When I come to think about how things with Damien started it felt a little bit hasty. I was still with Alex when Damien kissed me for the first time. And then I was getting over Alex when I kissed him the night we got together.465Please respect copyright.PENANATrklRv6hB9
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But then again, my feelings for Damien were always there. It wasn’t something new. He wasn’t just a rebound guy. I was always in love with him. My thoughts were interrupted by a set of lips brushing against my neck.465Please respect copyright.PENANAlgRF3XiOe8
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“Jeez!” I jumped up. I was standing in the kitchen, making a pile of plates as I unloaded the washing machine.465Please respect copyright.PENANAXs4ZQ4rSKn
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“Scared you?” Damien chuckled. I nodded and turned around. He leaned down and kissed me; his lips cupping my own.465Please respect copyright.PENANAhHMqmkUc2d
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“Third person in the room!” Max said as he walked passed us. I pulled back and blushed.465Please respect copyright.PENANATk5ZGrWJmA
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“We’re leaving anyway,” Damien told him. Cleo walked in the kitchen at the same time.465Please respect copyright.PENANATXiGUHBXzH
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“Wait a little longer, I haven’t finished here,” I told Damien.465Please respect copyright.PENANAiCfAKr2SGC
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“I’ll finish up,” Cleo said “There’s nothing left in the living room.” Her voice was all wrong.465Please respect copyright.PENANAr1tyY37yv8
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“Are you sure? You sound tired,” I winced. Maybe she was indeed tired.465Please respect copyright.PENANASYWFMYSDN6
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“Yes. I’ll unload the washing machine and go to bed. Eliza, the cleaning lady, is coming over tomorrow,” she assured me. “Oh, I got your stuff,” she smiled; it seemed a little bit forced.465Please respect copyright.PENANAm0a3CdHFMR
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“Thanks,” I smiled back and turned towards the dining table that she motioned me towards. “What’s that envelope?” I frowned as I looked over the A4 white envelope that was sitting over my jacket. Damien towered over me.465Please respect copyright.PENANAd3tUEXxhO3
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“Your gift,” she grinned “Open it.” That smile was legitimate and made me feel better.465Please respect copyright.PENANA1hJKkxlA33
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“What is it?” I frowned and opened the envelope. Max was there in a second. “Will you back up? Jeez,” I frowned at the Simmons brothers. I teared open the envelope and pulled out a magazine; ELLE magazine. A paper came with it. I burst out laughing and turned to look at her, but both Damien and Max were blocking my view in order to read the paper. “Move away!” I pushed them and almost run to Cleo. I threw my arms around her and hugged her. “You bossy little freak!”465Please respect copyright.PENANAQdQb7QCtKn
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“I have to put some sense of fashion into you! Your initiation is great, but you needed this!” she chuckled for the twenty-four months subscription she bought me.465Please respect copyright.PENANA9e4PZbxHR9
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“Can we go now?” Damien asked sounding bored and impatient as I pulled away from Cleo.465Please respect copyright.PENANALgQNnQYdLW
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“Don’t push your luck,” I warned him and turned to Cleo again “Thank you,” I smiled at her.465Please respect copyright.PENANAuJu6JE8cNx
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“Weird gift,” Max mumbled and made me chuckle.465Please respect copyright.PENANAyo4g2c4IJ1
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Damien did not waste time once we got inside my renovated garage. As soon as I turned on the air-conditioning and removed my jacket he walked up to me and cupped my cheeks; a sweet smile on his full lips.465Please respect copyright.PENANAAZrIwRVMYg
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“Had fun tonight?” I asked; enjoying his touch.465Please respect copyright.PENANAbYT79dhICZ
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“Yes,” he nodded smiling and leaned down and kissed me. His hands squished my butt but I stopped him.465Please respect copyright.PENANAWWLYYn531A
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“I’m not having sex with you,” I mumbled against his lips. He didn’t seem to believe it and kissed me again. This time I pulled away from him. “Going to take a shower before lying down,” I said indifferently.465Please respect copyright.PENANAPRIapabrY3
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“We’ll see about that,” I heard him mumbling as I took off my heels. I walked into the bathroom and let the water running before pulling down my leggings.465Please respect copyright.PENANAwHdRN5py7L
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“For now, see me closing the door to your face,” I mocked and closed the bathroom door before locking it. I wasn’t really mad at him and I knew that if he came in the shower with me I wouldn’t be able to stop him.465Please respect copyright.PENANAeTk3YqnmhT
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He took a shower after me as I wore clean knickers and an oversized jumper that left my right shoulder uncovered. I was sitting on the sofa, surfing the internet when he joined me. He sat on my right side and kissed my shoulder as he put his hand on my thigh; no sign of lust in his moves.465Please respect copyright.PENANAfyxFK6ixOn
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“So, how do you feel?” I smirked mockingly.465Please respect copyright.PENANAYNfwi78mj5
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“What do you mean?”465Please respect copyright.PENANARHqIHCxfwP
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“You’re twenty-five,” I replied; retaining the smirk on my lips. Damien chuckled. “You’re old,” I mocked and he lunched himself at me causing me to laugh. I always enjoyed fighting with him; especially after we got together.465Please respect copyright.PENANAyfAgLRe5br
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“Crazy people never get old, ladybug,” he smirked as he pinned me against the sofa cushions. He gripped my wrists and I tried to free myself with no success. He bit his lip as he positioned himself between my legs.465Please respect copyright.PENANAMWQVJ7xHeg
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“Go away, I’m still mad at you,” I mumbled; frowning.465Please respect copyright.PENANAGjNlLxThw2
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“Can’t do that,” he raised his eyebrows and without a warning he crashed his lips to mine. I parted my lips from the surprise and he found the opportunity to brush my tongue with his. I couldn’t help but kiss him back eagerly. I could feel him growing between my legs and the moisture ruining my clean underwear. I moaned into the kiss and tried to push him back. I was suffocating in that jumper.465Please respect copyright.PENANAQAa8LE6Ir1
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“It’s hot,” I mumbled and he relaxed a bit. “Do something useful while you’re there,” I mocked as he sat up on his knees. I pulled the jumper up to my breasts and he helped me remove it.465Please respect copyright.PENANAHGRRc2FTKR
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“I thought you said you won’t be having sex with me,” he smirked. I sat up quickly and got up.465Please respect copyright.PENANAZK9EW0ir1c
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“I won’t,” I confirmed and got into my bed. He chuckled and followed me. I didn’t resist as he lightly pushed me back to the mattress and climbed on top of me. “And I’m not helping you with that either,” I raised my eyebrows referring to his erection.465Please respect copyright.PENANA628ZBBfNQo
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“Baby, we will have sex,” he said; a dangerous smile on his lips. I narrowed my eyes and pushed him away. I tried to avoid looking at his eyes. Those grey orbs were dangerous; I could lose myself in there. Not that kissing him was easier. That’s why when he leaned down and kissed me, forcing his tongue into my mouth, I kissed him back. I couldn’t help it. And he knew it.465Please respect copyright.PENANAUqdE9kKkA1
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He pinned my hands against the mattress over my head with one hand and moved down to my neck. I moaned lightly at his every touch.465Please respect copyright.PENANAVkYHJGdTcS
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“Go away,” I mumbled but it was muffled by a moan as he sucked in my nipple. My body ached for him.465Please respect copyright.PENANAiFTsFO3CMN
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“I love how responsive you are,” he said. His voice wasn’t the typical hoarse tone; I could hear his lust into every word. I knew I was hopeless as he pushed my underwear to the side and brushed his fingers over my wetness.465Please respect copyright.PENANA3Vcjw9XJb1
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“It’s the hormones,” I explained flatly “I won’t have sex-” but as two long digits entered my wet folds I gasped and forgot how to speak.465Please respect copyright.PENANAmFvLlKpb0G
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“You know you want me,” he smirked as his fingers moved in and out of me causing me to moan. He moved up to my ear, his fingers never stop moving. “Admit it Erica,” he whispered against my ear “You want me inside of you.”465Please respect copyright.PENANAOZHZ1cOe6L
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“Oh God,” I moaned as his fingers moved to my clit. I couldn’t say no to him. But I would. This game was fun. “Go away,” I breathed firmly, my eyes snapping open.465Please respect copyright.PENANAUNkWyXkHxH
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“No,” he said and we stared each other for a moment. He removed his hand from my wrists and cupped my jaw; forcing his lips to mine. He then moved to my ear for a second; his retrieving his fingers from between my legs. “If you really want me to stop, say something irrelevant and -” he said; his voice soft and gentle.465Please respect copyright.PENANAC5qKnsXyrm
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“I’m fine baby,” I assured him and he kissed my temple before pulling back. He took advantage of the little pause to grab a condom from the drawer and removed both of our underwear. I was putting all my strength to my thighs trying to keep my legs closed as he put the condom on.465Please respect copyright.PENANAGsAqGEusry
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“One and half week, damn it!” I groaned. Damien chuckled. He knew he had won this already. He managed to part my legs and positioned himself between them.465Please respect copyright.PENANA3ZMlmywfC5
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“You know,” he mumbled and kissed my lower stomach “You want me,” he said as he kissed my belly and moved up to my lips. Before I ever had time to think, he pushed inside of me. I released a loud moan, my fingers clutching his back as his long and thick erection filled and stretched my depths.465Please respect copyright.PENANAbkVINKOmr2
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He grabbed my hands and pinned them against the mattress before he drove into me again and rocked my body with each pounding thrust, and my grunts and gasps chorused the slicksounds our bodies made sliding against each other.465Please respect copyright.PENANATZhKel7T1V
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“Yes, Damien,” I mumbled.465Please respect copyright.PENANAre709U52MU
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“I told you, you wanted me,” he said between moans. My fingers were clutching thin air as he held them down. I wanted to wrap them tightly around him. I arched my back, colliding my body to his and he released my hands, putting his against my sides; his grip tight.465Please respect copyright.PENANA3UBnacnxDv
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As I felt him throb and pulse and begin to explode inside of me, I squished his back, pulling him towards me. His body swayed and his groans seared my mind. It added fuel to my fire and my sweaty body suddenly shuddered and convulsed. My vision went white and I came hard, clinging to him with every muscle in my body, I trembled and spasmed hard in his arms.465Please respect copyright.PENANAtw7tdc2Q9C
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I was gasping for air, my body and mind dizzy and not quite back to myself as he collapsed on top of me. It took me a few moments of lying there, breathing and assessing tender places, to gather my strength enough to collect my thoughts.465Please respect copyright.PENANAv12OaYpxpF
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“Damn it,” I mumbled “I hate you,” I groaned. Damien chuckled against my chest; vibrating my body as well. “I can’t stay mad at you,” I complained.465Please respect copyright.PENANAzGtS6wsiOt
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“You can’t stay mad at anyone baby,” he laughed and pulled his head up to look at me; his grey eyes were darker around the edges.465Please respect copyright.PENANALTRafQldYA
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“Kiss me,” I mumbled and cupped his unshaved cheeks. He leaned over me; touching his lips softly to mine. I tightened my walls around him and he groaned against my mouth. He pulled back after a moment and he left the bed to go to the bathroom.465Please respect copyright.PENANA5sT1SxMBYQ
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He reentered the room and went to the coffee table. I saw his naked figure leaning there and taking something. He lid up a cigarette and came to bed. I couldn’t help but smile as he walked back to me. He was gorgeous; wide shoulders and muscles flexed as he moved. We’ve been together for a month and I still couldn’t believe that we’re finally together; that I have him to myself.465Please respect copyright.PENANAP8uX64R73Q
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“What?” he grinned; the cigarette hanging from his lips. I’m going to die.465Please respect copyright.PENANAEHHB5Ypsz9
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“Sometimes I wish you would stop smoking,” I smiled as he sat down on the bed. I shifted and turned to my side “But then you look so ridiculously hot with that death stick between your lips,” I sighed. Damien chuckled and pulled me into his arms. I curled up to him, my head against the crook of his neck. My fingers were tracing the scanty hair on his chest while he turned his face the other way everytime he breathed out the smoke. I was almost asleep when I heard him speak.465Please respect copyright.PENANARlehbyXxy3
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“You guys weren’t five,” he said.465Please respect copyright.PENANAWA4IrCHskg
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“Hmm?” I mumbled confused.465Please respect copyright.PENANAXmw85GsWQn
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“I was eleven years old,” he said thoughtfully “So that makes you four,” he continued and I was listening still confused “Max just discovered how to torture you. Every time I was pulling you away from him, you would hug me and call me your superman,” he said and I chuckled now understanding what he was talking about. “And once, when you were five,” he chuckled “you told me not to grow up so that you could marry me,” he said and I could hear his grin.465Please respect copyright.PENANA7HMloWiZG0
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“You were always my superman,” I mumbled and kissed his chest. “Though superman wasn’t torturing the people he saved,” I frowned.465Please respect copyright.PENANAbWSOwBDaSw
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“It was fun,” he chuckled lightly and kissed my forehead. “It still is,” he smiled against my skin. The memory he shared send a warm feeling to my heart and I wanted to talk to him so bad. But how? How do you start talking about something like this? What if he felt suffocated?465Please respect copyright.PENANAKez89cZ3dI
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“Hey, are you okay?” he asked when I didn’t comment back on his joke and I could hear the concern in his voice.465Please respect copyright.PENANAK21nQmUg0J
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“Yeah,” I breathed out.465Please respect copyright.PENANAnpzogzQcsL
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“Come on, you can’t lie to me,” he said and pushed me away lightly so he could see my face. I pulled back from his arms and covered my torso with the covers as I laid on my stomach; leaving just the edge of the sheet over him. Damien sat up against the headboard of the bed; waiting for me to talk. I can do this. But my mouth wasn’t cooperating with my brain.465Please respect copyright.PENANAtxcTxuKQbn
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“Ah,” I groaned and threw my head down to my hands “I can’t do this,” I mumbled, my pulse increasing. He put out the cigarette and turned back to me again.465Please respect copyright.PENANANsgNDaX4YN
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“Erica, what’s wrong?” he whispered and reached out for my hands. He pulled them away from my face and searched for my eyes.465Please respect copyright.PENANAq9XaBDSwwT
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“I’m scared,” I breathed. It was the only thought I could voice.465Please respect copyright.PENANAwMx7HjrLvY
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“Of what?” he breathed. He winced as if he thought I was being irrational.465Please respect copyright.PENANAlxfRLgjEXj
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“Shit, you’re already losing patience with me,” I winced and turned to the side. I wanted to be alone. He was losing patience and he would leave me. I knew it was a matter of time. I had already turned my back on him and was ready to get up from the bed when he grabbed my wrist.465Please respect copyright.PENANAQDFvdGEMLF
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“Don’t move,” he said; that intimidating tone on his voice. It was enough to bring me back from my breakdown. He shifted and pulled me backwards until my bare back was touching his naked chest as he sat me between his legs. “Talk to me, don’t walk away,” he whispered to my ear as he put his arms around me. Tears threatened to run down my cheeks. He covered our bodies with the blankets and held me there tightly against his body; his fingers laced with mine as he had his palm over my hand.465Please respect copyright.PENANAlS3m7sTntF
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“I want to,” I mumbled “But I’m scared.”465Please respect copyright.PENANAnS95C9BTRr
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“But why?” he asked softly “It’s me,” he said and stroked my hand “You have nothing to fear,” he whispered and with one hand he pushed my hair away from my neck and brushed his lips against my skin.465Please respect copyright.PENANA2YK2qWt42w
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“I’m scared of how you’ll react; of what will happen next,” I rumbled.465Please respect copyright.PENANAQVhBF0giAU
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“Erica, I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again,” he said squished my body to his “I’m not going anywhere,” he assured me.465Please respect copyright.PENANACQjb0GvW5S
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“Is just,” I began and had to swallow the lump in my throat “Things happened too quickly between us,” I mumbled and I heard him exhaling. It almost sounded as relief but I wasn’t sure.465Please respect copyright.PENANA644ZbO0IiB
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“Is that all you’re worrying about?” I guess he didn’t understand my concern.465Please respect copyright.PENANAspcDwi67ko
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“I’m scared that it will go away just as quickly,” I said my voice barely audible as I stared at the black and white stripes on the sheets.465Please respect copyright.PENANA5ajjBk7Z2B
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“I won’t let it if you don’t,” he whispered to me and stroked my skin. It wasn’t a promise like the usual promises that would terrify me. He was only saying that if I don’t let go of what we had, he wouldn’t either.465Please respect copyright.PENANABhiuKeGx2e
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My breathing increased and I could barely keep my tears back. I hated talking about how I felt about him or in general talking about things I’ve kept bottled up. It always made me cry.465Please respect copyright.PENANA0KRPHWP2ve
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I sat up, the covers fell back on the bed as I moved, and put my legs on either side of his waist and my arms around his shoulders to hug him. I kept him tightly against my body as he put his arms around me.465Please respect copyright.PENANANHdAwXZFcs
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“I won’t,” I whispered to his ear and kissed his skin. “I thought I was ready to start talking, I have things to tell you, but I-” I mumbled but he interrupted me.465Please respect copyright.PENANAvK0Lrkm5TP
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“That’s okay, it’s late,” he whispered at me and made me lie down. “Get some sleep and words will find you,” he smiled as he leaned over me and kissed my lips.465Please respect copyright.PENANAglfenphqHc
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“Don’t be so good to me,” I whispered as I barely managed to control my voice.465Please respect copyright.PENANAX4xmKt3yOP
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“Go to sleep,” he said, completely ignoring me and kissed my forehead.465Please respect copyright.PENANAWXcATvs0SU
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“Okay,” I smiled a small smile. Damien lied down behind me and put his strong arms around me; pulling me towards his body. “You’re my superman,” I giggled and he chuckled.465Please respect copyright.PENANAVAazpSEVt6
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I didn’t sleep well. However I didn’t toss and turn because I didn’t want to wake him up. I just lied in his arms enjoying the feeling. He was so beautiful. Damien was everything I ever dreamed of and I was ruining it all with my insecurities. I loved him so much my heart ached.465Please respect copyright.PENANATt6ZBEO8aj
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Several times I caught myself opening my mouth and was about to tell him those three little words but I couldn’t. I couldn’t even say “I love you” to him while he was sleeping. I was terrified.465Please respect copyright.PENANAkDlQOleFWk
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How could I explain to him how I felt all those years when I couldn’t even voice it? It was pathetic. I was pathetic.465Please respect copyright.PENANA18XqaJ3pU1
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I spend New Year’s Eve with my family and relatives and met with the twins and Damien later on to celebrate, like we did every year. Cleo was keeping her distance from Damien and me during the night. She was a little bit moody every now and then but nothing too serious; towards me at least. I never paid too much attention due to the large amount of vodka I had. But it was registered to my brain; Cleo had a problem with Damien and me being an item.465Please respect copyright.PENANARh86vH7ziE
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Two days afterwards, I was sitting in my place with Max playing cards and watching television. He was the right person to ask about the weird situation. He would say the truth no matter what.465Please respect copyright.PENANAiusMbSRZE1
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“Dude, what’s up?” he frowned and threw the cards on the table “You’re very distracted.” I took a deep breath and released it.465Please respect copyright.PENANALV23NU59ZE
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“What’s going on with Cleo?” I winced “I mean, she’s okay with me but she talks a bit weird at Damien,” I explained my question “And she’s also tensed when Damien is near me.”465Please respect copyright.PENANAdLXeHFqb7R
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“I thought she would come around by the time you would start worrying for real,” Max sighed and leaned back on the armchair.465Please respect copyright.PENANAtT28BU3Xb6
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“What do you mean?”465Please respect copyright.PENANAweqsZkVDxc
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“You should talk to her about it,” Max winced a bit, feeling uncomfortable talking about it. So something was going on! And Max knew about it.465Please respect copyright.PENANAhsDZ1cCYNf
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“Oh yeah! Like we’ve talked about Damien and I when I confessed, right?” I scoffed “She’s ignoring the whole thing! It’s like the big elephant in the room!” I exclaimed. “So tell me what the fuck is going on and I will talk to Cleo, I assure you,” I told him.465Please respect copyright.PENANAi3fwNuoZWA
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“She doesn’t talk to Damien,” Max breathed.465Please respect copyright.PENANAg0QJxxPuH3
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“What do you mean? They talk -” I frowned as the Christmas day came to my mind.465Please respect copyright.PENANAF96dCclaXO
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“She only talks to him when she has to, like when you’re present,” he said. I was stunned.465Please respect copyright.PENANA86HqM4sLVb
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“Wait,” I put my palm in the air towards him “If something irrelevant to me happened, one of them would have talk to me about it. Since no one of them did, I’m guessing it has something to do with me,” I thought out loud. Max looked at me; a sympathetic look on his face.465Please respect copyright.PENANAr47FwXtUYG
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“I think it’s best if you talk to Cleo,” he suggested.465Please respect copyright.PENANAP3Eq1l3Xxf
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“Yes,” I said and grabbed my phone. She wasn’t talking to her brother? But why? If she didn’t approve, then I guess she wouldn’t have talked to me either. Or she wouldn’t be talking to me at all!465Please respect copyright.PENANAY1aJIkafcE
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Max told me he was going to see Lexie and I knew Damien was at work, so I drove to Cleo’s house after I made sure she was home. She was waiting for me in her room. I thought it was best not to burst in there like wanting to kill someone. Therefore, when I arrived I called her, as I always did, to ask her if she wanted something to drink. I took two glasses of juice and walked up the stairs.465Please respect copyright.PENANAhbUA021xja
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“Hello,” I smiled “Here,” I told her and gave her the juice.465Please respect copyright.PENANAn9mBNwQoXy
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“Thanks,” she smiled back and took the glass “What’s up? I thought you were going to start revising your first class today,” she asked and pulled her sketches towards her to make me space to seat.465Please respect copyright.PENANA6qmosmLDmP
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“No, no leave them, I’ll seat here,” I told her and sat on her desk chair. “I was,” I replied to her question “But I wanted to ask you something first,” I said and she looked at me sipping my juice. “What happened with Damien?” I asked and she drew a line on the pad she had on her lap. “You’re not talking to him.” It wasn’t a question.465Please respect copyright.PENANAcfDCof4KRk
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“Nothing happened,” she mumbled.465Please respect copyright.PENANAsWCMBY2g9H
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“Yeah, okay!” I nodded mockingly “Cleo, it’s me, remember me? Your best friend?” I raised my eyebrows. She didn’t speak. “I’ve been ignoring the fact that you’re ignoring my relationship. I tried to give you time,” I spoke.465Please respect copyright.PENANAfXcsgCmGwY
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“Is something I have to solve with my brother,” she said, never looking at me.465Please respect copyright.PENANAJnHb46ctlS
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“It has something to do with me though and I don’t like that you two are not talking because of me,” I explained. I hoped she would tell me so we would solve this.465Please respect copyright.PENANAgHhs9QCz6Y
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“You’re his girlfriend,” she said as she changed the pencil with a color pen.465Please respect copyright.PENANAxUS8rZhG7X
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“I was your friend first,” I mumbled “I am your friend,” I frowned.465Please respect copyright.PENANA5PgmqTyID2
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“Okay then! Since you put it that way! I’ll tell you!” she said and looked at me; her tone rose up slightly. I waited. “You’ll get hurt! He’s always between relationships. Never stayed with one girl for too long!” she rumbled on. I felt dizzy.465Please respect copyright.PENANAxXyoi1Kumn
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“I know,” I whispered.465Please respect copyright.PENANAXRGLVEd7TX
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“If you know, what are you doing with him?” she asked and I breathed through my nose trying to keep the tears back. “He’s not for you!” she breathed.465Please respect copyright.PENANAFlr1htws42
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“He is not for me? Or I’m not for him?” I asked; my voice broke at the end. I didn’t want to give her time to respond to my question because I didn’t want to listen to the answer. I was afraid to. “I know I’m not enough for him,” I whispered and got up; the tears blurred my eyes “I’ll never be enough,” I shook my head and opened the door.465Please respect copyright.PENANA9kHzuWasOb
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I heard her calling my name but I didn’t stop. This is what I didn’t want. This is why I kept my feelings to myself for so long. Because I knew I wasn’t enough for him; so why really bother?465Please respect copyright.PENANA3R9QvizqY5
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I didn’t understand why she was talking to me and not to him. But it didn’t matter anymore. I didn’t want to be in the middle of them! No matter what the reason was, they were brother and sister; they should support each other.465Please respect copyright.PENANALvB6K5SbHh
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I couldn’t be in the middle. I would never be the girl that made him choose his girlfriend over his sister. Ever! I couldn’t bear to do that. She is my best friend and I love her, I would never take her brother away from her. Even if it was her choice not to talk to him; I was the reason and I hated it.465Please respect copyright.PENANAAKCjlALDFG
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I entered my house and sat in my parent’s kitchen. James had left yesterday afternoon to go back to his apartment. Maybe I could visit him, just to be away from all of this for a while. And I knew that underneath it all, the only thing that made me want to run away was that my own best friend didn’t approve me for her brother.465Please respect copyright.PENANA23sriqTXuH
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“Hey kid,” he greeted on the first ring.465Please respect copyright.PENANAgwOlEFldiO
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“Hi,” I breathed.465Please respect copyright.PENANA6Y2s0a9pPY
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“What’s wrong?”465Please respect copyright.PENANA0BjEI0Hl7d
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“Can I come over and stay for a while?” I asked.465Please respect copyright.PENANA2LBTvbxDWc
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“Of course, but what happened?” I could hear his frown.465Please respect copyright.PENANAWScqHdmvpt
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“I’ll tell you tonight,” I told him and got up to pack my things. He wasn’t staying too far away. His apartment was one and half hour away but it was too far for him to drive everyday to go to the university. I called mom to let her know that I was visiting James and she of course made me take four tuppers of food.465Please respect copyright.PENANAm0DOXRT18y
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I decided to call Damien as well; he had to know I was leaving. He didn’t believe I was fine when I told him. Reasonable since my voice had less color than a black and white film. He only asked me to wait an hour before leaving because he wanted to see me. At first I thought of saying no to him because I didn’t want him to see me like that but my ego didn’t let me decline.465Please respect copyright.PENANAIfVaY5keNX
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I really wanted to see him. An hour wouldn’t hurt.465Please respect copyright.PENANAz7M5VVZKZ5
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