{Tyler}copyright protection149PENANAS2gXrybkT8
When my eyes finally opened up, it was dark out. I attempted to shift, before realizing that Preston was draped on top of me. I looked around to see Ami asleep, and Cameron whispered to himself, seeming to be distressed, “God, shut up...” He pulled on his hair, “I didn't do it…” He began to sob, which made my chest ache.copyright protection149PENANAZpF24JqFOi
“Cameron?” I whispered out to him, catching his attention.copyright protection149PENANAWxtnT0m2H5
“Sorry…”copyright protection149PENANAzjA9sdlYA6
“Huh?”copyright protection149PENANApfkv1avq65
“For crying… and for being snippy earlier too.” He frowned,copyright protection149PENANAFPTmPeAPkx
“I don't mind… What's going on?”copyright protection149PENANA9rPHxcA1U9
“I don't think I should say.”copyright protection149PENANAWBn88ECspJ
“Why's that?”copyright protection149PENANAVatfenV6a7
“You might think I'm insane…”copyright protection149PENANAQ9dHFsv06b
“I don't think I will. I've seen some fucked up shit.”copyright protection149PENANAwFI1GAuCQR
“I'm sure you have.” He sighed, “I… Ty, I've been hearing a voice.”copyright protection149PENANAhqm7dIyIYr
“Okay.” copyright protection149PENANA7sttDGEyI6
“Like an abnormal one.”copyright protection149PENANATJcRNLzjGk
“I got that.” I nodded,copyright protection149PENANAqW1ZOXre0V
“Oh…”copyright protection149PENANAExXdb40vEa
“Was I supposed to say something else?”copyright protection149PENANAKDFo9uGeqm
“No, I just… was expecting you to say I needed help, or that I'm crazy, even though you told me you wouldn't…”copyright protection149PENANAgxSAWbkxTj
“Hey, I'm a man of my word.”copyright protection149PENANAvYVW0fmOm4
“Uh-huh, you're a man of your word, yet you lied to Preston about your coping skills.” He said, making me wince,copyright protection149PENANADx9UgajAND
“Um… yeah.”copyright protection149PENANAXMgfNIy2mT
“Sorry, I… didn't think about that before I said it…”copyright protection149PENANAIgs1YIAC3o
“You're fine. I get it.” I sighed,copyright protection149PENANAutX15CAayM
“Yeah, I know you probably get it… but still, that was uncalled for.”copyright protection149PENANACKbXNIeA8n
“I don't really care, dude. Like I said, you're fine.”copyright protection149PENANAvtH4ofR8zi
“I just… want to make sure.” He glanced over at me, scanning over my facial expression, “I feel like you’re lying.”copyright protection149PENANAtCXD4zET3j
“I guess you're getting better, and reading people then.” I admitted, “It hurt a little, but that's okay.”copyright protection149PENANAsrAebvNgHP
“Well, no, it's not.”copyright protection149PENANASkHJ0dJeA2
“Dude. I said that it's fine.”copyright protection149PENANAwnMsQz5CrV
“But the fact that you think it's fine is a problem-”copyright protection149PENANA7FUSI03OJp
“I'm not going to argue with you about something as stupid as this dude. It's perfectly fine, end of story.”copyright protection149PENANAgcf2ispREk
“Fine.” He sighed, “I just want to make sure since you’re…” Cameron stopped himself, making me finish it for him,copyright protection149PENANA3yAHmRl4uy
“I’m what? Sensitive? A cry baby?” copyright protection149PENANA8Rh350x9jg
“That’s… Tyler…” copyright protection149PENANAMjz65cBmxH
“Both of us know that’s what you meant. I get it.”copyright protection149PENANAzbpXqm0rhK
“No, Tyler, that isn’t what I was going to say.”copyright protection149PENANALltemvecF1
“Then were you gonna say that I’m some mentally ill freak?”copyright protection149PENANAj4Ue032pzF
“No. Stop making assumptions!”copyright protection149PENANAHvHELIWxEu
“Finish your sentence then.”copyright protection149PENANAIMuC2sTwLy
“I… Tyler…”copyright protection149PENANA6jaouPPwRj
“What?”copyright protection149PENANABafBvM1HQM
“I don’t know, nevermind.” The both of us kept quiet for a moment, unsure of what to say, “How do you cope…?”copyright protection149PENANA7stsXUrSLS
“With what?”copyright protection149PENANApQGR2AxmsZ
“The emptiness…”copyright protection149PENANAvPuwrM7owi
“Oh, well uh… That’s not something you should ask me… in any case really… Like you said earlier, I just run straight to my cigarettes, or my razors.” copyright protection149PENANAp1WS9KUw2W
“I didn’t-“ copyright protection149PENANAEhnDuyM7ns
“Whether you mean it or not, it’s true.” I looked over at him, as he was frowning, “You don’t need to feel bad about it. If anything, I needed that reminder. I know it’s a problem, but I ignore it because… It doesn’t register as a bad thing in my mind, when it is… It’s horrible. I shouldn’t have to live like… like this. So, thanks, I guess…”copyright protection149PENANAzpN1u3SpgW
“You’re uh, you’re welcome.” He smiled softly at me.copyright protection149PENANAIWybq5Yq9Y
“Hey, Preston?” I called out to him, after he had been awake long enough to process things.copyright protection149PENANA8mWS4O3I0z
“Yeah?” copyright protection149PENANA9p4RvgugvX
“Later when I get moving, and I’m away from here, can you… hide my bag? Please don’t throw it away, just put it somewhere you think that I will forget about, or won’t find it.”copyright protection149PENANAPmURUmSHIl
“Of course,” He smiled, planting a kiss on my cheek, “I’m proud of you.”copyright protection149PENANAVPjyMzcbL7
“Thank you.” I wrapped him into a hug, copyright protection149PENANA91AcL9wFxs
“Why don’t you just throw it all away if you don’t want to… do these things to yourself?” Ami asked,copyright protection149PENANABsBteTJ6aN
“It’s bad, Ami. I feel like I need it to survive, so throwing it away makes me feel as if something disastrous will happen, even though consciously I know I’ll be fine. So, it’s just an easy way to do the same thing, without the emotional stress.” copyright protection149PENANA6h2vm9dMZt
“Oh, well, I'm proud of you.” They smiled,copyright protection149PENANAfC2Ls4l2NP
“Thanks.”copyright protection149PENANA7bZTSV9CMK
“Where are you gonna go?”copyright protection149PENANAG60TtkwAwK
“I don't know, I'll just go for a walk or something.” copyright protection149PENANAe73n0y7MT3
“Alright, don’t get murdered, okay?”copyright protection149PENANAyJMALnztNA
“I don’t have any control over that, but I’ll try not to.” copyright protection149PENANAoElMBqWNQp
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