I couldn’t listen to my professor any longer. My mind was running away from class. 587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1wcuMxEKX
More specifically, it was running towards Italy and the old Villa that Damien is reconstructing for the last two months. I bid my lower lip and tried to focus on the words that were coming out of my professor’s lips.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorMhji2yYn
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But I wasn’t able to succeed. I could see his lips moving but no sound reached my ears. I was wondering what would happen if I tried calling him. For a reason, I couldn’t even lift my hand up and touch the phone. I was so scared that the pain would return that my body was immobilized.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRI3sOFpiUH
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I was comfortably numb. And planned to keep it that way.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUB1Lj7cNa1
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If Damien wanted me out of his life, I could live with that. I knew it would happen sooner or later anyway. I knew that no guy would ever catch up to him in my head; or in my heart. But I would try to feel human again.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBPUQTQ6CM
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A loud knock on my door startled me as I was leaning over a ground plan that was starting to get on my nerves. I walked towards the stereo first to turn the volume down before making my way towards the door.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgd3S3yBRAb
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Behind the door was Cleo; looking slightly bored. I took a step back and let her come inside. She had come with the most absurd idea ever. She wanted us to take a trip. To Italy.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXyIb4zSd0
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“Seriously?” I questioned astonished.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRTNDonX8K
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“Yeah, you have the tickets. They’re going to expire!” she said and sat down on the couch. I was still standing where I was; staring at her.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjnymK7UuT
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“He is in Italy,” I said, trying to make her realize what she was asking me to do.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyKG39pdkn
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“He’s not all over Italy,” she narrowed her eyes at me “It will be fun. We need vocation.”587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7feImSl9Xx
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I didn’t reply. I closed my mouth, as I realized it was hanging open the whole time, and sat at the nearest chair.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIUN7hUO0Z
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“We don’t have to visit him,” she said softly. I’ve always wanted to visit Tuscany but the idea of being in the same area as him terrified me. And thrilled me at the same time.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebTcF8wPV8
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“Promise?” I asked.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7sVgA97iM
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“Yeah,” she smiled “I can always see him some other time,” she explained. “You don’t have to worry about that.”587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnXst970OK
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I took her word for it.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0WXvkY2p4
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A week later, I was sitting in an airplane towards Firenze; a city in Tuscany, just one and half hour away from Siena by train. Siena, the city that Damien was. It mortified me that I was so close to him.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uqzMa517j
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I desperately wanted to see him. But I was so afraid. I was even afraid to talk about it to Cleo, fearing that she might do something stupid. I did wax my legs and got all my nice underwear with me though. Just in case. I told myself that the waxing would have happen anyway, but I was obeying Cleo’s orders about the lingerie. I secretly wanted to be prepared for anything. I wanted to be prepared for him. But I wouldn’t dare admit it.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEAP9PFJ6Z
I believe that is Break Up Rule No. 2 as said by Carrie Bradshaw “Lie. It is a lot easier than admitting the truth”.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqWvqNXAeg
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Thankfully, the mind blowing landscape and my enthusiastic friends took my mind off of him. Of course during the day it was amazing. My head couldn’t stop turning and my eyes couldn’t take in enough details of the amazing city.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHg8aGAkC3O
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The nights, however, were almost a torture. Italy is a very romantic country. And in the back of my head there was always a picture of Damien and me in Tuscany. Even though there wasn’t a possibility now that that would happen, the picture still existed. Just to make my life miserable.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKT8Hq2Utwk
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“I have a question,” Cleo asked as we were seated on the ground at Piazza Del Campo, sipping our aperol spritz. Her voice lower so that the happy couple, Max and Lexie, wouldn’t hear.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgr9Kt84Z5F
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“Shoot.”587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5nbWg6iB3
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“If you knew why he left, would you call him?” she asked and made me turn my head. She knew I couldn’t call him. So why was she asking me that?587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxRHrcyELx
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“Depends,” I replied softly. She understood that I meant that everything was about the reason he left. One of the many things I loved about my relationship with Cleo was that I didn’t have to say much. And vice versa. We totally understood each other.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QlPs9eAcV
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Cleo opened her handbag and pulled out something. As she unfolded it, I noticed that it was a piece of paper. Max and Lexie had turned their attention towards us. Cleo handed me the now unfolded paper. A ripped front page of a gossip magazine.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQTM4RAQEI
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I exhaled deeply as I saw Alex and me on it. It was the day I met him in the City; the night before I returned home. It was the moment we were hugging. There were also smaller pictures; one at the beach again hugging and another one by the car, his hand against my cheek. He was hugging me to thank me. My eyes snapped back at Cleo for a moment.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtFCm1AHcM
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“I found it in his desk, at his office,” she explained. I didn’t ask why she was searching his desk in the first place.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotmOH3Ca2U
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I parted my lips to say something as I released that this is what made Damien leave. But did it matter? For him it didn’t apparently. I closed the paper into my fist and threw it in my bag.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkzG69qdLB
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“You don’t want to call him?” Cleo frowned.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDZN0W3nQ6
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“What is it?” Max asked and I noticed with the corner of my eye, Lexie shoving her elbow right on his ribs. Max frowned and closed his mouth. I took the paper from my bag and gave it to Max.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ExL07EzuM
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“No,” I exhaled “If he cared for an explanation, he would have stayed.” Obviously, this wasn’t the reason, it was just an excuse. They never mentioned it again and I was happy with that.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjr8G1lXjv1
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We had two nights left and we decided to visit a Pub that was two blocks down from our hotel. I could feel Cleo eyeing me as I was getting ready. She made me feel nervous.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHTQWcuXhx
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I wore my black skinny jeans, a long black top, my black high heel boots and several accessories. I put on my make-up, eye liner and red lipstick and turned towards Cleo that was also completely dressed in colors now too.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvKYjk7Wah
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“Okay?” I raised my eyebrows to get her approval.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREZ5YLuiFc
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“Sure,” she nodded “Though you look like a frigging vampire!” I narrowed my eyes at her.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLb4ZlH8fjv
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“Do you want me to slap you?” I threatened.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjYU4P2suoN
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“Bring it on bitch!” she said before she laughed. “You’re gorgeous,” she smiled and I smirked.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsB3nuDrR3
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Break up rule No. 5:“No matter who broke your heart, or for how long it takes to heal; you will never get through it without your girlfriends.”. Fact.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8lhJ9Z22d
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We were having such a wonderful time, drinking and dancing. Max and Lexie were occupied with each other, so Cleo and I danced alone. I took the last sip of my second beer and left it on the bar counter, asking for a third one.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSdI6Kcq3B
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“Bathroom,” I mouth to Cleo as the barman place the new beer in front of me. She nodded and I walked away from them.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlcdrdXOZk
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Ten minutes later I walked out of the bathroom and made my way through the crowd to find my friends. But they weren’t alone.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1uGFpq76A
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Break up rule No. 4: “Never stop thinking about him for a moment because when you do that is when he will appear.”587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlc1XxOP3y
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I could recognize his figure anywhere, anytime. My heart accelerated. I only noticed that his hair were longer because he had them wrapped in a small ban. I think my heart left my chest and collided on his back. I stood there and inhaled. I was certain my heart hit him because a moment later he turned around. And another moment later, our eyes met.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhwdVLTKVw
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I parted my lips in order to breath. He was unbelievable beautiful. He was unshaved and had grown a mustage. I think I could see a small line of hair underneath his bottom lip but I wasn’t sure. For a split of second he reminded me of a musketeer.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAG0jlvFO3
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I averted my eyes, narrowing them at the same time. Should I walk over to them and pretend that everything is okay? Or should I run for the exit?587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5x1afxeCZC
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I saw a guilty smile on Cleo’s face. I narrowed my eyes even more. I couldn’t stay here and act like nothing has happened. I grabbed my phone from my bag and as I walked towards the exit I typed a massage towards her. “Be ready to scream pain in every language that was ever spoken on planet earth! And you’re paying for the drinks!”587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JjT3jnYso
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I pushed open the bar door and walked outside. Some men that were outside smoking started whistle as I stood there trying to catch my breath. I walked passed them, trying to ignore them.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhvXajeyTR
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“Wait,” I heard him calling. I didn’t stop but he caught up to me. “I said wait,” he told me “It’s dangerous to walk alone in the middle of the night,” his voice became softer. I never looked at him.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeNElZ0fqF
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“Whatever,” I mumbled as I kept walking; my hands inside my black leather jacket clutching my mobile.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyqd1pPxu7
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My heart was running; unlike my feet. I couldn’t calm down as I felt him so close to me. When we finally reached my hotel, I thought he was going to leave. But he followed me in the lobby.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFTtJ1HeKe
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“Thank you. Goodnight,” I mumbled and took a step away.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTmlOnmLxE
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“That’s it?” he asked and made me stop. I turned around and for the second time tonight my eyes lied on him. My heart ached. He was even more gorgeous in the light of the hotel lobby.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMlAvjg3MZ
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“What else do you want?” I asked. I wanted run to my room and cry.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dPrlOvUSQ
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“I thought you would at least talk to me,” he said. I couldn’t understand the emotion behind his voice.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2GUKgJq0m
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“I don’t have anything to say,” I replied softly “Nothing that you’re interested to hear anyway,” I mumbled. I looked at his grey eyes, butterflies attacking my body, and shook my head lightly. “Goodnight.”587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQCvUu50yN
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“Will you stop saying goodnight?” he asked, frowning; frustration in his voice.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNonVzjffr
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“Dear Lord,” I exhaled impatient. The torture just wouldn’t stop. “I swear to God, as from tomorrow, you do not have a sister,” I said in a hollow voice. She would pay for calling Damien and making him appear after two and half months in front of me, willing to hear me.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8mpgzZUE0
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“Let’s go upstairs and talk,” he offered as if it was his hotel room. I turned around and started walking, without saying a word. Damien followed. Why was he here?587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUuFYuMh6tk
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I felt like crying. I felt like punching someone in the face. I felt like crawling in a u-shape. I felt like screaming.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddS8B7rZPa
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I opened the door and walked inside. The room was a mess but I couldn’t care less. Not even if our bras were lying on the bed in plain sight. I threw my leather jacket somewhere on the pile of clothes.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApY0MbANC9
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“Let’s get it over with,” I mumbled as I grabbed a bottle of water from the table.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKC2SgkBx9
“I suppose Cleo called,” I raised my eyebrows and had a sip of water.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyRo99iWBhp
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“Yes she did,” Damien confirmed. “She also called three weeks ago and demanded to know what happened. When I didn’t say, I suppose she went through my stuff,” he winced. I bid my lip. “Because she called today and said we needed to talk,” he said and walked towards the balcony, retrieving his cigarettes from his pocket.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmb0eBhtSIY
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“Oh! You needed your sister to tell you that?” I asked breathing through my nose aggravated as he walked outside the room. “You’re a grown man and you need your baby sister to tell you that you need to explain to your -now- ex girlfriend why the hell you left, huh?” I scoffed, as he lid up a cigarette “I thought you were more mature than that!”587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7jQtfhemT
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“Explain what, Erica?” he said, trying to keep his voice down “I saw my girlfriend hugging her ex in the front page of a magazine!” he frowned; throwing his hands in the air.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIQ7JCYYbv
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“I texted you that night! I told you I had some news to tell you. He was in a terrible shape,” I tried to explain.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDv45tnWxYh
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“He’s your ex boyfriend! Who cheated on you twice!!” he said now not even bothering to keep his voice down.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZeJuJelmp
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“He started using drugs! And keep your voice down!” I said as he breathed in from his cigarette.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHs0JB8oyed
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“And who are you? Mother Teresa?” he mocked.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhJnZmzmZp
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“I just run into him. He has no one else,” I said “You didn’t even bother to let me explain,” I said, my voice defeated and low.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJCyBnJdT4
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“What was there to explain?” he said his voice low this time “I was walking to the office and saw the damn paper. How do you think that made me feel?”587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3gv2AJe0F
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“Oh, because leaving without a word was such a smooth move huh?” I asked aggravated. “I really don’t have the energy to fight over something that happened almost three months ago,” I sighed.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTRxG2ZEMh
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“You never got over him did you?” he asked. I saw his liquid eyes glowing in the middle of the night as I stare at him confused.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGmaQEtsGG
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“What?” I frowned.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2su2OXL2A2
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“We started seeing each other just as you left him again. There was no time for you to get over him,” he explained. I stared at him in a pained expression. He had no idea.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNm5wbBeFbk
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“You weren’t just a rebound guy,” I shook my head lightly.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvJxXANdR0
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“That’s what it felt like,” he replied.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3ew2nxq9n
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“I asked you to be patient with me,” I mumbled and leaned against the balcony doorframe. “But you left, didn’t even bother to talk to me first or even answering your phone,” I whispered now as I tried not to burst into tears.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXLR61VZET
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He didn’t say anything. He put his cigarette in the ashtray that was on the balcony table. I sighed softly and went inside the room. I pushed some clothes out of the way and sat on the foot of the bed.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbExURkYcIn
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“It hurt watching you crying over him. Again and again,” his voice came from the balcony doorframe where I stood earlier. “He tore you up and you took him back again. I felt betrayed when I saw the pictures on that magazine,” he confessed.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxd8xpIdfpZ
“And he had the nerve to call me,” he scoffed.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqwx4NaCDn
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“What?” I frowned and turned to look at him.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lmjXP3lYW
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“He called me about a month ago,” he replied. I was admitted to the hospital a month ago. I narrowed my eyes.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR14b7JZ8o0
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“Why does no one mind their own fucking business anymore?” I breathed through my nose. “What did he say?”587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoLlJAulMa
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“That he needed to say something but I never let him finish. I really have no interested to hear what he has to say,” he said and I could see the frustration oozing out of his body. I inhaled and exhaled deeply. It was now or never. But he beat me to it. “Just tell me the truth,” he pleaded “Do you still have feelings for him?” he asked.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNyKnGNaYR
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“Why is it still about Alex?” I asked, my voice loud, as I shot up from the bed “It’s been two and half months since you left and I still don’t feel human! I’m like a damn zombie! I don’t allow myself to feel anything because the only thing I feel is pain,” I confessed. Tears run down my cheeks. “I might have cried over him for a few months but it’s been like this with you for years! So stop talking about him! It’s not about him!” I stopped my ranting in order to breath.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH87Yl7lxuw
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“You’re not answering,” he mumbled.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5Ae6KpROH
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“Dear Lord! NO!” I said losing my patience “I don’t have feelings for him anymore. He’s just a friend.”587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJymABDTCx
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“You’re friends now?” he raised his eyebrows.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnM5Gvjo4G
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“He was there when you weren’t,” I mumbled. I didn’t want to tell him about the hospital.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LpRtF8Gv7
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“Fair enough,” he breathed. I noticed he was already in the middle of another cigarette.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDx5b0gpEXj
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“You’re smoking too much,” I told him as the death stick was hanging on the side of his mouth. God, how much I love this man. A faint smile appeared on his lips before his expression turned serious again.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Zg0GO2VI5
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“You said that it’s been like this with me for years…” he trailed “What do you mean?”587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPofkXrDSD
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“You really have no idea?” I frowned. Clueless. That’s what he was.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztTikAhDcc
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“You never actually told me what’s going on inside your head. I’m always guessing,” he told me. He had a point. I sighed.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79HgLx3q86
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“It was always you,” I begun, my blood pumping through my veins as I was about to finally admit the truth to his face “I even remember the way I looked at you when I was in grade school. Or how happy I felt when you were holding me that summer at your summer house. I think it was the first time we went there,” I said and leaned against the tv table.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzbW2qNSuQ
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“You were three,” he whispered surprised. I turned to look at him.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsbcPiJWle
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“I guess,” I shrugged my shoulders. “Then you grew up and forgot all about me,” I said trying to mask the hurt in my voice “Once you went to Junior High, you stopped coming over or hang out at family dinners,” I smiled bitterly at the memories. I was having such a hard time to accept his absence even back then.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOHpHKclZ4
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“I even remember how I felt when I saw you kissing your girlfriend by the swimming pool. I think I was eleven then,” I winced. “I realized it was jealousy,” I chuckled embarrassed. “A year later, Cleo got her first boyfriend and I finally put a name to what I felt about you,” I smiled.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWT3Phg7ww2
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“Did she know?” Damien asked; his voice hoarse. I turned to look at him as I came out of the memories. He looked dazzled.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsjgJ6T5bv
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“No. No way. Neither did Max.” I shook my head “I forgot about you when you finally left for college next year. But I guess I never got over you,” I sighed. “It was always about you,” I breathed.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADXpo92Ren
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“I thought I was imagining things,” he chuckled after a while. “You never said anything,” he said and looked at me. “Even now, I started this,” he frowned.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHA5Qiunqe
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“And If you didn’t, I would probably have stayed quiet,” I whispered.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMHZaHFXj4
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“That’s what I don’t get!” he said sounding impatient “Why?!” he shook his head trying to understand.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdI7PTU7d4
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“Because I know who I am. And I know who you are. Plus I didn’t know how Cleo would take it.”587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezTrH01wIO
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“Will you stop talking in riddles for once?” he looked at me and took a step forward and put out the cigarette.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXRR9Izlub
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“I know that the only thing I managed to tell you so far is that I was afraid. I was afraid of opening up to you and talk to you because I knew that if you, out of all people, hurt me I wouldn’t be able to deal with it,” I said staring at the floor “I wish I was wrong,” I mumbled.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRm6RxXSva
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“What? What do you mean?”587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRatKksAjUs
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“I don’t want to talk about it,” I said. It was the wrong thing to say however.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1d17ww9Sau
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“Oh, that’s a new one!” he scoffed “You never want to talk about it. You always talk with riddles. You never tell me what you’re thinking or how you feel! Even now, Erica, you speak about the past,” he said and I was looking towards him but not directly at him. “You never talk about the future! Or about now!” he said. He was all over the place.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6NPmESIia
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“Talk about what?” I said frustrated and got up. “I know I’m not good enough for you! My head is mess. I’m scared to open up and I know I’m not worth your valuable time. You have a beautiful mind, you’re gorgeous, educated, you know how to talk and behave. I’m...I’m…whatever,” I winced and threw my hands in the air.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5yxqTuysM
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Someone knocked on the door just as I realized that tears were running down my cheeks again. I wiped them off with my fingers and walked towards the door. Cleo was standing there.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjArVkOXfNl
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“Baby, are you okay?” she asked and took a step forward.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUc6r8skGq
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“Can you sleep in your brother’s room tonight?” Damien startled me as his voice came from behind me and opened the door wider so he could see his sister. Cleo looked at him and then back at me. I was looking at the floor and I looked at my friend only when I felt her eyes on me.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpkmxmbkD8
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“Sure,” she nodded “Text me if you need anything,” she told me and left.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJb21jJMnlU
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I closed the door slowly and turned around. I didn’t know what to expect from him. I took two steps away from the door just as Damien walked up to me. He didn’t stop; he just put his palms on either side of my face and stared into my eyes. How much I adore those grey eyes.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6TmkTJBXdZ
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“I love you,” he said. The world stopped. I couldn’t believe I heard those three little words coming out of his mouth. My heart flew, it felt alive again. “You’re more than enough,” he whispered. “Don’t ever dare to believe otherwise. Your head might be a little bit disturbed sometimes,” he smirked and made me chuckle “But it’s the best place to be,” he assured me.587Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSB5BUW4cFL
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