I woke up at eleven in the morning, had breakfast and left for home. The drive back was easier, mostly because I was so excited to see Damien after three days.367Please respect copyright.PENANAHGnZmy9uUH
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I was planning on going home, do laundry and find Cleo. I wanted to try and talk to her one more time. We were best friends since we were babies, her opinion meant the world to me and I wanted to be clear about that; even if she haven’t contacted me at all since I left town.367Please respect copyright.PENANAqt9qJUCIp7
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As soon as I arrived I went towards my parents kitchen; not even bothering going into my garage.367Please respect copyright.PENANAIXRvWF8tvp
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“Hello,” I greeted my mom as I entered the kitchen from the back door.367Please respect copyright.PENANAhQfaHgNsNk
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“Welcome home baby,” mom replied “How are you?”367Please respect copyright.PENANAk3SBauCayO
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“Fine, you?” I smiled and left my bag on the floor.367Please respect copyright.PENANADm8uoD3856
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“Got dirty clothes?”367Please respect copyright.PENANAgDAO5qtpBB
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“Yup,” I grinned “Why aren’t you at the office?”367Please respect copyright.PENANATCniOLfqAL
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“Have to visit a client in a bit,” she explained and narrowed her eyes when she noticed I was smiling at her. “Don’t look at me like that, do laundry yourself.”367Please respect copyright.PENANA83hTNn5JdB
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“Fine,” I groaned and I retrieved my bag before walking towards her. I kissed her cheek as I passed her by and exited the kitchen. I turned right and entered the laundry room. I left the bag on the ground once again and took my mobile out of my back pocket. I dialed Damien’s number and put it on speaker phone. His phone was disconnected. I put the phone back into my pocket thinking he must be at work.367Please respect copyright.PENANAH5hwXLxNPO
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After putting all my clothes into the washing machine I sat in the kitchen with my mom until she left for work. I tried calling Damien again and like earlier his phone was disconnected. I sat into my parent’s living room to watch some television, though I should probably be into my garage and try and study.367Please respect copyright.PENANAV2a0RPZa7d
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I dialed Max’s number and put the phone on speaker. It took three rings before he picked up.367Please respect copyright.PENANAddjRhNkhCb
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“Hey,” he breathed, sounding weird.367Please respect copyright.PENANAKnaPwNF59B
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“Hello to you too,” I frowned a little bit “Are you okay?” I asked referring to his weird greeting.367Please respect copyright.PENANAP77czYeOHH
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“I’m okay, how are you?” he asked, still sounding weird.367Please respect copyright.PENANAuTYv0OOO32
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“Fine,” I replied “Where are you? I’m home!” I smiled. He didn’t reply for a moment.367Please respect copyright.PENANAQi3gLi6kSD
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“Fuck,” he mumbled “Dude, I’m gonna have to call you back,” he said; the word rushing out of his mouth.367Please respect copyright.PENANAB1dz17t72V
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“Okay, don’t be late because I’m so bored!” I replied and hung up. I wanted to call Cleo but something stopped me. So I texted her instead. “I’m back home, if you want a coffee.” I remained on that couch until three o’clock in the afternoon when Max finally called me.367Please respect copyright.PENANAJzhSj0JzAc
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“Hey, “ he breathed “Offer still stands?” he asked.367Please respect copyright.PENANAeA5Pxa2D0j
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“Of course,” I replied “Come over!”367Please respect copyright.PENANAo3BvEZKPLe
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Max turned up soon afterwards. He said Cleo was trying to finish a project that she working on since I left. She was trying to keep herself occupied as I understood.367Please respect copyright.PENANAj2CsZezM5V
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He told me she had a date with Mike two nights ago and that she looked very optimistic. It looked like Max was trying to avoid mentioning Damien, so I left it at that, doing the very same thing but not really understanding the reason.367Please respect copyright.PENANA7p396Vuw0H
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About an hour later, that I still haven’t heard from Damien, my mom returned home. I refused to cook for myself because I was cooking the whole time I was living with James, so her arrival made me extra happy.367Please respect copyright.PENANA07FlQxcXkr
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I was sitting with Max in the kitchen sofa playing cards until the food was ready. Thankfully mom had prepared the meat and now I only had to wait half an hour until it was grilled. At some point I heard mom talking on the phone, telling someone to bring a soda for us. A while later Evita, the twin’s mother, walked through the kitchen door.367Please respect copyright.PENANAdFFq5tdclw
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“Hello guys,” she greeted us “Welcome Erica.”367Please respect copyright.PENANAMMExbHF2EN
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“Hello Aunt,” I smiled and got up to take the soda that she put on the kitchen counter. “How are you?” I smiled.367Please respect copyright.PENANA13H2Za3TvZ
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“Here,” my mom said at the same time and left some money on the counter.367Please respect copyright.PENANAJrsV3DQnsM
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“Don’t even think about it,” Evita replied to her. “I’m still trying to digest the fact that my baby left again,” she sighed.367Please respect copyright.PENANAXBcBOalspv
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“Which baby left?” I frowned with a half smile as I walked towards the cupboard with the glasses. Max was here. Cleo was at home. That only left one person that could leave…367Please respect copyright.PENANAI2mz7Ort8N
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“Damien,” and a deep sigh escaped her chest the same time the realization hit me. My heart fell. I blinked; staring at the shelves. My chest started going up and down quickly as my heartbeat increased. I swallowed the lump in my throat and took one glass in my hands.367Please respect copyright.PENANAe620EgYfzX
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“Wasn’t he supposed to leave in two weeks?” I asked trying to sound as casual as possible. I took another glass out of the cupboard and opened up the soda bottle.367Please respect copyright.PENANAKJFxR8fTL1
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“Yeah,” Evita said “But he said he got a call this morning at work from some friends and he’s meeting them in Rome before going in Tuscany,” she explained. I felt a strong pain in my chest as I tried to keep the tears back.367Please respect copyright.PENANASAmRlLWwot
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“That’s nice,” I noted and put the soda into the fridge; never turning my head towards Evita or my mom. I wanted to keep my expression hidden because I didn’t even know how I looked like.367Please respect copyright.PENANArl7EO72TyN
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“You kids should go and visit, using those tickets he got you for your birthday,” she suggested as I was walking towards Max.367Please respect copyright.PENANAsAokTeY1ng
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“Maybe after their exams,” my mom spoke. I put the soda on the table in front of Max, never looking at him.367Please respect copyright.PENANA73oOqMtLsb
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“Yeah, after the exams,” I replied and sat down with my back towards the kitchen. I didn’t care if Max saw me crying, but I didn’t want Evita to see me. I took a deep breath and focused on my cards.367Please respect copyright.PENANA15VZCo2cMN
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“Your turn,” I said to Max. He didn’t move for a moment.367Please respect copyright.PENANAkih03DeoHI
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“Yeah,” he breathed after a while and put a card down. I sipped my soda and took a deep breath. I couldn’t stop staring at my phone. We haven’t even finished the game when I grabbed it from the table and dialed Damien’s number.367Please respect copyright.PENANAzi2RVx5YLn
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Nothing. His phone was disconnected. My breathing started to increase and I leaned forward, touching my elbows on my knees, as I tried to calm myself down. “Why would he leave like that? Things were fine last night” I was thinking over and over again.367Please respect copyright.PENANAXsAIkeynFa
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My mom approached us then, holding two plates with grilled chicken and left them on the table. I thanked her, not really talking, and pulled the plate in front of me.367Please respect copyright.PENANAV93UVXkdOy
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Max closed the door behind us as we walked into the renovated garage. I took small steps towards the bed and sat down; my chest aching.367Please respect copyright.PENANAwPtg28QMeG
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“Did he…” I breathed “Did he really left?” I frowned looking at Max for the first time.367Please respect copyright.PENANAYSR20oPNdH
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“Fuck,” he mumbled and leaned against the door “You didn’t know. He said everything’s okay,” Max frowned.367Please respect copyright.PENANAURcNcQ6zoS
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“When did he say that?” I asked; my voice fainted.367Please respect copyright.PENANAhiJy4dtZMj
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“He woke me up this morning,” Max breathed and took a step from the door “And said he’s leaving. I asked where he’s going because I got confused because I knew he went into the office this morning and he said that he got a call from a friend and that he’s meeting his old buddies in Rome before going up to Tuscany,” Max explained like he knew I needed to hear the story one more time.367Please respect copyright.PENANAJ24agQo8tz
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He walked towards me as he spoke again “I followed him to the door and I asked if you knew about this,” he said and finally sat down beside me. I swallowed. “He said “everything’s okay kid”, hugged me, hugged Cleo and left,” he breathed.367Please respect copyright.PENANAi7hJRK2bGH
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I couldn’t speak. Everything was fine last night. He was excited that I was finally coming back home. What could possibly change overnight? Or if nothing changed, and everything was okay why he left without calling or texting? Or at least answering his phone?367Please respect copyright.PENANAG9nHiLJD9x
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“I…” I stuttered “We spoke last night…” I breathed. “I don’t understand,” I whispered and pulled back on the bed, pulling my legs against my chest. Max turned towards me and put his hand on my ankle; stroking my skin with his thumb.367Please respect copyright.PENANA07WVUIQSMG
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“I’ll talk to him. He’ll call sooner or later,” he said.367Please respect copyright.PENANAreg4Ulddb7
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“No, no,” I rapidly shook my head.367Please respect copyright.PENANAWzU3tH7DNM
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“Why not?” Max frowned.367Please respect copyright.PENANACq60bAUXBI
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“Don’t get involved please,” I shook my head again but slowly this time.367Please respect copyright.PENANAlGnLpgj3uy
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“I wanna know too,” he blinked.367Please respect copyright.PENANAl03U7yUMRL
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“Please don’t. For the past two months I’ve been trying to keep this casual, like I wasn’t dating your brother. You getting involved will cancel all that out,” I explained.367Please respect copyright.PENANA1MOq2AeVRk
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The truth was that I was afraid. I didn’t want him to feel pressure about anything. If his brother got involved he would probably feel pressured and that would pushed him further away from me. If it was possible to be further apart.367Please respect copyright.PENANAY3b3Ekx18d
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I should have left. I should have taken the chance to go away for university. Then none of this would have happened. Even if I have taken up on Alex’s offer. I wouldn’t have stayed and Alex wouldn’t have broken my heart and most importantly I wouldn’t be around to fall in love with Damien once again.367Please respect copyright.PENANAWRDzxjMX06
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It hurt so badly. What I was feeling now was nothing compared to how I felt when Alex cheated or when we broke up. My heart was shuttered into a million little pieces inside my chest and everytime I had a thought of him it was like those little pieces cut through my flesh; burning my insides and killing me even more in the process.367Please respect copyright.PENANA3syQHa2rPa
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I even made my mother cry when she came to check on me that day. And it hurt more. I was avoiding the mirrors because I didn’t want to see how I looked like. The way I felt was enough.367Please respect copyright.PENANAveoqjQYHk4
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There were moments that I couldn’t understand why he would leave like this. Moments that I was going insane, running our last conversations over and over and over again into my mind trying to find what went wrong. And I would pick up the phone and dial his number.367Please respect copyright.PENANAqZJdQECnOh
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He never answered; even if the phone was now working, two days after he left. And why would he? We didn’t belong together. I wasn’t enough. Why would he stay with me? It was a miracle we even had those two months together. I should be happy I had those two months. I should be happy I got to taste his bittersweet lips, stare into his mesmerizing grey eyes. Deep down I was glad I never got to tell him how I really felt because he would probably laugh.367Please respect copyright.PENANAPbx2LImylF
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But what about all those times he held me into his arms and stared into my eyes? The times when he wanted me to say I was his. Why would he do that if he never cared? Or when he assured me that he would never cheat on me. Why would he do that? He knew I hated big words. He knew I hated promises and yet he would say those things.367Please respect copyright.PENANAuYTldYcuDv
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Every time the phone rang my heart fluttered. But it was never him and the soft pain in my chest returned again. Max was calling regularly to check on me; trying to get me out of the house. Cleo had texted me, asking if I was okay but I wasn’t ready for her or the outside world yet.367Please respect copyright.PENANAFCNfrIJIQN
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Only the third day I got up from the bed and opened my laptop, trying to slowly have a connection with the outside world. Yesterday and the day before that my mother came home from work to cook and bring me food; that only made me feel more pathetic but I never argued.367Please respect copyright.PENANAon6tTcO6ek
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After I was done eating and I was ready to sit on the couch and ignore the world around me, including my examinations, my phone rang. My heart fluttered but fell when I saw that it wasn’t him. It was Alex. I had completely forgotten about him.367Please respect copyright.PENANAI9VueCBYO2
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“Hello,” I answered; my voice completely lifeless.367Please respect copyright.PENANA3USS3XnEtF
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“Hello,” he said slowly and I could hear the frown on his features “Are you okay?” he asked, sounding anxious. I breathed sharply.367Please respect copyright.PENANAF8Kvby6VI1
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“Yes,” I lied automatically.367Please respect copyright.PENANAUGvicZ7uXr
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“I thought that by now you’d know better than to lie to me, love,” he said softly.367Please respect copyright.PENANAe4VjrR05f0
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“I’m not in the mood Alex,” I replied; the impatience coloring my voice.367Please respect copyright.PENANAVjUFUpqWQi
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“I’m coming to pick you up,” he said but by the time I refused he had already hung up the phone.367Please respect copyright.PENANALz0vXm7waD
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He arrived sooner than expected; right when I was done getting ready. Not that I made an effort. I just put on a pair of jeans and a simple black top. Thankfully it was daytime and I could hide my red puffy eyes under my black sunglasses.367Please respect copyright.PENANAxoQEQkZ20H
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I greeted him heartlessly as I sat beside him in the black Aston Martin. He breathed a greeting back and never spoke again until we were at the mansion.367Please respect copyright.PENANAwimLwoj9Pq
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“When did you arrived?” I asked as we got out of the car.367Please respect copyright.PENANAyx5YPpsvaZ
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“This morning,” he replied as he walked beside me towards the double doors of the entrance. “How did you know?” he smiled.367Please respect copyright.PENANA0n0Gxf8dOq
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“You came too fast,” I made an attempt to smile but failed. Smiling felt strange. He looked at me for a moment and then turned around, opening the door and walked inside.367Please respect copyright.PENANAaUmDflhEuu
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I never thought that I could talk to Alex so freely about what I felt. Maybe it was because when we were together it was the only thing I never wanted to do. But I didn’t care anymore. I knew he wouldn’t judge me for having feelings for Damien.367Please respect copyright.PENANAlTCinIDcRv
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When, at some point, I burst into tears he pulled me into his arms and held me there. And as he kept me I realized that maybe I shouldn’t have talk to him at all. Three days ago our positions were reversed, maybe it was selfish talking to him; after all he had his own problems to deal with. I pulled back and wiped the tears from my eyes.367Please respect copyright.PENANASF2U5Ju6cQ
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“Are you okay?” he asked softly.367Please respect copyright.PENANANdT961l3cU
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“I’m better, thank you,” I swallowed and pushed my fist against my chest, trying to ease the pain. “How are you?” I looked at him, trying to keep my mind occupied. I saw him looking at my hand that was against my chest before looking at my eyes.367Please respect copyright.PENANATNFEdSKmRD
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“I’m better too,” he smiled.367Please respect copyright.PENANAXFigGoHMCQ
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“Have you gone to the cemetery?” I asked. He turned forward and looked at the floor, brushing his face with his fingers.367Please respect copyright.PENANAiOo9Bntu4l
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“No.”367Please respect copyright.PENANAEvvWEYn5On
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“We’re gonna go together,” I told him “I’ll be there with you,” I assured him. He breathed and nodded. “What about your father? Have you talked to him?”367Please respect copyright.PENANAe8G6GvM9H6
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“No,” he said his expression hardening “My father and I don’t talk.”367Please respect copyright.PENANAVaSzf1qLOc
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“Well, he’ll notice when you’re better and everything will be okay,” I told him and took his hand in mine. He turned towards me and looked at me; his brown eyes liquid.367Please respect copyright.PENANAv9BcS6yJ6F
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“I admire you for being able to do that,” he mumbled.367Please respect copyright.PENANAZDVJLEFhhA
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“Do what?” I blinked.367Please respect copyright.PENANATBE2bB6RvM
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“Be so strong.”367Please respect copyright.PENANAUO4fPIHIlM
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“There’s no strength left in me,” I whispered, shaking my head lightly and looked at the floor.367Please respect copyright.PENANABEVcRvAdpI
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“Hey,” he said and searched for my eyes. I turned to look at him before he spoke again. “You’ll get over this,” he said sounding confident.367Please respect copyright.PENANAqdoXYNAytX
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“I can’t,” I winced and my tears betrayed me once again. I turned my head away from him and tried to wipe the tears away.367Please respect copyright.PENANAZ8dTuxbYhI
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“Come here,” I heard him saying right before he pulled me to his arms again. He put his palm against the side of my head as my cheek was laying against his collar bone. “Calm down,” he whispered and a déjà vu hit me; Damien holding me as I was crying over Alex. I pulled away abruptly from him as my breathing fastened and the pain in my chest hardened.367Please respect copyright.PENANAL8UzqfMX48
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“I’m sorry,” I breathed. Alex looked at me shocked.367Please respect copyright.PENANARw8iGGFFat
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“What?” he asked confused “About what?” he frowned and I got up.367Please respect copyright.PENANAvRpwx96ehO
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“It’s my fault. Everything’s my fault,” I mumbled as the air filled my lungs quickly; my chest going up and down rapidly. “Four months ago he was the one holding me,” I begun talking quickly and started hyperventilating “As I was crying over you. Now it’s happening again but in reverse. It’s me. I keep doing this,” I rambled, tears oozing from eyes.367Please respect copyright.PENANAy5BgsW8H04
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I was doing this. Alex was never the right guy for me and maybe neither was Damien. Maybe that’s why it hurt so bad, because I wanted him to be that guy so bad. My chest was going up and down quickly and aching. I didn’t noticed Alex moving, until he was standing in front of me.367Please respect copyright.PENANABCTfjjNgDi
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“Erica, calm down,” he said, putting his palms against my cheeks and looking at me. I bit my bottom lip trying to calm down with no success. Everything was great before he kissed me that day in the swimming pool for the first time. Why would he do that? I was fine before. I was fine just imagining that kiss, imagining him looking into my eyes with care. I was fine before.367Please respect copyright.PENANAXBLp3kiNWt
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But I was glad I lived it. Grateful that I was free to caress his beautiful face and that I saw the way he looked and smelled after sex. I was thankful even if now my insides were aching and burning like a demon’s flesh that’s being touched by holy water. I breathed out a whimper and put my palm against the center of my chest.367Please respect copyright.PENANAQKDv78ClAC
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“It’s the same thing isn’t?” he asked; looking at me. I just stared at him. “Let’s go,” he said and grabbed my hand.367Please respect copyright.PENANAIaRCXBio4s
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“Where?” I asked breathlessly.367Please respect copyright.PENANARZOAZjSdj2
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“To the hospital,” he said; his voice colored with his intimidating tone.367Please respect copyright.PENANA75JvYT4QR2
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The ride towards the hospital helped a little bit, mostly because Alex had my window wide open. If I cared the slightest about myself at that point, I would be worried about getting pneumonia.367Please respect copyright.PENANArsYlhXJnnQ
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At some point I heard him talking on the phone to one or two people but I didn’t pay attention. I was just glad that he didn’t know the twins or my parent’s number. Or at least I hoped he didn’t. I was too lost in my trance to worry about that. My mind was spinning and I had lain back enjoying the ride.367Please respect copyright.PENANAFqUBE1Zlad
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Only when we walked into the Emergency Room I became aware of what was really happening. The pain in my chest wasn’t so bad anymore but I still felt something. Maybe it was my heart that was ripped out.367Please respect copyright.PENANAZzXZIsFNQ5
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I guessed that the phone calls that Alex made as he drove me to the hospital were to a doctor because we didn’t have to wait at all. A doctor led the way towards one of the beds and told me to sit down. When he asked how I felt I was very tempted to say that it felt like I was hit by a truck but I thought it would be better to avoid my bitter humor.367Please respect copyright.PENANA1ZGHMAldRe
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“Does it still hurt?” he asked as he took my pressure. Alex was standing on the end of the bed, his one arm against his chest and the other over it as his fingers were tracing his mouth; the whole time staring at me.367Please respect copyright.PENANApEbUJTJ7zV
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“No,” I replied “But it tickles,” I frowned not sure if that was the right word to describe the feeling.367Please respect copyright.PENANAylOr6nehig
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“Mr. White, can you please pull the curtains close?” he asked Alex and then turned towards me. “Lift your shirt please, I need to listen to your heart,” he told me. I nodded not even thinking that Alex was there.367Please respect copyright.PENANAYyAGEHiXGh
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“Do you want me to …” Alex told me, pointing outside. I shook my head politely. It wasn’t like he would see anything he hasn’t seen before. That thought brought a scoff to my lips that I chocked as the doctor place the stethoscope to my chest and then my heart rate increased again.367Please respect copyright.PENANAKHwoZmqaL1
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“Take another deep breath please,” he told me and I noticed a light frown. My sight blurred for a moment but then I controlled myself and did what the doctor asked. “Okay, turn around,” he asked and I turned towards Alex; my top still upwards. I blinked to control the tears and gave a weak smile to Alex. “Okay,” the doctor exhaled and removed the stethoscope. I pulled down my top and turned towards him again.367Please respect copyright.PENANApeaPJeixuU
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“You just had an anxiety attack,” he looked at me.367Please respect copyright.PENANALzSYDTC9UU
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“But I’m not anxious about anything,” I frowned. I didn’t give damn about my classes at this point.367Please respect copyright.PENANA5ceQo5DPIw
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“From your symptoms, pounding heart, shortness of breath, hyperventilation and insomnia I can come up with one answer and that is anxiety attack,” he begun. “But I can say that grieving can also be a cause. Grieving is a powerful emotion that can have physical effects on our autonomic system and can even cause arrhythmias or bursting of weakened blood vessels,” the doctor explained. I wasn’t surprised he thought of “grief”; my red eyes were one of my symptoms.367Please respect copyright.PENANAAG13TR5dyC
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“Oh,” was all I managed to say. “What can I do?” I asked.367Please respect copyright.PENANAngXOMMbIbF
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“Because this have happened again in the past, I’m going to prescribe something to just calm you down,” he said.367Please respect copyright.PENANAaCiLyWmA0E
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“Anti-depression drugs?” Alex asked.367Please respect copyright.PENANA9iH3Th834J
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“What?” I frowned “No,” I turned towards the doctor as I realized what drugs he meant. “I have my exams to study for,”367Please respect copyright.PENANAOZRC73mCr7
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“Alright, take one before you go to sleep for two nights in the row. It will help you sleep and rest. Then take them if you start having any symptoms again, okay?” the doctor smiled and wrote something on a paper and left it. “Though I don’t think it will happen again soon.”367Please respect copyright.PENANAkLRlFLCUCs
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“Thank you Dr. Wallace,” Alex said as I nodded. The doctor smiled at him and shook his hand before leaving us alone. I exhaled deeply and got up from the bed. Alex walked next to me, his hand on the back of my waist as we exited the hospital.367Please respect copyright.PENANAxNteE4wWzR
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“That was interesting,” I smiled as approached the car. “Many people have been dumped before but how many were they diagnosed?” I laughed.367Please respect copyright.PENANAjz8ZXOUbKS
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“I need to know that you’ll be okay,” Alex told me as he sat opened the passengers door for me.367Please respect copyright.PENANAWTCGF6UtAy
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“I’ll try,” I mumbled.367Please respect copyright.PENANAqzhwkW6N1G
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The next two days I did sleep well thanks to the drugs the doctor gave me but the third night was as the same as the first night I learned Damien left. I tossed and turned, curling up into a ball. I tried to avoid taking a pill again because I’ve heard that you can get addicted to anti-depressing’s.367Please respect copyright.PENANA34U70rnHwz
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I wanted to hear his voice so bad; to hear that everything was okay. And I made the mistake to pick up my phone and call him; because this time he picked up. My heart almost exploded.367Please respect copyright.PENANABPW8eB4hvN
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“What?” he asked so abruptly that made my heart shutter into a million pieces.367Please respect copyright.PENANAOgQ2WRQ9rU
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“Hi,” I breathed.367Please respect copyright.PENANALydrlpMP9W
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“What the hell Erica?” he asked. I never thought it would hurt this bad to hear him calling my name “It’s four o’clock in the morning!” he replied; his tone cold and distant.367Please respect copyright.PENANAfl1L54fftJ
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“I’m sorry,” I whispered “I just needed to hear your voice,” I swallowed hard.367Please respect copyright.PENANAYiThwiUNjg
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“So what?”he breathed out. He sounded like he was struggling too but it still hurt so badly. Tears filled my eyes and I hung up the phone before throwing it at the end of the bed. I wasn’t ready for this. I fell against my pillow, covering my face and smothered the sound of my sobs.367Please respect copyright.PENANA2POWi7QP0y
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And that’s when it happened again; the pounding pain returned to my chest. I sat up trying to calm down and looked at my phone, thought of calling Alex but I didn’t want to wake him up. So I stood up and walked into the shower. But again, tears came out of nowhere. I couldn’t calm myself down. I wrapped my towel around my body, between sobs, and walked into the room again.367Please respect copyright.PENANARx99pcbs1U
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“Yes?” Alex answered his phone sleepily.367Please respect copyright.PENANAqgouCmtW0d
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“I’m sorry,” I said softly “I…” I trailed. And that’s when Alex must have realized it was me on the phone.367Please respect copyright.PENANAH7kmCssHdj
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“Are you okay?” he asked anxiously.367Please respect copyright.PENANASVQkFrbd2W
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“I don’t know,” I whispered but my breathing was still quick.367Please respect copyright.PENANACNbshPvdgH
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“It happened again?”367Please respect copyright.PENANAVHJNlTazdC
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“Yes,” I breathed.367Please respect copyright.PENANAo2IO1ZRNcA
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“Get dressed.” He said and hung up the phone; not even giving me the chance to argue with him.367Please respect copyright.PENANA4PLe64hpva
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This time the doctor that examined me thought it was best to keep me in. He said that it was suspicious for a girl my age to get those episodes so regularly. I tried to delay notifying my mother as much as possible as I didn’t want to scare her. I was lying in a bed, with stickers against my chest and my heart beat was beeping through a machine for the entire room to hear.367Please respect copyright.PENANAO7oA6Y1opQ
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“You need to call your mother,” Alex said from the foot of the bed. I studied him for a moment and noticed that I never saw him dressed so casual and I frowned.367Please respect copyright.PENANA483mKm2oC9
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“You’re not wearing a button up shirt,” I stated. He chuckled and shook his head.367Please respect copyright.PENANAnDSavHacFY
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“Yeah, sorry,” he smiled “I didn’t have time for a formal outfit,” he mocked.367Please respect copyright.PENANAdJRBj9zKqG
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“Thank you for coming,” I smiled at him. He looked at me for a moment and then sat down at the end of the bed; exhaling deeply.367Please respect copyright.PENANAawVW4m33uc
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“Three days ago, when you’re having that episode, you said something,” he begun “You said that you keep doing this to yourself,” he said. I felt uncomfortable and the beeping sound on the machine picked up. He looked at the machine for a second and then took my hand in his. I swallowed waiting to hear what he would say next. “You didn’t do anything wrong. I was just at the wrong place at the wrong time,” he sighed.367Please respect copyright.PENANA5my1YcNLBK
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“What? You’ve lost me,” I frowned.367Please respect copyright.PENANA702fn0vjhv
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“If we haven’t met that night, you wouldn’t be in here now,” he explained but I was still lost.367Please respect copyright.PENANAkgB0WnpFnd
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“Alex, what are you talking about?”367Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3GEazfeDT
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“I’ve been thinking about this since that night at the club you had the first episode,” he explained and that’s when I realized what he was talking about. That night when we were out together after the second time we got together. I couldn’t breathe inside the club and accidentally told him this was happening often since he left.367Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0OCh9lHAC
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“Oh my God,” I frowned “This isn’t your fault,” I breathed and tried to sit up.367Please respect copyright.PENANAl9ZA3tMfbA
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“Stay down,” he said and stopped me from getting up “This is my fault. I damaged you so badly and he…” he trailed. The thought of Damien brought a sharp pain into my chest that made me ignore what he said.367Please respect copyright.PENANAo4V3Tn1xz6
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“He broke me,” I smiled a humorless smile; the machine giving me in. Alex looked towards it and stood up.367Please respect copyright.PENANAynqeR7EJVV
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“Damn it, I shouldn’t have brought this up now,” he frowned. “Here,” he said and gave me my phone “Call your mother. It’s seven a.m.”367Please respect copyright.PENANArAdueFYv0s
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I looked at him and sighed. It was best to hear it from me that I was in the hospital; to see that it wasn’t anything serious. Or at least I hoped it wasn’t.367Please respect copyright.PENANAtTi60BzZMt
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