I was right. I knew him well after all.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMNfaeQm4m
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Cleo didn’t want to leave me alone waiting for a message so she came back with me at my house. I had no intention to sleep. Not that I could if I tried. I showered and sat on the couch staring at the TV; Cleo half asleep beside me. It was killing me; knowing that right now Alex, my Alex was kissing, touching and having sex with another woman.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMTDKilByO
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It was around 7 in the morning when my phone begun vibrating on the coffee table. I shot up and grabbed the phone; Cleo tensed.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHP8BWcUpI
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“I’m leaving the mansion. I told him. At first he just stared at me and then seemed to be furious,” the brunette texted me; the brunette that spend the night having sex with my boyfriend. With my blessings.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCOHwBlOsw
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I was crazy. I must be. There was no explanation for what I’ve done; sending her to have sex with my boyfriend just to confront him through her. At least she was cooperative.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHK0laLszRt
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“Thanks again. I’m guessing he didn’t say anything?” I texted back. It only took a few seconds before the mobile vibrated in my hands again; Cleo put her arm around my shoulders.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QVoHhQFzP
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“He asked me to describe you. When I did, he got out of the bed and before leaving the room he told me that the butler would arrange for me to get home.”439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WQEcCRh4b
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Typical Alex. When something was wrong, he didn’t even bother with anything else besides his own problem. Not even escorting the poor girl to the car.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikWyF9ktod
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“Okay. Thanks again. You have my number if you ever need anything,” I texted back.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYKTwlXOu8
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“My pleasure. I'm sorry about him,” I’ve read and left the phone on the table and leaned back on the couch.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aQmk5H2Tj
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Cleo put both arms around me and held me to her. I felt like my world fell apart. Again. I was such a fool.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgyMsn6I1O
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“I'm an idiot,” I mumbled against my friend’s chest.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuvPX8S7ob
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“No, you’re not. You’re just in love.”439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDZHJeUc9F
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I was so tired that I must have fallen asleep on the couch for I woke up lying there, with a pillow and a sheet covering me. Cleo must have given them to me.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKaTLf4H4B
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As all the events from last night came back into my mind, my heart fell and my chest pain returned. I muffled a cry and covered my eyes with my arm.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFjO8CPOmm
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I turned towards the coffee table where my mobile was laying and saw a piece of paper underneath it. “I promised mom to help her with some stuff. Call me when you wake up.” I dialed her number and put the phone against my ear.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgYir1qX8D
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She had just finished what she was doing and told me to meet her at her place. I carried myself to the bathroom and closet to get dressed. I didn’t know how I had the courage to even put make up on.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3y9evQ5u2X
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Fifteen minutes later, I was entering her kitchen and couldn’t wait to find myself into her room so I can fall apart. As I walked up the stairs and into my friend’s room, the door at the end of the hall opened; Damien appearing behind it, only in his shorts.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTYh4zIDEr
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“Hey,” I said but the sound didn’t leave my throat so I waved.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokKGBMylAT
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“Come here,” he motioned to his bedroom with his hand.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxxBhdAxR2
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“Cleo is waiting,” I managed to say out loud.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTFfcI4Tjg
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“She’s not home yet,” he replied and I began walking towards him. He walked to his bed and gazed at me “You can sit you know,” he smiled; little curves shaped on his cheeks. I smiled a small smile and sat beside him.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaf9u2VT32g
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“Sorry. I'm a bit off today,” I mumbled.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJW5f2ugek3
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“Did he..?” he trailed; his gray eyes piercing me.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSwES0Ix8c
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“Yup. He cheated again,” I smiled bitterly “This time with my blessings though,” I kept a tight smile.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9V3XIkcCoz
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“What do you mean?” he frowned. I told him last night’s events in a summary while he looked wide eyed.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrIWkRZfUl
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“Damn,” he whispered.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPxPvWXkpK
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“Yeah,” I agreed and my phone vibrated in my hands, startling me for a second. I froze as I looked at the screen. Alex. I pressed the silent button and left the phone on the bedside table.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AqrLG2N6h
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“Him?” Damien asked and I nodded. “Want me to answer?” he offered.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60Ax68i1LQ
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“No. Don’t want to waste any more time,” I said; my voice breaking in the middle of the sentence. Damien shifted on the bed so he was facing me while I kept my eyes forward as I was starting to get nervous.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TZhRBunCZ
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He took my hand in his and squished it. I just kept my eyes forward, afraid to turn around and face him.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8rwOGLlTR
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“Look at me,” he pleaded whispering. I exhaled deeply and lowered my head. I didn’t want to look at him. Every feeling I had for him since I could remember myself was coming back ten times stronger when he was sweet and caring with me.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZtSofJBi9
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My phone vibrated from the bedside table again, this time Cleo was the one calling me. I sighed and answered the phone.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ku0oHDaBF
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“Hey. I’m at your place,” I told her and she just told me she was parking her car before hanging up.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhFrgDvgNG
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“I’m going...” I trailed and got up; my hand still in his.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86Is6hXnu0
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“Okay,” he mumbled and stroked the back of my palm with his thumb before letting his hand slip away.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtCdqJYCOx
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Alex called three times that day. I never answered. I didn’t have the courage or the strength to deal with him. I couldn’t bear to hear his voice. It would hurt too much.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3KMVZ4g8K
I curled into a tiny ball in my bed and cried myself to sleep.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTz8aDa6dC
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It hurt that I’ve let myself trust him again; I’ve allowed myself to dream and everything was shuttered. It hurt so much.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghIokb7El0
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I opened my eyes disoriented; the sound of knocking on the door reached my ears. That must have been the sound that woke me up. I sat up on the bed and slowly got out of bed.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhXesbSduH7
As I opened the door, still half asleep, I froze. Alex was standing in the doorway wearing just a jean and a t-shirt. I wasn’t used to see him wearing casual clothes. I began hyperventilating and tried to close the door to his face. I really couldn’t stand watching those eyes. It hurt.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKj7p5JGmkz
He put his hand against the door and kept it open. I didn’t have much strength for I just woke up, and he overpowered me.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1u73qwgzZX
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“Please” he mumbled. I lowered my head, not facing him, and turned around. I heard him entering the renovated garage and closing the door behind him.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMvyzNbNML
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“If you’re going to say that it just happened. Save it,” I mumbled as I walked towards the kitchen counter to make coffee.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBbCNDgRZh
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“Obviously it didn’t,” I heard him say. So if he admitted it, why was he here? “How did you know her?” he asked, obviously about the brunette that spent the night with him.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLggQxETE7r
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That’s what he cared about? How I knew the girl that he fucked last night? That’s why he was here? I felt angry. I bit my lip to restrain myself as I put water and coffee in my glass.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kXqSTxV9H
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“Small world love. Small fucking world,” I smiled bitterly.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPV9KB14AMV
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“Will you look at me?” he asked. I felt so angry at him when he spoke those words.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQk9gKYayPM
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“What I ever do to you?” I snapped, finally turning around and saw his face for the first time. He looked tired. But I didn’t care. He didn’t reply. What did he have to say after all?439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfCkrQgX2O
“Oh yeah, right!” I mocked “All I ever did was love you. How could I do that to you! I’m such a horrible person!” I scoffed. He sighed in response and rubbed his forehead with his fingers.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3td4F7HVN
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“Erica, please don’t...” he trailed.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIYeubUPdE
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“Don’t what?” I spit “Does my words hurt you?” I asked bitterly again. It was a rhetorical question. He would never respond to a question about how he felt. He was never talking about his feelings. Never. Maybe that’s why he was able to hurt me so much. He had no feelings.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpALYQcErRi
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“Yes,” he breathed; leaving me astonished. My face fell. I put both hands against my eyes; my knees getting weak.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6lJYtu7s4
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I managed to walk towards the bed and sat on the edge; leaning forward and resting my elbows on my knees as I held my head on my palms.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BqMdwRdKf
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“You have no idea how I feel,” I breathed; my eyes wet as I tried to hold back the tears. The hole in my chest aching and burning from the pain.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWiq8ZWccE
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I felt the bed shifting and I noticed that he sat next to me when he tried to pull him towards him.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVyFjIAJUM
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“No,” I flinched “No,” I said and pulled away; tears began oozing from my eyes. He pulled me against his chest and kept me there as I was crying. I didn’t care anymore. I didn’t care if he thought I was being childish or vulnerable. I was in pieces.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY91OlaiOal
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“I'm sorry,” he breathed.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIl8ANM5aX
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“Stop apologizing. Please,” I pleaded. It only makes it harder. I calmed down as his grip tightened around me. I could smell his beautiful scent as I was buried to his chest.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWRkAfKJYN
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My mind wasn’t working right anymore; I was lost in his arms and couldn’t think clear so when he pulled my face towards his and place his lips on mine I didn’t flinched away like before. I only parted my lips as a deep sigh escaped my lips as he kissed my bottom lip. He took advantage and parted my lips more; his tongue entering my mouth.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJpnheiKcAI
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I knew that if I stopped him now, the way I wanted him right now would haunt me and never let me be. He would always be with me. So I let him kiss me. I didn’t protest even when his hand traveled down my spine to my lower back.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdazyuHyaZ
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He lightly pushed me back and climbed on top of me while I pulled him with me. I put my hands around his neck and kissed him back as he put his hand under my shirt. He pulled back and took off his t-shirt and mine, tossing them to the floor.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsCWCiBIKm
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He stopped for a moment but I didn’t want him to speak. If he spoke he would have brought me back to reality and I would probably tell him to leave. I pulled him to my lips once again, not allowing him to say anything as I closed his bottom lip between mine.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjPsiX84Z7
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He moved his lips down to my neck as his hands traced my body; a soft moan escaping my lips. He pulled away for a moment only to remove his pants and my shorts before crushing his lips onto mine once again. I was having an out of body experience. I wasn’t thinking anything. I was only feeling.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbqzqVJWWr
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I moved one hand onto his back and another onto his waist, pulling him to me as his lips licked and kissed my neck. I pushed him back a little bit only to reach out at the bedside table and open the drawer and take a condom as he was now kissing my arm and cleavage. As I returned to him, he removed my bra and cupped my breasts; one with his hand and the other with his mouth.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnnW5Ia7XE
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He slightly pulled back and removed my underwear and his boxers before putting on the condom. I was gazing at him through the state of trance I was in, trying not to think that just 12 hours ago he was touching another woman like he was touching me.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoabBSiKRHO
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He came back on top of me, placing his hands on either side of me against the mattress and looked at me for a moment. Maybe he was looking for regret in my eyes; maybe he thought I was going to stop him. And maybe I should have.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZEsWXpE9A
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I put my hands on his necks and pulled him into a kiss and as he lowered himself onto me I felt him press against me and enter me; a deep moan escaping my throat.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbH7aL18Ay
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Maybe it was the fact that he wanted me to forgive him again or the fact that indirectly I told him that I loved him; his moves were gentle and slow. He pulled back for a moment and as he kept thrusting into me slowly, he looked at me. I looked back, wanting to keep his image in my mind, but as he opened his mouth and I thought he was going to say something I broke the eye contact.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUYBH7qZas
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“Faster,” I mumbled and his moves quickened; making me climax as he shivered over me; my legs wrapped around his waist. I suddenly felt blank. And then a strong wave of emotions struck me; the ache alive in my chest once again. I felt like crying. But I wouldn't. I wouldn't cry in front of him again.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4M6KRMzK0
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He collapsed on top of me and I held him there, stroking his back and kissing his shoulder, trying to take in my last minutes with him. His weight on top of me, his smell and his hot breathe hitting my skin.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXYPADxmrW
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“I'm sorry,” he whispered to my ear and that brought me back to reality. I pushed him back.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5DJz6GW8t
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“It doesn’t matter,” I replied and sat up. Maybe it was harsh but I didn’t care. He certainly didn’t care when he was having sex with someone else.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0Bx3w9tX3
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“I can’t do this anymore,” I whispered and he sat up on the bed; watching me. “You’re hurting me too much and I can’t do this anymore,” I explained. With the corner of my eye I saw him lowering his head. I stood up and wore my underwear and top.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJYPoxq3x6
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“Maybe someday you’ll find someone that can love you enough to make you love her back,” I whispered. I watched as his face tightened and he got up, starting to wear his clothes. I thought the conversation was over but as he wore his boxers, he then walked up to me.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSV5FzG3m6
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“You did,” he whispered; putting his palm against my cheek. Was he saying that he loved me back? No I wouldn’t let his words get to me.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKsGYwIPhri
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“No. I just loved you enough to let you break my heart. I'm never gonna be enough,” I whispered back; I could see the hurt in his eyes. I was wondering if I was looking like that right now. “I'm sorry Alex but if I keep this up, it would probably kill me.”439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaMsstjp0w
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He pulled back slowly, not saying another word. He put back on his jeans and t-shirt and begun walking towards the door. He paused there for a second but he didn’t do anything. He didn’t turn around to look at me or said anything.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFU9U8sqt2
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He opened the door and left.439Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡke4lIGKjdC
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And I just got back home for the Holidays! As I said the updates on this will be a bit slower than it was...so...I can't wait to read your thoughts on the chapter! :}:}
