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小屋裡、睡床邊，她架上老花眼鏡，小心翼翼用開信刀拆開今早收到的奇怪信件。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmn7ubszUuB
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純白的信封上沒有註明地址，亦沒有郵票、郵戳和收信人姓名。明顯不是透過郵政服務寄來的，而是有人將信件直接放入她的信箱。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdcSbQ9y3i
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是誰？有誰會寫信給她這個孤僻木訥的八旬老婦？該不會是兒子——他已好幾年沒有前來探望，電話聯絡亦少之又少……552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Vt2cmz1MJ
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「啊！」看見信中物，她不由得發出一聲驚嘆。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOWXSWbFeX
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壓花書籤。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QPN9ZIH5s
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紫藍色的小花在純白色托紙上尤顯孤獨冷清。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvSD9asBKS
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY19nqtKjBG
「毋忘我……」她雙唇微顫，熱淚盈眶，回憶片段有如走馬燈在她腦海中快速運轉。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXbdUFcVs3
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初遇於了無邊際的毋忘我花海……情信信箋一角上畫有一朵線條簡單的毋忘我……他突如其來捧上的毋忘我花束……她在婚宴時戴著的紫藍色毋忘我花形耳環……他在窗前花槽播下毋忘我種子……他因頑皮兒子摘掉花槽裡的毋忘我而氣得流鼻血……他拒絕遷往大屋是因為捨不得花槽裡的心血結晶……年邁的他偶爾忘記淋花施肥……患病的他忘了花、忘了她……她為失智的他戴上紫藍色冷帽，笑說他是一朵毋忘我……每年清明重陽或其他大時大節時，她都會帶上一束毋忘我前往拜祭他……552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt69zVnobEn
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難道是老伴的來信？552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgifI1EkJH
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是！一定是老伴自天堂寄來的！552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WrKdRXJ4B
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKWH5I8VLd
明明有很多合情合理的說法去解釋信件來歷，她偏偏選擇相信無從證明的鬼神之說。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXSHWKGxWp
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或許，真假從不重要，合乎心意的表象才是真正有意義的。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1CkEq436o
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPdptAWdyj
這來歷不明的壓花書籤正好滿足她對老伴的思念之情。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbiBUstXMI
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfH8dDvSYGd
她流淚，她微笑。她憂傷，她幸福。她空虛，她富足……552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJRGVHyUzm
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSSgbrDNcO
剎那間，她重新經歷體驗數十載的喜怒憂懼愛憎欲千萬遍，不斷發現、擁有、消磨、失去。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡomtI5tNBqi
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNz6LxnuQC
一切歸空，如夢如幻如泡影。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2PqE3Fn5i
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努力活著，只為失去？552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzWzsDsXxI
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放眼望去，小屋冷冷清清。兒子遠去，老伴不在。花槽裡的毋忘我早日被鄰近頑童連根拔起，散落滿地，肢離破碎。垂吊耳珠上的花形耳環已然褪色，只餘帶有花亂刮痕的啞色金屬配件。情信信箋受潮發霉，角落的毋忘我污跡斑駁……552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8nZGIDaF0
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6NjMOLbG1
無論如何用心留住一切，終歸逃不過失去的命運，對嗎？552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02cR5VspBp
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很累。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsZpcO69zE
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMskMFLpJ0
放下眼鏡，揉揉眼。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpf6INVa63C
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想睡。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGoapLQMQb
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放下開信刀時，刀尖劃過手腕，留下血痕。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPm7eZJeeym
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5D78iSwFx
有意或無意？她自己也說不清楚。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDdDZvlRz8
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該要馬上包紥傷口。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJUZwbJfAb
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但看著血流不止的手腕，心裡竟沒有絲毫焦急。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcNkMGf5hK
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5rcUzl1HN
沒所謂。反正終歸逃不過失去的命運。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIun5h6qSx
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82uFK6Grwp
她懶理手腕血流如注，安坐搖搖椅上，對著壓花書籤發愣。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfM3ls12Zia
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjvp72ArxE
時間流逝，體溫流失，記憶流竄。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqETr9QK4p
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAmSLycIpS
她的意識逐漸模糊——想不起他的墳頭是甚麼形狀，記不清楚他的冷帽是否以純低針編織而成，忘記了肥料是從哪裡買來的……552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3pDqkeJJU
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他的臉和身體分崩離析，成碎，成灰，成粉，最後甚麼也不剩。沒有形體，因其而生的神情動態亦不復存在，遑論聲音、氣味、情感……552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZEiy5WZbd
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被遺忘才是徹底的死亡。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLfoeFPEz8
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9eM7736rk
她曾痛恨上天帶走他的生命。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTgdJdRn4X
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現在呢？552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2NQDmnPaS
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她主動放棄記住他。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfjSGDz9fb
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上天或她更可惡可恨？552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhD5VcMfqKb
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIOa7t90jT
世上有靈魂嗎？他會怪責她嗎？552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNh2fNz7r8p
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVnvq7UNXU
「死者已死，沒能怪責。」他的聲音來自壓花書籤：「一切只是生者的心念。」552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrV9Avxydvj
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgkDfFjYQ4
迴光返照。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT291U5Nga6
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCuY8cU7Hw
她撲前將枱面的書籤摟在懷裡，哭哭笑笑。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESn5Oyrd2w
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5afShuF31
書籤是書籤，不是他。毋忘我是毋忘我，不是他。回憶裡的他是回憶裡的他，不是他。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wVYYpV6dr
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是她將一切與他扣上關連。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWe1tjWqtf
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHsK72SWxZ
如果她不復存在，整個世界跟他亦再沒關連……552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfQH9dpsSm
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CUuDygHbT
手腕倏忽劇痛。
醫院。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHuvmWWDPk
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8LBqqTpzo
病房裡擠滿前來探病的人，熱鬧非常。唯獨是她床邊兩條通道空蕩蕩的。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQ1tkdGEBR
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYJnNZJgDs
不曾期望兒子不會前來，但她心裡難免一陣失落。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ967Q40TaYT
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTXIVOQGq0
當時是否不該報警求救呢？552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmHIRwzTCp
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7nxgdY1Lf
這念頭生起還沒兩秒，一個小巧身影踏著小跳步來到床邊。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3CFLai89x
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「莊遜太太，午安！」女孩不過十歲，雙頰通紅，眼眸明亮有神。身穿白色連身裙，裙上印滿碎花圖案，是紫藍色的毋忘我。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfltvljzT1s
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「午……安……」她和顔悅色禮貌應道，暗裡搜索枯腸，卻硬是想不起這娃兒是誰。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCemJjHMME
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9YTroaTCk
「喜歡我送你的壓花書籤嗎？」女孩喜孜孜的，不知自己差點兒害死眼前老婦。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjA9UHqhxq
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9T7om9am5k
「喜歡。」她強抑心底裡的一陣震驚，輕撫女孩頭頂：「為何你送我書籤呢？」552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kneq9RHRV
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「數天前，我和祖母路經你家，看見你跪在草地上，捧著散落的毋忘我痛哭。所以我回家後馬上動手製作壓花書籤。送書籤時湊巧發現你不在家，只好把書籤放入信箱，讓你先睹為快！」女孩從裙袋掏出另外兩張毋忘我書籤送給她。「看！書籤上的毋忘我永不枯萎！多漂亮！」552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhFJzkwlWV
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這時，女孩的祖母才拖著蹣跚步伐趕至。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZj196VYbob
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原來是鄰居費爾斯太太。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEapu92KCOA
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十年前，老伴去世後，費爾斯太太每天抽空前來相伴，與她談天說地、為她焗製香氣四溢的果批、陪伴她到市場買肥料……直至孫女出生，費爾斯太太忙著照顧初生小娃，才不得不淡出她的生活圈子。漸漸地，她亦忘記費爾斯太太，變得孤僻木訥……552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacdq73USxO
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「小小心意。」憂心不已的費爾斯太太捧上一個毋忘我小盆栽。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblFzYuJzOm
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01o92hI7rw
「謝謝你們……」她受寵若驚，緩緩伸手接過小盆栽。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzyshnx8eZ
552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xAKXXQeuV
右手手掌上是鮮活的毋忘我，左手手心裡是永不枯萎的毋忘我。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBoeDkn8T9
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活的死的都在她手裡，只待她怎麼處理。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORYDSqvhcc
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她打算怎麼處理？552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogH6rmZnUS
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未決定。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxHGVBi2GJ
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那就先收拾心情、養好身體吧。552Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMdbO7rwXN
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活著，才可以想及將來、擁抱過去。
