#1 Entry: Why I Started This.739Please respect copyright.PENANASCykgoXCsQ
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.739Please respect copyright.PENANADA7AacB2S1
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 739Please respect copyright.PENANAjefviQqBYW
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.739Please respect copyright.PENANANfKuyL9wCW
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 739Please respect copyright.PENANAlh12AvSokI
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 739Please respect copyright.PENANAnqjGFdXbU5
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 739Please respect copyright.PENANATtvA0v8RCP
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 739Please respect copyright.PENANABFJMH2QUQG
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 739Please respect copyright.PENANAK4LCuZRwkO
...739Please respect copyright.PENANAGvx29CK4Qt
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?739Please respect copyright.PENANAQqlOepMbgl
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.739Please respect copyright.PENANAkKAkRrdo48
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)739Please respect copyright.PENANAO9rwXjVVx3
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 739Please respect copyright.PENANAhaRp28KVs3
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 739Please respect copyright.PENANAh9HJPPLGXa
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?739Please respect copyright.PENANAsfZQd4Oy0m
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 739Please respect copyright.PENANAy2PMX8HLnK
So calling it off, was it that bad?739Please respect copyright.PENANAszlsAYBdcd
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 739Please respect copyright.PENANA5pR89qtJfV
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)739Please respect copyright.PENANAVz3VzXd2P8
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 739Please respect copyright.PENANAeDZcdEZQAo
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 739Please respect copyright.PENANAuNwd3yAioO
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 739Please respect copyright.PENANAnOiOxuN9U7
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 739Please respect copyright.PENANARCzvVfHSsR
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 739Please respect copyright.PENANA5kHCXmCn4c
Henceforth, we have this. 739Please respect copyright.PENANA1FcrbkSnn1
Thanks for bearing with me. 739Please respect copyright.PENANACI1OXeD4Br
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