As much as I wanted to call him and ask for his help, I kept thinking what if he had any relation with that monster Othello, that day I was going to the club after school, laying on my bed looking into the white ceiling and all those thoughts were rushing through my head one after the other. I heard a knock and my father came in, I sat properly knowing that I am about to have a long conversation at 6 am, "What has gotten into you these days?" He stammered, I thought he would be angry about what I have done, not worried. I hugged him unexpectedly "Hey, you can talk to me you know that, right? No matter what it is, I will support you and be with you, you know that too, right?" He asked, I nodded, hiding my tears as I hugged him even tighter, I knew there was no way he couldn't notice that I was miserable. Leroy was walking down the corridor when he spotted us and jumped over the bed hugging both of us. The moment they left I stood to take a long hot steamy shower so I could relax, I dried my black hair really quick as it was medium length, I grabbed a Military green t-shirt and a black jeans and black boots, I stuffed my black bag with books and I went down for breakfast.
My Mother and Ivy never joined us, they were to sleep till 10 am and they both go to my mother's beauty salon. It was all okay till Leroy asked my father "What's that little screaming voice I hear every night? Is our house haunted?" I almost dropped the spoon into the cereal bowl, my room is soundproof. I made it that way because I used to wake up late at night to play my cello. As they kept wondering what was that noise I checked my phone. It was 8 am, I was only 15 minutes away from school, but I needed to get out earlier that day, I didn't even know why. I told my father that I needed to take a walk to clear my head. He kissed my forehead as I did the same to Leroy, I was just about to plug the earphones into my phone and Mabel called, she asked me to come to her place asap. Throughout the time I was walking to her house I glimpsed the three of them standing next to their cars, I stopped in my spot for a second and I walked back to the long road. Mabel called my name couple times and she started calling my phone, I put my phone on mute mode, during the time I am heading to the other road I heard a car behind me, I turned my head slightly it was Edwin's, Mabel came down explaining herself "Hey El wait please, he has to know because it's his problem too, you should not take the burden alone." I knew she was doing that for my sake because she loves me, but I didn't want him to know or Edwin. I turned to stare at her but I couldn't I hugged her and begged her "Please, I don't want him near me, please I am having an abortion anyways and it's my problem not his." Edwin got out of the car "Are you sure? I am sorry to interrupt but Elleona at least think about it, it's your choice and it's your baby." He spoke, I didn't answer because I said things without thinking. Are you killing this little human? Don't It's mine. My heart broke to pieces just when I thought about it.
"It's time for school, I still have 9 months to decide." I added walking away plugging my earphone in. I took the long road, I liked how quiet and peaceful it was, I thought to myself "One day I will buy a little tranquil house to live with a dog." And your baby. I for a second I wanted it but I knew I can't have it, even if it's mine. Unexpectedly, I saw a little girl who looked so familiar, a brunette and her angelic little brown eyes so stunning, then a lady got out of a pleasant house and a memory struck my head, Tobias's family. Immediately after remarking that I started walking faster the lady called the little girl Evelyn, "What a beautiful name." I whispered "It is, right?" Tobias asked cheerely, I looked at my left side to see him sitting behind his car, my heart skipped a beat. He got up and walked from the car, I am trying to walk away but my feet wouldn't "You didn't text nor call." Directly after he spoke he noticed something and added "Hey, you seem way different than before, something changed, didn't it?" I took a step back and as always my voice was failing me. The little ran and hugged him from behind, he picked her up she was so happy "This is Evelyn my niece, Evelyn say hi to my friend Elleona." He asked her "Hi Elleoa" Her little voice was the cutest ever and her petite hand waving in the air at me. "She is 3 and half, that's my mother Amelia." He was talking to me as if we were friends for real, I was embarrassed of the way I was treating him. Maybe for real he wants to help, "It's really nice to meet them, I didn't text nor call because um..." He interrupted right after the couple words I said "I didn't expect your call, if you are joining the club because you are facing the same problem as the other women, then you are the bravest of them all, you are going to school and meeting men standing with one right now. I am proud of you." I have never thought of it that way, thinking about that monster frightened me but I knew that people are not the same, I lowered my head, he asked "You are coming today right?" I nodded "Great then I am looking forward to meeting you there." I mumbled a goodbye after waving to Evelyn, and I went to school.
The clock alarm interrupted my talk with the doctor, reviving me from the past "Time is up for today, I want to know more about your story, we can make twice a week appointments if that it's suitable for you?" The Doctor requested the time that I shook her hand "I would love to. Thank you so much" I responded and she said again "I have so many questions and notes about your whole situation, since you feel anxious and uncomfortable when I ask while you are narrating, once you tell me everything, we can discuss this notebook of mine, deal?" I nodded with a sweet beam, leaving for my house. I am going to see my baby boy and my gracious daughter, the voice in my head never left for all these years and it grew within me, it corrects my mistakes and guides me when I am lost. Lately this voice has changed just as I grow older the voice grows lower, as if it is a different person sometimes I don't even know who is talking to me.
I drove my car back home, I lived on the west side of Davis, my house is splendidly white with brown door and window frames and a garden, I planted most of them with my husband. My father was babysitting Dennis and Lillian because my husband traveled to San Francisco with work, he needs to attend all the meetings in the state since he is the CEO of the association. My son Dennis is 9 years old, he looked like me more but his eyes are lovat green. I have never thought I would love him this much, since I didn't even want a kid at that age, while Lillian is the prettiest 2 years old girl ever, her eyes are honey brown and her hair is all brown. I am also happy with my husband, but something is and has always been off, I ignored it for too long, I just can't anymore.
At the same time I opened the front door, Dennis jumped and Lillian clapped her hands and both called for me, my father hugged me and welcomed me home, I was just as happy to see them, Lillian playing with my father while Dennis doing his homework. It was Tuesday I went up to my room, Dennis ran following me because he know for sure I would grab my cello, my father waited with my little girl for Leroy to come back from his lacrosse training, they are staying with me because my husband is out of town, Leroy is playing in a lacrosse team since we moved in 9 years ago. Ivy and mother they never visit unless if we do in holidays, I mainly come back to Eugene for Mabel and Edwin, they got married 5 years ago I was her bridesmaid just like she was mine, and I am her daughter's godmother little Rosemary, just like she planned when we were kids. She and Edwin were even planning to move in the house next to where I was living.
I spend the rest of the evening teaching Dennis the names of the chords and how to play them of my old cello, my father made us dinner and I heard Leroy talking to Lillian that she will be the niece of the next Jason Coffman, we had an appetising dinner, temporary happiness, my mind whispered again, before putting the kids to bed Dennis told me "Mommy, can I talk to daddy on the phone I miss him so so so much." I smiled and I video called him, they talked while I was putting Lillian in her bed and when I checked on Dennis he was asleep holding the phone while my husband was singing for him. I took the phone and went to my room to wish my man a good night.
After everything that I have been through, from getting raped to my mother kicking me out of the house, it made me stronger, thanks to the one person who helped getting through all of this, Tobias's intentions were never as I thought he wanted to help me because he knew exactly what I was feeling what I wanted to do with myself and my baby and mostly he wanted to make sure all the women who had been raped does not end up like Olivia his older sister, I understood everything when I called him that day after school, the day I was going to his club to talk for the first time, he never said his story and why he was helping those ladies but he told me to encourage me to talking to setting myself free, to slay my demons, He slayed them with me and Mabel was always by my side even Edwin was. While I felt so bad about what happened with Othello, I wanted justice but I was to scared to take it, but karma was hard on his family and mostly his little sister Lily, the thought of her getting involved in huge things and destroying her life and her family's never crossed my mind a 16 years old an innocent face yet a devilish mindset.
Ivy found an old man she invested her beauty in him so she can be prettier with his money, mom gave her blessing the moment she knew his annual salary, they didn't care that he has a family sons and daughters older than his new bride, my father was against it but my mother held into it, and the problem grew bigger till they got a divorce. Leroy stayed with our father and they moved out of the house not far from where I live either, this new city gave us hope when we landed the first time here, everything changed. But not for me, I love my husband and my kids more than breathing, but the pain never goes away, the pain clutching the hurting in my body until it turned all blue, the redness from the warmth of my family reformed me to purple and I am accepting that for now.282Please respect copyright.PENANAS2jR8ylwcH