「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,293Please respect copyright.PENANAJE1AljXDuy
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,293Please respect copyright.PENANACo1eMlPzxd
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,293Please respect copyright.PENANAGJOrPY7XzN
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幼小我的父母就離異,293Please respect copyright.PENANAxe9OKvjXvQ
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,293Please respect copyright.PENANA6xk6bs50Km
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對母親的記憶還是有,293Please respect copyright.PENANASuVAq0Fh5q
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記得她很常酗酒,293Please respect copyright.PENANA5EilHI19gS
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後來的日子,293Please respect copyright.PENANAb7SK69TCow
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,293Please respect copyright.PENANAlXbwIZxanK
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忙於工作的他,293Please respect copyright.PENANApHBTOdUmx4
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,293Please respect copyright.PENANAptSykVypbU
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到了上課時間再直接上課,293Please respect copyright.PENANAtwTLTUPHEL
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,293Please respect copyright.PENANAFsIewS0nVa
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,293Please respect copyright.PENANAACEVCwLr41
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,293Please respect copyright.PENANAjxpiVmAztt
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,293Please respect copyright.PENANAA4EaBxCx5f
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,293Please respect copyright.PENANACBoBAcqKOD
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父親工作的地方不一定,293Please respect copyright.PENANAZSyiYPhabI
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輾轉的換了三所小學,293Please respect copyright.PENANA7jspVS0t0a
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,293Please respect copyright.PENANAd1k1Hp9Vug
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他開始會喜怒無常,293Please respect copyright.PENANAhAF6jZUHg0
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,293Please respect copyright.PENANAZfek2KcXDx
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,293Please respect copyright.PENANAliIF1wqenu
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很小我就與異性交往,293Please respect copyright.PENANAJWTloKVPV5
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,293Please respect copyright.PENANA571FJiI7Fg
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,293Please respect copyright.PENANA1Z7i5gekAW
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,293Please respect copyright.PENANAGdWbN1NnIy
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我會睡在工地,293Please respect copyright.PENANAECPuwKPxm0
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,293Please respect copyright.PENANAv4nsEm61Iu
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,293Please respect copyright.PENANAL8qnEzGfLw
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,293Please respect copyright.PENANAkeSlfBkXto
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他開始會講貶低的話語,293Please respect copyright.PENANAdmatih6fQg
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那些原本用來工作的用具,293Please respect copyright.PENANAPASmpevodr
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,293Please respect copyright.PENANAdGJvl4SU5D
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」293Please respect copyright.PENANAya7CoViQVW
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,293Please respect copyright.PENANAXTDuuYza7S
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,293Please respect copyright.PENANAUkF4GjbOlf
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要我轉告給老師,293Please respect copyright.PENANA42loj447dT
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」293Please respect copyright.PENANAruBTRAQpf6
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,293Please respect copyright.PENANAzkHWIc8kfn
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,293Please respect copyright.PENANAimkRlpjX37
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,293Please respect copyright.PENANATmliPkIt1h
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細細去回想每個片段,293Please respect copyright.PENANAikZt3LRzlk
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,293Please respect copyright.PENANARiP9WQkZUj
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,293Please respect copyright.PENANA2uxzr3pYFr
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,293Please respect copyright.PENANAjwUSqXl4ID
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」293Please respect copyright.PENANAey3HBWEZ3U
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,293Please respect copyright.PENANAoEDSHOiq6q
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,293Please respect copyright.PENANAIOU0iNZjLl
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,293Please respect copyright.PENANAUF8hCRFpyO
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,293Please respect copyright.PENANARV54JvsI2E
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,293Please respect copyright.PENANAWJZPOzCNRA
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,293Please respect copyright.PENANAYkpO4MXACj
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」293Please respect copyright.PENANATZtS7fHB6C
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正準備吃下第一口時,293Please respect copyright.PENANANd7DrRrLOa
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,293Please respect copyright.PENANAyyQG3O9Hid
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。293Please respect copyright.PENANArzIctlQeG4