「咁你呢，又點呀？」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRYe2fXseQ
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阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOe56usYXdG
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「托賴，幾好吖。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIPzNR2cmkZ
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXeUAuxTs0
「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHxya1cFRH
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHw83evLm7
即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUIlTitHf3
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTx5JDZM8MU
阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGikryjk40
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiOT6rKRvX
然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYc12spmvaB
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsJoqadUbA
「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSq3hh2bBce
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW51tmVS6yl
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1Oel2F1IJ
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIKCWuJc2z
阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFae3CzuX4
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7kiJE9BP1
「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliJoYASgaF
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhMAX85jN2
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNXu4cQAJZ
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXHVCeTYTA
白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXr3uVCHe9C
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDOxcYzqa9
她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFfxeHDDBQ
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQcyakCVsi
她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPx2L3vBQQ
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI18i0rYu9F
月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhzi9STbaE
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDawx9LAdKZ
每天都不想做任何事。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKLQ8UEAGO
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1q5kULBOD
如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhR8IWDBqU
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbybra2IQc
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Fb3X0L2qL
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOenNbtrTib
明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrEng5YU6x
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGAgJlye3s
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMN15J6Fyyj
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ226YFwxpnc
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZfrBD5pVT
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlyNn8Eefo
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEkxx0s6li
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqnIsNdsQF
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZL56FzFAy
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4sc7HFqx8
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhq5l4pio4
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBaRxCJxlr
此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMTGQyqLtA
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDtr8z7cIGz
何況，他們如此親厚。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH58gYuAlGh
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLhfRbii8Gy
阿樂問：「去邊？」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlgYrRXG9F
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cj8C9swpg
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlDqcTIAWR
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVOwo9BadM
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aSp77QG68
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskj0DxQbRo
青青直接問：「你想媾我？」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EkoCUJVFA
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5IgONOvcb
Sean回答：774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KJzgNNQMn
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacodz3YKCk
「係。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvmY9U6pLP
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCG85GnOe1
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TIqvICPUG
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1afjdMbcmN
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvD47fOayn
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRWhFMu1EG
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fo0Rsv3U7
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPEIQYPKyx
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSi2NEkKMBI
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxJMF4M7F8
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYynxbSlDz
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxrI9B0jAE
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFssttUdPr
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBFqo9gGlW
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPaNQlpQH8d
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6WrBUeuel
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wtSMWwH5T
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjEyk1kArN
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6uu8Fco07
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXO5fhcXd1d
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFh133ZijKN
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyZXpp9plx
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLs5o06y0a
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkdtZ1edea
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35GXZWQjr8
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVP53QTKS2
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJTvLv6n2V
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqLANHrWAI1
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLl9ROS9Di
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8T1S0jYNU
阿樂質疑：774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZja6ZrI9r
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZnqc70Zlv
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkHGPK2knn
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLfkZDdlsk
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwSu2Hm3Vf
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVSqGLxXa2
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBHh947655
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Z0c2Yu0l3
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcsAHEoFSB
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWfcgFijtO
我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2A1IQA5c3
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZNooTLSZQ
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIMgMzabEr
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndpXm7a47G
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEtSTikZjy
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2A4uwOYGQO
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE40oI2SJvP
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynTTFZnxg7
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7t9XrT6wyk
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDn0q6WgI3
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6frGHDEb0
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYw8RbQg46m
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡweNqaIz2tt
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGKwA8S0Sy
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnj9w5ukGXT
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXT8a4AYhn
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtiszlUsIPa
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEUu4K6TiX
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3wuCqNbd8
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSu61cwIvWM
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyi4dHQvdR
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8anzoiKQO
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcww2uQJQSD
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSSnaN9dhp
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqLyl7nGT8
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdHXHMpTb0
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9I41Dqc2n
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCeyPilZYP0
頂……我成個怨婦咁。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfr5hg5jkm
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpi64UQ3ox
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wvhvUH1HP
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJagq5kLPc1
她發現自己有些恐懼。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcf7CyS5T3v
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1rLFktthrh
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv44yd5sCok
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2Di7mOrab
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnIuk19lZj
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqg7qt2LzG2
最後，Matt離開。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEC7H09WS7L
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9piG1oyOCh
她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW31HMtMQFD
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVMRFh6neM
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntELIBA7Qo
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CdG7Z7gSe
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbQ6uiUsQq
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzVUquQA0U
但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Gh4OTT6ha
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2swa24ZMDl
是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16NtaOdirW
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HmiuYJLGh
而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LNgXXGUnO
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFbHsKhWvC
阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfhQ17mh91
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaX7JtbUkiR
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkyrmWvVWC
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubzkU0yfT2
「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8nDBMYvoHw
774Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezYzd3h3IR
青青被此話篤中笑點，覺得很抵死。
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