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一九九三年，他六歲。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwLN2LvDhP5
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夏夜有風。媽媽替他更換小背心當睡衣，撥扇哄他入睡。睡得香甜，不願醒來，懶理微微發癢的臉頰。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAw5CltEvih
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夏日惡毒，毒不過他臉頰上的無名腫毒。媽媽焦急收拾銀包和證件，說要帶他到醫院。爸爸睄他一眼，認為他近日吃過量煎炸食物，長暗瘡，純粹熱氣，無需花錢求醫。媽媽沒好氣，匆匆拖著神智不清的他前往醫院。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6uX0ZUG4V
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醫院離家不遠，不過二十分鐘腳程。相識的鄰里、熟悉的街景，既近且遠，扭曲模糊折疊……天旋地轉，手腳一軟，眼前一黑，倒下。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFWdsGI29m
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看不見，聽得到。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgkyHNycDeG
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjk3HEqITGB
尖叫，呼救。心跳，鼻息。人，車。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQJVw4qXp4
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電車。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsOqpasVXV
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叮叮——叮叮——390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVP8GbvNNR
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他曾取笑它慢吞吞。媽媽說電車再慢亦會比他快。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIY7zAIWE1T
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYJAABmNYT
媽媽喜歡電車那叮叮聲，平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWt1BqXsSC
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuW46zR6Ihq
他仔細聽、認真聽。平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Ckshu9VcU
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刻骨銘心。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiEZRdugVJ
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叮叮——叮叮——390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9Zadpl9kb
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（02）390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8p2oHcvtpd
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看得見，聽不到。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSzBh4lDsR
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聽不到醫生說他內耳受感染，無法康復。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRaJBdbAkx
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLEWYTPpg3
聽不到爸爸怪責媽媽疏忽照顧他。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCQr8AP6VT
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTQef7bumw
聽不到媽媽自責飲泣。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KnZHzBrMd
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但他統統看見了——他看見聲音。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBsZVtknRH
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLd1zoGvc95
絕望聲音是揚沸的黑煙。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYdoJcjpRU
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHivuAaN22
憤怒聲音是燃燒的血紅。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMWTvS7lv6
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrpQQmAHti
罪疚聲音是混濁的海藍。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1Af9xNPWA
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4Vskpwa8p
世界五顏六色，暴烈狂亂。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8S4gaUIvl
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuybS3hdJNv
他受驚瑟縮在家，直至媽媽的顏色徹底消失。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSz4fMWS0EW
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtGLcf6jfi
爸爸指向電車，比手畫腳，示意媽媽昨夜在電車自殺。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPBezU9nMg
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXG20XAzd7i
叮叮——叮叮——390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbL5gexzixV
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叮……390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjlVqkMJQC
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（03）390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfEc4X9RFw
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二零二三年，他三十六歲。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYxnRxNP3a
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvb7L3tgHEj
當年媽媽離世後，爸爸帶他遷離港島，遠離電車，遠離傷心地。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81LfSEMIhp
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WOm39llFl
時日漸過，傷痛漸退，他漸漸看不見聲音的顏色。他明白那是幻覺，是自身心理防禦機制產生出來的，用以舒緩情緒和壓力。聲音的顏色日益淺薄，如煙如霧，再也妨礙不了他的人生路。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAvKVu0AMo
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3CnpOuRU9
他決定要勇敢，走出陰霾，好好過活，不然會像爸爸一樣帶著哀傷終其此生——爸爸去年自殺，同樣在電車上。明明爸爸比他更抗拒港島和電車，為何偏偏在電車自殺？因為媽媽？沒能知道，沒能問個清楚明白。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoK8f6j4gdB
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCn1hYPSHli
二十七年來，他首次踏足港島。心情緊張，有如當年踏入新居。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFduVMNMAwe
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbBI3cqXbx
熟悉傢俬配上陌生單位，有形無神，是家不是家。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEL0776mVA
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvWl37anmJ
常見事物配上獨特氛圍，舊瓶新酒，突兀不協調。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoJK6KqZKT
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDATwKFE22P
周遭顏色頓變濃稠，阻擋視線，如屏成障。看不見前路，聽不到指引，忽爾忘記將來。人總沒法拋棄過去吧。過去構成現在，現在組構將來。過去如何，將來也必如何……390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDa11BVN7K
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpyIpewrG9
一抹綠影突然冒出，撥開重重色彩，在他眼前掠過，緊隨而來是隱隱卻嘹亮的聲音。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqElqwLWZSi
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWhJO9YFcT
叮叮——叮叮——390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJTv5Ir9Vv
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震驚。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSOKOvcr3b
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRKOWIo8ap
怎麼可以聽到聲音？390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYh64X034Yq
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叮叮——叮叮——390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeD19gx9Cz4
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiDkQgWjEc
一股莫名衝動驅使他拼命追趕電車。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDzA7jYNO5
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvj5q5oqYWN
累。電車再慢亦會比他快。他再快亦追不到那些經已遠去的。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfQkOogxAg
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7kGhTmetc
他開始不明白自己為何要追趕。他沒有追趕的原因。他再努力亦無法追回那些人事物。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6rFhDB7Y5
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWisXeDwo8C
他不想再追。很累……390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQ2nDLsmu8
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkEeLzcqR0
叮叮——叮叮——390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kiGzh7bLX
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kQ6YtzEPt
乘客陸續發現行為怪異的他，將手提電話伸出窗外拍攝。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSomNUZO5Vq
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzphcaYxZs
電車似是擁有生命，生出無數觸手，向他招迎。當中有兩隻全綠的右手沒有手提電話。揮動姿勢與其他手臂不同，是多麼的熱情親切，充滿期盼，彷彿在講：「來！快來！」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFaxyUVs1Y
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他咬咬牙，跑得更快，想要看看綠手主人——會是他們嗎？390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyD7GSuMDA
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8O4rIszZ18
他沒能看見綠手主人的臉，但他堅信那是父母的手！390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYozHodw6i
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmDvtVx335
這可能是他有生之年最後一次與父母團聚！390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29tRkp22OO
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjA7Nv7Pzjp
父母都是自殺的，在他毫無心理準備之時離他而去。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjsBs9pjKU
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUf91SnISO
他接受不了。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Pp6gun6ef
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmzpjaFrI9B
叮叮——叮叮——390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSergzCLxC
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkDAShZteP
電車準備靠站，他快要追到。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTc7qdJSKRI
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8YuCUb1Ic
綠手開始氣化。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i4ReFbAnr
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5ehQcZeYQ
再努力亦枉然？一切努力只顯得他是那麼無能無力。他唯一做到的僅是無奈接受……390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHALE7oJlF
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8wP9j8gR9
綠手在他眼前消散無痕。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXMqgAzPWO
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNdQCLRPWE
他力竭倒地，哭得像個孩子。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzNy9N1JwS
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHntvtZ0NW
叮叮——叮叮——390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvPY9soMTI
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhYEf3wJXg
電車靠站，乘客分道揚鑣，世界運轉如儀，沒有因為他的怪異行徑而改變本身命運。正如他沒有因為努力而及時握著兩隻注定要消散的綠手。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlJjwqlgwB
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GH5JnvPl6
緣盡。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkqD3yy41e
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無謂執著。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4fYyLfmQK
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJhLN9xuEK
忽爾澄明。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4bAFg6Sg3
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汗止，氣平，淚盡。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kqVqGUT0G
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCUMqWqyAZ
他重新站起來，拍拍褲管塵灰，抬頭挺胸走向電車站。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iibIsrU7i
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPqPk0rVQu
排隊，付款，上車。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vABztjTvN
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如同其他乘客。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc66G06jRyx
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwHs3f0d8p
如同其他同樣平凡而獨特的乘客。
