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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡut7sIAOfCr
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphRI4LGCDi
和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNJZYOEEGK
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvV7sdll2aB
日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbUbUgHLbF
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TFOjCwcq3
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeu1Od2rFzC
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0q5n9VlAM0
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXpk6TPmdi
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8drVrKyvn
面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1IEMZ7r9w
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytUvJWewHh
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5Zt01fXk1
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTzgybMO2E
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcW3Ob13zUZ
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5IzHEfe4L
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yIUTnz6UU
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7q2w0PUyV
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBSqRGtuBU
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2uaO4LswI
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMuJvT5u23
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83I0h2dlUQ
家宜沉默了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZmnf0AIur
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzcXBoonK8
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kKw8i5EjP
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hODs3thH5
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SMLqLfiKj
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4U6GOwJ1AK
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHJw4s00LK
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3ZrRC1JXy
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjliWC7WOaV
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZbcEat6Ir
有人說她成熟了，進步了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4ZqFqPUYZ
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZbnUSaKos
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XFNpvXdyk
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5ni2erTRD
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkqP82QTPG
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrBgpasZMEp
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpgYaRbB7v
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOuJlxT6bw
還是向現實低頭好了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSG4exCzQCs
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdNd7ZCfuQ
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJwsaiwHGh
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsh6PFo4rb
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSZ3eyKvDrM
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFAnWHA8KmM
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2VFq6GvBV
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgCCKcAuaCb
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBggQQBZLI9
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTaFG9ZYdc
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBy6hQYuXW7
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5zySvAlYk
家宜沒答話。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpz3CBOddc
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMo9TPtkUX
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNsbxGr0KA
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJM2b1JI03
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78LZV6N02P
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4XJfP19dq
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2W3DwjCSdv
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyaJXpqq7H
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzmRV9ZmLh
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDuZsxTxZcV
當初…889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KFihDFTCo
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyv4zwGmINZ
整個晚上，媽一言不發。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0sKoOuNPn
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGUiKtjSEx
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLg3NgGajU
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyIbfitkgU
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrvKiu42bl
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWZLSkfzzs
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kdnsgxxiT
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPM0DjpW6Z
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOTQa00YvA
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0jO9wmx7x
根本不是她的錯！889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzofS9M7jES
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4pCMlNPra
但道歉可保住一椿生意…889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOHB4FItZ3
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0X9PWTteC
卻扭曲了自己…889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iTv77uyGy
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3seHaEQP9
值得嗎？889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ril1Hzfc5
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTFikFhRxm
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwB1sfGwXU
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0Uzeink2J
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gxYlUWTZU
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpyf5m5YKF
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftzFBcL6fR
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2kiIRTnyh
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zlexrqxsp
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuXZjzgJGe
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPaPnuYhDl
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwO1Zqf3Ka6
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgHbxc7Y3L
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItdbiELxLQ
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLHgaea5lk
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKT8IEQQrA3
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyfrd4yQtJ
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWo47LuCl1
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHY8VcjU1hX
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcsdlfJOrm
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ936UqBcJr3
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wSGAKkg6t
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEwJ7Dg6Bx
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsU6UIPIR0L
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrekNoN2Cr
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGAUIaZvnj
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BZoTZcalu
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsbkdKqFK3
不管了，先遞信吧！889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqdSFrd6NX
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTRXY2JX5b
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZjnF4MBsA
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtU7HqFwedp
家宜呆了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhgIGEUaIi
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjfnjyp0Me
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ABC4wTFnh
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9mpPqUe3G
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJa16XqaMZ
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz175Dg3Il7
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBf9d7j15t
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1Kx2IlBFP
這是…放棄了嗎？889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmdcnBy9SK
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeAYVU62UN
家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTyUWOKoZQ
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlS97oiPqO6
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsMBlDxPbYs
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlJh5r4L8x
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQmrp39Ti8
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJdQaXM4Ft
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWBkj8Yr8q
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8guVlIyAUn
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7uIdbOyLY
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgVvr6IIoL
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheVngTzOA6
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJKoYFU2EX
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5QBveT0Xc
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcjFlmzSEC
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmSh2lS0vF
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8eTjbHuiI
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlLxmf5KP1
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTLoyeesPq
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAq7vXpKaMw
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1po4PNhFln
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTawkbeHzX0
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIF3p45801y
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlimoqq1MEx
889Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5ctGcd5Vp
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