My father stepped on each stair wondering about the voices overhead, I backed off and my father placed his hand on my back asking "What's going on? Why are you loud?" I intended for the words but I failed, then my mother spoke "There is something your daughter wants to talk to us about, and Ivy is saying that it is related to a baby?" Yet Ivy never failed to surprise me "She was just talking to someone on the phone and she said she will leave something um was it blurry you said?" Oh my god this can't be real, What's happening right now? "Can we go down and speak?" I asked as politely as I managed, I led the way to the living room and I spotted Leroy coming in from the back door. Could it be more devastating? I sat as they all gathered around me except Leroy went straight to the bathroom, I was about to disappoint the person I loved the most in this world and I couldn't afford adding Leroy to him, I explicated "I don't know how to say this, but surely not the way I am about to, because what happened is um, something I never wanted, um something I wasn't planning to have right now, but um, I am having what Ivy heard and said." The moment those words managed to escape my lips everything went black, and I couldn't hear a thing either. The first thing I spotted was my mother climbing up and my father holding his head between his hands. I didn't care about anyone beside him. I sobbed "I am sorry, I really am." It was hard to even think about this happening but It was.
My father lifted his eyes nearly meeting mine but he crashed "How long?" He fumed "About 15 weeks." I muttered "And who is the father?" He asked again and his tone was getting angrier "You don't know him?" "So it's not your boyfriend Tobias? He knows about this?" He humiliated me by this question but I just couldn't tell him what happened. "Father it's not about Tobias or anyone else, please, it's about you." I cried, my mother broke that silence by throwing my bag full of clothes, I assumed as she shouted "I am not accepting this behavior and you are now leaving this house, because my daughters wouldn't do something like this." "Like what? What's going on here?" Leroy decided to show up too and I just couldn't take it. Ivy dictated "Your sweet sister is pregnant, and yes she is leaving the house." My mother grabbed my arm so roughly along with the bag and dragged me out, Leroy is following shouting No constantly, she opened the door and pushed me as she hurled the bag "Mother please!!" I begged but she didn't flinch, Leroy stood next to me holding my hand and it was so soothing, and Ivy stood next to mom arm crossed with a beam, but I couldn't forget the way my father loomed next to them watching my mother closing the door on me, Leroy started striking the door as hard as he could shouting for them to open but no one responded "It's okay." I whined "Don't trouble yourself I can't get in even if they allowed it." He stuttered "Where are you leaving?To Mabel's?" I nodded just to assure him and he hugged me so tight I felt like it was the last time I would see him.
I walked grabbing my bag and I called Tobias, I couldn't talk I just cried and walked towards his house, I strolled in the empty streets my face drenched in tears and it hurt so bad I felt forsaken, couple minutes into that empty road till I glimpsed Tobias's car as I felt like fainting and a Déja-vu hit me, remembering the night that destroyed my life.
I took no part in destroying my life, yet it happened while I couldn't help it, while I couldn't stop it. I felt so light yet the world's weight on my chest. Where am I? What's happening? I opened my eyes slightly to the sight of Tobias grabbing me from the ground right to his car, I felt so small and so weak and couldn't help but cry even more. He helped me get in as he drove to his house, when he parked in the driveway he removed his belt and turned to me, all the negative thoughts of him leaving me which he had all the rights, instead he took my hand looked me in the eyes and he stuttered "I going to go grab my things to go somewhere else, okay?" I nodded as fast as I could, and he said again "You will be okay, your baby will be okay." I hugged him just as tight as my skinny arms got of his vast body, my tears soaking his dark grey hoodie, he didn't move till I let him go.
Rapidly he was back with his bag and we drove to the east of Eugene, the silence threw me to my thoughts and I had to stop it, the voice inside is growing deeper and deeper just like the hole in my chest I don't know how to endure any of them, and I felt the need to end this once and for all. Maybe it's the only way, it may be harder because I am pregnant, maybe if I wasn't I would just let it go, but now that I am pregnant I just can't, I need to end this I am a cut off, everyone will understand eventually, even if they don't I won't be there to witness it. Tobias's voice cut deeper than those thoughts he informed "We are close, it's my father's cabin, he used to come here when the whole world is against him he used to say, so if your family and the whole world are against you, I am gonna stick with you because you are part of my little whole world." I couldn't answer nor smile but every emotion in me was moved, I looked at him with my wounded eyes and a soft miserable smile escaped his lips.
We stopped in front of a huge gate, Tobias went down and he pulled the doors open. The gate had Hadlee's on it, it wasn't just a cabin but it was a big beautiful one, the trees covering the whole property and I was amazed as the sun was in it's brightest moments making the colors in the sky so adjusted it brought the whole view together. We parked in front of the main door, Tobias grabbed both our bags and rushed to open my door as well, he grabbed my hand and he opened the wooden door. I totally forgot how beautiful the outside looked when I went in, he whispered "Welcome home." He uncovered the fourniture, and I helped myself around exploring the living room and the kitchen. "It's beautiful." I remarked, I sat on the large couch and hugged the closest cushion. I watched Tobias playing with the light switches and the faucets in the kitchen, he reported "I need to go to the back to fix this." I nodded agreeing, there was too much going on in my head that I lost focus on anything else, I grabbed my phone it was almost 07 pm "What a day!" I spoke and I felt blank, I kept staring at the ceiling till Tobias was back. "Now we have water and electricity, yet no food. I will text Ethan to grab us something to eat." He explained then he walked sitting next to me , he asked "I am texting him my list of things, can you tell me what do you normally like to eat like your favorite snacks?" I took a moment thinking how disgusting food was to me and I replied "I hate every kind of food right now except for PB&J." He smirked saying Okay.
After he finished texting he put away his phone and turned to me "Now tell me what happened." He questioned me, I exhaled before telling him everything. I was stunned that I didn't cry even if I remembered every single detail "They will come around I can promise you that, especially if they know the whole story, and I understand that you don't want them to." "Just the fact that my father is asking who is the father and if you know, that alone broke me" I tried to escape his words and to focus on other things but he noticed "We will find a solution, just give them a little bit of time for now." I sat correctly letting go the cushion from between my arms as the uneasy feeling tapped my heart, Tobias drew near to me as he wrapped his arm around me and I felt safe again placing my head on his chest. "Why does life have to be this hard?" I spoke, raising my head to look at him, he placed a kiss on my forehead and he responded "One day in the future, all of this will be just a bad memory and you will be the person you always wanted to be, and I wish I can be there to witness it." "You will" I whispered and he heard.282Please respect copyright.PENANA45mkL5fb7u