接下來,我沒有再找Joe,也強逼自己不打開WhatsApp。我偶爾會告訴自己,他身邊實在太多女生、太多朋友,他常常回覆著手機。我只是一個過客,這樣想好像好過一點。Joe沒有再找我,可能真的是這個原因。只有這樣,我們才能繼續當很好很好的朋友。172Please respect copyright.PENANAILoEDv6tRE
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探訪前的星期六,Joe在群組裡問:「聽日大家會唔會出現?」172Please respect copyright.PENANAHH1TwHd1p6
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「聽日見。」我回覆。172Please respect copyright.PENANAf5J6Qa4f0u
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這是我沒有私訊Joe以後第一次回覆他,可是,那種期待的感覺,好像已經遠去不少,至少我不會等待他回覆我。172Please respect copyright.PENANAVucrBNGVny
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早上起床,一如過去的日子一樣換個衣服,那個袋子就出門。上了巴士,巴士也跟以前一樣沒什麼人,車窗的人和物迅速掠過,或許我跟Joe的那段記憶,也該好好忘記,就把那些我們倆獨處的時光當作回憶。172Please respect copyright.PENANAFEI00wn6KZ
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踏進社區中心,Cindy又是在接待處那邊準備探訪要用的物資,跟陳姑娘一起。172Please respect copyright.PENANAVQ37EENjez
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「早晨啊,Emily。」Cindy一如既往的溫柔。172Please respect copyright.PENANAOjjcedPw9z
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「早晨啊,Cindy。」我也是一如既往的回覆她。172Please respect copyright.PENANATc6583tnpR
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我坐在活動室裡面,等待其他人的到來,陽光還是依舊從窗子斜斜的射進活動室,從地上我看到自己的影子,一個孤獨的影子,瞬間突然有兩個長長的影子出現。我抬頭看,是Kenneth和Joe。172Please respect copyright.PENANA87bYp9lq6f
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「早晨,Kenneth, Joe。」我說。172Please respect copyright.PENANA34p7D38fBx
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「早晨啊,Emily。」他們同聲說。172Please respect copyright.PENANAhEGaJuZwA2
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今天我們四個人分開了四組,可能是陳姑娘覺得我們已經有點經驗吧,可以帶著新來的朋友探訪,所以把我們四人打散。172Please respect copyright.PENANA1gawBTB2Ku
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好不容易探訪終於完結,今天又是我們四個人留下來吃飯。172Please respect copyright.PENANAOmZba2Xyse
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我們四個人已經有默契的幫Cindy一齊收拾好所有東西,然後一齊去茶餐廳。172Please respect copyright.PENANANAUBMM0EEw
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「我想食咖喱雞球飯。」Joe看著餐牌說。172Please respect copyright.PENANAbl0llKPEoU
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「我都係。定係魚塊好呢?」Kenneth問道。172Please respect copyright.PENANAXn2YzTys6x
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「你魚塊啦。」Joe笑著說。172Please respect copyright.PENANA0KPocNnqvl
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「又想交換啊你,都估到你啦。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAUBRiDKCZV2
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「又比你知添。」172Please respect copyright.PENANADH547U36ku
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「點會唔知啊,咁耐兄弟。」Kenneth用肩膀輕輕撞了他一下。172Please respect copyright.PENANAfDuGi5msxk
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「我都知啦。」Cindy說。172Please respect copyright.PENANAi9QPnzg4xp
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今天,我們坐在我們四人第一次吃飯的那張卡位,看著牆壁上還貼著充滿油跡的餐牌,看著那大門,想起Cindy拿著蛋糕跟他們慶祝,想起我們在這裡慶祝Joe和Kenneth生日,想起好幾次我們在這裡說說笑笑,開著對方的玩笑,尷尬的報Status。172Please respect copyright.PENANArCZL6nvUvP
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看著大家開開心心聊著天的樣子,我知道,把那個秘密收起是最正確的決定。172Please respect copyright.PENANAn6eJphfRHP
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「喂,飯到喇,食飯啦。」Cindy對我說。172Please respect copyright.PENANAvdGSKNtAFF
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「哦。」我說。172Please respect copyright.PENANASN2uIaJVG4
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「諗咩諗到入曬神仲笑笑口?」Joe問。172Please respect copyright.PENANATtjfCSpPTG
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「冇野啊。」我假裝沒事。172Please respect copyright.PENANA9ePxF3UOjE
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「係咪見到對面Kenneth咁靚仔啊?」Joe開玩笑說。172Please respect copyright.PENANAPRYSOfGo9c
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「食飯啦。」我說。172Please respect copyright.PENANAiVQEYtDdsC
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說說笑笑就這樣吃飯的時間過了。送別Kenneth以後,就只剩下我跟Joe二人。他一句話都沒有說。回想這一天,他沒有提起WhatsApp,他沒有提起我們自己的約會。我想,這冬末春初發生的事只是我自作多情吧,忽然之間覺得自己有點可笑。172Please respect copyright.PENANA7bXcqb5IxH
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走到巴士站,跟Joe說再見以前,我還是想給他答案。172Please respect copyright.PENANAuphM9xNpzN
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「果日你咪問我,如果我係你,對住成班食煙嘅朋友,我會點做?」我說。172Please respect copyright.PENANAxTv8iniPpL
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「唔。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAYjhsVVjEtk
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「我會走,我會離開果個地方,因為我唔介意成為異類。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAZn4cRkXGVf
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「我都估到你會咁答,你同Kenneth真係好似。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAZlpnjXoeel
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「哦,下次做義工見啦。」172Please respect copyright.PENANA82Ic0XbWdm
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「Bye。」172Please respect copyright.PENANAQeSGFoZdRv
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看著Joe的背影,我想起他曾經說過,抽煙的人總有自己的原因。172Please respect copyright.PENANAy9ynrpovzL
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渾身煙味但不愛抽煙的他,都有自己的原因,;就如愛做義工但不是為了幫人的我,都必然有自己的原因。172Please respect copyright.PENANA8yqAnffX6e
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只要我們四個仍然隔個星期做義工時候見面、閒聊,原因真的重要嗎?172Please respect copyright.PENANA2fzmc7XuN6