I woke up, purely annoyed to the sound of knocking on my bedroom door. I hadn’t gone to bed last night until around 1 in the morning - why? Because I worry about everything - so the pounding of the door combined with the small headache I had only seemed to make the day worse. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJwWVYJ2S7 維尼
Slowly climbing out of bed, I unlocked my door and then opened it. “Can’t even read time anymore?” I asked Eric, who was holding Emmanuel’s left arm. I knew for a fact that it was only 6:01, meaning I could’ve slept in for another twenty-nine minutes. Though apparently, that isn’t going to be allowed today. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡRycXKh0goB 維尼
“Shut up, dipwad,” Eric said, barging into my room without permission. I would’ve punched him in the shoulder or something (I just woke up in the mood for it), but something about Emmanuel’s face made me stop before doing anything stupid. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzqnEiZ9ud 維尼
“Why are you here?”8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27WWlWm4kb 維尼
Eric sat Emmanuel down on the bed. “He almost told Mom and Dad,” he told me. I raised my eyebrows but wasn’t exactly surprised. I would’ve been mad if it was Eric or Evelyn because they do things on purpose, but Emmanuel never means to hurt anyone. He’s hardly even been able to keep a secret from Dad since he was a toddler. I looked over to my younger brother, who had put his dirty blonde head in his hands. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡCf4FOdpoSu 維尼
“Didn’t we make an agreement?” I asked Emmanuel. The second the words left my mouth, it made me feel like a third parent. I cringed.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqouBaEsAc 維尼
Emmanuel looked up at me with puppy dog eyes, almost like he was about to burst into tears. “I’m sorry,” he whined. “I didn’t know.” He had bags under his eyes and he was sleepy, but it didn’t mean he could just spill secrets around the house when he wanted to. I hated when I got mad at Emmanuel, but sometimes he deserved it.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVPK4QLwnN 維尼
“I guess that means I’m getting your dessert tonight,” I said.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWaAN4Qw42 維尼
Eric smiled when Emmanuel cried out. “NO!” my brother cried. “No! That isn’t fair, Ezie!! You-we had a deal! My cookie!”8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZJGBhiJtl 維尼
And then he was crying.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqduTJRxOf 維尼
Shoot.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5fqcZKGV3 維尼
As I found out over the years, tears seem to be one of my main weaknesses. I don’t know what it is about crying, but it can sometimes be such a sign of defeat that I instantly feel bad for the person. I mean, I have empathy, so that’s good. And though it bothers me to see a child crying in public or a woman from who knows what, it feels like I’m being stabbed in the heart when someone I love begins to cry. I don’t want them to feel any pain, so seeing just a single tear turns me into one of the nicest guys on the planet.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFb8X4U6Mh 維尼
Not that I’m not.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxQHt7yTcm 維尼
Okay, that sounded rude. I shouldn’t think - should I?8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9Xu5IO1QQ 維尼
Wrapping Emmanuel in a hug, he began crying onto my shoulder as I pulled him closer to me. ↹ my weakness, I thought to myself. “It’s okay,” I told him, my voice getting as soft as it could. “Mom and Dad just don’t like homosexuals. Nothing we can really change about that. Don’t cry, okay?” When I pulled him away, he was still holding onto my arm, looking down. He was going to have a pretty hard time focusing in school today. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCU0YDlZhG 維尼
“It isn’t fair,” he whispered.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pXG0WUE8J 維尼
Eric shrugged. “Life’s not,” he said. “Some people are good, and some are bad. Just turns out that we were birthed by bad ones.”8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBwQvg2lTn 維尼
“Ew,” Emmanuel said, scrunching his face. “Don’t make me think about that.”8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YOe83iuLb 維尼
I smiled as I ruffled my brother’s hair. “The crying didn’t work that well-”8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡbP4oynN3e5 維尼
“Yeah, it did,” both Emmanuel and Eric said at the same time. I ignored them and kept on talking.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08yZcdi429 維尼
“I’m still eating your dessert tonight, whether you like it or not,” I said. Emmanuel pouted his lip, but he didn’t say anything in return. Eric gave me this odd look that I had never seen on his face before, which I would question...never. All of a sudden, there was a knock on the door from Mom.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKB3TBMmP5 維尼
Great.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPykNV0X99 維尼
I hoped that she wouldn’t ask about why Delcan was even here last night. I couldn’t give her a reasonable explanation even if I wanted to. I also pray that she never tells Dad about a Heslop setting foot in this house. I wouldn’t want to become the second favorite Gatley. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGHwPX6oOZ 維尼
Throwing a shirt over my head the minute before Mom walked into my room, I tried to make myself look relaxed. I don’t know why I wasn’t so surprised when it didn’t work. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKZhS38i6S 維尼
My mom saw all three of her sons in one room together (not fighting, I might add, which is pretty ironic. Usually, Eric would pick an argument while I tried, but failed, to ignore him) and talking. I already knew what her huge grin meant. How adorable! I heard her saying. All three of my boys together. Oh, if only I could take a picture of this! 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡejUaMrKEyq 維尼
Sure enough, she clutched her phone in her right hand. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrp1kQRdoi 維尼
“Come on, boys,” Mom said, pulling at her sleeve. She always wears long sleeves now. “It’s time to go, and Evelyn needs a ride.”8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡctVZ4trhCt 維尼
Eric straightened his back. “Do we get paid for it?”8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAmoXNOu8S 維尼
“Did I get paid to give birth to you?” Mom asked. When none of us responded (except for Emmanuel putting his head on my shoulder), she smiled. “Just do what I ask, and everything will sort itself out. Okay?"8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvYUewHQyx 維尼
“Yes, ma’am,” we all said.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡMetCJLnvuR 維尼
My mom nodded like she had just won a battle, and then left the room. I heard her footsteps go down the stairs, even though I knew how much she hated making noise. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyCMN9X2Vv 維尼
When I was younger, I always remembered asking my mom about her shirts. She never even wore something that showed her arms, and it made me pretty concerned for her. The last time I had asked her, I was 12 years old. She had circles under her puffy eyes, and both of her hands wrapped around her arms. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfrckhY6cg 維尼
“Are you okay?” I asked her.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hxXolysfX 維尼
Mom looked up at me, almost seeming to forget that I was there. She never does that, which I guess should’ve been a hint to me. Her children were the light in her life, which was cheesy, but true. “Of course I am, baby. Are you?”8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLICrlsfsZ 維尼
I nodded. “Why don’t you wanna wear the blouse Eric and I bought you for Christmas?” I asked her. The only reason why I kept on bringing it up was because that blouse cost Eric and me half our entire allowance. It was pretty aggravating to not see her wearing it. On top of that, the blouse had all of Mom’s favorite things - pastel colors, flowers, and a soft texture on the inside of it. I never understood why she didn’t wear it at least twice a month. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOe7REwLQe 維尼
“I don’t think it’s appropriate to wear to work,” my mom responded to me with that day. I tilted my head to the side, completely forgetting about the cereal that I had in front of me.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡngZVAzdKvw 維尼
She hadn’t been to work in days. “I think it’s pretty,” I told her.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8ahbZKbXI 維尼
Mom smiled, but it wasn’t like her normal ones. That was the first time I had seen her with a sad smile on her face, and the first day I learned that was an actual thing. “How about you get ready for school, hm? I’ll take you there.”351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBw5hiFuEIs
“Why were you crying last night?” I asked her. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpfvbPS1BT 維尼
Mom hardly ever cries, but she does when she believes no one is watching. I heard her cry last night for what seemed like hours. Finally, I had to put one of my pillows over my head so that I would be able to sleep properly. With the meanest face I’ve ever seen her with, she pointed a finger at me, her hand shaking. “Go get dressed, Ace.”8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEwnMuEXin 維尼
I stood up. “Mom-”8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡhL7J4gQgcJ 維尼
“Go get dressed, Ezra Ace Gatley!” she demanded, tears in her eyes. I didn’t complain at all. Instead, I bowed my head down and walked up to the stairs, ignoring Dad as he gave me a hurtful pat on the back. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnzbtgXrlS 維尼
Eric hit my shoulder, hard. “Dude,” he said. “You good?”8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39dSzNWBZP 維尼
I nodded, going back to reality. I wish she would tell someone. I wish that I would. “Yup,” I muttered. Emmanuel got up from my bed and left the room, taking the stairs two at a time before he finally made it to the bottom, where Dad yelled at him for it.8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxy8Z6LJkh 維尼
“He needs to stop doing that,” I said out loud. 8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGGZwjiN3v 維尼
Eric turned to look at me. “Ignore the scars, okay?” he asked. I looked at him for a second before I realized he was talking about Mom. “She’ll never leave him. All we can do is pray that he’ll never take it too far.”8964 copyright protection347ＰＥＮＡＮＡymwMbXQTEO 維尼
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