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秋夜。與同事消遣後，有人打算到酒吧繼續狂歡，邀我同去，但我婉拒了，畢竟自己不習慣應酬，悉才飯局已然將我心力掏空。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8ezIKQ1J7
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踏入職場十多年，仍然未慣與人交流。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxvz35eZJi
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也許本性如此吧。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbUd89lszi
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討厭。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cLT3c8MhA
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我踏上歸途。沿路街燈整齊排列，在灰黑路面各自畫出米黃圓形。柔和畫面莫名令我感到難以言喻的鬱悶。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevjRqU3vtR
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路經公園入口一刻，我驀地停下腳步，躲在燈光無法觸及的位置靠牆抽菸。白煙冉升，遇上越過三米矮牆的光禿大樹枝節。我有意無意抬頭望樹望煙，聯想起兒時收看的宮崎駿動畫《龍貓》。當中一幕是兩位女主角和家人浸浴時一起嬉鬧，全然不知可愛的精靈趁著月色飄往夜空。熟耳的背景音樂襯托下，畫面就此定格在夜空、彎月、白雲和茂盛參天大樹。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHX8Fs0UJAp
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溫馨畫面和此刻蒼涼秋意形成強烈對比。我似乎有所觸動，同時也沒法捕捉任何確切感受。千言萬語卡在胸腔間，無法出來。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdOGg5jOBA
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討厭。真討厭。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpO8JB3C2gx
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我無視不遠處的垃圾桶，隨意彈走未盡的菸尾巴，看它掉在路中心。隱身菸灰間的橙黃火光晦暗不明，像掙扎，像呼救，像要耗盡最後力氣對我施加詛咒。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaH9F272vOj
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討厭。真討厭。很討厭自己經常傷春悲秋。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6X1JWa7Zm
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不過就是菸屁股。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJ14rTOZBV
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不過就是同事之間一個閒常飯局。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTyJxWg6Dq
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不過就是一個平凡人不習慣職場文化。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCg2nAnLkny
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不過就是一件沒甚麼大不了的瑣碎事。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVj3h7gHkm2
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討厭。真討厭。很討厭。十分討厭。239Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdXXsQ9VGm
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這種無法緩解和、無法宣之於口的鬱悶……十分討厭。
