an eyebrow,copyright protection133PENANAQ809OXiqhi
“Y'know, that.”copyright protection133PENANAS6zgt601El
“It wasn't your fault. We were both drunk.” I sighed, glancing over at him, “And either way, I was the one who initiated it… Well, at least that’s what I was told.” copyright protection133PENANA3BYXKnJctf
“Oh.” For some reason, he seemed to be relieved. “...This is awkward…” copyright protection133PENANA6sCuEwzbzY
“Yeah, a little.” I muttered, avoiding his eyes, which were burning into my back,copyright protection133PENANAeuzTUq0mLC
“How are you feeling?”copyright protection133PENANAw3yp7CLk4y
“Fine, I guess.” I shrugged,copyright protection133PENANA9n1F0h2qct
“You guess?” copyright protection133PENANASWmt1CYibO
“Yeah, I don’t know.” copyright protection133PENANA24yPMl1VEd
“Ugh, I have a headache,” He groaned,copyright protection133PENANAGPhzzoYynr
“Well, I have some Tylenol in my bag.”copyright protection133PENANAV39EvKvBDF
“Why?” Preston gave me a pointed look, and I laughed awkwardly,copyright protection133PENANADj6jWvMrdU
“Oops.” copyright protection133PENANAWhasX55u0E
“Tyler…”copyright protection133PENANAM5uaabZEmq
“I’m sorry.” I groaned, even though I didn’t feel guilty about it whatsoever, which Preston was able to pick up on,copyright protection133PENANAvFf9ZOqey3
“No, you aren’t.”copyright protection133PENANA1wvLqZ6Rdq
“No, no I’m not.” I sighed,copyright protection133PENANAv64uHcUVl6
“I don’t understand why you do this to yourself…” Preston frowned,copyright protection133PENANA4x9TYLGSY2
“I don’t know any other way to cope.” I muttered, a glazed expression playing on my face,copyright protection133PENANAYW3hxqssZ9
“I thought writing worked?”copyright protection133PENANAWAtiMLODVV
“It used to, but now it’s become ineffective, probably because now it’s a matter of addiction too.”copyright protection133PENANAgB7gRkEHU6
“Well, do you know how to stop?”copyright protection133PENANA4uyJF3Pxwe
“I know of ways to stop, though I’m not sure how effective they really are… and I’m too scared to start trying.” copyright protection133PENANAEsnTlZ2ZjB
“Why? You understand that it’s going to help you feel better.”copyright protection133PENANAfYrywAYCrW
“But what if it doesn’t? What if I throw it all away, and then I end up craving it to the extent where I’d rather die than live without it?”copyright protection133PENANArR5R1FVgJT
“Then how about I keep them for you.”copyright protection133PENANARNwEMTML1i
“I don’t know, I’ll think about it.” I bit my lip, pulling the Tylenol out of the bag, copyright protection133PENANA9QvakVVH3D
“How much do you usually take?”copyright protection133PENANANbpD5dQSfo
“Uhh…” I opened it, and handed him a pill, which he swallowed, “1500 milligrams? Maybe 2000 depending on my mood.”copyright protection133PENANAR2ZWigRn5B
“God, Tyler! That could kill you!” copyright protection133PENANADH8bvpep3T
“No shit,” I rolled my eyes, “But it’s gradual, so it'll take years. And I don't take them everyday.” copyright protection133PENANACliguXtn81
“Still…” He grabbed my hand, forcing me to look at him, “You shouldn't feel this way…”copyright protection133PENANAs6loZnNRsV
“Well, I'm sorry that I do.” I muttered, not wanting to meet his eyes,copyright protection133PENANAXwDaXi9lWN
“Tyler-”copyright protection133PENANAGBOVg8t3Bg
“I'm sorry that my brain is so messed up. I'm sorry that I'm messed up.”copyright protection133PENANA8GLOX19h5A
“It isn't your fault.”copyright protection133PENANAizyEgjQXNs
“But in a way, it is.” I sighed, “I could have kept myself from the cigarette, the drugs, the alcohol, and the self harming the first time I did it, but I didn't.”copyright protection133PENANAYF7QDUIJLv
“Yeah, but you have mental illnesses,” He said, making me want to flinch, “that makes you more vulnerable than other people are.”copyright protection133PENANAOux8JDw2ij
“I don't know,” I shrugged, and looked away, removing my hand from his. Instead of letting me sulk, he came up behind me, and hugged me, making me feel warm inside, “I’m such a fuck up.”copyright protection133PENANAjPSHXObfW1
“You aren’t a fuck up.”copyright protection133PENANA854OuHG4bv
“How can you say that after how long you’ve known me, and how many times you’ve seen me fuck up…?”copyright protection133PENANAy7DWExNIrD
“Because… I love you.”copyright protection133PENANApXPfcMojYE
“...I love you too, man.” I sighed,copyright protection133PENANAPWwQv8TCUU
“No... I mean in a little bit more than a platonic.”copyright protection133PENANAuiQF8daPJU
“Huh?” I stared at him, my face showing the pure confusion,copyright protection133PENANAdIQOhdwlVz
“Dude, I have a mesh on you, goddamnit.” copyright protection133PENANAaUjJO442tL
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