It felt as if the entire world had stopped. My ears began to ring, and I didn’t have to touch my other hand to know they were sweating. I couldn’t even answer her. The only adult that could have any idea of my sexuality was my aunt, and she didn’t even know the full story. copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUHW6ATWir
To me, all adults don’t handle news like teens do. They take it more seriously, and they somehow need to know every single detail about it. For instance, Delcan’s parents. When he practically forced me (I tried to fight back, but I lost in a matter of seconds. I didn’t know how at the time, but now I do) to tell his parents I was gay, they got pretty serious about it. Of course, his parents were kind, but they wanted to know why I never said anything in the first place, and they also tried to make me understand my sexuality in a different light. copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡDi869pPK0Y
If I told Haven’s parents I was gay, I’d also have to tell them that I cheated on their daughter with a guy, and one who’s not too kind. I already knew what the end result would be: Haven’s dad would hate me for cheating, while Haven’s mom would be confused, doing her best to be kind about it. Haven has no clue about Angelica knowing, and that’s already enough stress as it is. It’s already too much. copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYs5SiE4W6
Plus, with school on top, it’ll be like a burning pressure constantly.copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡAi76CyhcgV
“That’s cute,” I told Haven. My mouth was dry, but I tried to pretend it wasn’t. copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCtyLUko2L
Haven raised her eyebrows. “I can tell whoever I want Ezra,” she said. “Plus, it’d make sense. You’re crazy if you don’t think nobody notices the way you look at Delcan.”copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5idiMlN3JP
I don’t look at him in a certain way. “I-” That doesn’t matter. I need to get to the point of this. I shook my head and then crossed my arms over my chest. “Why are you blackmailing me?”159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LyWww9PS8
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She slowly nodded, looking down at the ground. “Hardly though, sweetheart,” she said, her head popping back up as she looked at me. “Do you wanna keep your secret to yourself or not?”159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XYBNQUwdx
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“I don’t look at Delcan in a certain way,” I argued. copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡISnHRnjJDY
Haven rolled her eyes. “Please,” she said. “I’m not that stupid to realize my boyfriend-ex boyfriend, has emotions for somebody else. Just take the deal, okay? I can’t tell my parents on my own.”copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDkxVMTRly
Blushing, I asked: “Why do you have to tell them in the first place?”copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhh8o08T5o
She looked at me like I was about to get murdered. “Ezra,” she said, her voice going as low as it possibly could. “Take the ⟴ deal or so help me, I’ll ruin everything you’ve worked for.”copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwi9cPbHe6
I guess my mom was right. You can be in a relationship or a friendship with someone for so long, that you’ll never notice their bad sides. I knew who she was talking about, but I didn’t know if she knew there was a person like that in my life. copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5kEzlfDOs
Whatever the case was, I could probably convince Mrs. Bronx to convince her husband not to tell anyone.copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoB99MrDqh
Hopefully.copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLmRppImO3
“Fine,” I said angrily. “Tell me when I need to come over.” 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7YQbEne5l
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Eric insisted on driving me over to the Bronx house before we went home. All I had to do was his chores for another week, and babysit Emmanuel, and both Eric and Evelyn would cover for me. My siblings have been acting weird-and a lot nicer-since we went over to Delcan’s house and nothing really happened. I didn’t know why, so I never asked questions. copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8Fdgd470g
We already dropped off Emmanuel, and Evelyn stayed in the car as Eric drove us to the Bronx household. copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTyA9pWIoK
“You should text Delcan,” Evelyn advised me. I turned to look at her, and then realized something. I hadn’t talked to Delcan all day, and after the night we made out, that makes me seem like a jerk. Well, it’s not like he hasn’t done the same thing...once or twice. 159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsQDrSn96J
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“It’s not that big of a deal,” I said. Of course it was, though. My body knew, too, because my brain as spinning, and my hands were both shaky and sweaty. “He’s probably busy doing homework.”copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtT4bUqSQb
Eric chuckled to himself. “No offense, Ezra,” he said. I turned to the window, already knowing what he’d say. “But I don’t think Delcan has ever done a sheet of homework in his entire life. He’s too pretty for that.”159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLpMEZToPRX
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“He-” ⟴, he’s right. I was the one who did his homework, while I’m sure he didn’t listen. “That doesn’t matter. Just drive so I can get this over with.”159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKL0s10NpGK
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Evelyn exhaled. “You shouldn’t have to do something for your ex, bro,” she said. “Seriously, I hate Haven with a burning passion, and she’s just using you because of your own guilt.”copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡG49bq93xST
“Well, it’s working,” I told her.copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPEs9ZkKE7
Eric pulled up into the driveway. “Text me when you need a ride,” he said. copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsZLANGNrw
I got out of the car, and turned back around to look at my older brother. “Actually,” I told him. “I was thinking about walking back home. It’s just three miles.”copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKlxGaFo1J
“Fine by me,” Eric shrugged. He drove off, and I started to bite the inside of my cheek. There’s nothing to worry about, I told myself. Well, there was, but it wasn't like I wanted to think about that at the moment. copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zemr3WknJ
Walking up the stairs, all I could feel was burning regret. Why am I doing this to myself? Are Haven’s parents knowing better than the school figuring it out in a matter of days?copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡMePrJuzsgp
Yes. Yes, a thousand times, a part of my brain said.copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVvS7YizLH
I knocked on the door, then held my hands to my side while I twisted them around. Mrs. Bronx opened up the door, her dirty-blonde hair in a tight ponytail. She was wearing this fancy, dark green dress, and I looked down at my casual jeans and not-washed T-shirt. Dinner. I was underdressed, and I had to tell them at dinner. copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3ojrqW88b
Shoot. copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfkyXDDZBF
Mrs. Bronx gave me a kind smile. “Hi, Ezra,” she said. She gestured her hand inside of the house. “Come on in.”copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡPLHIfzMOcz
I nodded, and then shoved my hands into my jacket as I walked into the house. copyright protection155ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5F1zDkWBn
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