「咁你呢，又點呀？」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLpcSGOOkJ
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阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTA0egN7pg
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「托賴，幾好吖。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWW2VPn5Ek
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「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iYNs1vK1G
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即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdD6SQQXqwl
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阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMbrVy6Ncq
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然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4aG9Oi97I
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQG92c1dxe
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsmEUpxYma
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oSyS11zl9
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vB6ESc81d
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkGKiKVvBI
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qmA6bbn8m
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSvmhHKllB
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYe5QhpRHM
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoULlsCdYYR
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYA6Uf7Q0Z
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErCUuYoTtW
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisbV23ZNex
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsl5kqnBwc
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4A83eaDb3y
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她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVkT3sLQEe
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgtApt9LJq
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjMX9n6QIb2
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每天都不想做任何事。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yR3WbKY6S
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如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplPpSTnwSU
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明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXElcafL6Sz
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSwYS2g5tS
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvzl8cFQ7d
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDRbB0V5Vj
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqH76jopJeT
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「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5f47xrrarZ
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtK0FlM0YEC
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡor1db41jfg
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhgz4zoK6L
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHItQDiO64
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TzuA1eHyo
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnxxmv0oMU
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZVSrNgNqaW
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzEaBDdRFK
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何況，他們如此親厚。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUhfN01TjG
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阿樂問：「去邊？」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkuZpHUe6T
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgAZMrK3or
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxOcV2y6uf
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她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsDu4tXvsc
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青青直接問：「你想媾我？」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CNpPrQT06
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Sean回答：718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEUimDoMyv
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「係。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSi6UMNnEo
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以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG14MA9hFtv
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jslsPr0Zk
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjR9WCTIZM
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「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3tTbnsCdl
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ksm4xjTRO
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqdRIIIeEk
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUyuwOeF7m
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarjRJlhbZx
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7RxyC0jJ2
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ775creKuqJ
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCasaIJLqYf
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaqTPi30jE
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「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGP5hI5vPg
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSFMuTvxLU
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReONoRO2F8
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EGNrPEKPf
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMS6lchq5ag
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「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXVDnv6j1t
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJan3woMVf
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdftJE9vN18
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvk8O38ceX
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoW5wBBIz0i
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVSTjq8DtC
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nrzyNHE4z
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0SuSn2ZpV
阿樂質疑：718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXQqEBs4Yv
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDp5nE3rX63
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsGd5MwqRw
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJGh3Hz6Rn
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraQe8r57TQ
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuA80QsJMAV
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQp4Pp1TmTC
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCX8RnPNEQ
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DGpvbsd2S
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WihVdZ8o9
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqoVdr5myw
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67PuYXvBi5
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqssjhQcwaW
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5A9pbAtL9Z
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXE7HJgfsA
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BJz489Fnv
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtnX8TOaY7
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerBm31zRRZ
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPYltrBjDA
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2QcDa86Z7
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECimfoMuCk
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jhEi0HFIq
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7zRjRGOO7
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfp2wksa9QI
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSl3szWVfKo
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阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcJ4sdc4nq
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLJk8yS1xY
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsc0dB1AOy5
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGWTTAeNxv
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeehZrLC1P
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XHZlqHBdp
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWCXCYnazS
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkveXSJm5HX
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pSq1thr3P
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「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzZyLv5IMl
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頂……我成個怨婦咁。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxCc9XhVGi
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青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrH3C6V10J
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她發現自己有些恐懼。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjuVnVQecpm
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到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWcTtMa1Za
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明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDc48m9WG1
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最後，Matt離開。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIoG7ZIhQ2
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她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZSeh0Ucct
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPZ4Uapt3i
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvPI9qR3wp
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdLwDOVE1t
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLcVHHCzRO
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但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyQE0vrLhJ
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBbAEyvfxl
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13huRoaFZX
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEejjR8ojti
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQehk6NORaV
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEc8TQKPdYh
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOuM5d0FPX
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGjkxOavTK
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbjYM7sxEg
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdTQjJFp7f
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvXj8p08K4
718Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSF9qRtlNNG
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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