「咁你呢，又點呀？」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5mkbHwf5m
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阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztSHwuYBKY
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「托賴，幾好吖。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtDDCm9fg1
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「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJARp6cvUt8
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即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6U1NY38Ele
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阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlJqiMzIFC
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTpc61LqbL
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPPhr6W5Fd
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「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKCSUNlzXv
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Y1vUuLsoN
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMk7GnAzysw
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阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyB5r46RQrq
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「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbfN1eGxPCN
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3H5RvBdlIA
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Fry2tlGiI
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白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFpR9fX4kH
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她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwMAcInTiS
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她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1ZlEDPucF
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月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gzTovAWBt
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每天都不想做任何事。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTFbfFDcvE
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如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiPoNBRSV2
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明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWWomQ7uN6Q
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfWx5GDQqL
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rLukDNOgc
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阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WghNDfclF
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIwPusL19A
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFCIV96Fdn
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCAcPMUkkd
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfhMjIuMqe
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCJnseVKkT
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdm6pkFJyh
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uJcrcuNqK
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIyIPkDJHM
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此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zTb2KaG0u
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何況，他們如此親厚。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZu8qCWrpX4
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwmH2GLOlu
阿樂問：「去邊？」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtwxbpEOr7
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJW6lNmtzh
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1lZIPFDgw
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9X3Akh95LA
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExqfwHOCTB
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青青直接問：「你想媾我？」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8h1eKKFpDB
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Sean回答：717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTEOvpuKJP
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「係。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0gY5qyu1wW
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以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wD5v01d1J
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZghMuKc2Z
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9LSVBomim
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvW7GnaYa43
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0INlnkh50
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBXYlx0sNX
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ryFMifJ2h
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgtF9Z1biv
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTxufZqsPL
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「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamdMo6jH50
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25grWQPp73
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuuHbpaiZhh
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3JZ0BY5dl
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGl378m3RDE
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2bRCKni9b
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIL5SowAv7
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9UuKZ5PMu
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39NSjfoqad
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「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JmLjiwrxm
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnV0mtUOQQ
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ87hIxt94o
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdudQVFv61Q
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBEaeRH4bW
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「係呀係呀。」她也笑。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWFlXyKhjU
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyDWjstdD2
阿樂質疑：717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hdlgwqK5b
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJ4Llfapg2
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHIWFAlcG2
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgH0dENgpy
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjbwJDPLWgw
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7Kn8cp3Ty
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4EcF0B5en0
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啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHU9NJrWw1h
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlxSTmCV55
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXu1oiuRe7
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Dp6s86ttj
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkHcO5ExU1
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8g0tuUkyn
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFII8Nn8Eks
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畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mh1oXLBNv
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsfKSkQMe1
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxO0UiVP9K
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjPkLNcnO5
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMcwUb9pEV
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzl59aSYqW
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmDxKqvMiH
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkInA94Flt
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTl7MrOM9q
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VsOJQlVsW
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMBCzsgV8Y
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxHkOGzxoK
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbvY03Hv5X
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI936zU6nqg
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfTF8F1ipx
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dgeZzdDxu
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYd9oeJS5fd
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0jps4Pcoi
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrctWfkAal
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3YHIWzJS8
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxj0uZj1CT8
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頂……我成個怨婦咁。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhBlSdMLtU
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKrj1b0pYK
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpiUML8iMb
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她發現自己有些恐懼。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeDxS6lDfp
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到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6HhLAkk2V
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明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBo7IyMCfv
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最後，Matt離開。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3F7ENhQORU
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她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5o3WATeFr
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她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgC4edGiKA
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tIJvSj7sA
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3EK9gn4XFg
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但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDcbkm0IlA
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4B6jUAF6s
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9E7D88zqsw
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而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7mUS7PIpC
717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZVt4XzSuf
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOjWEBKW4S
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此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8MKs3K0Ni
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「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」717Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWg8O5Gtk6
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青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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