於是，Tim少和阿樂下樓吃飯，再買了一個蛋糕。回家，放進雪櫃，然後開始打機。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cFdo1ICTf
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青青外出和好友度過午餐和下午茶時段。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMPbhpmL44
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之後，她去旺角，等Matt；他們約六點半，她先到，不停地來回審視自己的臉容，到洗手間看看有沒有面泛油光、甩妝，再仔細地梳一梳頭。六點五十五分，Matt出現。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdzyDe4KT9
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「好耐冇見。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq47fkbdWXT
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「係。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEbGQLLmlHJ
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接下來的不足兩小時，他看她像遇上瘟疫一樣，避之則吉，連正視她的眼也像害怕感染病毒，總和她對看一會兒然後移開。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtKmSzzcMW
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBiQAgwhCZ6
沿路，她問了很多想知的事，還自己一個死心；他說了一些她應該想知的事，渾身不自在，忽然覺得很祼露。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBUtoeL86g
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他們都覺得對方是陌生人。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtJNBWsw6W
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但，他們分明知道對方的名字、知道對方穿幾號鞋碼、知道對方的恥毛長度。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqB0Ixk8rwn
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwlVUla5uI
就像恰恰一對普通的白色筷子，明明在湯熱麵熟的時候他們是極其有默契的一對，和對方攜手穿梭不同的質感，偶有碰撞但仍在磨合中互相協作；可是，當過了那短暫的時刻，就只被隨便洗刷再扔回去雜亂無章的櫃裏，沒有再一起，對方也不再重要，因為下次自然會與另一枝筷子成為一對。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuhfdyFt0E
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就像，一切都沒發生過一樣。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSu4oXAMr7
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uprcqOS9b
「明明應承咗我唔揾第個㗎嘛——」、「你話遲啲先得閒，叫我等到嗰時先多啲見㗎喎……」、「啫係你出軌？你係因為識咗佢，所以先想走？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsMrJRpszH
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56RbAZYXr0
「我同你分手之前，只係同佢傾幾句咋。」、「後尾我同佢互相都鍾意咗大家。」、「有呢個因素，但又唔可以咁樣歸因……」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8dcXb9GxY
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMDarCJ8c4
青青變得咄咄逼人，Matt仿佛努力地或以真話、或以假話去抵擋她的攻勢；她誓要剖家析族的知個明白，但他在說的時候卻感到難堪，偶然他回頭看見她小心地仰頭，防止眼淚掉下時，他又會感到心軟，如他所言：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oX6hLycBC
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbyxyhWBhL
「咁真係我辜負咗你嘅。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43R95Ibe45
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但Matt並沒有和青青說過一聲「對不起」，只逕行，最後不情不願地和她快快吃一個飯，然後趕急地跳上的士離去。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ9bEhL6HLl
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQbchd5yog
青青覺得自己今晚的行為很反常，平時，她的眼神從來不兇狠，也不會不停地追問一些已然沒有意義的答案，更不會捨棄自尊要求他人順她的意。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCO2zckGeVz
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對。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerSfIdpGce
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她有些不一樣了。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTXJr2RQAO
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡysdDgPEWu5
她傻就傻在，有些東西，她想知得很清楚，如果不明不白又覺得很不甘心；但知道以後又更揪心。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ173yY5OE7M
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是她，將心掏出來，還將刀遞上去，留有一點卑微的盼望——725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQOw2lZTyi
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希望他殺人就殺人、切莫誅心，留她一點尊嚴，不要講出太過殘忍的內情。但從來，說清說楚都不會有任何的好結果，被拋棄的人沒有資格說尊嚴，真心愛人何有好的結果？真相是真，比真相是假可怕億萬倍。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwgAZPjG3f
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是她幼稚，不懂得原來，感情的真相是不可推敲的，只可瞞騙。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoy6inoVkr3
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6k1TFiO4Q
最後，青青輕輕地和Matt握手，像剛才所有的不愉快從未發生，迴光返照地笑說：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsMgqsROf5
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「祝你平安。前程萬里。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnCjZPEbfR
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Matt有些錯愕地回握：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3n6s6tBwi
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「你都係。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzSXcvAPtW
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沒走幾步，他大喊，她聽不清，停下；他走到一個她勉強能聽見她說話的距離：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDwbGCqH8z
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fPbSvVGtp
「返到屋企同我講聲啦，注意安全。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKnr7n60T6
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5apFTt2UPL
她挑眉，對他不可置否地笑笑，大步挺身向前行，因為她清楚，他不是真心的。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFFaz4Yj43
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行到轉角處，她突然覺得腳軟，隨之而來的是整個人的脆弱，她忽然覺得好悲傷，何有什麼落落大方的離別？她已死去一萬次。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYAbcByQ7Xr
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屌，失戀啫——725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1hcFQMhZv
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但是她不能再怎樣了，所以她行去乘車，到某個站下車，再行回家，感受着絕望得弱小的風在吃力地撫慰她。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaymXK0MWJ
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好痛。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4vMGRMtzh
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbIpeovw6Q
回阿樂住處之前，她先回原先的家，拿走了她的身體磨砂膏、髮膜，以及一套她從未穿過的內衣。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9m2OUmpMgA
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzJm3PrMN3
今晚，她會和阿樂更輕鬆地聊天。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7JHQdJyrA
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在放過自己之前，首先要懂得折磨自己。對不起。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ozSr9EtF7
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夜晚十一點半，青青到達阿樂的屋，他替她開門，見她熱得臉紅紅。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoS5uonC6zJ
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「返嚟啦？食咗咩呀？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxmEhvQsOF
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1lYHs4MEAb
「Jollibee，但我嗰時冇乜胃口，宜家又有啲餓。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ588Qbqr1L9
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3EQ6Y8ojP
青青只食了一隻雞腿和呷了幾口汽水，感覺什麼都沒有下肚就要走，後來悲傷又填滿了她的胃，一路行回家時還有些消化不良。現在，就如此直直地客廳燈照耀，仿佛是個胃鏡看見裏面空空的，又立刻感到餓。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqVxfwGQf8
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfPiOZmsDc
「咁就啱啦！我買咗個蛋糕，今日仲未過，快啲吹咗蠟燭先！」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0b3as7mR6
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pl0WG2sqF
阿樂遂去雪櫃拿出蛋糕，寫着「青青生日快樂」，黑森林口味。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvb30Wkf4v
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaEf3NXIifu
青青呆了好久，她沒有想過阿樂會給她買蛋糕。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPtu6CA0Ni
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7zfOwTp3n
出外一整天，整個人都零散地歸家，無論他送不送蛋糕，只要他講一句：「返嚟啦？」其實對她來說，已是安慰，因為怎樣都比Matt冷漠的眼神温暖。但現在阿樂捧出整整一個蛋糕，像是告訴她不需獨自吞下所有情緒，她就感動，非常感動。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenIEJVhEoD
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdK6iJR2Gk
青青有些哽咽，但又開心地笑：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL913MHTFES
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「哇、哇！竟然有蛋糕食。多謝！」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6If5BYJhz
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPy0PZlU3gL
阿樂見她眼紅紅，大概猜到，無謂多問破壞現在的氣氛：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2vHWUGP8m
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7X0U9YRfG
「快啲許願啦。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDtRYhnqWI
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBs7yYnWcfG
青青閉眼，吹熄蠟燭。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9C2P8bvkFJ
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIPCnRFPGq
「多謝多謝！不過我出埋文、沖完涼先食，出咗成日街好污糟。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWRubikRE3
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7IPv4t4KL
她多在電腦磨一會兒，電話收到訊息，她打開一看，些許憤怒，絲毫不想回覆，然後將目光放在電腦上，打字打得極響。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAVq9CVwSN7
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbQQtF3jqq
過後，就去洗澡，擦上身體磨砂，敷上香得要死的髮膜，然後再自己的所有部位洗得乾乾淨淨，一併沖掉。抹乾身體後，再搽上body lotion，換上內衣，外穿睡裙。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMXgIVssmf
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV42AJBhDlL
她看着鏡子。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ozvVxMtrE
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一直以來，她都有些猶豫，但她決定交給阿樂決定，如果今夜裏他主動吻她，他就會被動地接受她看似被動的攻略。她沉默地觀望自己：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfv2UjId8ja
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我都要證明，我有本事。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWjOuCa6XE
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtSNzZ9VLg
他在她的房間等她，心想：今日搞咩搞咁耐？平時好快就出嚟。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwumjJTGwf
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzb7SHIV7Z
他想知道青青和Matt傾了什麼，他見她興致平平但不至頹喪，眼睛裏只有累的感覺。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy16A6suWa2
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7NZgukuwv
她出來，整個人都很香。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrA6APzpN9
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdD6ZcsIKjk
阿樂拿出蛋糕和酒，把刀給青青切：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlW8x4Ux901
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7Rh11q2qq
「唔好切到底，如果唔係會嫁唔出。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYwi8Xbg5G
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliSyddX5yO
「你咁迷信咩？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGtX45tfhs
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她又真的小心地切，提防切到底；她再見到這個蛋糕，還是覺得很感動，阿樂對她竟然這樣好，尤其是她傷心的時候。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygiIBBcU7G
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WbCQwK5tZ
「寧可信其有。不過咁囉，如果你真係因為咁而嫁唔出，我都肯抵諗啲要咗你嘅。」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ExkzunNf4
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEcfzJy4qW
阿樂笑笑，接過她手上的刀替她分蛋糕。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6XxFGNLK1
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMybFphvIBU
「吓話？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbL0jHWnb7m
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4nCnwV4gd
「講嚟聽吓啦，你哋今日做咗咩嚟？」725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4lIpku5Hj
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKxBdHCFGo
他們開始飲酒，開始說廢話，講講下午和朋友吃了什麼、做了什麼；阿樂也大概知道青青和阿Matt分手前的事，大概是：Matt因為Retake DSE而忙，青青和他很少見面，之後他就和青青說沒有了感覺。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lWWFmZr3P
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavDa6zjlHF
慢慢，青青的臉通紅，頸也微微緋桃，呼吸輕輕加快，說了最近最多的話，情緒開始激動，但完全沒有前文後理，又突然加入一個新的女角：725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37cfU56s6q
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqVKqPCf1j
「佢——啫係我前男友，話俾我聽，個女仔同完佢原本個男朋友分手之後，就同佢一齊，但冇幾耐又揾返佢個Ex——你知唔知？我當時聽到個心好翳？725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjsX8v0omVG
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iv0YuT5i4
以前，我連佢少少傷都唔敢俾佢受……男人忌諱呢啲綠唔綠帽嘅嘢，我明。一開始拍拖，我有同過以前追過我嘅人傾偈，佢發現咗之後唔太開心，之後我就冇再咁做。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PPTYcJWGE
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後來，亦都冇試過同男仔單獨見面，都避哂啲曖昧嘢。就係因為我唔想佢因為咁而唔開心，所以從來冇做任何出格嘅行為，宜家呢？725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuh5zBeuMAP
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSMkVqbTxk
佢出面嗰個女仔咁樣對佢？我將佢擺喺心尖上面啊！但佢出去就咁樣？好心痛呀！725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmTgxhx1Wr
725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtOJjFaZQ8
但係……當我潤完佢咁都鍾意個女仔，佢答我話：『我都好心痛㗎。』，你知唔知點解？我突然間真係有啲着咗火嘅感覺，覺得個心喺度燒。725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdE2cVwMd00
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我真係……用哂全部對愛情嘅精力去對佢好，我真係唔捨得佢受到委屈，至少喺我呢度，我真係、真係已經盡全力去保護佢唔好勾起唔好嘅回憶——佢以前有不愉快嘅經歷，然後呢？佢鍾意咗一個咁樣hurt佢嘅人？並且仲要繼續同個女仔過？仲繼續鍾意佢？仲因為佢，所以唔要我……725Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrdY7lmXqP5
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