The buzzing on the phone helped me regain my consciousness and I walked away to the front door, Tobias leaned and opened the door for me from the inside and I climbed in, I looked at him and his eyes were fixed on mine he leaned again but this time he brushed his lips with mine. We headed to the north for the organisation while he talked about his morning and I watched him happy for Ethan's return since he studied in Seattle, I was happy because I was with him still I couldn't start any talk, no matter how comfortable and close we were I was always silent, he turned the radio and Nothing's Gonna hurt you baby by Cigarettes after Sex was filling the gaps of the stillness as I placed my cheek on the cold window gazing at the trees while they pass, we drove closer to our destination and then he reached and held my hand between his sizable virile hand, I turned to look at him and he questioned me "Are you nervous? like to determine the gender and all?" I nodded "A little bit, I have this feeling that it's a boy, but I don't know." I looked down holding my belly as I closed my eyes hoping the baby in my belly is the one in my dreams, Tobias let go of my hand and he placed his on my tummy "You will be an amazing mother, and I am sure because you kept your baby and even if you have no idea what to do with um with him, you are holding him and fighting for him at this age." I couldn't answer him knowing that he was right. I had no clue how or where I was going to raise a kid while I was still a kid, he spoke again "I want to witness it all." I raised my eyes looking at him and I smiled "We would love that." For the first time I wasn't afraid nor ashamed.
Couple minutes into that straight road and Tobias parked the car in the parking lot of a building that looked almost like a school or an orphanage, I climbed out of the car and Tobias grabbed my hand as we walked through the front gate, he saluted almost every person that passed by us I remarked "Someone is pretty famous here." He smiled proudly, from the inside it looked more like a school and each door was labelled, my puzzled eyes found his and he smirked responding to the answers in my head "So this was a private primary school and the owner's daughter was assaulted and killed by some thief right in the long haul of the west side, he had a gun and no one dared to help her. Her father and mother turned the school first to an association against child abuse then an orphanage and for the past year they added teen mothers, it's right in this corner." We turned right to another door entitled Teen Moms. I felt sad for the family of that little girl. It must have been hard on them, I wondered how old was she and what she looked like, What was her name? Tobias and I walked to the reception he gave his name instead of mine, and we sat looking at the baby pictures framed in the white walls, couple minutes of my feet shaking rapidly on the floor till the nurse called for Tobias's name from an open door across the hall, I stood after letting a heavy breath out too heavy it made him look down to me, the agitation didn't leave the blue body I had even if Tobias held my hand to the doctor's office.
While the young blond nurse helped me settle on the bed, I heard the doctor's voice from the next room ensuring to the patient that her baby girl is healthy, the tone of his voice matched his smiley face as the middle aged man entered the room "Good afternoon! My name is Dr Langston." He said, he greeted Tobias and I had the impression that they are acquaintances, Tobias explained that I never visited a doctor and how uneasy my situation as a teen mother was. The doctor seemed to understand that and didn't bother to ask many questions, I surmised because he knew Tobias. The nurse lifter up my sweater then she drenched my bear belly with a cold slimy gel, Mr Langston sat in a little round chair next to the bed and pulled closer a screen machine, he turned the black screen on and I assumed it was the ultrasound then he grabbed the transducer and he slid it on the surface of my belly at that point something appeared on the monitor, but that wasn't it he also grabbed a stethoscope that was attached to the ultrasound machine, and my baby's heart beats were loud enough to make me sob, Tobias held my hand as we were both amazed and the doctor didn't fail to show the baby's shape on the monitor "My baby is a boy, isn't he?" I said without even controlling my words, the doctor smiled before agreeing with a nod and a tear from Tobias's eye landed on my cheek and I looked up at him "I felt it, I am a mother" I cried. Mr Langston did sum up how healthy my baby boy was and gave me some vitamins for these months, he also offered his phone number if I had any questions.
I left that room with a wide smile on my face but my eyes were always watering. I can't give my kid, I can't leave him, I want to be the mother I never had. As we walked out from the organization we were both voiceless of the happiness we felt, we climbed in the car and Tobias took a moment just staring at the empty road in front him before turning and hugging me, I held into him while both his hefty arms around me that his woody herbaceous sent was left on my sweater, he let go with a tear on his cheek and I wiped it before wiping mine, while he closed his eyes as my thumb traced his skin, and his lips gently crashed mine making my eye to close.
On the way back I couldn't count the trees because my head played the sound of my baby's heart over and over, I couldn't even hear the song that was sounded on the car, I turned to Tobias and I noticed the warm smile he wasn't able to hide "Thank you." I mumbled as I placed my hand on his and mine looked so minuscule compared to his, he gazed at me and spoke "I'm glad it made you happy." I interrupted shaking my head "no, it's you." I whispered and he heard.
Tobias pulled his car in front of my house as I scanned it exhaling, a strange cold breeze run down on my heart and I felt comfortless, I looked down at my belly and I lifted my head to examine Tobias's eyes being so mystified he asked what was wrong, I wasn't sure because nothing was happening but I felt something "Maybe the hormones." I explained, I kissed him goodbye and I climbed out, and he spoke "I think your parents should know, the sooner the better. Just think about it." I agreed with a nod, Should I tell them? I mean one way or another they would know, maybe the sooner the better. And Tobias's voice played on my head. I pulled my keys out of my pocket and opened the door, the clock on the kitchen's wall was pointing to 3 pm, which means everyone is home except father. Should I tell them today? Maybe when father gets back from the station. I went directly to my room and changed into something cozier, I sat on the edge of my bed admiring my room, I exhaled holding my head between my hands and then I had a reason to feel uneasy.
I huddled my pieces from wandering off and went to my parent's bedroom seeking for my mother, I knocked on the door and I wished she wasn't there but I had to do it. Her voice calling made me realize what I was about to do. I couldn't back off nor continue walking till my mother noticed and called "Elleona, what is it?" My brain couldn't function and my mother was clueless she wasn't able to notice the pain I was in, I walked across the room to the settee she was sitting in her face was plugged on the magazine she was firmly holding, I sat on the edge and stared until she remarked that I existed and I requested "Can we talk?" I lowered the magazine and her eyes met mine, she put it on the side table and sat correctly responding "Yes dear, I am all ears." My brain kept repeating Okay over and over till she put her hand on my shoulder and gulped my name, I spoke unintentionally "Yes Yes, um there is something really important I want to tell you, once my father gets back home." She asked, "Is it about your college decision?" I rushed remembering that Mabel applied for the universities I wanted to study in, I explained "It is not related to my studies, It has to do with me and only me." She was confused and I didn't give any hints, how could I?
My phone rang in between my sweaty palms, Tobias, I exited the room as I answered and he rejoiced "Hi, I wanted to ask you if you want to join me and Ethan well and his girlfriend out?" I took a moment humming the thoughts in my mind till he added "We are going to the drive-in. They are playing A Walk To Remember, and I want you to be there, to be with me you know?" I always wanted to watch a movie there. "Okay" I whispered then he requested "And we should um talk about something, okay?" I explained "Yes sure, by the way I am having The talk with my parents today. I will leave a part blurry but I will only point to the baby." "Baby? What baby?" Ivy's voice from behind as her eyes pried on me "None of your business!" I demanded with a tough eye yet my whole body was willing to collapse, she knocked on my mother's door a couple feet away and she knocked really hard that my mother opened in a blink "Your perfect daughter is hiding something, and it's baby related?" She hissed "What? Is that what you want to talk to me about?" My mother asked, and the sound of the door closing followed, Great276Please respect copyright.PENANAgkkTAU970Z