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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMp2mxUwF4
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62EmcLEyZF
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YzDFljpAD
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fJAA5zwPW
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJNgKve30t
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面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkM1FsDXYCq
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rWhwfMGns
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「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RfRJkTKl4
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmN36y6fjO
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlTcx9nFwT
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02rLoIMgCj
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHdC9n0p1p
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掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbGayvfOTa
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFDvDEUg3E
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwcLdHg4RF
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGxpMPQxl3
家宜沉默了。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVYgQ4SD09A
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2E4kjcuW9
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFY0vtz0iec
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBR2BLWwzab
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGgw5MDSzf
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzYDoxftvF
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXpOXcPKkG
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0nfNhTA9M
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFFEd7G4vy
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykDnNb4EDF
有人說她成熟了，進步了。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLi2j07TEgz
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHPe97WT9F
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvtgif2rm0
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似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjc7PCLroo
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURigb4jxrn
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mwBwmXIDB
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還是向現實低頭好了。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKThhfSzw7N
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpt9b5hOm4
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkA5zGBHLu3
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0doxm07mr
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJdMtzxOuh
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeO7RTY1aFw
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf67vfvStb5
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeBRlf6PTO
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7o85dKtRcd
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGw2C2qBn5
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLQ5Y3Zzpe
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2LC0hTdAD
家宜沒答話。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtFeomWBRF
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望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYECPR0f2F
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtsU7uj3Un
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ52sHBU3te5
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlFTJUrJoN
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkekAP3dwI
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6r8lyMfOnK
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzPElF8TnU
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0l92860MH
當初…863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmDE0RbuTtJ
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LT8MXWEv6
整個晚上，媽一言不發。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlw0exNTgn
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj12pbhsFLL
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZUkVFDEKZ
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpZEhVVeIH
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxebjcCOi7
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZcTVdTyOQ
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmCfIyenj5
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsbtP4I5f0
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6Namm0Jjv
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimnMTjQgCc
根本不是她的錯！863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqzeEi1w7s
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0in67Rd6eZ
但道歉可保住一椿生意…863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj1FfZyp2ex
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卻扭曲了自己…863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQxOpalSXK
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值得嗎？863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRV0F2AKqB
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「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oP7JLfWQK
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPnwg0tmHv
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0czdstKjKV
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy6K31TYGW1
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvc1fNJA2Q
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbnb6daHoF
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfna7xkrbr
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UtdhbOUUO
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTEczLSYtG8
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CouVmT6NK
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHJgrO80Rq
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7eVOqJkkT
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6jW9hE3Km
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNqfYdtP5Hx
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCWXCFCfif
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6QPnu52TI
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrzI6nYOes
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBd8GXysQj
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYt0E0ZFndb
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluJIHjvO08
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8YLyrrXjJ
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjawBYfqqT
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxy6aXdEK29
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXYxktvA3Z
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvNTQsKqFu
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHeF7vtieV
不管了，先遞信吧！863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4ZFqiPh3B
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8UcIpKJP4v
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyveeHcKXzq
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家宜呆了。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeWfqzjWIX
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90rjvw5qo3
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLBzJOLFVN
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0v3RGOpTDQ
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJYFfWEhxF
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiXYUKb87i
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZtG7bOj7E
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNNEKwyJOXg
這是…放棄了嗎？863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLjOnEuFsV
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBC0opADHx
家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVU2S1KiYp
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ52bECgSoZ
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3GBJPsf2F
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqADlxNRQFo
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMa6xn8ULG
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSZe7AFdGq
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdnIUcMtnf
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXh1ky06w3
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvcfCNgtEX
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYyadmyZQg
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtg66ytjcYM
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1hYl7vsM9
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnON7D8r60y
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSQaGbUS8p
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ1MIunPOmb
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVa9iA0nfiB
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRqEOE5Ons
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaZAPA4Kup
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Bp5BlghIw
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgXtKX5sJD
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPmdmu4R9I
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCf16HXx7u
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKh1fkEBm9
863Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerbhR3Zg4Z
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