小屋裡、睡床邊，她架上老花眼鏡，小心翼翼用開信刀拆開今早收到的奇怪信件。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQzSo4MOH6
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純白的信封上沒有註明地址，亦沒有郵票、郵戳和收信人姓名。明顯不是透過郵政服務寄來的，而是有人將信件直接放入她的信箱。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyFi3SGSiS
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是誰？有誰會寫信給她這個孤僻木訥的八旬老婦？該不會是兒子——他已好幾年沒有前來探望，電話聯絡亦少之又少……630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yeTunCynr
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「啊！」看見信中物，她不由得發出一聲驚嘆。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkABpBayMF
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壓花書籤。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxDk8c20KM
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCj2lY4lbwO
紫藍色的小花在純白色托紙上尤顯孤獨冷清。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicqKUCtZbo
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxnnhID2UL
「毋忘我……」她雙唇微顫，熱淚盈眶，回憶片段有如走馬燈在她腦海中快速運轉。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQqxsbLlxC
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初遇於了無邊際的毋忘我花海……情信信箋一角上畫有一朵線條簡單的毋忘我……他突如其來捧上的毋忘我花束……她在婚宴時戴著的紫藍色毋忘我花形耳環……他在窗前花槽播下毋忘我種子……他因頑皮兒子摘掉花槽裡的毋忘我而氣得流鼻血……他拒絕遷往大屋是因為捨不得花槽裡的心血結晶……年邁的他偶爾忘記淋花施肥……患病的他忘了花、忘了她……她為失智的他戴上紫藍色冷帽，笑說他是一朵毋忘我……每年清明重陽或其他大時大節時，她都會帶上一束毋忘我前往拜祭他……630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgw6GSXri1
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難道是老伴的來信？630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLgRu7SZ0B
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是！一定是老伴自天堂寄來的！630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqf2l2EMCAS
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明明有很多合情合理的說法去解釋信件來歷，她偏偏選擇相信無從證明的鬼神之說。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuf28nO2u0
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或許，真假從不重要，合乎心意的表象才是真正有意義的。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOdz2E92lns
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47bTsidYzJ
這來歷不明的壓花書籤正好滿足她對老伴的思念之情。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcYvXQ3xEC
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2t9lQgGpJa
她流淚，她微笑。她憂傷，她幸福。她空虛，她富足……630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3semPZRtmT
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ivvlrSm57
剎那間，她重新經歷體驗數十載的喜怒憂懼愛憎欲千萬遍，不斷發現、擁有、消磨、失去。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymLJpMk2I4
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYK0IBXwo0
一切歸空，如夢如幻如泡影。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrvAIF8lNQ
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd84QmIlDmQ
努力活著，只為失去？630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuajmDJhIEd
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放眼望去，小屋冷冷清清。兒子遠去，老伴不在。花槽裡的毋忘我早日被鄰近頑童連根拔起，散落滿地，肢離破碎。垂吊耳珠上的花形耳環已然褪色，只餘帶有花亂刮痕的啞色金屬配件。情信信箋受潮發霉，角落的毋忘我污跡斑駁……630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYop4vpCCIs
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0P42joHMp
無論如何用心留住一切，終歸逃不過失去的命運，對嗎？630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33TEw2esfG
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很累。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmR4Bp8vHFL
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxf3tCjzU80
放下眼鏡，揉揉眼。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgq76iW7gXh
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想睡。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoHLYbRbu2
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放下開信刀時，刀尖劃過手腕，留下血痕。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aefhkUKS5
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qCwQTPLQx
有意或無意？她自己也說不清楚。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2h3514Q4Nj
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該要馬上包紥傷口。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5BxxCx7Q6
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但看著血流不止的手腕，心裡竟沒有絲毫焦急。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61Nuio9YrS
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeK1KeJy6Z
沒所謂。反正終歸逃不過失去的命運。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9jS9lRNdL7
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmN4DyW7HJD
她懶理手腕血流如注，安坐搖搖椅上，對著壓花書籤發愣。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sfjgDoBP8
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArowy53L0P
時間流逝，體溫流失，記憶流竄。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiS6aNDRumy
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她的意識逐漸模糊——想不起他的墳頭是甚麼形狀，記不清楚他的冷帽是否以純低針編織而成，忘記了肥料是從哪裡買來的……630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGDoZzDOk0
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他的臉和身體分崩離析，成碎，成灰，成粉，最後甚麼也不剩。沒有形體，因其而生的神情動態亦不復存在，遑論聲音、氣味、情感……630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpfhDdJfEz
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfd8xic8DAJ
被遺忘才是徹底的死亡。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalguJ062tH
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她曾痛恨上天帶走他的生命。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjtDMp3NM8
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現在呢？630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunF4gAyxL6
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她主動放棄記住他。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQDqknwXBs
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上天或她更可惡可恨？630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtiv8K6U46
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世上有靈魂嗎？他會怪責她嗎？630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOqZaAR2fa
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IqK5FP5tT
「死者已死，沒能怪責。」他的聲音來自壓花書籤：「一切只是生者的心念。」630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGXoPbE6r5
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迴光返照。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuN7FMaabU
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她撲前將枱面的書籤摟在懷裡，哭哭笑笑。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngI8FPDOiQ
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU85y9ey5mL
書籤是書籤，不是他。毋忘我是毋忘我，不是他。回憶裡的他是回憶裡的他，不是他。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRz0L1oePUJ
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGA2HnJsP5
是她將一切與他扣上關連。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwx2KCyoHpN
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV5ncmSyPmS
如果她不復存在，整個世界跟他亦再沒關連……630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9ODuzukEZ
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手腕倏忽劇痛。
醫院。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoMdIVJpav
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡui0CH67LfS
病房裡擠滿前來探病的人，熱鬧非常。唯獨是她床邊兩條通道空蕩蕩的。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEj0hq3BEW
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CpvpXl5IZ
不曾期望兒子不會前來，但她心裡難免一陣失落。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sjm2p5bkW
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當時是否不該報警求救呢？630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvCHbPVh5s
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這念頭生起還沒兩秒，一個小巧身影踏著小跳步來到床邊。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAt9ywqWtx
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bAxw9hwd2
「莊遜太太，午安！」女孩不過十歲，雙頰通紅，眼眸明亮有神。身穿白色連身裙，裙上印滿碎花圖案，是紫藍色的毋忘我。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRrReaIR5U
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0HlEOc05w
「午……安……」她和顔悅色禮貌應道，暗裡搜索枯腸，卻硬是想不起這娃兒是誰。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ374PUqSz0c
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pnO7ERwtq
「喜歡我送你的壓花書籤嗎？」女孩喜孜孜的，不知自己差點兒害死眼前老婦。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7WUOWgb62
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwAfcstAGOn
「喜歡。」她強抑心底裡的一陣震驚，輕撫女孩頭頂：「為何你送我書籤呢？」630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwbaCaZpzp
630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBHNT7x3JI
「數天前，我和祖母路經你家，看見你跪在草地上，捧著散落的毋忘我痛哭。所以我回家後馬上動手製作壓花書籤。送書籤時湊巧發現你不在家，只好把書籤放入信箱，讓你先睹為快！」女孩從裙袋掏出另外兩張毋忘我書籤送給她。「看！書籤上的毋忘我永不枯萎！多漂亮！」630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNhLuiFmky
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這時，女孩的祖母才拖著蹣跚步伐趕至。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDO6x6Ftwx
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原來是鄰居費爾斯太太。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzHpKwcClt
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十年前，老伴去世後，費爾斯太太每天抽空前來相伴，與她談天說地、為她焗製香氣四溢的果批、陪伴她到市場買肥料……直至孫女出生，費爾斯太太忙著照顧初生小娃，才不得不淡出她的生活圈子。漸漸地，她亦忘記費爾斯太太，變得孤僻木訥……630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3YoWXx6cc
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「小小心意。」憂心不已的費爾斯太太捧上一個毋忘我小盆栽。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfu88pCMvA
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「謝謝你們……」她受寵若驚，緩緩伸手接過小盆栽。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJONfyqJWDa
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右手手掌上是鮮活的毋忘我，左手手心裡是永不枯萎的毋忘我。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLRRfwwocp
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活的死的都在她手裡，只待她怎麼處理。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYfhasPKhm
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她打算怎麼處理？630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMmMAxbI8Q
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未決定。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Yo2VKBaaC
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那就先收拾心情、養好身體吧。630Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGl2frhfKo
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活著，才可以想及將來、擁抱過去。
