於是，Tim少和阿樂下樓吃飯，再買了一個蛋糕。回家，放進雪櫃，然後開始打機。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8Odbk6kSO
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青青外出和好友度過午餐和下午茶時段。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg5f6da5zj5
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之後，她去旺角，等Matt；他們約六點半，她先到，不停地來回審視自己的臉容，到洗手間看看有沒有面泛油光、甩妝，再仔細地梳一梳頭。六點五十五分，Matt出現。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WoAPdmyuV
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRJzYGDtFK
「好耐冇見。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6nUy68qvH
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9c1DGKftEq
「係。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Z7wdluS9e
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAi0ViGbjQd
接下來的不足兩小時，他看她像遇上瘟疫一樣，避之則吉，連正視她的眼也像害怕感染病毒，總和她對看一會兒然後移開。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0sdEQe1tC
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEb7VIcNgg
沿路，她問了很多想知的事，還自己一個死心；他說了一些她應該想知的事，渾身不自在，忽然覺得很祼露。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6csMOjcIS
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSEtc1TKwG
他們都覺得對方是陌生人。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HXAOcQO57
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhN3MNZeHk
但，他們分明知道對方的名字、知道對方穿幾號鞋碼、知道對方的恥毛長度。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HYijpFLoE
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMfUD96nvG
就像恰恰一對普通的白色筷子，明明在湯熱麵熟的時候他們是極其有默契的一對，和對方攜手穿梭不同的質感，偶有碰撞但仍在磨合中互相協作；可是，當過了那短暫的時刻，就只被隨便洗刷再扔回去雜亂無章的櫃裏，沒有再一起，對方也不再重要，因為下次自然會與另一枝筷子成為一對。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3a9xRlmDB
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6c4Hb6fzR
就像，一切都沒發生過一樣。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dfIN67yXr
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GFsWTqDzT
「明明應承咗我唔揾第個㗎嘛——」、「你話遲啲先得閒，叫我等到嗰時先多啲見㗎喎……」、「啫係你出軌？你係因為識咗佢，所以先想走？」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2j7y4QWFh
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5aFDldWHo
「我同你分手之前，只係同佢傾幾句咋。」、「後尾我同佢互相都鍾意咗大家。」、「有呢個因素，但又唔可以咁樣歸因……」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9cNuVasm2
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnjQCld76U
青青變得咄咄逼人，Matt仿佛努力地或以真話、或以假話去抵擋她的攻勢；她誓要剖家析族的知個明白，但他在說的時候卻感到難堪，偶然他回頭看見她小心地仰頭，防止眼淚掉下時，他又會感到心軟，如他所言：726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ992QU5WUKB
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9eXGzHTZn
「咁真係我辜負咗你嘅。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjU0Q7VjziF
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCRt5wKgcg
但Matt並沒有和青青說過一聲「對不起」，只逕行，最後不情不願地和她快快吃一個飯，然後趕急地跳上的士離去。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGE5lGhFclC
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuZxRU4cZu
青青覺得自己今晚的行為很反常，平時，她的眼神從來不兇狠，也不會不停地追問一些已然沒有意義的答案，更不會捨棄自尊要求他人順她的意。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3aQrPMyHT
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對。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKkfkwRqp5
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0I5SyLfp1S
她有些不一樣了。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNhM68lkX9
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVBvulcUss
她傻就傻在，有些東西，她想知得很清楚，如果不明不白又覺得很不甘心；但知道以後又更揪心。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2uvd0JCot
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewvM1sFF2v
是她，將心掏出來，還將刀遞上去，留有一點卑微的盼望——726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkmtHKCTls
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQb84ztfXQe
希望他殺人就殺人、切莫誅心，留她一點尊嚴，不要講出太過殘忍的內情。但從來，說清說楚都不會有任何的好結果，被拋棄的人沒有資格說尊嚴，真心愛人何有好的結果？真相是真，比真相是假可怕億萬倍。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhny7IwmVt8
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjghu4LYuT9
是她幼稚，不懂得原來，感情的真相是不可推敲的，只可瞞騙。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJo8k3wTaIe
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWsvxtyMod
最後，青青輕輕地和Matt握手，像剛才所有的不愉快從未發生，迴光返照地笑說：726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1qjQDIjcg
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sjbPmAmee
「祝你平安。前程萬里。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnwUDSZUOI
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2p6DURHPxE
Matt有些錯愕地回握：726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCNYoe6dOu
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN34HeC2de8
「你都係。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUddsCC6EVM
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsw0geFkLBS
沒走幾步，他大喊，她聽不清，停下；他走到一個她勉強能聽見她說話的距離：726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NBlCKHZGM
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbxeFprU4T
「返到屋企同我講聲啦，注意安全。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTA6OuzfBh
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEFbZ3FN4O
她挑眉，對他不可置否地笑笑，大步挺身向前行，因為她清楚，他不是真心的。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCY1yerpB1
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0Y4Xna8IJ
行到轉角處，她突然覺得腳軟，隨之而來的是整個人的脆弱，她忽然覺得好悲傷，何有什麼落落大方的離別？她已死去一萬次。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYRkiwUFhj
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUKIemyCIp
屌，失戀啫——726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAwrFk2Yy0
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2LSia0PPA
但是她不能再怎樣了，所以她行去乘車，到某個站下車，再行回家，感受着絕望得弱小的風在吃力地撫慰她。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0A0NtTl2f7
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGV2sRzY0A
好痛。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlBxCfRjj1i
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvj3PP3NBU
回阿樂住處之前，她先回原先的家，拿走了她的身體磨砂膏、髮膜，以及一套她從未穿過的內衣。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGt2Z5PI2Zl
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKO5ooDOEjp
今晚，她會和阿樂更輕鬆地聊天。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyYEYjWoYw
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoAIDCroTV
在放過自己之前，首先要懂得折磨自己。對不起。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZDhNo1gJM
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夜晚十一點半，青青到達阿樂的屋，他替她開門，見她熱得臉紅紅。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PLcDpQDIE
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyzLDSRhkL
「返嚟啦？食咗咩呀？」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLfFRYhW8i
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCgkoxWQYm
「Jollibee，但我嗰時冇乜胃口，宜家又有啲餓。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JP3satZpH
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmdyOKzC75
青青只食了一隻雞腿和呷了幾口汽水，感覺什麼都沒有下肚就要走，後來悲傷又填滿了她的胃，一路行回家時還有些消化不良。現在，就如此直直地客廳燈照耀，仿佛是個胃鏡看見裏面空空的，又立刻感到餓。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFvYlbuc2l
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCRAGoXvK5
「咁就啱啦！我買咗個蛋糕，今日仲未過，快啲吹咗蠟燭先！」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGycG81ACI
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mQpIHEPe3
阿樂遂去雪櫃拿出蛋糕，寫着「青青生日快樂」，黑森林口味。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3Rrbwnifz
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3ywIfSqoa
青青呆了好久，她沒有想過阿樂會給她買蛋糕。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8Qmakjwnn
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3F7EWJ5z6e
出外一整天，整個人都零散地歸家，無論他送不送蛋糕，只要他講一句：「返嚟啦？」其實對她來說，已是安慰，因為怎樣都比Matt冷漠的眼神温暖。但現在阿樂捧出整整一個蛋糕，像是告訴她不需獨自吞下所有情緒，她就感動，非常感動。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xWoh8ltnU
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmiOKK5Rg5z
青青有些哽咽，但又開心地笑：726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbirYkv5gQ
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGa52LliLU
「哇、哇！竟然有蛋糕食。多謝！」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtwLILeIl0
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9j5GlGYdxP
阿樂見她眼紅紅，大概猜到，無謂多問破壞現在的氣氛：726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFRbjQNp8e
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLfcdjDS1W
「快啲許願啦。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtrRzvN90Q
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilbDTNBZ2H
青青閉眼，吹熄蠟燭。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7rlJL9OlJ
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOhqEbvC1F
「多謝多謝！不過我出埋文、沖完涼先食，出咗成日街好污糟。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49ae2H5f5q
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfFnZMtHgL
她多在電腦磨一會兒，電話收到訊息，她打開一看，些許憤怒，絲毫不想回覆，然後將目光放在電腦上，打字打得極響。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDn0Qw2Timk
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xK6mSpPZD
過後，就去洗澡，擦上身體磨砂，敷上香得要死的髮膜，然後再自己的所有部位洗得乾乾淨淨，一併沖掉。抹乾身體後，再搽上body lotion，換上內衣，外穿睡裙。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqxWfZZLBK
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimOunFJCSq
她看着鏡子。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpEGhjhsfB
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGv547lfUv
一直以來，她都有些猶豫，但她決定交給阿樂決定，如果今夜裏他主動吻她，他就會被動地接受她看似被動的攻略。她沉默地觀望自己：726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7BqUTOIjB
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZwrwcztLU
我都要證明，我有本事。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kyMcPCYp7
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNDi9XjoUQ
他在她的房間等她，心想：今日搞咩搞咁耐？平時好快就出嚟。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteoxtTIzXs
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5HcBvabxQ
他想知道青青和Matt傾了什麼，他見她興致平平但不至頹喪，眼睛裏只有累的感覺。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnx4EjFhOBQ
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxTIU7h9FN
她出來，整個人都很香。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeSyeZerFi
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5pRnyG2Fb
阿樂拿出蛋糕和酒，把刀給青青切：726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrbdUeEipA
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6HUEH2VrJ
「唔好切到底，如果唔係會嫁唔出。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8t61rdDO98
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEMyEC3lIj
「你咁迷信咩？」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFd4blW0mDf
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQmYscWqwV
她又真的小心地切，提防切到底；她再見到這個蛋糕，還是覺得很感動，阿樂對她竟然這樣好，尤其是她傷心的時候。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0F5H9VvWD
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFijmqu3DvS
「寧可信其有。不過咁囉，如果你真係因為咁而嫁唔出，我都肯抵諗啲要咗你嘅。」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91l5hrbGWv
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrMSEv07Nt
阿樂笑笑，接過她手上的刀替她分蛋糕。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWRDXm5G5D
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIppQS5cU5E
「吓話？」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6UHe2WxZE
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bXOLylYKR
「講嚟聽吓啦，你哋今日做咗咩嚟？」726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9hrXI4SdB
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcC33fOxklF
他們開始飲酒，開始說廢話，講講下午和朋友吃了什麼、做了什麼；阿樂也大概知道青青和阿Matt分手前的事，大概是：Matt因為Retake DSE而忙，青青和他很少見面，之後他就和青青說沒有了感覺。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPektorOQI
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfbyQ773tj
慢慢，青青的臉通紅，頸也微微緋桃，呼吸輕輕加快，說了最近最多的話，情緒開始激動，但完全沒有前文後理，又突然加入一個新的女角：726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgEotFmCO9
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIugH9zMUH
「佢——啫係我前男友，話俾我聽，個女仔同完佢原本個男朋友分手之後，就同佢一齊，但冇幾耐又揾返佢個Ex——你知唔知？我當時聽到個心好翳？726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzp5i8CkGG
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXgX7JGyf0
以前，我連佢少少傷都唔敢俾佢受……男人忌諱呢啲綠唔綠帽嘅嘢，我明。一開始拍拖，我有同過以前追過我嘅人傾偈，佢發現咗之後唔太開心，之後我就冇再咁做。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkevT3Lgn0
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezv2OAJhRx
後來，亦都冇試過同男仔單獨見面，都避哂啲曖昧嘢。就係因為我唔想佢因為咁而唔開心，所以從來冇做任何出格嘅行為，宜家呢？726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiCesiJypZ
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyWFaCrSTs
佢出面嗰個女仔咁樣對佢？我將佢擺喺心尖上面啊！但佢出去就咁樣？好心痛呀！726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGj9ofkH0Y
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3R82aEVpnF
但係……當我潤完佢咁都鍾意個女仔，佢答我話：『我都好心痛㗎。』，你知唔知點解？我突然間真係有啲着咗火嘅感覺，覺得個心喺度燒。726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxIW9wwuCi
726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTbrMGV8qk
我真係……用哂全部對愛情嘅精力去對佢好，我真係唔捨得佢受到委屈，至少喺我呢度，我真係、真係已經盡全力去保護佢唔好勾起唔好嘅回憶——佢以前有不愉快嘅經歷，然後呢？佢鍾意咗一個咁樣hurt佢嘅人？並且仲要繼續同個女仔過？仲繼續鍾意佢？仲因為佢，所以唔要我……726Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsEofT1oY8
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