I was right. I knew him well after all.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vl9xAFGeU
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Cleo didn’t want to leave me alone waiting for a message so she came back with me at my house. I had no intention to sleep. Not that I could if I tried. I showered and sat on the couch staring at the TV; Cleo half asleep beside me. It was killing me; knowing that right now Alex, my Alex was kissing, touching and having sex with another woman.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡercIRSHkTq
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It was around 7 in the morning when my phone begun vibrating on the coffee table. I shot up and grabbed the phone; Cleo tensed.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZnO8GCoKk
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“I’m leaving the mansion. I told him. At first he just stared at me and then seemed to be furious,” the brunette texted me; the brunette that spend the night having sex with my boyfriend. With my blessings.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqu8gfCati
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I was crazy. I must be. There was no explanation for what I’ve done; sending her to have sex with my boyfriend just to confront him through her. At least she was cooperative.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuab4htnLn
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“Thanks again. I’m guessing he didn’t say anything?” I texted back. It only took a few seconds before the mobile vibrated in my hands again; Cleo put her arm around my shoulders.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkpfG3mxhz
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“He asked me to describe you. When I did, he got out of the bed and before leaving the room he told me that the butler would arrange for me to get home.”410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWIJX0iHnS
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Typical Alex. When something was wrong, he didn’t even bother with anything else besides his own problem. Not even escorting the poor girl to the car.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFT9e3nF13O
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“Okay. Thanks again. You have my number if you ever need anything,” I texted back.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbjmqw8tKT
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“My pleasure. I'm sorry about him,” I’ve read and left the phone on the table and leaned back on the couch.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLHBrqB4LB
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Cleo put both arms around me and held me to her. I felt like my world fell apart. Again. I was such a fool.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1YJD5NqWN
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“I'm an idiot,” I mumbled against my friend’s chest.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFY76xz8wGy
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“No, you’re not. You’re just in love.”410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuLuiaJBNN
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I was so tired that I must have fallen asleep on the couch for I woke up lying there, with a pillow and a sheet covering me. Cleo must have given them to me.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cHFV1z2xM
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As all the events from last night came back into my mind, my heart fell and my chest pain returned. I muffled a cry and covered my eyes with my arm.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqOaEmGSjX
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I turned towards the coffee table where my mobile was laying and saw a piece of paper underneath it. “I promised mom to help her with some stuff. Call me when you wake up.” I dialed her number and put the phone against my ear.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0ynaZnrBu
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She had just finished what she was doing and told me to meet her at her place. I carried myself to the bathroom and closet to get dressed. I didn’t know how I had the courage to even put make up on.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6O560kytH
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Fifteen minutes later, I was entering her kitchen and couldn’t wait to find myself into her room so I can fall apart. As I walked up the stairs and into my friend’s room, the door at the end of the hall opened; Damien appearing behind it, only in his shorts.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0J4cW1hdO7
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“Hey,” I said but the sound didn’t leave my throat so I waved.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHOduEjVr7
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“Come here,” he motioned to his bedroom with his hand.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstwA4L9JR8
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“Cleo is waiting,” I managed to say out loud.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLvb12wcZC
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“She’s not home yet,” he replied and I began walking towards him. He walked to his bed and gazed at me “You can sit you know,” he smiled; little curves shaped on his cheeks. I smiled a small smile and sat beside him.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXc1oQfUn6
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“Sorry. I'm a bit off today,” I mumbled.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91URGqpcAL
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“Did he..?” he trailed; his gray eyes piercing me.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkaBfqCH8d
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“Yup. He cheated again,” I smiled bitterly “This time with my blessings though,” I kept a tight smile.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxzuSTECMA
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“What do you mean?” he frowned. I told him last night’s events in a summary while he looked wide eyed.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwblqalgtyG
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“Damn,” he whispered.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYvNamwFks
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“Yeah,” I agreed and my phone vibrated in my hands, startling me for a second. I froze as I looked at the screen. Alex. I pressed the silent button and left the phone on the bedside table.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpPZMPrrtk
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“Him?” Damien asked and I nodded. “Want me to answer?” he offered.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDjMEN9552
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“No. Don’t want to waste any more time,” I said; my voice breaking in the middle of the sentence. Damien shifted on the bed so he was facing me while I kept my eyes forward as I was starting to get nervous.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ow0TPKv32
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He took my hand in his and squished it. I just kept my eyes forward, afraid to turn around and face him.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEko23SyZK
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“Look at me,” he pleaded whispering. I exhaled deeply and lowered my head. I didn’t want to look at him. Every feeling I had for him since I could remember myself was coming back ten times stronger when he was sweet and caring with me.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiT9jtHbRlE
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My phone vibrated from the bedside table again, this time Cleo was the one calling me. I sighed and answered the phone.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhben5Mno2
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“Hey. I’m at your place,” I told her and she just told me she was parking her car before hanging up.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgelwgXxKLC
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“I’m going...” I trailed and got up; my hand still in his.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZdbwmBAiI
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“Okay,” he mumbled and stroked the back of my palm with his thumb before letting his hand slip away.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLrdhXN2aE
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Alex called three times that day. I never answered. I didn’t have the courage or the strength to deal with him. I couldn’t bear to hear his voice. It would hurt too much.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTqHhMBlfm
I curled into a tiny ball in my bed and cried myself to sleep.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AroXLAIxa
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It hurt that I’ve let myself trust him again; I’ve allowed myself to dream and everything was shuttered. It hurt so much.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡconXCN8NKM
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I opened my eyes disoriented; the sound of knocking on the door reached my ears. That must have been the sound that woke me up. I sat up on the bed and slowly got out of bed.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvLi68xB8c
As I opened the door, still half asleep, I froze. Alex was standing in the doorway wearing just a jean and a t-shirt. I wasn’t used to see him wearing casual clothes. I began hyperventilating and tried to close the door to his face. I really couldn’t stand watching those eyes. It hurt.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JPKCKgPWB
He put his hand against the door and kept it open. I didn’t have much strength for I just woke up, and he overpowered me.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOxZ6CZHFB
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“Please” he mumbled. I lowered my head, not facing him, and turned around. I heard him entering the renovated garage and closing the door behind him.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvSv0tllsd
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“If you’re going to say that it just happened. Save it,” I mumbled as I walked towards the kitchen counter to make coffee.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUOZwSsx7J
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“Obviously it didn’t,” I heard him say. So if he admitted it, why was he here? “How did you know her?” he asked, obviously about the brunette that spent the night with him.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QiULY4SEg
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That’s what he cared about? How I knew the girl that he fucked last night? That’s why he was here? I felt angry. I bit my lip to restrain myself as I put water and coffee in my glass.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTc2ONAogc
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“Small world love. Small fucking world,” I smiled bitterly.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrUYl2oFr6
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“Will you look at me?” he asked. I felt so angry at him when he spoke those words.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFHi7P1xl4
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“What I ever do to you?” I snapped, finally turning around and saw his face for the first time. He looked tired. But I didn’t care. He didn’t reply. What did he have to say after all?410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilstycAGbG
“Oh yeah, right!” I mocked “All I ever did was love you. How could I do that to you! I’m such a horrible person!” I scoffed. He sighed in response and rubbed his forehead with his fingers.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUOh7Ghm0O
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“Erica, please don’t...” he trailed.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0GmPLfzPj
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“Don’t what?” I spit “Does my words hurt you?” I asked bitterly again. It was a rhetorical question. He would never respond to a question about how he felt. He was never talking about his feelings. Never. Maybe that’s why he was able to hurt me so much. He had no feelings.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrVuz9kzRK
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“Yes,” he breathed; leaving me astonished. My face fell. I put both hands against my eyes; my knees getting weak.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNjYTncoZC
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I managed to walk towards the bed and sat on the edge; leaning forward and resting my elbows on my knees as I held my head on my palms.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNktZ99gfMc
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“You have no idea how I feel,” I breathed; my eyes wet as I tried to hold back the tears. The hole in my chest aching and burning from the pain.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9fv1YXqllO
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I felt the bed shifting and I noticed that he sat next to me when he tried to pull him towards him.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNeL7Jxkud
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“No,” I flinched “No,” I said and pulled away; tears began oozing from my eyes. He pulled me against his chest and kept me there as I was crying. I didn’t care anymore. I didn’t care if he thought I was being childish or vulnerable. I was in pieces.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZPhll0dxC
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“I'm sorry,” he breathed.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRNZvmiJNL
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“Stop apologizing. Please,” I pleaded. It only makes it harder. I calmed down as his grip tightened around me. I could smell his beautiful scent as I was buried to his chest.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpE6UDyvX8
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My mind wasn’t working right anymore; I was lost in his arms and couldn’t think clear so when he pulled my face towards his and place his lips on mine I didn’t flinched away like before. I only parted my lips as a deep sigh escaped my lips as he kissed my bottom lip. He took advantage and parted my lips more; his tongue entering my mouth.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGj9FgZcNO
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I knew that if I stopped him now, the way I wanted him right now would haunt me and never let me be. He would always be with me. So I let him kiss me. I didn’t protest even when his hand traveled down my spine to my lower back.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziL5MbQxPe
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He lightly pushed me back and climbed on top of me while I pulled him with me. I put my hands around his neck and kissed him back as he put his hand under my shirt. He pulled back and took off his t-shirt and mine, tossing them to the floor.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pv1XRgBLR
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He stopped for a moment but I didn’t want him to speak. If he spoke he would have brought me back to reality and I would probably tell him to leave. I pulled him to my lips once again, not allowing him to say anything as I closed his bottom lip between mine.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cFiQvQ2vt
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He moved his lips down to my neck as his hands traced my body; a soft moan escaping my lips. He pulled away for a moment only to remove his pants and my shorts before crushing his lips onto mine once again. I was having an out of body experience. I wasn’t thinking anything. I was only feeling.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwX8rPL3Ayv
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I moved one hand onto his back and another onto his waist, pulling him to me as his lips licked and kissed my neck. I pushed him back a little bit only to reach out at the bedside table and open the drawer and take a condom as he was now kissing my arm and cleavage. As I returned to him, he removed my bra and cupped my breasts; one with his hand and the other with his mouth.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz12dKAWLsQ
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He slightly pulled back and removed my underwear and his boxers before putting on the condom. I was gazing at him through the state of trance I was in, trying not to think that just 12 hours ago he was touching another woman like he was touching me.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2vvTybxvn
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He came back on top of me, placing his hands on either side of me against the mattress and looked at me for a moment. Maybe he was looking for regret in my eyes; maybe he thought I was going to stop him. And maybe I should have.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOO4pI7CFS
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I put my hands on his necks and pulled him into a kiss and as he lowered himself onto me I felt him press against me and enter me; a deep moan escaping my throat.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglJMC1n5Wa
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Maybe it was the fact that he wanted me to forgive him again or the fact that indirectly I told him that I loved him; his moves were gentle and slow. He pulled back for a moment and as he kept thrusting into me slowly, he looked at me. I looked back, wanting to keep his image in my mind, but as he opened his mouth and I thought he was going to say something I broke the eye contact.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHopyRPm8B
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“Faster,” I mumbled and his moves quickened; making me climax as he shivered over me; my legs wrapped around his waist. I suddenly felt blank. And then a strong wave of emotions struck me; the ache alive in my chest once again. I felt like crying. But I wouldn't. I wouldn't cry in front of him again.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVKKkIGLAV
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He collapsed on top of me and I held him there, stroking his back and kissing his shoulder, trying to take in my last minutes with him. His weight on top of me, his smell and his hot breathe hitting my skin.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmZaf2fLqa
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“I'm sorry,” he whispered to my ear and that brought me back to reality. I pushed him back.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JyJMLxfaM
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“It doesn’t matter,” I replied and sat up. Maybe it was harsh but I didn’t care. He certainly didn’t care when he was having sex with someone else.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnInvO2smx
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“I can’t do this anymore,” I whispered and he sat up on the bed; watching me. “You’re hurting me too much and I can’t do this anymore,” I explained. With the corner of my eye I saw him lowering his head. I stood up and wore my underwear and top.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGuJrSPWN7
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“Maybe someday you’ll find someone that can love you enough to make you love her back,” I whispered. I watched as his face tightened and he got up, starting to wear his clothes. I thought the conversation was over but as he wore his boxers, he then walked up to me.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiipwdvnUWz
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“You did,” he whispered; putting his palm against my cheek. Was he saying that he loved me back? No I wouldn’t let his words get to me.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy35lHqHMpi
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“No. I just loved you enough to let you break my heart. I'm never gonna be enough,” I whispered back; I could see the hurt in his eyes. I was wondering if I was looking like that right now. “I'm sorry Alex but if I keep this up, it would probably kill me.”410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8JH0lIsXZ
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He pulled back slowly, not saying another word. He put back on his jeans and t-shirt and begun walking towards the door. He paused there for a second but he didn’t do anything. He didn’t turn around to look at me or said anything.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnfMlXq0fx
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He opened the door and left.410Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWmIzkElHz
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And I just got back home for the Holidays! As I said the updates on this will be a bit slower than it was...so...I can't wait to read your thoughts on the chapter! :}:}
