I couldn’t listen to my professor any longer. My mind was running away from class. 615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAEYyOxUel
More specifically, it was running towards Italy and the old Villa that Damien is reconstructing for the last two months. I bid my lower lip and tried to focus on the words that were coming out of my professor’s lips.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡre35xysVo5
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But I wasn’t able to succeed. I could see his lips moving but no sound reached my ears. I was wondering what would happen if I tried calling him. For a reason, I couldn’t even lift my hand up and touch the phone. I was so scared that the pain would return that my body was immobilized.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8tQrszqvP
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I was comfortably numb. And planned to keep it that way.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6ScNtxcae
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If Damien wanted me out of his life, I could live with that. I knew it would happen sooner or later anyway. I knew that no guy would ever catch up to him in my head; or in my heart. But I would try to feel human again.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSs5ukiEvz
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A loud knock on my door startled me as I was leaning over a ground plan that was starting to get on my nerves. I walked towards the stereo first to turn the volume down before making my way towards the door.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZSFBXXQaln
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Behind the door was Cleo; looking slightly bored. I took a step back and let her come inside. She had come with the most absurd idea ever. She wanted us to take a trip. To Italy.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpZ1nU4MnS
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“Seriously?” I questioned astonished.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKzxjt5aZV
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“Yeah, you have the tickets. They’re going to expire!” she said and sat down on the couch. I was still standing where I was; staring at her.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CFkK3mhpm
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“He is in Italy,” I said, trying to make her realize what she was asking me to do.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzMbUfWfXW
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“He’s not all over Italy,” she narrowed her eyes at me “It will be fun. We need vocation.”615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YK94oaEaP
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I didn’t reply. I closed my mouth, as I realized it was hanging open the whole time, and sat at the nearest chair.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhTuqJ715l
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“We don’t have to visit him,” she said softly. I’ve always wanted to visit Tuscany but the idea of being in the same area as him terrified me. And thrilled me at the same time.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6VfqbDESj
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“Promise?” I asked.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHnYG1VVit
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“Yeah,” she smiled “I can always see him some other time,” she explained. “You don’t have to worry about that.”615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSlAx4Qd03
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I took her word for it.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2W2OLoOHmK
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A week later, I was sitting in an airplane towards Firenze; a city in Tuscany, just one and half hour away from Siena by train. Siena, the city that Damien was. It mortified me that I was so close to him.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT9FVy2EPn9
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I desperately wanted to see him. But I was so afraid. I was even afraid to talk about it to Cleo, fearing that she might do something stupid. I did wax my legs and got all my nice underwear with me though. Just in case. I told myself that the waxing would have happen anyway, but I was obeying Cleo’s orders about the lingerie. I secretly wanted to be prepared for anything. I wanted to be prepared for him. But I wouldn’t dare admit it.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TGXHZUHdj
I believe that is Break Up Rule No. 2 as said by Carrie Bradshaw “Lie. It is a lot easier than admitting the truth”.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmGXmmD3NL
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Thankfully, the mind blowing landscape and my enthusiastic friends took my mind off of him. Of course during the day it was amazing. My head couldn’t stop turning and my eyes couldn’t take in enough details of the amazing city.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86BhJwdjGn
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The nights, however, were almost a torture. Italy is a very romantic country. And in the back of my head there was always a picture of Damien and me in Tuscany. Even though there wasn’t a possibility now that that would happen, the picture still existed. Just to make my life miserable.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu04HYfId1n
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“I have a question,” Cleo asked as we were seated on the ground at Piazza Del Campo, sipping our aperol spritz. Her voice lower so that the happy couple, Max and Lexie, wouldn’t hear.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQFSiY2Vuo
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“If you knew why he left, would you call him?” she asked and made me turn my head. She knew I couldn’t call him. So why was she asking me that?615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFF1kBM6FyC
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“Depends,” I replied softly. She understood that I meant that everything was about the reason he left. One of the many things I loved about my relationship with Cleo was that I didn’t have to say much. And vice versa. We totally understood each other.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWNFnptp7z
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Cleo opened her handbag and pulled out something. As she unfolded it, I noticed that it was a piece of paper. Max and Lexie had turned their attention towards us. Cleo handed me the now unfolded paper. A ripped front page of a gossip magazine.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx54POmVa8w
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I exhaled deeply as I saw Alex and me on it. It was the day I met him in the City; the night before I returned home. It was the moment we were hugging. There were also smaller pictures; one at the beach again hugging and another one by the car, his hand against my cheek. He was hugging me to thank me. My eyes snapped back at Cleo for a moment.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSjp3xcy2Q
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“I found it in his desk, at his office,” she explained. I didn’t ask why she was searching his desk in the first place.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmybAiRMuWy
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I parted my lips to say something as I released that this is what made Damien leave. But did it matter? For him it didn’t apparently. I closed the paper into my fist and threw it in my bag.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PcgBKF8Vi
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“You don’t want to call him?” Cleo frowned.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAEYnjlGfR
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“What is it?” Max asked and I noticed with the corner of my eye, Lexie shoving her elbow right on his ribs. Max frowned and closed his mouth. I took the paper from my bag and gave it to Max.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIxreOdFrn
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“No,” I exhaled “If he cared for an explanation, he would have stayed.” Obviously, this wasn’t the reason, it was just an excuse. They never mentioned it again and I was happy with that.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfngSRtjSp
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We had two nights left and we decided to visit a Pub that was two blocks down from our hotel. I could feel Cleo eyeing me as I was getting ready. She made me feel nervous.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGp7KUijDB
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I wore my black skinny jeans, a long black top, my black high heel boots and several accessories. I put on my make-up, eye liner and red lipstick and turned towards Cleo that was also completely dressed in colors now too.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0KjYgEDCE
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“Okay?” I raised my eyebrows to get her approval.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0T3vdBAGmo
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“Sure,” she nodded “Though you look like a frigging vampire!” I narrowed my eyes at her.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ428Dam3eeY
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“Do you want me to slap you?” I threatened.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzooCPdIVb
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“Bring it on bitch!” she said before she laughed. “You’re gorgeous,” she smiled and I smirked.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1eM37WwCQ
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Break up rule No. 5:“No matter who broke your heart, or for how long it takes to heal; you will never get through it without your girlfriends.”. Fact.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05CBoqHULi
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We were having such a wonderful time, drinking and dancing. Max and Lexie were occupied with each other, so Cleo and I danced alone. I took the last sip of my second beer and left it on the bar counter, asking for a third one.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0iCJiw5eQ
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“Bathroom,” I mouth to Cleo as the barman place the new beer in front of me. She nodded and I walked away from them.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQQ3elAVmS
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Ten minutes later I walked out of the bathroom and made my way through the crowd to find my friends. But they weren’t alone.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPi9zZR8Ujm
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Break up rule No. 4: “Never stop thinking about him for a moment because when you do that is when he will appear.”615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyEsEfW9A2
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I could recognize his figure anywhere, anytime. My heart accelerated. I only noticed that his hair were longer because he had them wrapped in a small ban. I think my heart left my chest and collided on his back. I stood there and inhaled. I was certain my heart hit him because a moment later he turned around. And another moment later, our eyes met.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsAThxFM5I
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I parted my lips in order to breath. He was unbelievable beautiful. He was unshaved and had grown a mustage. I think I could see a small line of hair underneath his bottom lip but I wasn’t sure. For a split of second he reminded me of a musketeer.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPdbaP4xRc
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I averted my eyes, narrowing them at the same time. Should I walk over to them and pretend that everything is okay? Or should I run for the exit?615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQT8Pu9zRY
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I saw a guilty smile on Cleo’s face. I narrowed my eyes even more. I couldn’t stay here and act like nothing has happened. I grabbed my phone from my bag and as I walked towards the exit I typed a massage towards her. “Be ready to scream pain in every language that was ever spoken on planet earth! And you’re paying for the drinks!”615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXpNZyC1fF
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I pushed open the bar door and walked outside. Some men that were outside smoking started whistle as I stood there trying to catch my breath. I walked passed them, trying to ignore them.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hmFUrDwS8
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“Wait,” I heard him calling. I didn’t stop but he caught up to me. “I said wait,” he told me “It’s dangerous to walk alone in the middle of the night,” his voice became softer. I never looked at him.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbrnF66ZSB
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“Whatever,” I mumbled as I kept walking; my hands inside my black leather jacket clutching my mobile.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vBOjlfxAs
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My heart was running; unlike my feet. I couldn’t calm down as I felt him so close to me. When we finally reached my hotel, I thought he was going to leave. But he followed me in the lobby.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclquC5AvRP
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“Thank you. Goodnight,” I mumbled and took a step away.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYa8zsvIJ6
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“That’s it?” he asked and made me stop. I turned around and for the second time tonight my eyes lied on him. My heart ached. He was even more gorgeous in the light of the hotel lobby.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNbYAoxXuG
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“What else do you want?” I asked. I wanted run to my room and cry.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaNf4cIN6D
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“I thought you would at least talk to me,” he said. I couldn’t understand the emotion behind his voice.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzb6jbE5EIk
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“I don’t have anything to say,” I replied softly “Nothing that you’re interested to hear anyway,” I mumbled. I looked at his grey eyes, butterflies attacking my body, and shook my head lightly. “Goodnight.”615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkt0KZN1eVf
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“Will you stop saying goodnight?” he asked, frowning; frustration in his voice.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksB69K3tPF
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“Dear Lord,” I exhaled impatient. The torture just wouldn’t stop. “I swear to God, as from tomorrow, you do not have a sister,” I said in a hollow voice. She would pay for calling Damien and making him appear after two and half months in front of me, willing to hear me.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEhYbaqqlx
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“Let’s go upstairs and talk,” he offered as if it was his hotel room. I turned around and started walking, without saying a word. Damien followed. Why was he here?615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXbmJMLxE5
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I felt like crying. I felt like punching someone in the face. I felt like crawling in a u-shape. I felt like screaming.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbjSFuULHB
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I opened the door and walked inside. The room was a mess but I couldn’t care less. Not even if our bras were lying on the bed in plain sight. I threw my leather jacket somewhere on the pile of clothes.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthEVCcequK
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“Let’s get it over with,” I mumbled as I grabbed a bottle of water from the table.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMfPeK0bkr
“I suppose Cleo called,” I raised my eyebrows and had a sip of water.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IDnvl4lkY
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“Yes she did,” Damien confirmed. “She also called three weeks ago and demanded to know what happened. When I didn’t say, I suppose she went through my stuff,” he winced. I bid my lip. “Because she called today and said we needed to talk,” he said and walked towards the balcony, retrieving his cigarettes from his pocket.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfNQLYbFsG
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“Oh! You needed your sister to tell you that?” I asked breathing through my nose aggravated as he walked outside the room. “You’re a grown man and you need your baby sister to tell you that you need to explain to your -now- ex girlfriend why the hell you left, huh?” I scoffed, as he lid up a cigarette “I thought you were more mature than that!”615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjcHa2dWnn
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“Explain what, Erica?” he said, trying to keep his voice down “I saw my girlfriend hugging her ex in the front page of a magazine!” he frowned; throwing his hands in the air.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJP4Q51ZOT
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“I texted you that night! I told you I had some news to tell you. He was in a terrible shape,” I tried to explain.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1eIZqRBAgO
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“He’s your ex boyfriend! Who cheated on you twice!!” he said now not even bothering to keep his voice down.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgG8YrG9f0w
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“He started using drugs! And keep your voice down!” I said as he breathed in from his cigarette.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4SNrgvJSY
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“And who are you? Mother Teresa?” he mocked.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyphPSqpEe
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“I just run into him. He has no one else,” I said “You didn’t even bother to let me explain,” I said, my voice defeated and low.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdghcV74qZZ
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“What was there to explain?” he said his voice low this time “I was walking to the office and saw the damn paper. How do you think that made me feel?”615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTiDOBy4pe4
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“Oh, because leaving without a word was such a smooth move huh?” I asked aggravated. “I really don’t have the energy to fight over something that happened almost three months ago,” I sighed.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4brT8Sm1l
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“You never got over him did you?” he asked. I saw his liquid eyes glowing in the middle of the night as I stare at him confused.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErnQXAIqG6
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“What?” I frowned.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUri4oYphpB
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“We started seeing each other just as you left him again. There was no time for you to get over him,” he explained. I stared at him in a pained expression. He had no idea.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPI1DUx0WI
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“You weren’t just a rebound guy,” I shook my head lightly.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCBDFe8oSW
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“That’s what it felt like,” he replied.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCDkRzlGbG
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“I asked you to be patient with me,” I mumbled and leaned against the balcony doorframe. “But you left, didn’t even bother to talk to me first or even answering your phone,” I whispered now as I tried not to burst into tears.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdV25swukKp
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He didn’t say anything. He put his cigarette in the ashtray that was on the balcony table. I sighed softly and went inside the room. I pushed some clothes out of the way and sat on the foot of the bed.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8T3TcIGo3l
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“It hurt watching you crying over him. Again and again,” his voice came from the balcony doorframe where I stood earlier. “He tore you up and you took him back again. I felt betrayed when I saw the pictures on that magazine,” he confessed.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡembxZzrNrS
“And he had the nerve to call me,” he scoffed.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDh8PlcsDBn
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“What?” I frowned and turned to look at him.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyt2WKbELjM
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“He called me about a month ago,” he replied. I was admitted to the hospital a month ago. I narrowed my eyes.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBLUODy0NV
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“Why does no one mind their own fucking business anymore?” I breathed through my nose. “What did he say?”615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenmdDkH4AM
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“That he needed to say something but I never let him finish. I really have no interested to hear what he has to say,” he said and I could see the frustration oozing out of his body. I inhaled and exhaled deeply. It was now or never. But he beat me to it. “Just tell me the truth,” he pleaded “Do you still have feelings for him?” he asked.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqJdObqefP
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“Why is it still about Alex?” I asked, my voice loud, as I shot up from the bed “It’s been two and half months since you left and I still don’t feel human! I’m like a damn zombie! I don’t allow myself to feel anything because the only thing I feel is pain,” I confessed. Tears run down my cheeks. “I might have cried over him for a few months but it’s been like this with you for years! So stop talking about him! It’s not about him!” I stopped my ranting in order to breath.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZu429V0uv
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“You’re not answering,” he mumbled.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxZxKddCiz
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“Dear Lord! NO!” I said losing my patience “I don’t have feelings for him anymore. He’s just a friend.”615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMjTWlmLRP
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“You’re friends now?” he raised his eyebrows.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSG5i7Cfn6
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“He was there when you weren’t,” I mumbled. I didn’t want to tell him about the hospital.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOCH8M0eik
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“Fair enough,” he breathed. I noticed he was already in the middle of another cigarette.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoy6U0oMJti
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“You’re smoking too much,” I told him as the death stick was hanging on the side of his mouth. God, how much I love this man. A faint smile appeared on his lips before his expression turned serious again.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AxijWoRmP
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“You said that it’s been like this with me for years…” he trailed “What do you mean?”615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRv7j9ObPGj
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“You really have no idea?” I frowned. Clueless. That’s what he was.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDtPVJ8CUh
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“You never actually told me what’s going on inside your head. I’m always guessing,” he told me. He had a point. I sighed.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKqHf9Xpsq
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“It was always you,” I begun, my blood pumping through my veins as I was about to finally admit the truth to his face “I even remember the way I looked at you when I was in grade school. Or how happy I felt when you were holding me that summer at your summer house. I think it was the first time we went there,” I said and leaned against the tv table.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkrvbSN7sW
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“You were three,” he whispered surprised. I turned to look at him.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5ruZWQNrr
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“I guess,” I shrugged my shoulders. “Then you grew up and forgot all about me,” I said trying to mask the hurt in my voice “Once you went to Junior High, you stopped coming over or hang out at family dinners,” I smiled bitterly at the memories. I was having such a hard time to accept his absence even back then.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yv4jYI3I4
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“I even remember how I felt when I saw you kissing your girlfriend by the swimming pool. I think I was eleven then,” I winced. “I realized it was jealousy,” I chuckled embarrassed. “A year later, Cleo got her first boyfriend and I finally put a name to what I felt about you,” I smiled.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoJdRFkHLQ
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“Did she know?” Damien asked; his voice hoarse. I turned to look at him as I came out of the memories. He looked dazzled.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMMV4L3VMn
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“No. No way. Neither did Max.” I shook my head “I forgot about you when you finally left for college next year. But I guess I never got over you,” I sighed. “It was always about you,” I breathed.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3LFwh7ZV3
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“I thought I was imagining things,” he chuckled after a while. “You never said anything,” he said and looked at me. “Even now, I started this,” he frowned.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJr1nMygztb
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“And If you didn’t, I would probably have stayed quiet,” I whispered.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMSUJE8IX4
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“That’s what I don’t get!” he said sounding impatient “Why?!” he shook his head trying to understand.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtLLmI6mP4
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“Because I know who I am. And I know who you are. Plus I didn’t know how Cleo would take it.”615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWiMCa3M7Y
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“Will you stop talking in riddles for once?” he looked at me and took a step forward and put out the cigarette.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvR7W3OJ0xn
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“I know that the only thing I managed to tell you so far is that I was afraid. I was afraid of opening up to you and talk to you because I knew that if you, out of all people, hurt me I wouldn’t be able to deal with it,” I said staring at the floor “I wish I was wrong,” I mumbled.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6tMdegdoX
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“What? What do you mean?”615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClH6agKwIn
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“I don’t want to talk about it,” I said. It was the wrong thing to say however.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfMzMDPnKA
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“Oh, that’s a new one!” he scoffed “You never want to talk about it. You always talk with riddles. You never tell me what you’re thinking or how you feel! Even now, Erica, you speak about the past,” he said and I was looking towards him but not directly at him. “You never talk about the future! Or about now!” he said. He was all over the place.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwfpKhJD7V
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“Talk about what?” I said frustrated and got up. “I know I’m not good enough for you! My head is mess. I’m scared to open up and I know I’m not worth your valuable time. You have a beautiful mind, you’re gorgeous, educated, you know how to talk and behave. I’m...I’m…whatever,” I winced and threw my hands in the air.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lAb2HHOJh
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Someone knocked on the door just as I realized that tears were running down my cheeks again. I wiped them off with my fingers and walked towards the door. Cleo was standing there.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlLxdqtHLI
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“Baby, are you okay?” she asked and took a step forward.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72J7SyiZlv
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“Can you sleep in your brother’s room tonight?” Damien startled me as his voice came from behind me and opened the door wider so he could see his sister. Cleo looked at him and then back at me. I was looking at the floor and I looked at my friend only when I felt her eyes on me.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oJ8teWLeT
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“Sure,” she nodded “Text me if you need anything,” she told me and left.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvDK6utESE
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I closed the door slowly and turned around. I didn’t know what to expect from him. I took two steps away from the door just as Damien walked up to me. He didn’t stop; he just put his palms on either side of my face and stared into my eyes. How much I adore those grey eyes.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYnuTRXQo9
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“I love you,” he said. The world stopped. I couldn’t believe I heard those three little words coming out of his mouth. My heart flew, it felt alive again. “You’re more than enough,” he whispered. “Don’t ever dare to believe otherwise. Your head might be a little bit disturbed sometimes,” he smirked and made me chuckle “But it’s the best place to be,” he assured me.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwEZVrg6qT
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