I was right. I knew him well after all.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntN47SZBB4
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Cleo didn’t want to leave me alone waiting for a message so she came back with me at my house. I had no intention to sleep. Not that I could if I tried. I showered and sat on the couch staring at the TV; Cleo half asleep beside me. It was killing me; knowing that right now Alex, my Alex was kissing, touching and having sex with another woman.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNAQdn8eSy
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It was around 7 in the morning when my phone begun vibrating on the coffee table. I shot up and grabbed the phone; Cleo tensed.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Y0iL664aD
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“I’m leaving the mansion. I told him. At first he just stared at me and then seemed to be furious,” the brunette texted me; the brunette that spend the night having sex with my boyfriend. With my blessings.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuWYZcKVQxP
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I was crazy. I must be. There was no explanation for what I’ve done; sending her to have sex with my boyfriend just to confront him through her. At least she was cooperative.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgjZaV9yT7
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“Thanks again. I’m guessing he didn’t say anything?” I texted back. It only took a few seconds before the mobile vibrated in my hands again; Cleo put her arm around my shoulders.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkiTS3WHu9
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“He asked me to describe you. When I did, he got out of the bed and before leaving the room he told me that the butler would arrange for me to get home.”416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3nIhcSa5T
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Typical Alex. When something was wrong, he didn’t even bother with anything else besides his own problem. Not even escorting the poor girl to the car.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQH9CThelA
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“Okay. Thanks again. You have my number if you ever need anything,” I texted back.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9Z0XrPN10
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“My pleasure. I'm sorry about him,” I’ve read and left the phone on the table and leaned back on the couch.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6bkclvjU2
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Cleo put both arms around me and held me to her. I felt like my world fell apart. Again. I was such a fool.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CdkrYduNZ
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“I'm an idiot,” I mumbled against my friend’s chest.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8L9qw2r2V
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“No, you’re not. You’re just in love.”416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceVfeF3wWP
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I was so tired that I must have fallen asleep on the couch for I woke up lying there, with a pillow and a sheet covering me. Cleo must have given them to me.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2S1KX22Mr
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As all the events from last night came back into my mind, my heart fell and my chest pain returned. I muffled a cry and covered my eyes with my arm.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaK5scZtnR
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I turned towards the coffee table where my mobile was laying and saw a piece of paper underneath it. “I promised mom to help her with some stuff. Call me when you wake up.” I dialed her number and put the phone against my ear.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKm5q4TbFA
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She had just finished what she was doing and told me to meet her at her place. I carried myself to the bathroom and closet to get dressed. I didn’t know how I had the courage to even put make up on.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnYBVulxY8
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Fifteen minutes later, I was entering her kitchen and couldn’t wait to find myself into her room so I can fall apart. As I walked up the stairs and into my friend’s room, the door at the end of the hall opened; Damien appearing behind it, only in his shorts.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBrogDUEdQ
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“Hey,” I said but the sound didn’t leave my throat so I waved.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDA6Vmz2Kmz
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“Come here,” he motioned to his bedroom with his hand.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOg3aSS0yA
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“Cleo is waiting,” I managed to say out loud.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7QkcAffZ4
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“She’s not home yet,” he replied and I began walking towards him. He walked to his bed and gazed at me “You can sit you know,” he smiled; little curves shaped on his cheeks. I smiled a small smile and sat beside him.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9YKxPib4P
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“Sorry. I'm a bit off today,” I mumbled.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvG06rvEzEU
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“Did he..?” he trailed; his gray eyes piercing me.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW29JooWiZ1
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“Yup. He cheated again,” I smiled bitterly “This time with my blessings though,” I kept a tight smile.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC87gCDrJ2Y
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“What do you mean?” he frowned. I told him last night’s events in a summary while he looked wide eyed.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJqzDy2Smd
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“Damn,” he whispered.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrESOFlWZ8I
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“Yeah,” I agreed and my phone vibrated in my hands, startling me for a second. I froze as I looked at the screen. Alex. I pressed the silent button and left the phone on the bedside table.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAQvIdiqQm2
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“Him?” Damien asked and I nodded. “Want me to answer?” he offered.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUE1bigH1wa
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“No. Don’t want to waste any more time,” I said; my voice breaking in the middle of the sentence. Damien shifted on the bed so he was facing me while I kept my eyes forward as I was starting to get nervous.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRGU7eQW2o
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He took my hand in his and squished it. I just kept my eyes forward, afraid to turn around and face him.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDF8AeGFing
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“Look at me,” he pleaded whispering. I exhaled deeply and lowered my head. I didn’t want to look at him. Every feeling I had for him since I could remember myself was coming back ten times stronger when he was sweet and caring with me.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNWNjIhpVP
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My phone vibrated from the bedside table again, this time Cleo was the one calling me. I sighed and answered the phone.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDRw6siMFK
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“Hey. I’m at your place,” I told her and she just told me she was parking her car before hanging up.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2tb67g1BJf
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“I’m going...” I trailed and got up; my hand still in his.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUy4UJfeOj
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“Okay,” he mumbled and stroked the back of my palm with his thumb before letting his hand slip away.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehEmh3Gvvp
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Alex called three times that day. I never answered. I didn’t have the courage or the strength to deal with him. I couldn’t bear to hear his voice. It would hurt too much.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxg2F0LizKi
I curled into a tiny ball in my bed and cried myself to sleep.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHJBtnpGS3
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It hurt that I’ve let myself trust him again; I’ve allowed myself to dream and everything was shuttered. It hurt so much.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEyt4NkQSQ
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I opened my eyes disoriented; the sound of knocking on the door reached my ears. That must have been the sound that woke me up. I sat up on the bed and slowly got out of bed.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23p0oeuOiN
As I opened the door, still half asleep, I froze. Alex was standing in the doorway wearing just a jean and a t-shirt. I wasn’t used to see him wearing casual clothes. I began hyperventilating and tried to close the door to his face. I really couldn’t stand watching those eyes. It hurt.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNswTN9oye6
He put his hand against the door and kept it open. I didn’t have much strength for I just woke up, and he overpowered me.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd61Ow2On6c
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“Please” he mumbled. I lowered my head, not facing him, and turned around. I heard him entering the renovated garage and closing the door behind him.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvoZ4LYSycz
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“If you’re going to say that it just happened. Save it,” I mumbled as I walked towards the kitchen counter to make coffee.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmR4Wz07oh7
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“Obviously it didn’t,” I heard him say. So if he admitted it, why was he here? “How did you know her?” he asked, obviously about the brunette that spent the night with him.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEt0cR8Cil
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That’s what he cared about? How I knew the girl that he fucked last night? That’s why he was here? I felt angry. I bit my lip to restrain myself as I put water and coffee in my glass.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Uw0D8dEr7
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“Small world love. Small fucking world,” I smiled bitterly.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lE0Uo5a0J
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“Will you look at me?” he asked. I felt so angry at him when he spoke those words.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1ooLyukJC
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“What I ever do to you?” I snapped, finally turning around and saw his face for the first time. He looked tired. But I didn’t care. He didn’t reply. What did he have to say after all?416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJOKxGJ7AG
“Oh yeah, right!” I mocked “All I ever did was love you. How could I do that to you! I’m such a horrible person!” I scoffed. He sighed in response and rubbed his forehead with his fingers.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtUI3srzI1
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“Erica, please don’t...” he trailed.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PlDf5fdPM
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“Don’t what?” I spit “Does my words hurt you?” I asked bitterly again. It was a rhetorical question. He would never respond to a question about how he felt. He was never talking about his feelings. Never. Maybe that’s why he was able to hurt me so much. He had no feelings.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLT9i6Jr6c
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“Yes,” he breathed; leaving me astonished. My face fell. I put both hands against my eyes; my knees getting weak.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaHY09iDDY
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I managed to walk towards the bed and sat on the edge; leaning forward and resting my elbows on my knees as I held my head on my palms.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbeqDI1MXtz
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“You have no idea how I feel,” I breathed; my eyes wet as I tried to hold back the tears. The hole in my chest aching and burning from the pain.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkA9dHkyHL9
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I felt the bed shifting and I noticed that he sat next to me when he tried to pull him towards him.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQwU00TndM
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“No,” I flinched “No,” I said and pulled away; tears began oozing from my eyes. He pulled me against his chest and kept me there as I was crying. I didn’t care anymore. I didn’t care if he thought I was being childish or vulnerable. I was in pieces.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpk8r8Tf5Nd
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“I'm sorry,” he breathed.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEeISKHMs5
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“Stop apologizing. Please,” I pleaded. It only makes it harder. I calmed down as his grip tightened around me. I could smell his beautiful scent as I was buried to his chest.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcCqd3w9Zx
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My mind wasn’t working right anymore; I was lost in his arms and couldn’t think clear so when he pulled my face towards his and place his lips on mine I didn’t flinched away like before. I only parted my lips as a deep sigh escaped my lips as he kissed my bottom lip. He took advantage and parted my lips more; his tongue entering my mouth.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSHoxrz336
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I knew that if I stopped him now, the way I wanted him right now would haunt me and never let me be. He would always be with me. So I let him kiss me. I didn’t protest even when his hand traveled down my spine to my lower back.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6318hLXj9u
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He lightly pushed me back and climbed on top of me while I pulled him with me. I put my hands around his neck and kissed him back as he put his hand under my shirt. He pulled back and took off his t-shirt and mine, tossing them to the floor.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDKeyu1uN2
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He stopped for a moment but I didn’t want him to speak. If he spoke he would have brought me back to reality and I would probably tell him to leave. I pulled him to my lips once again, not allowing him to say anything as I closed his bottom lip between mine.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ99WMfSTOAZ
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He moved his lips down to my neck as his hands traced my body; a soft moan escaping my lips. He pulled away for a moment only to remove his pants and my shorts before crushing his lips onto mine once again. I was having an out of body experience. I wasn’t thinking anything. I was only feeling.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iRggdnNSR
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I moved one hand onto his back and another onto his waist, pulling him to me as his lips licked and kissed my neck. I pushed him back a little bit only to reach out at the bedside table and open the drawer and take a condom as he was now kissing my arm and cleavage. As I returned to him, he removed my bra and cupped my breasts; one with his hand and the other with his mouth.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVF4EFA1DrB
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He slightly pulled back and removed my underwear and his boxers before putting on the condom. I was gazing at him through the state of trance I was in, trying not to think that just 12 hours ago he was touching another woman like he was touching me.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OpfZJxAUb
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He came back on top of me, placing his hands on either side of me against the mattress and looked at me for a moment. Maybe he was looking for regret in my eyes; maybe he thought I was going to stop him. And maybe I should have.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKS3X0uzbu
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I put my hands on his necks and pulled him into a kiss and as he lowered himself onto me I felt him press against me and enter me; a deep moan escaping my throat.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72yNJLWVAp
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Maybe it was the fact that he wanted me to forgive him again or the fact that indirectly I told him that I loved him; his moves were gentle and slow. He pulled back for a moment and as he kept thrusting into me slowly, he looked at me. I looked back, wanting to keep his image in my mind, but as he opened his mouth and I thought he was going to say something I broke the eye contact.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGg1yHYWnDd
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“Faster,” I mumbled and his moves quickened; making me climax as he shivered over me; my legs wrapped around his waist. I suddenly felt blank. And then a strong wave of emotions struck me; the ache alive in my chest once again. I felt like crying. But I wouldn't. I wouldn't cry in front of him again.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMZT1EO9mF
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He collapsed on top of me and I held him there, stroking his back and kissing his shoulder, trying to take in my last minutes with him. His weight on top of me, his smell and his hot breathe hitting my skin.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7e7nXq17vR
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“I'm sorry,” he whispered to my ear and that brought me back to reality. I pushed him back.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBJjX3tWL3
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“It doesn’t matter,” I replied and sat up. Maybe it was harsh but I didn’t care. He certainly didn’t care when he was having sex with someone else.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWekqXgH1o
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“I can’t do this anymore,” I whispered and he sat up on the bed; watching me. “You’re hurting me too much and I can’t do this anymore,” I explained. With the corner of my eye I saw him lowering his head. I stood up and wore my underwear and top.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMqRgbolSY
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“Maybe someday you’ll find someone that can love you enough to make you love her back,” I whispered. I watched as his face tightened and he got up, starting to wear his clothes. I thought the conversation was over but as he wore his boxers, he then walked up to me.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4ZBi0FKSF
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“You did,” he whispered; putting his palm against my cheek. Was he saying that he loved me back? No I wouldn’t let his words get to me.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHqVBCsF3q
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“No. I just loved you enough to let you break my heart. I'm never gonna be enough,” I whispered back; I could see the hurt in his eyes. I was wondering if I was looking like that right now. “I'm sorry Alex but if I keep this up, it would probably kill me.”416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkXFbp7ERu
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He pulled back slowly, not saying another word. He put back on his jeans and t-shirt and begun walking towards the door. He paused there for a second but he didn’t do anything. He didn’t turn around to look at me or said anything.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5XYjAir7C
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He opened the door and left.416Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2acNFH0J8J
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And I just got back home for the Holidays! As I said the updates on this will be a bit slower than it was...so...I can't wait to read your thoughts on the chapter! :}:}
