I couldn’t listen to my professor any longer. My mind was running away from class. 627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjRSd9HCFY
More specifically, it was running towards Italy and the old Villa that Damien is reconstructing for the last two months. I bid my lower lip and tried to focus on the words that were coming out of my professor’s lips.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTE5EinmY1
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But I wasn’t able to succeed. I could see his lips moving but no sound reached my ears. I was wondering what would happen if I tried calling him. For a reason, I couldn’t even lift my hand up and touch the phone. I was so scared that the pain would return that my body was immobilized.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5shsoecjcO
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I was comfortably numb. And planned to keep it that way.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKo1hJNDbww
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If Damien wanted me out of his life, I could live with that. I knew it would happen sooner or later anyway. I knew that no guy would ever catch up to him in my head; or in my heart. But I would try to feel human again.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqSSMV25xF
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A loud knock on my door startled me as I was leaning over a ground plan that was starting to get on my nerves. I walked towards the stereo first to turn the volume down before making my way towards the door.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnCg05WIs2
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Behind the door was Cleo; looking slightly bored. I took a step back and let her come inside. She had come with the most absurd idea ever. She wanted us to take a trip. To Italy.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjTb0Ixjay
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“Seriously?” I questioned astonished.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0EBJkhUKs
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“Yeah, you have the tickets. They’re going to expire!” she said and sat down on the couch. I was still standing where I was; staring at her.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfApJmcl9P
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“He is in Italy,” I said, trying to make her realize what she was asking me to do.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaUtMg2cRTd
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“He’s not all over Italy,” she narrowed her eyes at me “It will be fun. We need vocation.”627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLf8cYhsKD
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I didn’t reply. I closed my mouth, as I realized it was hanging open the whole time, and sat at the nearest chair.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QC0IRRcNq
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“We don’t have to visit him,” she said softly. I’ve always wanted to visit Tuscany but the idea of being in the same area as him terrified me. And thrilled me at the same time.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaY4D7UcNPe
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“Promise?” I asked.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDc3rYCFBqR
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“Yeah,” she smiled “I can always see him some other time,” she explained. “You don’t have to worry about that.”627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb97T4XFkqU
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I took her word for it.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUQyZccMOLk
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A week later, I was sitting in an airplane towards Firenze; a city in Tuscany, just one and half hour away from Siena by train. Siena, the city that Damien was. It mortified me that I was so close to him.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTkrvox5DN
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I desperately wanted to see him. But I was so afraid. I was even afraid to talk about it to Cleo, fearing that she might do something stupid. I did wax my legs and got all my nice underwear with me though. Just in case. I told myself that the waxing would have happen anyway, but I was obeying Cleo’s orders about the lingerie. I secretly wanted to be prepared for anything. I wanted to be prepared for him. But I wouldn’t dare admit it.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7ltoLPWvp
I believe that is Break Up Rule No. 2 as said by Carrie Bradshaw “Lie. It is a lot easier than admitting the truth”.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnj23qq8dV
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Thankfully, the mind blowing landscape and my enthusiastic friends took my mind off of him. Of course during the day it was amazing. My head couldn’t stop turning and my eyes couldn’t take in enough details of the amazing city.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ76vaMR581
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The nights, however, were almost a torture. Italy is a very romantic country. And in the back of my head there was always a picture of Damien and me in Tuscany. Even though there wasn’t a possibility now that that would happen, the picture still existed. Just to make my life miserable.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshSmu9d3dt
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“I have a question,” Cleo asked as we were seated on the ground at Piazza Del Campo, sipping our aperol spritz. Her voice lower so that the happy couple, Max and Lexie, wouldn’t hear.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3SUbKEjhH
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“Shoot.”627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BADymh3Gn
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“If you knew why he left, would you call him?” she asked and made me turn my head. She knew I couldn’t call him. So why was she asking me that?627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyt2EmgknG
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“Depends,” I replied softly. She understood that I meant that everything was about the reason he left. One of the many things I loved about my relationship with Cleo was that I didn’t have to say much. And vice versa. We totally understood each other.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDYA01UFTc
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Cleo opened her handbag and pulled out something. As she unfolded it, I noticed that it was a piece of paper. Max and Lexie had turned their attention towards us. Cleo handed me the now unfolded paper. A ripped front page of a gossip magazine.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TBLOQPqDJ
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I exhaled deeply as I saw Alex and me on it. It was the day I met him in the City; the night before I returned home. It was the moment we were hugging. There were also smaller pictures; one at the beach again hugging and another one by the car, his hand against my cheek. He was hugging me to thank me. My eyes snapped back at Cleo for a moment.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVCp0WDuQ1
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“I found it in his desk, at his office,” she explained. I didn’t ask why she was searching his desk in the first place.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3pSGA11gi
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I parted my lips to say something as I released that this is what made Damien leave. But did it matter? For him it didn’t apparently. I closed the paper into my fist and threw it in my bag.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiJ7EGq6wQ
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“You don’t want to call him?” Cleo frowned.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJoNBSzFuv
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“What is it?” Max asked and I noticed with the corner of my eye, Lexie shoving her elbow right on his ribs. Max frowned and closed his mouth. I took the paper from my bag and gave it to Max.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fcDPlDBO6
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“No,” I exhaled “If he cared for an explanation, he would have stayed.” Obviously, this wasn’t the reason, it was just an excuse. They never mentioned it again and I was happy with that.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSW5wbMNGQQ
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We had two nights left and we decided to visit a Pub that was two blocks down from our hotel. I could feel Cleo eyeing me as I was getting ready. She made me feel nervous.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTiEdax5fEZ
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I wore my black skinny jeans, a long black top, my black high heel boots and several accessories. I put on my make-up, eye liner and red lipstick and turned towards Cleo that was also completely dressed in colors now too.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7O6DqEQYGz
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“Okay?” I raised my eyebrows to get her approval.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCOIZMuADq
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“Sure,” she nodded “Though you look like a frigging vampire!” I narrowed my eyes at her.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDzXk9W6YJ
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“Do you want me to slap you?” I threatened.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaY3zVBNvJz
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“Bring it on bitch!” she said before she laughed. “You’re gorgeous,” she smiled and I smirked.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcGk1OEIkl
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Break up rule No. 5:“No matter who broke your heart, or for how long it takes to heal; you will never get through it without your girlfriends.”. Fact.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSGdjVBoDFw
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We were having such a wonderful time, drinking and dancing. Max and Lexie were occupied with each other, so Cleo and I danced alone. I took the last sip of my second beer and left it on the bar counter, asking for a third one.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhveYfyxtfE
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“Bathroom,” I mouth to Cleo as the barman place the new beer in front of me. She nodded and I walked away from them.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTyInVfpU4
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Ten minutes later I walked out of the bathroom and made my way through the crowd to find my friends. But they weren’t alone.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6zI4xDePj
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Break up rule No. 4: “Never stop thinking about him for a moment because when you do that is when he will appear.”627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBSp0JVLS37
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I could recognize his figure anywhere, anytime. My heart accelerated. I only noticed that his hair were longer because he had them wrapped in a small ban. I think my heart left my chest and collided on his back. I stood there and inhaled. I was certain my heart hit him because a moment later he turned around. And another moment later, our eyes met.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaGcHPOWj1
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I parted my lips in order to breath. He was unbelievable beautiful. He was unshaved and had grown a mustage. I think I could see a small line of hair underneath his bottom lip but I wasn’t sure. For a split of second he reminded me of a musketeer.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKa1idHKQRH
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I averted my eyes, narrowing them at the same time. Should I walk over to them and pretend that everything is okay? Or should I run for the exit?627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCr1UHBUvm
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I saw a guilty smile on Cleo’s face. I narrowed my eyes even more. I couldn’t stay here and act like nothing has happened. I grabbed my phone from my bag and as I walked towards the exit I typed a massage towards her. “Be ready to scream pain in every language that was ever spoken on planet earth! And you’re paying for the drinks!”627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQZm31ogOZ
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I pushed open the bar door and walked outside. Some men that were outside smoking started whistle as I stood there trying to catch my breath. I walked passed them, trying to ignore them.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAA9GP6voo
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“Wait,” I heard him calling. I didn’t stop but he caught up to me. “I said wait,” he told me “It’s dangerous to walk alone in the middle of the night,” his voice became softer. I never looked at him.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPAMtzBePe
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“Whatever,” I mumbled as I kept walking; my hands inside my black leather jacket clutching my mobile.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKK6QZ1t8Vt
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My heart was running; unlike my feet. I couldn’t calm down as I felt him so close to me. When we finally reached my hotel, I thought he was going to leave. But he followed me in the lobby.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl57oOZQBE3
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“Thank you. Goodnight,” I mumbled and took a step away.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PuG7Pscfq
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“That’s it?” he asked and made me stop. I turned around and for the second time tonight my eyes lied on him. My heart ached. He was even more gorgeous in the light of the hotel lobby.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0pZezXxsS
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“What else do you want?” I asked. I wanted run to my room and cry.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLo6aOWsZcj
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“I thought you would at least talk to me,” he said. I couldn’t understand the emotion behind his voice.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkI5WGj3Ud
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“I don’t have anything to say,” I replied softly “Nothing that you’re interested to hear anyway,” I mumbled. I looked at his grey eyes, butterflies attacking my body, and shook my head lightly. “Goodnight.”627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IlEKD4nln
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“Will you stop saying goodnight?” he asked, frowning; frustration in his voice.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnu6f2WYTWk
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“Dear Lord,” I exhaled impatient. The torture just wouldn’t stop. “I swear to God, as from tomorrow, you do not have a sister,” I said in a hollow voice. She would pay for calling Damien and making him appear after two and half months in front of me, willing to hear me.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxQhP6rnhc
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“Let’s go upstairs and talk,” he offered as if it was his hotel room. I turned around and started walking, without saying a word. Damien followed. Why was he here?627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3bAHzAsmV
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I felt like crying. I felt like punching someone in the face. I felt like crawling in a u-shape. I felt like screaming.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpnE31gfru
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I opened the door and walked inside. The room was a mess but I couldn’t care less. Not even if our bras were lying on the bed in plain sight. I threw my leather jacket somewhere on the pile of clothes.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWlX09M4rJ
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“Let’s get it over with,” I mumbled as I grabbed a bottle of water from the table.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAh3DnvAsvF
“I suppose Cleo called,” I raised my eyebrows and had a sip of water.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQd2yxLP00H
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“Yes she did,” Damien confirmed. “She also called three weeks ago and demanded to know what happened. When I didn’t say, I suppose she went through my stuff,” he winced. I bid my lip. “Because she called today and said we needed to talk,” he said and walked towards the balcony, retrieving his cigarettes from his pocket.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDzFr33pbI
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“Oh! You needed your sister to tell you that?” I asked breathing through my nose aggravated as he walked outside the room. “You’re a grown man and you need your baby sister to tell you that you need to explain to your -now- ex girlfriend why the hell you left, huh?” I scoffed, as he lid up a cigarette “I thought you were more mature than that!”627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsazNWNHoJk
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“Explain what, Erica?” he said, trying to keep his voice down “I saw my girlfriend hugging her ex in the front page of a magazine!” he frowned; throwing his hands in the air.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2P6UWssSC
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“I texted you that night! I told you I had some news to tell you. He was in a terrible shape,” I tried to explain.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zfXhnMJ0y
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“He’s your ex boyfriend! Who cheated on you twice!!” he said now not even bothering to keep his voice down.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYJ54hfzff
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“He started using drugs! And keep your voice down!” I said as he breathed in from his cigarette.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4c9HcsilH
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“And who are you? Mother Teresa?” he mocked.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqnmFXiZHe
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“I just run into him. He has no one else,” I said “You didn’t even bother to let me explain,” I said, my voice defeated and low.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFhYUQYR7Q
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“What was there to explain?” he said his voice low this time “I was walking to the office and saw the damn paper. How do you think that made me feel?”627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kJejnUjc1
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“Oh, because leaving without a word was such a smooth move huh?” I asked aggravated. “I really don’t have the energy to fight over something that happened almost three months ago,” I sighed.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4STfnBjDoJ
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“You never got over him did you?” he asked. I saw his liquid eyes glowing in the middle of the night as I stare at him confused.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQ5Ul8OTca
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“What?” I frowned.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCa3OiHgPSa
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“We started seeing each other just as you left him again. There was no time for you to get over him,” he explained. I stared at him in a pained expression. He had no idea.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfbDCL9Sxy
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“You weren’t just a rebound guy,” I shook my head lightly.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1qipnql7r
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“That’s what it felt like,” he replied.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTT4pwbzty
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“I asked you to be patient with me,” I mumbled and leaned against the balcony doorframe. “But you left, didn’t even bother to talk to me first or even answering your phone,” I whispered now as I tried not to burst into tears.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8fcJyzGxv
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He didn’t say anything. He put his cigarette in the ashtray that was on the balcony table. I sighed softly and went inside the room. I pushed some clothes out of the way and sat on the foot of the bed.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4UuyaqGAS
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“It hurt watching you crying over him. Again and again,” his voice came from the balcony doorframe where I stood earlier. “He tore you up and you took him back again. I felt betrayed when I saw the pictures on that magazine,” he confessed.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwcTad4rgN
“And he had the nerve to call me,” he scoffed.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPW75CZZsX
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“What?” I frowned and turned to look at him.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6WTPR8rvO
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“He called me about a month ago,” he replied. I was admitted to the hospital a month ago. I narrowed my eyes.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEVL0P9Wo9
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“Why does no one mind their own fucking business anymore?” I breathed through my nose. “What did he say?”627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNklymOzhk
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“That he needed to say something but I never let him finish. I really have no interested to hear what he has to say,” he said and I could see the frustration oozing out of his body. I inhaled and exhaled deeply. It was now or never. But he beat me to it. “Just tell me the truth,” he pleaded “Do you still have feelings for him?” he asked.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMCEdx2Ois
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“Why is it still about Alex?” I asked, my voice loud, as I shot up from the bed “It’s been two and half months since you left and I still don’t feel human! I’m like a damn zombie! I don’t allow myself to feel anything because the only thing I feel is pain,” I confessed. Tears run down my cheeks. “I might have cried over him for a few months but it’s been like this with you for years! So stop talking about him! It’s not about him!” I stopped my ranting in order to breath.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNww8UIe0n3
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“You’re not answering,” he mumbled.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKW27zCkle
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“Dear Lord! NO!” I said losing my patience “I don’t have feelings for him anymore. He’s just a friend.”627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgFH3TyEYo
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“You’re friends now?” he raised his eyebrows.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiFF5tdhE3
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“He was there when you weren’t,” I mumbled. I didn’t want to tell him about the hospital.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMXZ8fNJsh
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“Fair enough,” he breathed. I noticed he was already in the middle of another cigarette.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45Olk8clMS
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“You’re smoking too much,” I told him as the death stick was hanging on the side of his mouth. God, how much I love this man. A faint smile appeared on his lips before his expression turned serious again.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IuSb37riI
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“You said that it’s been like this with me for years…” he trailed “What do you mean?”627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgWKLWUmuz
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“You really have no idea?” I frowned. Clueless. That’s what he was.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthAQ09JG4P
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“You never actually told me what’s going on inside your head. I’m always guessing,” he told me. He had a point. I sighed.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhzRGa2IJu
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“It was always you,” I begun, my blood pumping through my veins as I was about to finally admit the truth to his face “I even remember the way I looked at you when I was in grade school. Or how happy I felt when you were holding me that summer at your summer house. I think it was the first time we went there,” I said and leaned against the tv table.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMZmFUhvJJ
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“You were three,” he whispered surprised. I turned to look at him.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1prg8DGnG
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“I guess,” I shrugged my shoulders. “Then you grew up and forgot all about me,” I said trying to mask the hurt in my voice “Once you went to Junior High, you stopped coming over or hang out at family dinners,” I smiled bitterly at the memories. I was having such a hard time to accept his absence even back then.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMRgGVxhbc
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“I even remember how I felt when I saw you kissing your girlfriend by the swimming pool. I think I was eleven then,” I winced. “I realized it was jealousy,” I chuckled embarrassed. “A year later, Cleo got her first boyfriend and I finally put a name to what I felt about you,” I smiled.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUM8u1LwqwT
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“Did she know?” Damien asked; his voice hoarse. I turned to look at him as I came out of the memories. He looked dazzled.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnf2Qn5NyT
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“No. No way. Neither did Max.” I shook my head “I forgot about you when you finally left for college next year. But I guess I never got over you,” I sighed. “It was always about you,” I breathed.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDJhQx8iFo
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“I thought I was imagining things,” he chuckled after a while. “You never said anything,” he said and looked at me. “Even now, I started this,” he frowned.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAzdSiP7j1
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“And If you didn’t, I would probably have stayed quiet,” I whispered.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSNze9aZCK
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“That’s what I don’t get!” he said sounding impatient “Why?!” he shook his head trying to understand.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypzTTbhHJc
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“Because I know who I am. And I know who you are. Plus I didn’t know how Cleo would take it.”627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOlwXRxBsi
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“Will you stop talking in riddles for once?” he looked at me and took a step forward and put out the cigarette.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaj67caSf60
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“I know that the only thing I managed to tell you so far is that I was afraid. I was afraid of opening up to you and talk to you because I knew that if you, out of all people, hurt me I wouldn’t be able to deal with it,” I said staring at the floor “I wish I was wrong,” I mumbled.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBbbW89rAS
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“What? What do you mean?”627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaR25HrDq7
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“I don’t want to talk about it,” I said. It was the wrong thing to say however.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCdTTQQilq
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“Oh, that’s a new one!” he scoffed “You never want to talk about it. You always talk with riddles. You never tell me what you’re thinking or how you feel! Even now, Erica, you speak about the past,” he said and I was looking towards him but not directly at him. “You never talk about the future! Or about now!” he said. He was all over the place.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74RT1xI93C
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“Talk about what?” I said frustrated and got up. “I know I’m not good enough for you! My head is mess. I’m scared to open up and I know I’m not worth your valuable time. You have a beautiful mind, you’re gorgeous, educated, you know how to talk and behave. I’m...I’m…whatever,” I winced and threw my hands in the air.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVITT2Xi4K
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Someone knocked on the door just as I realized that tears were running down my cheeks again. I wiped them off with my fingers and walked towards the door. Cleo was standing there.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHO2Lg2ktki
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“Baby, are you okay?” she asked and took a step forward.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oNvKZPAOn
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“Can you sleep in your brother’s room tonight?” Damien startled me as his voice came from behind me and opened the door wider so he could see his sister. Cleo looked at him and then back at me. I was looking at the floor and I looked at my friend only when I felt her eyes on me.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2UvvBRfWZ
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“Sure,” she nodded “Text me if you need anything,” she told me and left.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BYOd4F3mn
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I closed the door slowly and turned around. I didn’t know what to expect from him. I took two steps away from the door just as Damien walked up to me. He didn’t stop; he just put his palms on either side of my face and stared into my eyes. How much I adore those grey eyes.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnreluC84k
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“I love you,” he said. The world stopped. I couldn’t believe I heard those three little words coming out of his mouth. My heart flew, it felt alive again. “You’re more than enough,” he whispered. “Don’t ever dare to believe otherwise. Your head might be a little bit disturbed sometimes,” he smirked and made me chuckle “But it’s the best place to be,” he assured me.627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHztQ3MNgR
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