Tobias stopped his car in the garage of his house and asked me to wait for him, I witnessed him bringing boxes from the house and putting them in his mother's truck about six of them and then he waved calling me to join him. My bemused mind unfolded on my face till he stated "We are just going somewhere peaceful so you can clear your mind for the following events." I began to ponder each and every word he pronounced, yet my rumination was narrow. He asked me to close my eyes just as we got closer to Fern Ridge Shores, he made sure I used my hand to block the vision, I couldn't help but smile at his shuckles. It wasn't so long until he stopped driving and got out of the car asking me to give him a second, I sat still speculating the darkness of my palm and coming back to that very seat. The voice of the door handle cracking open awaken me from my conjecturing, calling me out of the truck but always closing my eyes, each step made me realize that I trusted him, after everything that happened to me I was somewhere I had no idea where while Tobias blocking my sight using both his hands and walking me about 5 feets around the truck. I was astonished and delighted when I opened my eyes at last, the view of the lake as the sky was changing colors was so dazzling, I couldn't stop gazing. Tobias cheered "And now the best part. Ell turn around, would you?" The beauty in front of me made me neglect those wonders I had when Tobias left me alone in the truck, I eventually turned to eye the back that small blue truck turned all soft and cozy, my jaw dropped to those fluffy white pillows and a cloudy grey blanket covering the whole back, little fog grey cushions placed around, a white picnic hamper in the centre wrapped by baby blue ribbon.
I didn't know how to react, I was impressed about the timing he had to put everything together at once and with no help, I turned to face him, he was focusing on my facial expressions and staring at me without looking away. My face wore a smile on, not forced not faked, from my broken heart, during the time he helped me get in he spoke "I knew you hid a beautiful smile behind those labyrinthine eyes." We got comfortable as well as he got out of the basket Pb&J sandwiches, he defended "I didn't have much time to make other things." I smiled "I love pb&js, maybe it's the only food that doesn't make me sick." He looked down at my belly while I was wearing a brown large sweater, "Do you have a name?" He asked without glancing away from my eyes, except I couldn't keep the eye contact. I explained "I don't, I believe it's a boy tho, even if I haven't visited a doctor,I- I can't." he suggested "You can pick a day and I will take you to the association, the doctor will only answer your questions and won't even ask for your name, okay?" We cherished eating those sandwiches to the fullest, and we stared at the abendrot sky, and the vibrant water reflecting any and all the colors of the above. Ultimately, I felt safe and I nearly forgot my dilemmas, I wished for the time to stop and everything else, Tobias grabbed his phone and played a song Oceans by Hillsong UNITED, his don't-judge-me eyes looked at me, and I loved the song so I loved the whole aesthetic, I found the peace that I was desperate for, "Thank you." I uttered "Thank you for everything, not just this. Thank you for being there for me, I don't know what to do without you, I could've killed myself or god knows what. I am grateful for you." He smirked "I am grateful for you too, in fact you make me happy just by being next to me, I don't know about you but I need you." As the words escaped his lips and touched my ears, I drew nearer to him and just like always his arm wrapped around me as I lay my head on his chest "I do too." I whispered and he didn't hear this time.
I didn't know how to feel about his words being as intimate, didn't push me away nor pull me any closer, but they sure made me sense whatever sentiment he felt, I wasn't in a place where I could feel that way about anyone, I wasn't in place where I could be happy, since every time I thought about smiling, all the memories rose at once and the pain would follow. The walls I built and imprisoned myself in were consistently higher than anyone's reach even Tobias's, still I loved the relationship we had, he was helping me and dedicating all his free time to be with me, but I was selfish and we never noticed, he did everything for me, he chose what was always suitable for me and my baby, yet he never complained once. And so on the sky above darkened and the little shiny dots started to appear, is it 8 already? I wondered, the water ahead of was serene, when I looked up to search for Sirius, he read my mind and he pointed right to it, slowly I became as obsessed as he was with the wonders of the outer space. Going back home that night wasn't something I desired nor needed but I had to, yet I kept thinking of the details all night, forgetting whatever was coming next, and his plan worked I was seren for as much as we stayed there.
Days in, the prom night was already here, I agreed to go and to be with someone and most of all wear a dress my one only condition was not to wear makeup, "you will regret it" Mabel said. I was nervous about my belly. I looked a little bit overweight, if my father didn't notice I didn't think anyone would. The anxieties and the overthinking was killing me, I survived high school being lowkey and with Mabel, and hoped I would survive just one more night.
One more night, I wished as I was dressing up, the color from the dress showed how pink my pale skin was, also how dark my hair and my eyebrows were. The dress was medium length so I wore my black timberland boots, I packed my phone and my earphones in my mini black backpack. I opened the door heading for the stairs while Ivy was about to enter her room just at the end of the hallway and she glared at me "Happy for the prom, I've been to like 6." I responded "And none of them was yours, why is that? oh because you didn't graduate, too ashamed to go, right?" She frowned and shut the door firmly it made me jumped, my father was heading up looking perplexed, his expressions changed the instant he regarded me standing before my door, a warm beam appeared on his face, he hugged me as he took my hand to examine my dress "My beautiful daughter" he smiled, I held him tightly expressing all the love I have for him. We went down when we heard a light knocking on the door, my father opened the door and looked up at Tobias smiling as always, he greeted him and asked him to come in. Tobias was more timid than the usual, he was wearing a black suit and pine green bowtie, he looked so appealing, he slicked back his brown hair yet couple hairs were hanging still, he was holding to a prom corsage, I stepped out of the shadowy corridor to show myself, using my left hand to tuck my hair behind my ear, rising my head up and walking toward them, Tobias scanned me from toes to head wearing the cutest smiles that showed his deep dimples, I leered back as lowkey as I managed. My father closed the door and walked near the kitchen, as we drew closer to each other, he helped me wearing the corsage "I knew you would find a way to wear something black on, that's why this flower is as dark as your hair." He explained, "Thank you." I looked up to glimpse his eyes, I found myself staring at an immense person, the tallest I have ever stood near, he enquired "You don't want to be late, don't you?" I nodded and turned my father's way as he approached and he probed "I don't want to sound like those parents, but just have the fun you can handle, okay?" We agreed and left through to his car.
We drove for about 5 minutes, to find a crowded parking lot, we finally located a place for his black Impreza, he asked me to stay put, I did so waiting for his next action, and I wasn't disappointed, he opened the door for me and helped me to get out, he jocked "I know you can do all of this alone, but I would love to show the gentleman in me." He held my hand and walked with me, he was so attractive all the girls around were staring at both of us, I could tell he was holding himself yet he couldn't resist then he smiled down at me "We look so fucking good, hahaha" He was the goofiest person and he made me smile even when I thought I was never capable of that. I looked down to check how obvious my baby was, despite that the dress was loose I was anxious. We went in between the crowds going toward the entrance till I heard Mabel's voice from distance while Edwin waving at us, we sailed through the throng, Mabel seemed so alluring, her iris purple long dress was shining with lilac colored flowers, the corsage she was wearing was lavender, Edwin in the other hand standing tall hands in pockets wearing an anchor grey suit leaving his hair as messing as always. I held them and introduced Tobias, Mabel winked at me and it was obvious it made me slap my face.279Please respect copyright.PENANAwQc7nvzjYh